a.sigh.

Speedrunners, friends ... enemies.... Twitch-a-nites.. Twitch-onians?

I just feel like doing some writing about some thoughts on my mind and sharing it with whomever wishes to read.

:::::::As a fair warning, I happen to possess a dangerous mind with ideas that can unnerve those who aren't firmly grounded in their reality. I've tried to warn about this before but I'll make it a more regular warning in my publications.:::::::
You've been warned.


I decided a long time ago, that everybody knows. Everybody knows. And it is terrifying, but not just that: it's boring. As a population, we've become nothing short of REMARKABLE at producing a certain "brainy" pleasure. Brain stimulation. And as a brutal, domination-based, capitalistic society, there are men-- and women-- and anyone inbetween-- who will stop at nothing until they "know" they have one-upped the competition. Absolutely nothing. It is eye for an eye out here.

I decided that basically, far too much information is conveyed with eye-contact now. Far too many conclusions drawn, instantaneously. Far too much ego-warfare. I live my life doing basically one of three things: being flirty or flitty with my eyes; not making eye-contact whatsoever; or being essentially crazy-eyed where it just doesn't convey any meaning at all but almost rather serves to obscure meaning. And somewhat ironically then sort of lands itself in the first category.

To complicate matters, I don't really care with whom I make eye-contact with. I'll still forget your face. I'll forget your name. I will not carry on my act with, say, co-workers. I just don't care. I can tell I have impressed upon some people in a rather unforgettable way. It's a one-way street. I've stared into the sun. I've ignored intense judgement cast: the stares. Go ahead and stare. You won't say shit unless I look at you. I won't.

I don't care about this battle of the brainiacs. And I don't read minds or even try to. I think it is sad that sincere, meaning-enhancing eye-contact seems to be lost on our culture. It all seems to be a subtle one-upmanship.


What else? Swear words. Vocabulary of any color at all, seems to be fading. It is quite dull. If I had a NICKEL for every "OMG", "Shit" (especially of the "holy" variety), or f-word. I would be buying the United States of America by about now.

I understand that our society is heavy on optimization. But like anything else, without moderation, we're going to blow the whole damn thing up. These Zuckerburg and Zoidberg types, with the electronic all-pervasive "i" - as if man's eyeball wasn't powerful enough already, he had to build a.i. (a eye, or "an" eye, lol) to destroy the whole damn planet.

I'm telling you. There is no water shortage. The deal with "a i taking up too much of the planet's water" has precisely to do with YOUR eye--his eye--not getting the moisture it desperately craves. We NEED to remember how to cry.

As for the real ones.....
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