Logica, Human Romance, Rejection (Dealing 2/3)

(3:12:48 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Um.
(3:12:50 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Ross.
(3:12:53 PM) integratedInfiltrator: She n-...
(3:13:03 PM) integratedInfiltrator: /I/ need to ask you something.
(3:13:39 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Mmn?
(3:13:52 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Good to see you, Logs. What's up?
(3:14:04 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Um.
(3:14:21 PM) integratedInfiltrator: There was a piece of literature that was uploaded to the memo.
(3:14:24 PM) integratedInfiltrator: And I.
(3:14:27 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Read it.
(3:14:32 PM) integratedInfiltrator: And it was...
(3:15:05 PM) integratedInfiltrator: I don't know anything about how human romance works and no one would answer me soithoughtimightaskyouthisisawkward
(3:18:46 PM) integratedInfiltrator: so
(3:18:47 PM) integratedInfiltrator: uhh
(3:18:51 PM) integratedInfiltrator: this is
(3:18:52 PM) integratedInfiltrator: she
(3:18:55 PM) integratedInfiltrator: I
(3:18:57 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Oh, Ghost. You don't want to ask me about this, I'm terrible at it.
(3:19:05 PM) integratedInfiltrator: think I'm going to go now
(3:19:17 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ...
(3:19:21 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(3:19:23 PM) integratedInfiltrator: sorry for asking
(3:19:25 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Then again.
(3:19:33 PM) ventricularPipefitter: If it was anything like the /last time/
(3:19:46 PM) ventricularPipefitter: maybe I should set your head on straight.
(3:20:05 PM) integratedInfiltrator: i
(3:20:06 PM) integratedInfiltrator: okay
(3:20:56 PM) ventricularPipefitter: There weren't any bees involved, right?
(3:21:16 PM) integratedInfiltrator: No, it... It wasn't about the reproduction.
(3:21:19 PM) integratedInfiltrator: It was...
(3:21:21 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Um.
(3:21:25 PM) integratedInfiltrator: There was kissing and.
(3:22:52 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Trolls kiss, don't they?
(3:22:57 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Pretty sure of that.
(3:23:45 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Um. Well. Yes.
(3:23:48 PM) integratedInfiltrator: But they don't...
(3:23:54 PM) integratedInfiltrator: They don't mix quadrants.
(3:24:27 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Humans don't have quadrants.
(3:24:36 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ...
(3:24:43 PM) ventricularPipefitter: normally
(3:24:44 PM) integratedInfiltrator: That's.
(3:24:45 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Well.
(3:24:47 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Uh.
(3:24:50 PM) ventricularPipefitter: until recently
(3:24:56 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Kind of what I wanted to ask about.
(3:25:00 PM) ventricularPipefitter: until they start shacking up with trolls, apparently
(3:26:45 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Because.
(3:26:47 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Uhh.
(3:26:54 PM) integratedInfiltrator: Trolls don't.
(3:26:56 PM) integratedInfiltrator: And that was.
(3:27:00 PM) integratedInfiltrator: I don't understand.
(3:30:02 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ...If it looked a little like <3 and a little like <>, it was human.
(3:30:11 PM) integratedInfiltrator: It
(3:30:17 PM) integratedInfiltrator: It looked a lot like <>
(3:30:26 PM) integratedInfiltrator: And then it looked like a very innappropriate <>
(3:30:33 PM) integratedInfiltrator: And then it was definitely <3
(3:32:22 PM) integratedInfiltrator: doesit
(3:32:23 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(3:32:32 PM) integratedInfiltrator: doesitusuallygofast?
(3:32:36 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ...someone wrote smutty fanfiction about two people sharing their feelings and being in love and then having drunken sloppy makeouts
(3:33:46 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ((Wwwwoooowww this is the last thing Ross wants to talk about right now.))
(3:34:15 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(3:34:37 PM) integratedInfiltrator: therewerenosubstancesinvolved
(3:34:38 PM) integratedInfiltrator: well
(3:34:44 PM) integratedInfiltrator: unlesspaintisanaphrodesiac
(3:35:52 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Nnno. Uh.
(3:36:13 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Stories always go fast. The author wants to get to the good stuff.
(3:36:41 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Chemistry...sometimes it's a thing.
(3:38:04 PM) ventricularPipefitter: You've known someone a while and there was something about them and you didn't know what and it /pissed you off/ not knowing why they made you act or feel that way.
(3:38:46 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Funny in the pit of your stomach. Warm and agitated.
