[3:37:33 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): hm?
[3:37:39 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): ah im still on phone
[3:42:48 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): u there?
[3:46:26 PM] JP McDaniel: hi
[3:46:26 PM] JP McDaniel: im back
[3:46:28 PM] JP McDaniel: whats up
[3:46:31 PM] JP McDaniel: was in shower
[3:47:04 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): just talked some to my mom
[3:47:16 PM] JP McDaniel: and?
[3:47:38 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i have to talk to you some :(
[3:47:42 PM] JP McDaniel: ..
[3:47:50 PM] JP McDaniel: you're coming to xmas here
[3:47:51 PM] JP McDaniel: ill pay for it
[3:47:56 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): no its really not that
[3:48:07 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i really want to spend christmas and new years with you
[3:48:16 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): but i cant give you what you want basically
[3:48:20 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): nicole's right
[3:48:28 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): its not about other guys or anything
[3:48:35 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): but i dont think i can be in a couple
[3:48:41 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): its just lying to  you & myself
[3:48:51 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): and i just felt bad all weekend
[3:49:08 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): it would just be selfish to go to xmas & nye with you and not tell you that
[3:49:34 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): it hurts me so much
[3:49:44 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i always seem to do that stuff
[3:49:47 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): find a guy who's nice and that i like
[3:49:59 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): and then they love me and then i dont love them as much
[3:50:08 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i love you but its obvious that you love me more
[3:50:31 PM] JP McDaniel: i dont even know what to say really, all this shit this weekend, and now this
[3:50:35 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i know
[3:50:40 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): :(
[3:50:42 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): im really sad right now
[3:50:53 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): like the more that i feel pressure
[3:50:57 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): the more im just tempted to run away
[3:51:14 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): me being selfish would just drag this on
[3:51:16 PM] JP McDaniel: i guess see you later, i cant even think right now and i dont think i want to see you for xmas / nye because whats the point
[3:51:32 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): yeah i thought you'd want that
[3:51:34 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): :(
[3:51:36 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): im so sorry jp
[3:51:40 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): im really sad right now
[3:51:44 PM] JP McDaniel: yeah, i bet
[3:51:54 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i am
[3:52:01 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i just dont want to lie to you
[3:52:19 PM] JP McDaniel: everything in my body wants to say fuck you but im just going to go before i do something stupid -- you really know how to fucking destroy me after i thought everything was good
[3:52:34 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i know im so sorry
[3:52:41 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): im gonna miss you :( i hope you can forgive me
[3:52:48 PM] JP McDaniel: i cant believe this is real life like
[3:52:50 PM] JP McDaniel: its not even
[3:52:55 PM] JP McDaniel: it doesnt feel real
[3:53:01 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): it doesnt feel real to me either
[3:53:01 PM] JP McDaniel: for you to do this to me
[3:53:10 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i feel so horrible
[3:53:17 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i just see it..
[3:53:33 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): ugh :(
[3:53:40 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i feel devastated right now
[3:53:44 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): im just scared of like
[3:53:50 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): screwing with your emotions when im not sure what i want
[3:53:54 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i dont want to lead you on
[3:53:56 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): its not right
[3:54:12 PM] Geneviève Forget (Livinpink): i dont know what more i can say im just so sorry :(