Counter intuitive 😒

Imagine having this person close to me and being fuc*ed up as a joke and having to sit there and try to explain while they don’t give a fuck Or think it isnt as serious because im not capable of expressing myself violently due to refraining

Wouldn’t even bother to care ofc I’m sui*idal ofc I’m going to push you away while you pretend (might not be pretending unconfirmed variable )to care and do it badly from lack of knowledge

Because if you did care there would be communication but can’t be because some other stupid reason made it have to be charades since me setting up a hacker due to my past, is intersected with emotional manipulation of someone controlling who appears to demand her way or the high way while concealing themselves he/him/she/her/they/them with a curtain of confusion

Best shield is suic*de claim since being loved by someone who doesn’t know how to love you is just being fuc*ed with by someone who’s smiling

I have to smile because a totally different condition you’ve been blaning my personality or character for A personality I can’t actually have because a mood disorder that makes me sociopathic in serious situations to the point I can cut of my already nerve damaged body into complete numbness

And I have to laugh because of a totally different and even stupider condition you mixed up with this one

You thought lightning first but it was ptsd from genocide watching people die made me laugh at it but I smile then being hit with lightning made me confused about shit I have to laugh at for being weird but can’t tell if sad because genocide and even if I figure it out from reading facial features (learning this made me more face blind somehow) can’t for the life of me express or know what to say Since lack of experience in relationships since people don’t listen anyway Been doing domain technique and someone made an anime into it same as compartmentalization so any reality is fine but they cant validate anything and want me to choose and its just me wasting my life while having technical issues

Why keep getting kicked out when you can stay out until they learn

Didn’t bother to even do introductions or introduce themselves no Ice breakers just waiting for me to do something stupid to make fun of (Weirdos at 98 gave them stickers and too good for these fuc*s)

Sounds like im complaining but micromanaged could of been placed somewhere conducive to my education and self employment

I’m happy your shit people never told me what they thought about my casserole 🤣😂 it’s funny but so serious why would I want to be around people like that

Think about the environment I just described and compare it to how you’ve assumed I was violent uncultured uneducated 😂🤣 i grew up being babysat and always being new and avoided i know a lot about social interaction from a distance

No ice breakers or games to get everyone comfortable with each other designed to fuc* me over im too wholesome im too family channel and too good for that shit

Ohh yeah I hate men and they made it s*xual in regards to someone who claimed being non binary and androgynous I somehow ended up hom*phobic and misogynistic for my opinions and views

Trying to drive me crazy for no reason that makes any sense if you think about it given all the information thats been provided.

Zero cool