(3:39:21 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And if you've been sitting on that a while ignoring or denying it and then it turns out the other person feels the same way.
(3:45:44 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And then if you both feel the same way, you're off like a rocket. A distracting, heady, infuriating, electric sort of thing that you have no idea what to do with.
(3:45:57 PM) integratedInfiltrator: oh
(3:45:58 PM) integratedInfiltrator: oh
(3:46:00 PM) integratedInfiltrator: that
(3:46:03 PM) integratedInfiltrator: makessense
(3:46:10 PM) ventricularPipefitter: But it could just be physical.
(3:46:11 PM) integratedInfiltrator: so
(3:46:21 PM) integratedInfiltrator: itisalittlecaliginoustoo
(3:46:52 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Er. No?
(3:46:59 PM) ventricularPipefitter: That might have been a bad example.
(3:47:06 PM) integratedInfiltrator: but
(3:47:09 PM) integratedInfiltrator: yousaid
(3:47:17 PM) integratedInfiltrator: thefrustration
(3:47:20 PM) integratedInfiltrator: she
(3:47:22 PM) integratedInfiltrator: ...
(3:47:31 PM) integratedInfiltrator: hm.
(3:47:36 PM) integratedInfiltrator: eitherwayitseemsto
(3:47:39 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(3:47:41 PM) integratedInfiltrator: fitthestory
(3:49:05 PM) ventricularPipefitter: It's not always fast. Sometimes something creeps up on you through a friendship you already had.
(3:49:38 PM) integratedInfiltrator: so
(3:49:39 PM) integratedInfiltrator: itis
(3:49:56 PM) integratedInfiltrator: sometimesalittlecaliginoustostart
(3:50:05 PM) integratedInfiltrator: butusuallynot?
(3:50:19 PM) integratedInfiltrator: andmostlyaboutuncertaintytodowiththeother?
(3:51:28 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Uncertainty is where it starts. Do they feel the same way? How do I feel? Could this possibly work out? (Answer: it can't, sburb will keep you separated from everyone you love and care about.)
(3:52:13 PM) integratedInfiltrator: >:€
(3:54:05 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So you can do something for a little while, while a session lasts. Not everyone is perfect for eachother, but, 'good enough' can help you feel less lonely.
(3:55:28 PM) integratedInfiltrator: thisiswhyshedoesn'teverwanttodoquadrants
(3:55:31 PM) integratedInfiltrator: whyi
(3:55:38 PM) integratedInfiltrator: whyidon'teverwanttodoquadrants
(3:59:37 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Heh. Might be easier if I could stop.
(3:59:51 PM) integratedInfiltrator: >:€
(4:00:04 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator hugs Ross tight
(4:00:07 PM) ***ventricularPipefitter hugs.
(4:00:26 PM) integratedInfiltrator: doyouwanttotalkaboutit?
(4:02:12 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Ehhh. There's not much to say. I don't know how not to fall for people? Maybe not every session. Nobody, lately. But everything's got to end sooner or later.
(4:03:10 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator huuuugs
(4:03:23 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Thanks.
(4:03:28 PM) ***ventricularPipefitter hugs.
(4:04:15 PM) integratedInfiltrator: yourewelcome
(4:04:32 PM) integratedInfiltrator: you
(4:04:33 PM) integratedInfiltrator: umm
(4:04:47 PM) integratedInfiltrator: haventloggedinmuchtothechatlately
(4:04:52 PM) integratedInfiltrator: atleastnotinmyperspective
(4:09:27 PM) integratedInfiltrator: issomethingthematter?
(4:09:36 PM) integratedInfiltrator: if
(4:09:45 PM) integratedInfiltrator: ifyou'realrightwithmeasking
(4:13:03 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Spenih wants nothing to do with me. I'm obliging her.
(4:13:34 PM) integratedInfiltrator: what?
(4:13:37 PM) integratedInfiltrator: whathappened?
(4:13:43 PM) integratedInfiltrator: whywouldshe
(4:13:45 PM) integratedInfiltrator: that
(4:13:56 PM) integratedInfiltrator: >:€
(4:14:41 PM) ventricularPipefitter: What do yo know about Mornei?
(4:14:45 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Threadtreader
(4:16:51 PM) integratedInfiltrator: hewasabel'smatespritandthenthen ltookhismemoriesaway
(4:17:06 PM) integratedInfiltrator: andheandspenihare
(4:17:06 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(4:17:10 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Moirails.
(4:17:26 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Apparently.
