kill myself or kill yourself from embarrassment at creative expression

stalker stealing creative work legally documenting for theft of artistic process and documentation I get to express how angry I am but its nothing compared to how its being channeled into making them need me since I'm so intone with the flow leading the creative innovation in the industry without recognition to keep people from fucking with me since they

want to be able to copy by deleting partial pieces so I either waste time rebuilding or fixing instead of moving forward this energy make me feel like killing myself just so everyone knows where how and why I keep threatening to kill myself infront of any of those 3 shop owners because they are responsible and embraced for having me do this to them so badly
legit can't do anything I'm passionate about since im working to distance myself form this parasite by going as far as working for the government cavity search me idgaf just get this fucking disgusting weirdo away from me before I start trying to amputate
making feel like this is one thing
talking about it out loud is another
posting about it is another
but the worst thing is knowing all the time wasted that spent crucifying someone who listened to a goof that only spent his time being creative now I get to use the dark creativity everyone was scared of to defend myself since I've already have documented health files all over about how I always feel like killing myself the source of the feeling is what people pay attention to I'm not supposed to have enemies because OCD and someone wants to be afraid of me by making me have something to do with them since its hard to see someone be spiritual and forget about you like you don't exist

that's why everyone is helping fuck my art up since the persons love interest isn't as creative and I would embarrass the fuck out of them all anyone has seen is me minding my own business being harassed by everyone and everything

Online problems make me feel like killing myself and I know who and where to do it its not a joke and ill keep crying online to people but won't ask for help until I've damaged myself from harassment they will see this and use it as a reason to fuck with me instead of telling themselves to stop so the blood bath will be mine when I flip it on them like everything else fuckboy energy filed they tried to get me to do

who jokes about extortion and dose it ?
even worse who hears someone joking about extortion and tried to make it happen LMFAOOO stupid people who think they are smart are the fucking worst
>be me wondering why acting like a normal employee doesn't result in normal experiences
>be me racking up $5,000 of debt in unpaid wages because people older than me are immature
>decide to be grown up and leave file court claims LMFAO now they think this was the plan LMFAO I'm an artist with lawyer skills for self defence LMFAOOO

the longer this goes on the more embarrassing it is for someone more immature and forgetful to even try to make money any other way when I documented myself only borrowing enough money to get by I'm taking multiple bodies now that I know it was never nice the least that'll happen is I die but that promised in life so long as I don't kill myself I stay magical and people stay feeling hurt about the fact school I causing problems too many projections from those goofies when all I did is work on art and now the debt is going to the Dark art world LOL same same but different
they don't know the extent of my education and they think copying me while being black is enough
literally illegal and called plagiarism Jesus and baphomet what the fuck
its someone who is a nobody being advantageous with technology towards someone with a military background trying to acquire status meetings with embassy and immigration lawyers in regards to my protected status as a citizen since you made me curious prolly some random trying to get lucky off someone else's hard work by claiming it and calling them a fraud and copy
they're trying to force me to be vulnerable because they observed me being sheltered and closed off while trying to figure out what the fuck was going on so now they think they can make me be humble or act more reachable by FORCING me into being vulnerable when I act vulnerable naturally regardless of where I am in life the fact I'm being forced is why so muchh friction and suic*dal tendencies keep coming up no one micro manages me I am a closed system

killing myself is always better than listening to someone ever unless you've been recognized by me shut the gooffacedfuck up no needs your forced Internet and curated opinion

DISCCONECT MY FUCKING EMAIL YOU FUCK
tried to make it seem like my disability was that I'm slow when its because I'm too smart I like to take my time and people who try to take advantage of me

because he was the brother of a elementary school friend LMFAOOO glad I don't have to share any mercy since its all business never got high with me or did drugs since that's what you need to do to be able to hang out with certain people with HIGH tolerances ...

Visual disability and that's it didn't even try to talk about my mental because its just me being smarter than everyone using emotional intelligence and no one likes that shit all it dose is make people mad and sad
LMFAOOO too depraved to hurt someone else and Im way to magically inclined to do it unfortunately

claiming to be gay to harass someone LOL weird how she had to randomly call on a random number to continue the delusion but we wont talk about that LOL boomerang gmail message *don't email everyday*

didn't even complain didn't know what questions to ask just went about my business so I could do things if I went overseas instead of just just doing basic shit I want to be able to conduct business
LOL art is code word for extremely weird artist living an interesting life and everyone wants to see and live it by copying but they can never really do. it to the came caliber
so that's why the coding problems are supposed to incriminate me because of my previous school and marks they think ill try to hack the school to do something about the fucking bitchface officers fuckign with me when I'm not being charged but since its a dirty coke cop hacking me and pressing charges for someone who's phone he monitors digitally since everyone likes to use iPhone I'm glad I'm about to go to the embassy and make this as big as it needs to be since all the bases covered the goof is just racist at this point so get other cops to kill their own dirty kind idc not touching anything to do with goof and castrating him in court on the 5th since who else would have the means since I'm smart enough to ask for things you'll have to either lie about or risk your job over I'm fucking you the same way you fuck with me except you'll be awake and ill be using my words since I wouldn't fucking dare touch another person fuck revolting ass fuckboys man sober thoughts means you know I'm not worried and I'm actually bout it bout it so he came proper why you acting scared of the court you set up to be in don't fuck with me and make it difficult for me to appear
LOL haha accidentally told artistic criminals someone is hacking me to stop me from making work and is trying to incriminate me as someone who is capable of "Programming" I am a coder and these dirty cops will try anything which means when I win my money ill be allowed to do anything since they don't want to look at this like smart people ill play like a retard and dedicate my life to revenge by force LMFAO look at what your making happen thinking its what I had planned when you set me up by being suspicious so it can happen by force LMFAOOO in laughing because I actually liked art but revenge will be more fun since you took the fun away from art even when I was doing something difficult LOL why wont the setup template run ? someone broke it making a mistake happen they can blame on you but wouldn't happen since you would document what you learn

thanks for giving me memories to look back on when I do my revenge
documenting the anger direction motive everything right before your eyes LMFAOOO no fear today is the date it happened fuck the police and fuck a goofies how ever many taking advantage of people with weird companies