Same Old News

Hello ladies and degentlemen, I just wanted to take a moment to communicate on how I'm feeling. It's probably pretty obvious to anyone who has been around me much lately, I'm kind of working myself to death. And that's not to say I'm progressing much from that work. I've basically been very efficient lately at stressing myself out, seeing the flaws in everything, and being offputting. I feel like I'm putting in 150% of the work that I can and getting back results like I'm putting in 50%. I keep doubling down and trying to work harder to compensate, and frankly none of this is new. And I'll be honest, I'm extremely bitter towards a lot of people for not caring enough to lend me a hand, but at the end of the day the biggest problem is still myself. This morning I had a fainting spell and busted my chin on a counter because I've been stressing myself so damn much. I'm a mess in a lot of regards. I have so much hatred bottled up for the world, because I look around me and just constantly see so many things wrong. I truly want to change that, but it's almost like I've got the world on my shoulders because I want so damned badly to have the world on my mind, and I wind up big headed. I'm going to be changing some things up to try to deal with this, I need to put myself first instead of everybody else. So I guess my ask to you all, what I really wrote this whole thing for, is that I want you guys to pick up the slack for me. Do your best for yourself, but remember that we're all in this together, and your second consideration should always be in the favor of your fellow humans, no matter what.