I got too much media training early on in my life and was taught never to express myself aggravated or overly aggressively audibly. If you’re gonna use your words, use them at volume that doesn’t harm the person so it’s easier to understand the quieter you speak the more attention they have to pay because they’re gonna want to hear what you said, and if you’re yelling, they won’t be able to understand or comprehend because the first thing that they’ll understand is the volume equals emotion and I’m not trying to express emotion. I’m trying to logically express fax.  I only ever get audibly vocal at a high volume when I’m playing games that are exciting and fun I don’t understand why I should exclaim when I have nerve damage and can’t feel pain and this is just stupid. It’s frustrating but that’s bureaucracy and I understand they’re making it more frustrating and the fact that I understand makes them more stupid.