for anchor

if i could
i'd crawl into that memory
of a 15 year old boy
alone in arizona

if i could,
i'd lie down beside him
on the floor
i'd feel my empty stomach, too
he wouldn't be alone

if i could
i'd sleep beside you
weak and pale together
we'd sleep in the dry heat

would it be so bad
if i could crawl into
that memory?

would you still be sad
with someone there
to hold?

i know that vicodin could never
numb the pain of being
alone in arizona

but can you see me
waiting for you?

i know that it takes time.

if i could
i'd crawl into the future, too
sometimes i see it
you and me
with weathered faces
on our porch swing.

do you dream about the same things?
are your eyes still drowning in mine?

love, if i could.
i'd give you all of my time.

Love, if I could.

It wouldn't take so much time.