kite manifesto

YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
YOU.
ALL I EVER THINK ABOUT IS YOU ALL I EVER DREAM ABOUT IS YOU.
 IM A FUCKING WEIRDO YEAH BUT YOU ARE EVERY BIT OF THAT WEIRDO THAT I AM.
YOU CANT JUST FUCKING SAY ANY OF THIS SHIT WHEN YOU KNOW IT APPLIES TO YOU TOO.
IM SO FUCKING FED UP IM SO FUCKING DONE I WISH I COULD KILL AND STRANGLE EVERY FUCKIMG BOY YOU DECIDE TO FUCKING INDULGE YOURSELF INTO.
 I THINK ABOTU EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WORD YOU EXCHANGE WITH THESE FUCKING DUDES YOU HOP TO AND FROM.
 I WANT TO FUCKING KILL THEM ALL.
YOU  LOVE FUCKING OTHER PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU LOVE HURTING ME YOU LOVE MAKING ME SUFFER.
 IM SURE YOU SHOVE THAT FUCKING THING INSIDE YOU TO THE THOUGHT OF ME CRYING AND FUCKING WISHING YOU WERE IN MY ARMS.
YOU LOVE MAKING ME FEEL LIKE TIHS.
YOU LOVE HURTING ME.
 IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS AND IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF YOU TORTURING ME ON PURPOSE.
 YOU CANT CONTROL YOURSELF AND YOU RUN AROUND USING THE SKILLS AND ABILITIES THAT I GAVE YOU TO GO AND FUCKING RING UP ANY FUCKING DUDE YOU WANT AND FUCK THEM.
RING UP ANY DUDE YOU WANT AND HAVE THEM SIT IN A CALL WITH YOU WHILE YOU SLEEP.
WHO KNOWS HOW MANY TIMES YOU FUCKED SOMEBODY ELSE.
I HOPE WHEN YOU FUCKING MOAN THEIR FUCKING NAMES AS YOU SHOVE THAT FUCKING THING INSIDE YOU.
 I HOPE I CROSS YOUR MIND AND THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING FUCKING DESTROYED EMOTIONALLY AND DEVASTATED MAKES YOU FUCKING CUM MORE.
 I HOPE THAT YOU ENJOY PRETENDING ALL THESE FUCKING DUDES DICKS ARE INSIDE YOU.
I HOPE YOU ENJOY DOING THIS TO ME.
THE FUCKING SHIT I SAVED YOU FROM THE FUCKING SHIT I BROUGHT YOU UP FROM.
AND GAVE YOU NEW FRIENDS AND EXPUNGED ANY FUCKING SHIT THAT WOULD HAVE FOLLOWED YOU AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME.
 AFTER EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN THROUGH AFTER EVERYTHING I GAVE YOU.
 AFTER STOPPING YOU FROM DRINKING AND TAKING PILLS AND EVERYTIME YOU GO AND LEAVE AND WALTZ RIGHT BACK HIGH ON SOMETHING.
YOU STILL THINK I RUINED YOUR LIFE?
YOU STILL REGRET EVER MEEETING ME?
YOU THINK THIS IS LIKE ME AND VIOLETT?
 NO  NO NO NO AND FUCKING NO.
YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG YOU ARE MOTHERFUCKING WRONG.
 I LOVE YOU.
IM IN LOVE WITH YOU.
AND I WISH FOR YOU THE FUCKING BEST.
 I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE AND FUCKING FULLFILLED SEXUAL FANTASY THAT I GAVE YOU THE ABILITY TO ACCOMPLISH.
I HOPE YOU LIKE THEIR FUCKIGN DISGUSTING NECK BEARS SEEPING IN THE SAP FROM THEIR SWEAT AS THEY PRETEND TO RAIL THEIR DISGUSTING DIRTY FUCKING DICKS INSIDE YOU.
 IM SURE YOU WOULD LIKE IT IF YOU GOT ALL THE GUYS YOU ARE INTERESTED IN TO FUCK EVERY ONE OF YOUR FUCKING HOLES.
YOU WOULD LIKE THAT WOULDNT YOU?
