Apple to the Shinigami

This is supposed to be about relationship obsession, but I’ve never had a girlfriend, so I can’t even figure out how I’m supposed to feel since I don’t even have a Support Circle either. I’ve only had medical professionals, so I only know how to subconsciously use therapy techniques that let me get over things so fast I’m left. Still confused about how I’m supposed to feel, so I’m still out here plotting revenge on Apple and whoever was behind my problems with an interview I had at Apple during my time at a internship I got at a college  triOS where I already had honours for information, technology administration, and so this fuc*ing b*tch motherfucker is trying to make it seem like I’m some drug dealer dumbass that wouldn’t have been able to even meet with basic standards so I got a job at Indigo because I’m not smart enough to be on the computer I only do books and paper with art right until they find out on my free time after losing the job, losing the internship started my own company ended up having that stolen and losing that started another company. Now I’m still having problems went to school had problems gave up on school went back and started up on projects and I’m still having the same problems with somebody trying to make it seem like I’m gonna abandon or have issues when they are the ones who have always been in my fuc*ing way of just being able to do things I already do naturally because they need to get away with what they’ve been doing the entire time, being a fraud and a liar and using people to get away, and seem as if they relevant or good at anything other than injecting themselves other peoples lives and fuc*ing it up. Meanwhile, I can’t even keep to myself because this idiot has to bother me into looking like some bullsh*t that’s not me.

I’ve been suicidal my whole life why is it an issue now I’ll calmly talk about it in extreme detail just to soothe your insatiable appetite. I don’t know Call artist for a crazy company. At least I’m on the creative team that’s all I want. This is all I wanna do just being creative and being like let’s make this and see if somebody likes it or how we can use it nope, you have to do bad stuff and show people you can be dangerous why, that’s already default because my background don’t even know how to be angry like that that sh*ts crazy to me because they’ve already broken me as a child when I went to psy*ho with the whole blood painting and sh*t