Weird

That’s why it’s so funny. The alternate position is people who have to prove they are better at things that don’t matter highly volatile in ways that they don’t even know themselves this guy thinks it’s traumatic being a porn star and highly se*ually active to people they thought they could teach me some thing about an industry baby grew into and I was raised in it, it was funny that they thought they could make me sad with these things or mad but I was getting mad at the fact they thought they could make me mad like you’re stupid for thinking this bothers me. Let me tell you why with an extremely long speech and information that will terrify you long-term. Super gonzo perfect gonzo fuc*ed up. I literally became anonymous so I could have a porn star wife, because the only reason you become a porn star is because of psychological reasons and safety like always being on camera but for reasons other than obvious yeah you have to have someone with you in a room with a girl on camera because of how much of a danger you are in general, I’m trying to get elevated permissions. I don’t need somebody to force this type of reality so they can peacock and have s*x with somebody in the same room like some fuc*ing creeper. I’m smart enough to see that somebody forced an opportunity to have, and engage with a familiar situation with someone you just force yourself into a situation with someone, but I was actually smart enough to expose this fuc*ing sh*t. You need them to believe that they are unsafe and you need to be in the room to have s*x with this person because you’ve triggered and harassesd them so much you found ways of getting under their skin and making someone else believe they are unsafe and aggressive. I never needed supervision when I was a Kid How come I need it now and I was more conscious as a kid I was more awake back then I actually had porn stars, babysitters back then and supervisors back then I dislike this person so much because of how stupid they think people are, this is how you easily have s*x with everyone you just set everyone up into being the supervisor in the room gets to watch or have s*x with the people having s*x like a weird third wheel and you can claim someone’s immature because they don’t want to provide the safety precaution being suggested by the fuc*ing creeper

It’s the role that you assume from being in the room and having the opportunity to cast your opinion people start to look at you as somebody who knows something, but when you speak from a place of personal experience, you can only go so far luckily for me, all I’ve ever done is spent time in group, therapy and online forums reading about other peoples experiences to colour my perspective on others and situations. I can look through my glasses of a trauma up bringing, and I can receive the idea of a loving family, but I’m more accustomed to sorting out and finding the problem in situations and with people. Pinpoint accuracy every time without a doubt all of the time I spent learning about spirituality the occult paranormal clubs, Cults & secret organizations. The amount of classified documentation I’ve read that I got to witness become redacted and blacked out makes me feel illegal. There isn’t very many things. I can do other than transfer information, provide information and insight as well as opinion that is where the most I bring to the table is the information I have on restricted Internet access isn’t as impressive as unlimited clearance deep level clearance because psychology is so dangerous your own human brain won’t like the subconscious truth it’s withholding from yourself. Someone could tell you something about yourself that you know it’s true and you would still be offended and angry, because they told you and were able to see it because most of the people try to hide it.

I outed somebody and it wasn’t even on purpose. It was due to the fact it was being motivated by someone who enjoys destroying others. That’s all it was you take pride in being able to have people do bad things to themselves, are taking pride and things like that means you’re afraid of them and use them to  differentiate yourself everybody is capable. The people who are least capable break the most the most capable people are the most ashamed and refrain the most.

I guess he wanted to be a part of the family so bad you can be the ATM since you knew all of these things ahead of time for me, saying them out loud they won’t let me do anything bad you’ll just have to be around no words or action you’ll only be able to provide financial support

Because when I was a kid, I fell in love with Christie Mac and I told myself as well as people on the Internet. I would become the type of person that they would love Street certified government validated. Twice fried double steeped after learning how to make it out of hell do you go back to take someone out with you? It’s only fair.