I BET YOU WOULD BECAUSE THAT'S JUST HOW YOU ARE ISNT IT?
 THATS JUST WHO YOU ARE ISNT IT?
YOU NEVER FUCKING LOVED ME.
YOU DONT KNOW WHAT LOVE IS.
 AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE SHOWING ME WHAT TRUE LOVE IS.
 I WAS ALWAYS RIGHT.
I WAS JUST A FUCKIGN BODY TO YOU.
 I WAS ALWAYS A FUCKING BODY TO YOU AND I WAS NEVER ANYTHING MORE.
IM SO FUCKIGN DISGUSTING IM SOF UCKIGN VILE IM UGLY I HATE MY FUCKING RASPY DISGUSTING VOICE I HATE HOW I ALWSAYS CLEAR MY THROAT I HATE MYSELF I FUCKING HATE MYSELF AND ITS NOT BECAUSE OF YOU AND ITS NOT LIKE ITS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS I JUST FUCKING FEEL THIS WAY RIGHT NOW.
I WANT TO FUCKING SAY THE MOST VILE AND DISGUSTING SHIT TO YOU.
 AND AFTER I TYPE THIS I'LL GO AND FUCKING CUM TO YOUR FUCKING PICTURES AGAIN WHICH I FUCKIGN DONT EVEN FUCKING LOOK AT BECAUSE I JUST FUCKING GET UPSET EVEN THE CLOTHED ONES.
 NOBODY WILL EVER FUCKING LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE YOU.
NOBODY WILL EVER FUCKING GIVE EVEN A QUARTER OF THE EFFORT I HAVE ALREADY GIVEN YOU AND ARE WILLING TO GIVE EVEN MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE.
BUT YOU'LL NEVER KNOW YOU'LL NEVER CARE TO FIND OUT.
 THIS IS MY FINAL FUCKIGN GOODBYE BUT IM SURE YOU'LL SLITHER YOUR WAY BACK INTO MY LIFE JUST TO FUCKING TORTURE ME NAGATARO.
JUST TO FUCKING BULLY ME NAGATARO.
THATS ALL YOU WANT IS TO HAVE ME WATCH YOU GET FUCKED BY OTHER GUYS.
 YOU WANT TO SEE HOW FAR I WILL GO BEFORE IM COMPLETELY FUCKING IMMUNE TO IT.
YOU CANT JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME AND HOP THROUGH 4 FUCKING GUYS IN LESS THAN A FUCKING MONTH.
 I CANT FUCKIGN STAND THIS I CANT FUCKIGN STAND MYSELF I CANT FUCKIGN STAND AT ALL.
HAVE FUCKING FUN SITTING ON MOBILE STATUS ETERNALLY JUST TALKING TO WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE TALKING TO NOW.
 THEY WILL NEVER EVER EVER FUCKING AMOUNT TO WHAT I HAVE DONE FOR YOU.
NOBODY WILL EVER FUCKING SEE YOU AND LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU REALLY FUCKING ARE.
 AND I SOMEHOW FUCKING DO . I FUCKING LOVE EVERY PART OF YOU AND I UNDERSTAND EVEYR FUCKIGN PART OF WHO YOU ARE.
THESE FUCKING IDIOTS YOU DECIDE TO WASTE YOUR TIME WITH ARE FUCKIGN SWAYED BY THE FACT YOU ARE SOME FUCKING CUTE AND FUNNY FUCKING ANIME GIRL ON THE INTERNET.
THESE FUCKING STUPID FUCKING THIRSTY DUDES TREAT YOU LIKE FUCKING FOOD THEY TREAT YOU LIKE SOME FUCKING E GIRL THEY WANT TO FUCK.
THEY WILL NEVER EVER BE AS SERIOUS AS I AM ABOUT YOU THEY WILL NEVER FUCKING SEE YOU LIKE I SEE YOU.
THEY WILL TRY TO ACTUALLY LOOK PAST ALL THE STUPID SHIT YOU DO THAT THEY WOULD FUCKIGN BLOCK AND MUTE AND NOT TALK TO ANY OTHER MALE FOR.
