An Explanation

An Explanation... by cdgexe | Chad

Normally, I wouldn't make a post like this, but I feel an overall explanation is owed to those who follow me, check up on me, and also those who have commissioned from me in the past, or are awaiting something currently commission. As of late, I've been struggling with my own battles concerning my depression and anxiety/stress management. A lot of this has affected my work ethic, and I owe a lot of people the deepest of my apologies for how long some of my recent work has taken. Without going into the most personal detail about my medical ailments/experiences, I've left a resource below that details some of what I've experienced (primarily, seizures/unresponsiveness)

https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/conversion-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20355197

As a result of the decline in my anxiety/stress management abilities, my body has fallen into a rut of unhealthy patterns.
- Ongoing/persistent issues with sleep/insomnia.
- Issues with digestion/eating food (chronic inflammation).
- Problems with motivation/being/staying active.

Needless to say, these issues produce more issues of their own. As of late, I've been averaging 2-3 hours of rest a night, am strictly on a soups/water diet, and really haven't had the most energy to keep myself active, but I've been doing what I can to ensure that everything is getting taken care of in as timely a fashion as possible. As for why I've continued to create adapters/input displays, not having continued to take my break.. I do feel as if there is a lot of weight to provide a quality service, at least right now. With the release of Ultimate, the increase in interest of input displays/adapters of various use within the speedrunning community, and the desire to have them in the more-casual Youtube-world, I've never had more to do for everyone, and I'm grateful that I'm able to provide the service that I have been able to for ~2 years now. I, admittedly, am sick. I am considered disabled, and I do consider this input display/adapter production service as a side-job. I'll be honest, without a lot of the financial support that has come from producing these adapters, there's a lot that I wouldn't have been able to take care of in my life, and a lot of people that I wouldn't have been able to help, so I thank everyone for continuing to support me and what I've done. Hopefully, going into 2019, there will be some great opportunities available for everyone. Personally, I'm hoping to work with some events/charities, and streamers/Esports soon to provide a more solid foundation to build more of this off of, but enough of that though - - this is about my explanation to you all and where we're all at right now. So, below is some information regarding current commissions :

In terms of commissions, I would like to post the current stats that are available for them:
- Out of the 14 current United States/Domestic commissions I have, 13 of them are packaged/ready to ship.
- Out of the 8 current International commissions that I have, 6 of them are packaged/ready to ship.
- ALL domestic/US commissions/packages that I have will be sent out today/tomorrow.
- ALL international commissions that I have will be sent out by January 3rd.


I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still here, still kickin' it, it's just it's harder on some days than it is others.
I've always taken a great pride in the work that I've done, and I hope that everyone is understanding of my circumstances.
I'm going to continue to be here and be around, but an explanation was overdue for why I haven't been as active, and why I haven't been responding to as many questions lately.

Well, I guess that's a lot of what I've got to say.

I can't wait to see a lot of you at AGDQ; it's surely going to be a time for me to reset the run IRL and get back into all this afterwards. <3