CBT doesnt teach communication

Communication
If I always knew what to say. I wouldn’t be having this problem.
Weird how they’re having the same problem I recognized a lot earlier here. I don’t know how to talk to anybody and when I do it’s from a place of not giving a fuck caring about them so please tell me how anything you’re doing is supposed to benefit me I’m interested Are you think having to deal with professionals is a type of communication when everything they do is limited and not personal at all which is why they can’t upset me because I don’t know how to take things personal and it’s actually so bad that I needed to go to the if he told her how to do it or else all of this is just a big waste of time Combined with a mood disorder. It’s like I have to pretend to give a fuck for them to know I even noticed. Because if I didn’t verbally acknowledge, they would assume some bullshit acknowledging it makes them think they have an open or way into communicate to me so then I gotta keep repeating the same cycle of informing idiots.

What do you mean you’ve never had an interaction with someone who felt good about you have I always been confused about how people feel about me just as I’ve been confused about how I feel about things in general because of a mood disorder nerve damage and psychological trauma, no way

That means this person knew about my social reputation and thought of putting me in therapy without knowing what caused problems to come out, and the only problem I could find was people making decisions that impacted my life for some reason

So I can write a paper about how they use this medical therapy is everything but therapy basically to waste someone’s time even when they know better

Who cares since the parole officer doesnt do his job to help people but help himself and position himself in between people to profit personally

The fact i have all the paperwork from multiple hospital telling me i have social issues is something that has nothing to do with cognitive Behavioural therapy since. primarily due to the part that I’m capable of identifying the exact cognitive behavioural trait, that could be a question based off of the position you stand in perceiving the issue or situation in question. After I requested for this same therapy as second time, they did not provide any paperwork and I didn’t need to sign anything and that’s a little suspicious because of how badly I don’t need this therapy because it’s basically the same as acting like a retail supervisor towards everyone five minute friend being charismatic, polite Having banners I’ve already did it and I’ve showed that I was able to multitask while doing that to become employee of the week. The problem they keep refusing to acknowledge is communication and situation and that’s a conversation they’ll keep avoiding to continue this useless therapy.

Not knowing what to say, but always know, knowing how to act means the worst for whoever suggested this.

My favourite incident in Oakville is the one where I stood there being recorded and never said a word because I didn’t know what to say because how are you supposed to acknowledge that type of situation, considering the age and under developed prefrontal bullshit

Painfully obvious yet?
Never speak to anyone with personality staying dead in my speech and communication forever monotone ill be lucky to get loud in enjoyment
Mans are excited about broken hearts but cant comprehend the reality of the fact this is being created into a bigger problem because given the benefit of the doubt if they were actually trying to help CBT made it worse knowing they used it as a cover makes it look worse more knowing i applied twice so i could research everything from within the “therapy” thats given to people without them knowing or having any paperwork to authorize it.

The fact i completed Google Research Certificates revolving around the same subject matter and they KNEW but had to continue the charade i think its funny its going to be hilarious finding someone willing to speak on this against me on the record for documentation thats what im excited for.

I already assumed she/they moved on and is doing the life experience 100%

It’s none of my business. What is my business is the fact this hasn’t benefited me yet continues to plague me as if theres a lesson i missed of failed LMFAOOO since just like last time its keeping me from being able to move on so that means someone used it to keep me in a perpetual state of Cognative behaviour therapy. Only problem with that is not everyone is “in on it” so the ones with the scheme never expected me to amount to anything because i smoke weed and they observed un-actualized people self medicating with cannabis and no training falling for everything every cognative behaviour trope you can think of me on the other had I was humouring them the first time around and the contributed it towards my diagnosis the second time around is me clowning everyone on an obviously bad job knowing its being made worse since i can only be professional my self harm has levity in the situation due to a mood disorder that makes this therapy basically useless. Fundamentally useless, unequivocally useless logically useless. Having cognitive behaviour is what learned folks call etiquette and i have too much actually so much it’s embarrassing when you see the contract in places they expect me to learn something from. It’s like asking to see my best mask LMFAO its not me since never learned how to talk like that its shallow empty responses to get past the situation bare minimum attention and response output basic manners and common sense isnt that common but the weirdos who thought this was a challenge make me feel guilty for how easy i make it look

Gaslighting only works on heterosexuals 🤷🏿‍♂️ im non-binary i cant express how stupid everything is but best i can do is talk about suicide since energetic commonality.

Cant give me less help but they can make whatever help im supposed to get delay and stall me which makes me use my free time towards planning to be on the news since everything will come to light and be addressed. My favourite question to hear reporters ask “ what led to this happening” 🤣🤣

Do i need weed or to smoke ? Or do i just need to never interact with idiots. Wouldnt need to smoke away my headache so frequently always tolerated people but they have to be extra annoying and that creates a reality of dissonance a situation that would never had existed if not for people a lot more stupid than me. Like going in for a car oil change and being forced to learn why people have skidoo accidents + History meanwhile you’ll never own or rent a skidoo just time that could of been spent doing better things

This counts as better things since they cant gvie me therapy as good as what ive been taught the least they could of done is put me in a room to talk and ask questions about peoples lives and even that was too much for them so im expecting nothing while hoping they accidentally kill me since statistically speaking if this situation is setting the tone that statistic isnt too far away

Try
Ask

LMFAOOOO fuc*ing Idiots man I want bad stuff to happen more than meeting me and i know how bad it is to have that experience
Im allowed to have expectation ive finished meditation and i can cut and burn my flesh with no emotion boooooooreeeeeed so what im enlightened ANd >? So what ? Teach me how to give a fuck about someone’s day ? Teach me how to ask a question that gets to know them as opposed to fulfilling my desire to just “know” stuff about random things Ouuuuuuuu seems like you just as shallow in this department which is why they can only teach what they know useless sh*t i dont need. Now I get to teach you how to behave as i use P***** abilities to dissect reality
Stay working towards it everyday ill take a break for a year and start back up again so they lose interest and get used to the way things are now just to have audits and random probes into the reality of it #Goals I need them to think i lost interest or forgot maybe around my birthday or April ill be too busy thinking about medical review right


No such thing as random read a fucking math book
Ohhh yeah north face i forgot being dead inside and emotionless is a goal for them they like when people act like that in response to them… i wish i wasnt dealing with people so stupid
My problem is im too cold and i have to embellish excitement and emotion or else id get stuck looking like a bitch with resting bitch face and ive already lived over 20 years of my life like that not letting anyone take the enjoyment out of my life at the cost of self harm still better than acting lifeless and dead inside bored of being like that so i spend time being creative with how i get to display frustrating emotions
To easy already numb in the head and body if i keep it up ill be numb in the soul too been there Done that thank god for dreams is all im saying some nightmares put the soul into you 🤣😂
If some goof is purposely going to be extending and delaying things Ofc im shift focus and prioritize them into my plan claim to help and all they do is antagonize and taunt while complaining about how things are on the flip side

Meanwhile i can see both sides and they have no excuse plotting your own kind hoping they succumb to the worst of it im here for it since i laugh the most looking at people so mad and angry they give themselves cancer and disease from pure mind set
Ohhhhh fear of over reaction duhhh thats why i said what i said because of how pissed i knew id be thats what you get while you see me being dead inside


Broad cant even remember what working with me was like so i already lost the person i thought i knew when i assumed a place in their life and they called me to fake being in a relationship with me taking the lead and leading me into an experience full of gaslighters expecting an explosion so when nothing ever blew up and the bomb popped on your end is that ironic or karma 🤣 its funny for me because im over here still in love not expecting anything from anyone being in love enjoying my own suffering