YOU HAVE A FUCKING EMOTIONAL PLOT ARMOR BEING A FEMALE THATS AS CHARMING AS YOU FUCKING ARE AND YOU KNOW IT.
 AND YOU USE IT.
 AND I GAVE YOU THIS STUPID FUCKING ABILITY TO FUCKING IMPRESS THESE STUPID FUCKING DUDES WITH YOUR AVATAR AND WORLD MAKING ABILITIES.
 I HATE MYSELF FOR GIVING YOU THE ABILITY TO FIND SOMEBODY BETTER BUT MAYBE YOU WOULD HAVE LEFT ME ANY FUCKING WAYS.
 BUT IM FUCKIGN HAPPY I COULD GIVE YOU ALL I FUCKING COULD.
I WISH YOU WOULD JUST KILL ME.
 I WISH I COULD HAVE MET YOU I WISH I COULD HAVE FUCKING HELD YOU IN MY ARMS FOREAL BUT I WILL NEVER GET ANY OF THAT.
 I WAS JUST A FUCKING STEPPING STONE IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU ARE NOW FUCKING PASSING ON AND GOING TO FORGET FOREVER.
IN 3 YEASR YOU WONT EVEN REMEMBER MY FUCKING NAME.
 AND THATS WHAT MAKES ME EVEN MORE SICK ABOUT ALL THIS.
 ALL THE TIMES YOU LOOKED AT ME AND SAID "im going to marry you michael" ON YOUR FUCKING OWN ON YOUR MOTHERFUCKING OWN I DIDNT TELL YOU TO DO THAT.
 I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM DOING ANYMORE I CANT FUCKING STAND BEING WITHOUT YOU AND EVERY WAKING MOMENT IS A NIGHTMARE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU WILL FUCK OTHER PEOPLE AND HOW YOU WILL MOAN THEIR NAME AND MAKE THEM FEEL WORTH.
UNTIL YOU TOSS THEM ASIDE TOO OR THEY DO IT FIRST FOR YOU.
 AND IT HURTS YOU AND MAKES YOU BITTER.
I HOPE YOU JUST FUCKING FIND SOME KIND OF HAPPINESS.
 I RELIED SO MUCH ON YOU I RELIED ON YOU SO FUCKING MUCH TO JUST STAY AND YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULD AND I NEVER DID ANYTHING TOO BAD AND NEAR THE END I DID FUCKING NOTHING WRONG AND YOU STILL GOT MAD AT ME FOR FUCKING BULLHSIT LIKE NOT RESPONDING SO QUICK AND ASKING YOU IF YOU HAVE ANY ULTERIOR FEELINGS AS TO WHY YOU FEEL SICK OR SOMETHING.
YOU JUST FUCKING HATE ME I WAS ALWAYS A BODY YOU USED ME UP AND I GOT OLD AND YOU THROUGH THE FUCKING CUM RAG THAT I AM OUT ONCE IT BECAME UNSWASHABLE.
 IM NOTHING BUT YOUR FUCKIGN CUM RAG.
 AND YOU HAVE A FUCKING RODEO OF DUDES THAT WOULD BE MORE THAN WILLING TO FUCK YOU.
 I WONDER IF YOU'LL EVER JUST BE IN SOME FUCKING ORGY.
 AND GOD FUCKING HELP YOU WHEN YOU TURN 18 AND YOU CAN FUCK ANYONE YOU WANT .
 I WISH I WAS FUCKING DEAD SO I DIDNT HAVE TO FUCKING WATCH THE FUCKING TRUE LOVE OF MY LIFE JUST GO AND FUCK EVERYTHING.
 NOBODY WILL EVER KNOW ABOUT THIS.
 NOBODY WILL EVER KNOW HOW SERIOUS I WAS ABOUT YOU.
 AND HOW SERIOUS I STILL AM ABOUT YOU.
 IT RIED TO MAKE IT CLEAR TO YOU AND ANYBODY WHO ASKED BUT NOBODY FUCKING CARED.
