Taking advantage of my services

It’s because of the service I had requested from the Ontario disability support program. Someone sees it as an opportunity to prolong opportunities for others, to take advantage of using means of technical compromising devices to immobilized communications and confuse, as well as misinformed of people who should be and have been trying to help me progress along my lifelong learning program.

This jackass thinks it’s just another benefit I’m taking advantage of because he’s never had to take anything seriously because all they’ve done is taking advantage of things and services prolonging the service is a better way to highlight the people who need assistance, but in different ways as opposed to the way, this guy wants to help out the people he wants to take my opportunities and benefits and mail and anything meant for me

That’s why I keep being presented with these opportunities in the same way because the information they need to present me with opportunities in a different way doesn’t benefit the people that this guy has out here trying to steal opportunities. Because I would only have been able to progress along my path given certain pre-visits like housing financial stability and the obvious things that make you appealing to someone else. The problem is that this jealous fuck boy knows that someone he’s interested in would become just as interested in so the intended goal is to just have me settle as quick as I can by putting me in a difficult and compromising situation


The problem is the people around me who can do more than he can do. The worst thing you can threaten me with doesn’t compare to the life that these people will make your people have to live, and that’s just weird. The best thing for these people would’ve been going to the library to figure out what they need instead of hanging around me hoping to get lucky off of something I don’t Take advantage of that’s not how the world works
Like, why are they so scared of communicating extreme emotions making you afraid of letting people know exactly how you feel because of how they’ll take it it’s not like it hasn’t been said before. What the hell is there to worry about looking at all of the examples on the news and you think you’ll say something that’s gonna scare or shock somebody because they haven’t heard it before get the fuck over yourself.
That means they’ve already been falling into trust because they’re not meant to take these opportunities from me and you keep trying to guilt trip me into thinking I’m responsible for leading them into something when they should be getting assistance tailored for themselves not for someone else who they have to assume the identity of they’ll help you the same way they help me because they’ll assume you’ll have to be as truthful they’ll only help people who tell the truth why would you help somebody who you know is lying that’s the stupidest thing ever how are you supposed to help somebody who’s lying you don’t even know if that’s what they need help with. I’m being helped with something that is obviously the truth but it’s not your truth and that’s why you’re experiencing extreme consequences because of it, man’s need to get the help, they need not to help someone else’s receiving and hoping it will help with them
My eyes are fucking spicy dog. I was lucky enough to have somebody who cared enough to let me know. You can say anything you want as long as you’re being honest and you don’t plan on doing anything you say you can tell people that you want to kill people they’ll tell you that you need medication. You don’t have to take the medication but they’ll try explaining other way for you to deal with that, what’s the big deal tell someone else they’ll tell people who can try to help you as long as you look for help if not go kill the guy and fucking face the consequences. Fuck wrong with you. You’re just waiting around stopping people from actually doing work I am lucky for you. I’m actually doing work in the back of my head.

It’s human nature to think things like that it’s not fucking special or different. It only becomes a problem when you start acting on it and thinking about it so much that it changes your perspective. It changes your attitude changes your routine and it changes your personality and the way you go about society.

People love me because regardless of my problem, I still stay the same that’s because therapy
The funny thing about not taking the medic*tion means you’re gonna have to talk a lot more and you’re gonna have to be a lot more truthful so that means talking about these things without the assistance of medic*tion and that sh*t gets painful. When you get that ball in your throat fuck Bro that’s the one that k*lls me can’t spit it out, and I choke myself out.


Weird guy then you forced girls to do whatever you want and then in the back of your head you know they won’t and don’t like it and nobody enjoys that sh*t but do you think doing other things other than the right thing will fix it? Person is not even meant for you, but you think because I’m like you you deserve the same thing by force, but you’re not even ready to use it to the fullest extent of its capabilities, your level is not high enough to use this equipment the funny thing about that is they thought the same thing about me I didn’t do anything but fully equipped every fuc*ing weapon in my arsenal and accepted every challenge. Also doesn’t matter if you wave the flag. I’m still gonna keep winning naturally on this course I’ve already lost every way possible already. The only thing that’s left for me to do is win since it’s the only thing I can see, and I’ve already seen myself losing at this every way possible, can’t surprise me I mean I can’t be made to believe I’ll experienced something any less different than what people have experienced. In this reality, you’re limited to the experiences people who have lived and di*d have had but relative to your situation and economical position and a bunch of other factors.


