Overthinking

Dear diarrhea,

I have been thinking a lot recently. It's pretty cool actually.

While a lot of pain and discomfort has been derived in modern life from what we call overthinking, over the last few days I've somehow been thinking a lot down the pathways of compassion, perspective, understanding, and emotional healing, with a side of various silly imaginatory type shit. No real paranoia or dread to speak of.

It's been kind of nice. I've often found my mind doing its own processes while I'm engaged in another activity. (E.g. thinking while reading, while running, while eating, or making music.) Previously I made pretty concentrated efforts to silent my mind especially when I needed to focus. Perhaps a change is on the horizon where my brain can do its own little dance while not bothering me.

My theory is that language has disproportionately affected us, through all the small snippets of intake- headlines, text messages, chat logs- on a bright screen that really overwhelms our light sensory systems.

In other words . . Words are destroying us lol.

I think it's important to get back to a place where we can use language as a nice tool of communication without having it explode and endlessly provoke. Furthermore it's important to remember that no matter how loudly and overpoweringly you for instance yell the word "Water" you're not water; your word isn't water: you're just a silly being moving air through your windpipes and ending the airflow at the lips to formulate certain recognizable syllable sounds. But only water is water. You only are able to speak a system of symbols.

Lost in the lang, la lost in the language.
U are not the words u are the energy that changes!


Anyway.
Haven't really been streamin '. Gosh is that nice. I find it quite stressful these days. Gonna be working back at Amazon (delivery), then streaming probably somewhat infrequently. Once a week or a couple times a week.