i fee llike a hikikomori, i dont go outside and i dont have any real friends i feel. even if they are there i fantasize theyll ruin my life. i only have music on my side and nothing more,  ,,, i madee this shitty idea as promotion for my first album and its not even gonna get any attention i feel dumb asf, idek if i can finish this album on time, i have so much shit to do but im alone, extroverted on the outside but nothing but a pit in the inside, i wanna do so much, i know i can, but for now i need to wait. i fucking hate smoking, i can only smell tar around me its fucking disgusting.