are we supposed to kill ourselves or kill someone or bleed and draw attention to ourselves what are we supposed to do since this is how they give me instructions with secret harassments no one else can see lucky my natural baseline benchmark is watching anime and doing online work so when im not on my natural scheduale they want me in the city acting like a threat to public safety to continue this retards narattive when im just being forced to use meditation technicques so much my life never progresses but its cool taxed right