no emotions to manipulate

just a guy who bet everything on profiting from a mental illness thinking you could manipulate love or hate to encourage work or whatevre people usually do when going through heart break so had to lie about it and fuc*ed himself over claiming im buying drugs and doing all these thigns when all ido i work and study alone looks like its not profitable to someone who never done homework but its all smiles and that guy profiting of someone elses sad emotions ofc shell need medication only person benefiting is person sellign medication instead of correcting situation positioned himself to profit and benefit LMFAOO i cant care so i laugh and smile but on the other end is a girl who might actually be in love with me and its just being warped and fu*ked with and if not love me who care since never able to tell remember i dont understand jelously remember (im going to act jealous right now so you konw im capable but honestly cant show it on a regular basis you know my secret why so keep making me look bad idc busy studying)

relative to what konwing who someone loves is how you make yourself less of a focus especially if theyre going through issues but too academic for this basic ass problems to be issues when theyre actually just currated problems through gossip and lies about things that have nothing to do with anything sad story but never for me since i already had saddest story first LFMAO use moer of your connections and friends its fun knowing this is how you sepnd your useless day plotting on a next man instead of doing work cant even micromanage me good enough just look bad at that too knowing i have a better schedule for myself planned and photographed articulating producticity to an unbelieveable degree someone failed to expose knowing i used medication but not for reason they thought its liquid no emotional friction if you speak english no problem and since you think you psychic with artistic symbolism that hole in the wall is worth millions now technically going to be in the autobiogrphy of how to prove a point backwards so theres less and less arguement as well as reason for rebuttal.
assuming the sexuality of a non binary everyone around mad and upset but doing as much as me less since theyre capable of more and im not bench warrant from 3-4-5 party involvment so let the girl be with the shitbag yo fault i have a past to get over and generational trauma ill never be passing over. LMFAO do whatever you want i wont know if im in a bad situation or not remember so couldnt care even if i knew how this is me doing my best by explaining why i cant know better  😂😂😂 where do you want me to stand in confusion to things said around me and at me but never to me sounds like your talking to me but since you didnt address me who cares hoping things stay in my mind lightning damage what do they not get all crossroads are covered
i keep forgetting acknowledging things means two different things to us they think something on my mind when im saying what i thought for as logn as the situation lsated due to inconsistency of body language cant lie to me accidentally took it serious and boosted with home trauma reading situations but not situations im in ones to avoid never having to deal with anything other than work and school since trauamatized in every other way possible and those only benefitial things in life my ilfe LMFAO i forget people have support circles weird