gg, quite impressed with the effort to find out how I cheated. You know, it all comes out in the end. I knew I was going to get caught sooner or later. I'm almost glad it's over now, because I just couldn't contain it any longer. I even thought of turning myself in when I saw the extent of the 1:43, but I was so keen to keep in touch with everyone that I didn't dare. Now I know it's all over, so it doesn't matter. I'll start by explaining why I started cheating, and which runs were cheated.

My very first cheated run was my WR on Blue NSC. I had done a real grind, I really did 3000 attempts, but after that I still had nothing and I was losing motivation. I said to myself "I can't take it anymore, I'm going to end up cheating", then I said "no, I'm not an asshole, I'm not going to cheat", I started to hesitate. I've always hated cheaters as much as you, so I didn't want to fall into that trap. However, after a huge drop in motivation and not wanting to stop the category without any results, I gave in. Briefly, I did save states that served as checkpoints until I reached the end of the run. Let's be clear: I didn't cheat because I wanted bounties, I've always said I didn't care about the money and it's true, on NSC there was no bounty.

After that cheated run, I told myself I was going to stop. One cheated run was already too many, I felt like shit, I was lying to everyone, everyone I liked. I even tried to dodge the subject as much as possible when my mates talked to me about it, to avoid lying to them too much. But when I saw that the run had been accepted without a hitch and that nobody was asking any questions, the attention-seeking jerk in me thought "if nobody's going to detect me, I might as well get on with it". That's when I became the kind of guy I hate, I couldn't give in to temptation any more because I felt so undetectable. And as I only had 2 months left before I could no longer speedrun, I wanted to make the most of it.

So I kept on cheating. Sapphire, Red classic, Red Glitchless. For Red Glitchless, you should know that I really could have done the hard reset! (just to warn you that it doesn't make a run valid) I had planned everything, I made a save state right at the end of the credits that I could have loaded live, but I really didn't have my Twitch chat open (because I only have one screen at my parents' home, and I had put the OBS window on to make sure the video went through. In case of a problem, I'd set a small delay so I could stop the stream before you noticed). Anyway, part of me wanted that 1:44 legitimately, hence the fact that I really did 2000 attempts playing 14 hours a day on truely's discord and then on my Twitch account. But as I was going on vacation with my parents for the new year, and after that only had a week left to speedrun, I gave in.

In conclusion, I'd like to apologize, at the very least. It's a real weight off my mind to have been detected. For those who were wondering: everything I said in my retirement pastebin is 100% true. Everything I said about my past etc is true (and explains why I cheated btw). As for the bounties, it's true that I didn't care. I was really going to give it all to my parents, and the 1000 from slayer, I was going to give 500 to Grogir and 500 to Yuji. I know at this point you don't believe me, think what you want, I have no reason to lie now that I've been caught red-handed.

I'd also like to write a message in French for my mates:

À tout PFR : désolé les gars... je suis une merde, je n'avais pas le choix que de m'enfoncer de plus en plus chaque jour pour garder le secret, vous pouvez pas savoir à quel point je me dégoutais de mentir à des mecs qui me soutenaient et que j'ai rencontré IRL (pour certains). Vous êtes des mecs incroyables, et même si je me suis fait ban de psr je continuerai de regarder vos streams sous alt parce que je veux définitivement continuer à vous suivre. Libre à vous d'accepter de garder contact avec moi ou non. Je ne le mérite clairement pas donc je comprendrai que vous ne vouliez pas.

À Alw0 : moi qui voulait te rendre fier... Tu dois tellement être déçu, je suis vraiment une merde humaine, en écrivant ce pastebin je me rends vraiment compte du dégénéré que je suis devenu. Tu vas me manquer mec :(

Au discord d'Ojama : je pense que vous êtes les mecs qui auraient été les plus susceptibles de me cramer honnêtement. Vous savez depuis des mois que j'ai un caractère assez spécial, un attention whore quoi. J'étais déjà pas aimé sur votre discord, mais là j'ai bien peur que le contact soit définitivement mort entre nous (ce qui est logique, j'ai pas à me plaindre). Désolé pour tout ce que j'ai pu faire en tout cas et je vous souhaite le meilleur.

À tout le Carrousel : putain... je pense que le carrou c'est ce qui me fait le plus culpabiliser pour ce que j'ai fait. Je suis là depuis tellement longtemps, j'ai noué tellement de lien avec tout le monde, je sais que vous me verrez plus jamais de la même façon, à juste titre. Libre à vous de continuer de me parler ou non, de toute façon le mal est fait, je vous ai menti vous aussi. Je tiens quand même à dire à Fildrong que la run montrée en vidéo n'est pas trichée, ça limite un peu la casse.

I think that's all I had to say. I will probably continue to follow some psr people under alt as I really liked them and don't want to stop following them (bang, some French runners, Alw0, minnow etc). Goodbye and good luck to you all in your lives, you're an amazing community and I'll always remember you <3