(4:19:37 PM) ventricularPipefitter: They've got so much in common it couldn't just be any other way.
(4:19:59 PM) integratedInfiltrator: um
(4:20:09 PM) integratedInfiltrator: moirallegianceisgenerallyaboutbeingdifferent
(4:20:17 PM) integratedInfiltrator: soyoucanseeeachother'sflaws
(4:20:27 PM) integratedInfiltrator: andhelpwiththem
(4:20:38 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Hn.
(4:20:41 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Well.
(4:21:09 PM) ventricularPipefitter: You asked about 'is romance fast?' earlier?
(4:22:01 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Spenih doesn't get close to people quickly. She loves everyone, but...there was an inner circle?
(4:23:54 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator nods
(4:24:29 PM) ventricularPipefitter: That was Vitt, Cole, Violet, Myra, and me. Friends, mentees, 'little ones,'...but not really the same thing. You've noticed how she is with her name?
(4:24:49 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator nods
(4:28:42 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And.
(4:28:59 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And it took her a long time to get that comfortable with us.
(4:29:08 PM) ventricularPipefitter: "Skye" was "Spenih" for a long time.
(4:30:38 PM) integratedInfiltrator: mmhmm.
(4:31:29 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So I come into the chat
(4:31:37 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Right before the shit hits the fan, last-session-wise.
(4:35:06 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And Skye is talking down corrupt, amnesiac, Mornei. By name.
(4:37:05 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator nods
(4:39:32 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So I do a doubletake, but, well, she gets /like that/ about corruption, and I'm busy as hell and hopped up on some purple prose full of more important things to be doing.
(4:39:38 PM) ventricularPipefitter: But I keep catching little things.
(4:41:01 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And shoving them in the back of my head until I can't ignore them any longer
(4:41:25 PM) ventricularPipefitter: It's...
(4:42:06 PM) ventricularPipefitter: It was like.
(4:42:11 PM) ventricularPipefitter: If they got so close
(4:42:20 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So quickly
(4:43:12 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Then all the time we'd had...meant less.
(4:43:53 PM) ventricularPipefitter: And the best way to talk down somebody bleeding grimdark all over the floor is with somebody close to them
(4:44:15 PM) ventricularPipefitter: and /getting close/ to someone so you can /fix them/ isn't
(4:44:22 PM) ventricularPipefitter: isn't a good foundation for human relationships
(4:45:53 PM) integratedInfiltrator: soyouwereworriedabouthowhealthytherelationshipwas?
(4:46:46 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Maybe if I'd stopped to think about it?
(4:47:00 PM) ventricularPipefitter: They're sure happy *now*
(4:47:02 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So.
(4:47:30 PM) ventricularPipefitter: That Spire's been built. Regardless of what I thought of the foundation.
(4:48:44 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator hugs ross
(4:48:59 PM) integratedInfiltrator: justbecausethey'rehappydoesn'tmakeithurtanyless
(4:52:52 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Rejection.
(4:59:31 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Thinking about you and Githra.
(4:59:47 PM) integratedInfiltrator: i
(4:59:57 PM) integratedInfiltrator: >:€
(5:02:37 PM) ventricularPipefitter: So when somebody you care about doesn't want you in their life anymore, what do you do?
(5:03:23 PM) integratedInfiltrator: you
(5:03:28 PM) integratedInfiltrator: youfindoutwhatyoudidwrong
(5:03:34 PM) integratedInfiltrator: andyoutrytomakeitright
(5:09:21 PM) ***integratedInfiltrator hugs Ross
(5:09:43 PM) ***ventricularPipefitter hugs.
(5:09:55 PM) ventricularPipefitter: Dunno if I can 'make it right,' unless I start feeling differently, Ghost.
(5:10:11 PM) integratedInfiltrator: youcanapologizeforwhatyousaid
(5:12:30 PM) ventricularPipefitter: You shouldn't apologize unless you really mean it.
(5:12:44 PM) integratedInfiltrator: didyoumeantohurtherwiththosewords
(5:12:52 PM) integratedInfiltrator: weretheytherightthingstosaytoher
(5:13:10 PM) integratedInfiltrator: evenifyoudon'tfeeldifferentlyyoucanstillapologizeforthewayyoutoldheraboutit
(5:13:32 PM) ventricularPipefitter: I could probably do that.
(5:14:21 PM) integratedInfiltrator: andyoucantellheryoucareaboutherandyouworryabouther
(5:16:04 PM) ventricularPipefitter: ...I'll see what I can do.