Why do you need me to know that I’m being challenged do you know that life is the only challenge you need and anybody else trying to show you or compete with you in life is suffering from their own problems immensely I don’t even project my problems on to other people they project them on to meet. You need to show me that you’re fast right because I can go so far without a car right like these things matter you need me to know I’m not fast enough so that I won’t try to go fast or the alternative, which is a harbour that intent and do it privately you cause most of the problems you try to stop from happening because of how badly you try to get your point across and you keep telling people to slow down so much they end up just secretly racing. That’s fuc*ed up you’re harassing people into doing things secretly instead of allowing them to be fast when it’s required, or just for fun you always leave me to be slow that’s so fuc*ed up because if I think I’m too fast all the time that’s a problem I really hate competing. I don’t know how to express this and I have to deal with the fact there’s a piece of sh*t I don’t know who it is. I can’t call them a piece of sh*t something competing with me like a security guard who had to hop in his little golf cart. Just a cut me off to make me think some stupid fuc*ing sh*t f*ck this goof always trying to challenge and compete with me without actually acknowledging and initiating a competition piece of sh*t Trying to compete with people when it’s not a contest so you can claim a cheap victory. Fu*k out of here. Oh he didn’t go home so you can go to my home without knowing right cheaper victory low hanging fruit people like you are the ones who think they are winning from sleeping and having to pay for s*x and then being interviewed so that people can make you hypnotized above the reality they will remove you from my net work if I upload more information than you’re supposed to have it’s fine if this goes to my wife, but this is how I can make sure and 51% attack you as well. You are not supposed to have this level of information unless you are a specific person in which case they become someone else’s job to maintain the information and make sure it’s not being used illegitimately.

Because on the off chance, I can be sorry forever for speaking to somebody in a certain way. My reason is I didn’t know it was you I can honestly say I’m sorry on the off chance it’s the polar opposite your time is thinning. It could be a bad person, pretending to be someone who I gave permission, that’s only for her brain. It’s not gonna blow her up. It’ll just blow you up spiritually speaking it’s intended for someone and when someone who isn’t intended takes it that is how curses are created. It’s like you hexxed yourself.

I have to get an upside down sight behind my ear that goes under my jaw, so it looks like I reap my own head

I’m so excited not to be a liar or a fraud just incredibly fake and glitchy in the reality of the matrix. Most people are supposed to have this many options available to them.

Because none of the excuses someone who thinks they are a man is using are even good enough to be what they are
The only reason is that you don’t want someone to be subjected to a lower quality of life and that’s reasonable but that’s the only excuse you have environmentally, speaking, and financially speaking, I’m not capable of being able to provide as much as I should be able to because I want to have time I can’t provide beyond a certain level of financial stability not to mention my housing isn’t as stable as I’d like it to be but these are the type of problems I would rather have as opposed to characteristic and personality, trait, flaws I spent too much time teaching virtues, listening in group, therapy to peoples problems and how they solve them while assisting people as a life coach and mentor  All I did is spend time listening to how problems are solved, and how to solve them to make sure I will never have a problem capable of hindering my success the fact that the situation I am in is what it is, is only due to the fact of outside influences  Making it this way they had to use so much force and intimidation to make things happen a certain way to try to get a certain scenario and experience to be forced so that somebody can see my true character and nature, and all it did is highlight other peoples bad nature’s and characteristics more.

I was always this mature, and it’s so sad that the girl I lost my virginity to wanted to pimp me out and all I wanted was to experience being in a relationship instead of immediately having a kid different places in our experience in the life I am still at the same place. I just want to be in a relationship before I have a kid and I don’t want to skip those steps, I haven’t even held hands with a girl for a prolonged period of time. That kind of seems really lame to me.

That’s why it’s been so easy for me to catch them in every turn all of the problems I’ve been given have been to discern who I am, and what I am, and I’ve been getting upset at the fact they didn’t match the frequency. I’ve reached in regards to the knowledge obtained from situations and experiences of the problems that match my frequency, and that caused interesting reactions. Self reflection is incredibly important doing this is how I maintain sharpness. I acknowledge and cut everything to make sure there isn’t anything I can’t cut, because nothing in my mind is safe from being dissected. Don’t drown out the thoughts I kick them out and chop them up, so there’s nothing left to think about  Spent too much time. I can’t wait for time to be spent on me.