Blessed 🤣

I like how i know its just natural jealous or suspicious girl activity to assume i cheated and try and get the truth out of me but never being in a relationship and always being honest means i get to kill myself and keep my promise

My personality will keep changing without me knowing or being able to pay attention to it or have anyone notice then itll be too late one day your chilling the next you wake up and its been 5 months in a new city and all you do is go to library. It’s not that big of a deal for me since i never been in a relationship but its interesting to think i deserve this much harassment for it i could careless since its technically been since 2016 or 2014 doesnt matter always waking up and believing the worst since no foundation of positive experience

It’s honestly not that big of a deal for me to be single for the rest of my life since ive been doing a good job up until now and the people helping me damaged me so bad even they wouldnt expect anything. I should have k*led myself some of them probably said the same thing about it i would have kill my self if i had to go through that. Quotes like that bring me joy because it confirms what ive been saying about already being dead and not even having experience life other than bad things but sufferings promised they never say you’ll have good experiences lucky im a masochist so pain feels good but considering how bad my life is it feel like a consolation prize from god knowing its not going to get any better so best to enjoy the suffering and those random breaks in continuity where all the chronic pain feels good and tingly LMFAOO my tooth ache spanned down my jaw down my neck around to the base of my spine over the top of my head and to my right eye ball i never felt a sensation like that before in my life couldnt do anything but laugh at how bad it would of been if i wasnt nerve damaged and depraved its like im numb with reinforcement