Taking time away from streaming

It's no secret to anyone who's been watching my streams lately that I'm not really ok right now.

I've been completely isolated for about 10 months with very little interpersonal contact. The days have started to feel more and more repetitive and, without getting too gruesome about it, my mental health has hit an all time low. My stream has been the only positive in my life, and now that people are back in school and at work, my numbers aren't as good as they were even a few months ago. Combine that with my general burnout on Ratchet speedruns, and I feel completely lost and directionless. It's why I've been trying out new things like Pokemon and Minecraft, but I have no footing in those communities and so it's been slow to start.

There comes a time where a streamer has to take a step back and evaluate what's going wrong, what they can do to fix it, and responsibly take those steps. This can't happen on stream, because frankly the amount of times I've emotionally dumped to my chat has gotten embarrassing.

I'm taking some time off from streaming to focus exclusively on:

-taking care of myself physically
-working on youtube content, something I've become very passionate about but have been scared to take a serious plunge into
-seeing a psychiatrist to not just talk through my problems, but help get medication to keep myself regulated emotionally
-rediscover what really matters in life

In one year, I want to be able to look back on where I am now with fondness and love. I want to know that I took the steps to make myself better, and that I wasn't afraid to chase my dreams despite the world going to absolute shit around me.

Thank you all. I'm sorry it's gotten to this point, but I believe in myself to be better.