Pastebin Monday 1/2/2017

I can't believe AGDQ is so close.  It's really hard to believe that I'm going to be running a game at a GDQ too, the sort of thing I would have only dreamed about a few years ago.  I remember watching SGDQ 2013 and wishing I was there with everyone, then I find myself hanging out at SGDQ 2015.  And here I am going to be running Hyper Princess Pitch as a race against MBM!  Can't wait to hang out with everyone too!

At the close of 2016, I beat Armed and Dangerous for the first time in like 12-13 years.  I thought it would be fun to revisit a game I used to play on the Xbox when I was much younger, but sadly the game did not age well at all.  Gameplay got stale very fast and the humor just didn't hold up like I thought it would.  It's a shame, I was thinking about speedrunning it.

Thankfully I found a much better game to learn.  That game being Bot Vice, an arcade style gallery shooter in the style of Wild Guns.  I came across it randomly on Steam like I seem to do with many other games these days and it hooked me in.  I didn't even mind the fact that it was very challenging, although I had to knock the difficulty down to Easy to make things manageable.  It took one casual playthrough for me to decide that I want to go further.  So what am I going to do now?  Train myself offline at how to get better at this game, and maybe then I'll feel like doing more streams of it.

Valkyria Chronicles 3 casual playthrough will probably be a thing starting after AGDQ since I don't want to commit to anything right now.  Going to play it on Normal, and do everything I can to beat the game.  Hints will be welcomed and probably encouraged since I want to go into missions as fully prepared as possible, but common courtesy means no plot spoilers of course.  After all, this is a first playthrough.  I'll spend as much time as I need to in menus, so if someone has a problem with it, they can go elsewhere.  Once I beat the game, I want to look into routing this game.

Valkyria Chronicles 1, I will return to eventually.  I haven't done any run of it since September 2015, which is way too long if you ask me.

Valkyria Chronicles 2 runs will resume when I feel like it.  It's the sort of game that I can derust very quickly since it is the speedrun I am the most well-versed in.

I want to stream Valkyria Revolution as soon as it comes out, but that depends on where I'm at by then.

Speaking of which, I'm looking to move to Cleveland, Ohio, so if I can find some sort of a job there, I'm packing my bags and leaving Florida.

Finally, I know I talked about my experiences about coming out as bisexual and figuring myself out.  I'm glad I could answer my own questions about my gender identity when I did.  I still see myself as male, just that I'm a very feminine guy and seeking to maybe reflect that in my own appearance more.  Going back to my sexuality though, I'm starting to see myself lean romantically more towards girls these days.  I think a lot of it has to do with comfort levels more than anything and just not having very good experiences trying to be close and intimate around boys in the romantic sense.  I'm still very much attracted to boys and appreciate so many things about them, that will never change, something I make very obvious.  How did I deny my sense of sexual attraction to girls though for the longest time though, I was not fooling anyone who knew me well enough like ever.

MYSTIC MESSENGER STILL HAS ME DRAWN IN AND WHY ARE THE BOYS THERE SO IRRESISTIBLE?  I'm sitting in bed, thinking, how can Zen be so beautiful and ridiculously good looking?  He has such a pretty face, but like omg he got the body.  Like you think he'd be the total flirty and narcissist type, but HE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART AND AAAAAAAAAAAA he always finds a way to my heart.  And with the stuff going on his route, I'm like LOVELY ZEN don't worry I'm here for you, I'm not going to let anyone get in our way.  I could just listen to your nice voice as I doze off into sleep tonight.