peak ( harriet the spy made her journal easy to find on purpose)

when i had internet it wasnt structured since home all the time and would put in minutes at a time here and ther now i hve to waste time on a commute putting in 5 miniutes at a time and wtching youtube allowed me to get those certificates so quick such a waste not even motivated enough to study without having it paid for would rather inspire and encourage myself with planning since this isnt an accident but seems like an (just remembered i already established weirdo a*s doctor social group police combination for crimnal stayed charges investigation had to proceed with them making evidence as they went along) always streamed never left room always studying but somehow they had to make me look like a problem by f*ck|*ing with me while i slept goofs still fucign iwth me while i sleep but nothing changed unless you want me to punch a hole in a wall plain faced nad depressed with ilfe for being sp stupid show me the wall -_- to academic to be fuc*ing with people since you know how entertaining i am for myself why the fuc would i waste my time talkign or fuc*ing with other people if its not for art or relations i dont need friends i need cohorts from within my industries i dont even talk to people there lucky i can stream like ive lived on the internet my whole life since when iwasnt online i was being manipulated by some weird fu*k so wouldnt i fuc*ing know better x2 holy fuc no wonder i dont know how to vacation or enjoy myself people try to play with me on their time instead of asking when i have time for it weirdos expecting reactions getting polarized mental brain healing LMFAOO beneficial brain trauma LMFOO lucky fucs punch holes in mental constructs LMFAO piccaso "im-so-meta-even-this-acronym-is-meta" the hole art and im a monster because intellect but not stupid enough for cherades treatment i speak english enough not to react from things that are said to me too good at it even because duhhhhhhh why is hard to talk about for you and not me ...maybe ...duhhhh but no one confirms or lies so idk always productive fuc friends independance self sustainment since already posted plan online who cares about a delay if i dont have to anything else i wont do anything since planned long enough to know what all my problems are going to be weird how its always smoeone else when people delay and refuse to answer questions i have recordings on recordings of people being stupid to me for no reason other than to delay court support back dated claim create evidance and incriminate me LMFAOOO still failing since my history is worse than whatever youll try and pin on me LMFAOO yeah i created the mistake on my immagrant paperwork and at 3 years old was able to create a new name and hide my real one but im somehow supposed to be able to remember you people are peak LMFAOOO