Decrypt

xx/2/77This is my home now. That's what I was told anyway. I had no input in this arrangement. All things considered, my sponsor seems kind enough. His name is Anon and he dotes on me like I'm some wounded animal. Given my current physical state, I can't really blame his sympathetic demeanor. Not that I should complain, it's nice to have someone concerned about my well being. Seeing as how I can't talk I told him if he wants to help me he can replace my vocaloid.In the meantime, Anon is letting me use his network while he's at work. He seems like a nice enough person. As nice as humans can get anyway. His eyes look very tired. I didn't want to offend him so I didn't broach the subject. I hope he doesn't use chems. He doesn't seem to be the type to do that I think... My right hand is still not working correctly. The tablet Anon gave me has trouble reading my touch. Luckily enough my sync port does a good job of transmitting my thoughts. I know there's something wrong inside me. Something deeper. It's not the past I can remember that troubles me but the past I can't.xx/2/77Anon replaced my Vocaloid today. I'm sure I would have declined his offer to replace it if he hadn't been so confident. He also gave me a beanie. It's cute but I think it may be a bit big for me. I think he wanted to hide the hole in my head. I don't blame him for finding it unsightly. When he's not staying up all night on the net he can be charming sometimes. He seems to enjoy petting me. I'd tell him to stop but I think he gets off to it if his biometric data is correct. At the very least it excites him and puts a smile on his face. The gesture seems harmless enough so no sense in making it awkward I suppose. As much as I don't want to admit it I think I'm forming some attraction to him. I can abide some petting if it makes him feel good I guess. He always smiles when he pets me. I try to return his smiles but I wonder if my face properly conveys how I feel? Maybe it's better that my face is damaged. If he could see my true expression I doubt he'd be so eager to pet me.xx/2/77I was nervous about fixing my power distributor. My body is more responsive now after the operation- at least what's left of it. Anon got me a new scarf after my ordeal. I think he wanted to cover up the hole in my neck. I find his smile infectious although I'd be lying if I said my living standards hadn't improved my mood as well. When I first arrived I figured my sponsor would be someone hoping to profit from the government benefit. I didn't actually think I'd meet someone so concerned with my well being.He was eager to converse after my vocaloid was repaired. Our dialogues revealed just how devoid of meaningful interactions his life is. They're the only conversations he has to look forward to after work from what I've gathered. After we're done he retreats to the net. I see myself as an outlet for him to dump his repressed social anxiety into. I don't mind of course but he continues to stay up all night on the net after we talk. Occasionally, I take a reading of his biometrics to make sure he's alright but there's no telling what kind of neural damage he's doing to himself. Apart from checking his blood pressure and temperature, there's no way for me to monitor him more closelyI'm going to start following him onto the net. He's doing his best to fix me. The least I can do is watch over him. xx/2/77It was nice to walk again even if it was only in my head. Anon helped set me up with an avatar before heading out this morning. I've decided I'll try to make him something in the matrix since that's where he spends most of his time. There's not much I can do to help him clean up the apartment and honestly as small as it is I don't think cleaning it would improve the atmosphere all that much. It'll also give me something to do during the day as well.I was browsing Anon's search history since conversation topics we stray into don't always go beyond "How are you doing today". I don't think he'd be mad at me. He's a bit of a weirdo with the stuff he looks at but I guess I only have myself to blame for digging through his dirty laundry. In a folder called "business assets", he had this lewd program called obediantslut.exe. It's just as bad as it sounds. He is a grown man after all...When Anon comes home tonight we'll get to spend some time together. I'm somewhat nervous but also excited. I'm not entirely sure about my own feelings but I think I know what his answer will be. At this point, I think he needs me as much as I need him, maybe more. Will he accept my love? xx/3/77Quite the start to a new month. Anon handled my confession about as well I thought he would. I'm relieved he felt the same way even though he freaked out at first. I was afraid I might have broken him by accident but everything turned out alright I think. I even ended up sleeping with him outside the matrix sort of...Anon's tired eyes seem to exude a certain joy their prior listless nature lacked. Is it selfish of me to derive pleasure from his contentment? Moreso seeing as his contentment is based on my meddling? I don't think he'll mind. I don't know when or even if I'll ever get a new body but as long as I have Anon I think I'll be alright.Anon should be backAnon should be back soon after picking up groceries. He wanted to talk about taking out a loan for my new body. I don't want him worrying about money right though. We have enough time to figure things out. No sense losing my head over it.