Finding the cure for my extreme, mind numbing, boredom.

Finding the cure for my extreme, mind numbing, boredom. AKA The diaries of a bored and lazy teenager.
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holy shit im getting way to fucking lazy to type this shit out nowadays. yes i think i mostly found a cure and im not that bored anymore but typing everything perfectly with fucking npc formal way of typing is making me fucking lose brain cells, anyways im done with this cucked cure thing
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11/10/2019 - ^In before nothing ends up changing, and I end up not even being close to finding a cure, with nothing changing...


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A short story about my boredom: I've had extreme boredom for over a year now, and I'm finally trying to end it, so I actually want to live as a human being and actually have something to look forwards to when I wake up everyday. I might end up being unsuccessful, but I hope my attempts aren't completely futile and lead me somewhere.  - Idea started on 7/20/2019

- STARTED 7/21/2019 -

Day 1 (7/21/2019) - Played League of Legends for almost the entire day. I now question my life choices. It was incredibly boring and made me fall asleep, and now as I'm writing this I felt like i just chunked 2 years off my life because of it. So far the hunt for the cure of my boredom is incredibly unsuccessful. I didn't think it would be this easy though of course, but because of this event, I am definitely uninstalling League of Legends to prevent me from getting more cancer and dying young. Until tomorrow, I wait.

Day 2 (7/22/2019) - Well, I went for a walk in the morning for once, since I never go outside. I felt pretty uncomfortable actually being outside, but taking a walk around my crusty neighborhood wasn't too bad. After that, I played on my Nintendo Switch for about 4 hours, wasn't too bad. It was much better than playing 2 games of League of Legends and already getting 10 years older. Although as I'm typing this, its only 1 PM and it just feels like OK NOW WOT? At least so far it didn't feel like I wasted my time yet. Its just I'm not used to the day feeling longer than 1 minute. Might add more later since its still so early... Ok so for the rest of the day I just played random games and watched Twitch. Yeah today wasn't the best either. NEXT!

Day 3 (7/23/2019) - HOLY FRICK I'M DYING. Actually not but frick me in my wiener hole I am actually bored as shlopping conglers right now. Son of a MaN is time ticking, 3 PM already? Almost everything seems boring to me right now, and I don't feel like 100%-ing Super Mario Odyssey because it feels pretty repetitive getting 5 million moons after awhile. Maybe I can draw a wiener stickman or something, since I don't know how to draw anything else. Actually I never even thought this, but do I play some vidji gams or do something creative? Only problem is my soggy and hairy potato walmart laptop is incredibly limited if I want to do anything creative digitally. Anyways, after my antisocial online friend ditched me and went permanently away, I finally decided to draw something, which I ended up procrastinating the entire day until the last second before I went to bed. I'm a beginner, but I was just doing some observational drawing on an electrical outlet in my room, and of course since I'm a beginner it looked bad, but it was actually kind of fun to do, instead of watching 5 million Youtube tutorials. Well, next day, but I feel pretty proud of today only because I finally decided to draw at the last moment. Though most of today was just filler procrastination by mindlessly consuming content on the internet such as Youtube or Twitch. Anyways, hoping to have a better day tomorrow.

Day 4 (7/24/2019) - Well I just woke up and it seems my antisocial online friend is quite dedicated to being permanently away. Anyways I just wanted to remind myself not to procrastinate for 10 hours and not to watch too much Youtube and Twitch. Oh right forgot to edit this, well I ended up procrastinating the whole day and did absolutely nothing, yeah good one me I know. But a certain minty friend gave good advice, "Just do it 4Head." Quite the amazing quote.

Day 5 (7/25/2019) - Ok so this summer is flying by and I haven't done shit because of my awful procrastination towards everything, I literally procrastinate on playing games, its pretty bad. Hopefully I can try to fix my procrastination if I just do it 4Head. Okay yeah today was pretty dogshit, I'll probably write about this tomorrow, there was some crusty cancer that happened today and I need to go to bed. Oh right so boring 10 second family drama happened and I got nothing done that day, so I'm just gonna end it here because it was pretty unmemorable.

Day 6 (7/26/2019) - Alright got some things done first thing in the morning because I wasn't taking very good care of my hygiene. It is pretty depressing though to see its already almost been an entire week, and I STILL procrastinate like a retard. Well I'm going to go draw hopefully before I watch too much Youtube. I think this day was ok, but holy I played so much League of Legends again that it made me forget to write about this 3 days later.

Day 7 (7/27/2019) - I unfortunately reinstalled League of Legends again zZZZZZZZZzzzzzzz

Day 8 (7/28/2019) - I unfortunately played some more League of Legends zZZzzzz. BUT WAIT PogU, I got so bored of this game that I ran it down mid in bronze 2 and got my 12 day suspension, and filled out a support ticket for the company to delete my account. Please no, I really don't want to get back into that crusty game.

Day 9 (7/29/2019) - Nice to know its already almost august and I haven't done shit :). Well I made some tea so HOLD, maybe I will enjoy today. I ended up playing some Don't Starve Together which was pretty fun.

Day 10 (7/30/2019) - Nothing memorable happened today besides having no energy for most of the day. Already almost done with July and I've done nothing. I usually end up doing nothing over summer break, so its usually a useless break besides resting my mind off of boring school.

Day ??? (11/10/2019) - Here I am. So, what, over 3 months has passed since I last wrote in this? Its sad to say that nothing has changed, absolutely nothing whatsoever. My art skills have stagnated into nothing, as I eventually got too lazy to practice art, and did nothing after school. Seriously, nothing has changed, at all. The only thing that changed was that I started browsing 4chan a shit ton, then eventually got bored of it. Besides that, I got bored of of watching Twitch, now mostly consuming YouTube and attempting to play games on my still crappy potato laptop, but end up getting bored after 30 minutes. I can not imagine how disappointed my past self would be when writing this were to know that absolutely nothing will change. That everything simply just stayed the same, little to no change... Little to no change in happiness, little to no change in boredom. This is truly the lowest my life has ever gotten to, a life where boredom has been going on for 2 years, hell, would end up being around 3 years of boredom soon at this rate. I'm not sure what to feel about this rut I've been stuck in. Depression? No, that can't be it. As sometimes I feel a bit happy, but never too sad to say one would be in depression. Lack of ambition? Lack of change, leading to anhedonia? Dunno, hard to exactly pinpoint. Everytime i think of my long lasting boredom, I immediately trace back to the fact that I've had my potato few around 4-5 years, so maybe I'm just bored of playing the same shitty potato friendly games that I've played for so long? Well, that could be it. But...I get this feeling like thats not quite it, like even when I end up getting a gaming computer, that I would be less bored for sure, but...Still hollow? Like there's something still missing, feeling like I would not be completely satisfied. Maybe you could say a new hobby? As I've had the same hobbies of just playing games and watching anime for a long time now, especially playing games. I usually think maybe my new hobby could be doing something creative. Well fuck steam cut off the rest of it, but basically, I might just be an edgy 16 year old thinking i might end up becoming depressed and suicidal in the future, but after reading my previous posts, I realized that nothing has changed, and will change. Little to no change in happiness or boredom. I always get this feeling like I should be drawing, then moving onto digital art and maybe even painting, yet I don't know if I even enjoy it at all. So I don't quite remember all that I wrote that steam cut off, but thats basically it.