For people to do what you want and being mad about it being done in a way that doesn’t feel the same so then the girls just keep running from you and you got a hu*t them down and chase them down using weird strategies and then you meet a guy who all he hast to do is sit down and talk and everybody flood to him Get the help Bro it’s just gonna get worse. My life can’t get better. It just keeps getting better cause I can’t see how it gets better but yet I’m surprised every fuc*ing day and that’s the only thing that makes me want to keep with it because I’m like yeah I’ve already had the worst thing happen to me so I don’t have to worry about you doing anything I’m just out here laughing at the fucking animals doing weird sh*t That goose at Sheridan and I didn’t know about it and then that bird ran into the fuc*ing window


The funny thing is you taking somebody you think is meant for you means you’re missing the person that would make you happier than what you’re imagining. I’m looking for somebody who I can’t see a future because I can predict things with most people. I couldn’t see sh*t with her. What the fuck it was blacked out Makes sense given the set of circumstances and things that have happened and I can usually see a lot, but that just meant that that person was educated Harvard level but now she has to sacrifice herself to help me from some fuc*ing weirdo that I’ve made too easy to get to me as if I’m worried or scared because I know better  Military connections are better than legal merc*naries. They just walk around things the videotapes are seized and everything blacked out on the dockets. They just take the hard drives and that’s it. That’s why I’m always on camera. You think it’s going somewhere I know it’s been taken.


It’s funny because I’m always paying homage to veterans. It’s in the family. They already know the level of respect is ridiculous. Nothing to do with race just respect and self-control. What’s the word for it discipline over everything self composure things like that you have to show people you can do those things first those are the things that mean the most and those are open up every door how the fuck did I get to share in bathroom Bro that was so weird, I don’t think it would’ve worked. If I was with somebody it’s not one of those things were like you’re with a girl and you come across a place where you could just have s*x no no no no no that was something different. It felt fuc*ng weird. I took a nap in there. I did the pursuit of happiness thing


When you know a girl likes black guys, but she doesn’t like you specifically and then they start doing the down dirty stuff which k*lls you inside but you haven’t taken therapy to learn why and I’m out here wondering the same thing he’s wondering, but I came to the conclusion. Oh, you’re stopping her from being able to, no wonder I’m like looking at these people trying to find the answer and I found it in therapy not in anybody else that’s why I don’t care if I d*e I’m gonna fuck you over one way or the other you’re keeping someone from experiencing true love, because you don’t go to school or you think you can’t learn to be different or you don’t want it to be different. I don’t give a fuck you’re fuc*ing with me I’m capable , I just don’t I just have to do everything else before I get to do that and then they’ll let me do that you just have to go through everything and it’s not that you’ll be justified or just understand that you did everything already I need to run around or do anything acting all crazy just go to court go to the airport and start doing sh*t I’m already here. I just haven’t done sh*t just talking walking around. I didn’t even get into line other than to get food so you already knew I was what I was doing. Security guard at the service centres was supposed to discourage me, but they don’t know how many times I’ve been told no by these white people to teach me it’s not a big deal, if you could have seen what I had to do to get my social insurance number, you’ll understand why there’s nothing that can stop me anymore. I already learned but you keep running from these lessons like you have something to be afraid of like how worse could it really get at least going to pr*son and you would have an opportunity to get out because they tell you when it’s over in your head you think you’ll have to be doing this forever and that’s why you’re lucky to be in a society that tells you how bad the thing is that you’re doing to give you a opportunity to stop and change while you still have time? Did you think that you could continuously negatively impact me and have it spread out the way that you’ve done to other people I’ve already stopped my generational trauma. You’re not anything close to that but because of you being uneducated and emotionally immature people get weird problems, but with me they get solutions and answers to everything and things they didn’t even know they needed the answer to because I always do the work And I stay late to double check and I have an illness that ends up making me triple check because it’s funny that I’m not afraid of getting in trouble. Even if you try to set me up I can’t get into any trouble. They already know too much about what’s going on dude help yourself man at least make it so they can’t approve. You did the things so that you could start getting help for the things you need help for I wouldn’t be able to stand a relationship where you have to chase the girl. Meanwhile, the girls chasing me pissed off that I don’t stay still and I can’t figure out why up until today right now holy Frick.