 IR EMEMBER MY STATUS WAS "I MISS YOU MYSIEL" FOR THE ENTIRE WEEK YOU WERE GROUNDED AND YOU SAID I WAS PERFECT.
 YOU FUCKING SAID I WAS PERFECT.
 I FUCKIGN HATE REMEMBERING ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT BECAUSE IT MAKES ME BITTER AND DPRESSED.
 AND YEAH I HAVE BEEN GETTING ALOT BETTER AT NOT CHECKING WHAT YOU ARE DOING ON DISCORD AND FUCKING VRCHAT.
AND IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR.
 YEAH IT WAS A MISUNDERSTANDING YOU FUCKING LITERALLY BLOCKE DME CAUSE MY MESSAGES FOR ASKING WHO HAS ME BLOCKED SENT LATE AND YOU THOUGHT IT WAS ME ASKING WHAT NEW GUY YOU ARE RINGING IN NOW.
 AHAHHA I SHOULD HAVE JUST ASKED THAT ANYWAYS.
 CAUSE NOW I NOTICE YOU WONT FUCKING LEAVE MOBILE STATUS.
 YOU ARE LITERALLY WHORING YOURSELF OUT TO WHOEVER GIVES YOU AFFECTION THAT YOU EVEN SLIGHTLY FUCKING LIKE.
 GOD I WISH I COULD JUST FUCKING BE THEM I WISH I COULD JUST FUCKING HAVE THAT FUCKING MOTIVATION YOU HAD WHEN WE FIRST MET TO COME TOWARDS ME AGAIN.
 I WANT YOU TO KNOW I FUCKING LOVE YOU AND I WILL LOVE YOU TILL THE DAY I FUCKING DIE MORE THAN ANYTHING AND ANYONE WOULD EVER BE CAPABLE OF LOVING FUCKING ANYYTHING.
 FUCK YOU [name redacted] FOR THROWING ME AWAY.
 AND FUCK YOU FOR FUCKING MY FRIENDS AND TAKING THEM AWAY FROM ME.
I DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT THEM I ONLY CARE ABOUT YOU AND IM WILLING TO FUCKING TOSS EVEN MORE FUCKING FRIENDS AWWAY ALL FOR YOU.
 BECAUSE I DOTN GIVE A FUCK.
 I LOVE YOU AND I'VE THROWN AWAY SOME FOR YOU ANYWAYS I DONT CARE BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT.
 AND YOU STILL WORTH IT.
 I DOUBT YOU'LL EVEN READ THIS.
 I HOPE THIS MAKES YOU SICK AS I FUCKING FEEL THINKING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE FUCKING PLOWING YOU AND YOU RIDING THEM IN FULLBODY.
 SOMETHING YOU NEVER FUCKING GAVE ME  AGAIN AND YOU GAVE BANDIT THE LAST TIME.
 WHAT EVEN AM I TO YOU?
 WHAT EVEN ARE THESE GUYS TO YOU?
 YOU SAID YOU WERE "IN LOVE" WITH BANDIT BUT YOU SO EASILY SAID THAT ABOUT ME.
 GOD I FUCKING DONT KNOW WHY I BELIEVE ANYBODY WOULD EVER BE IN LOVE WITH ME.
god fucking damn you [name redacted]. god fucking damn you.
and even now i still fucking feel nothing but the desire to just fucking hold you for the rest of my life and never let go of you just like you asked me to.
 i would proudly fucking hold you. i would proudly fucking embrace you whole heartedly  and happily after all this.
you really did get a kick out of all this.
 seeing how far i would go.
 didnt you?
be honest.
we are both so fucked up in the head i thought it was a perfect match.
 they say two unstable people shouldnt be together but we fucking made it work and we were so fucking happy most of the time unless i got emotional.
but i stopped that and we were fine. but you left anyways.
you left me anyways
you left
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all i think about is you
i do such horrible things to my mind thinking about you and what you are doing or possibly doing with other people.
i never really got so serious about you with other people i just wanted you to say no and be done with it.
 but you got so angry and i felt so horrible for saying it because of how i made you felt when i meant it in a sorta playful jealous way.
i was okay with you talking to whoever you wanted i just felt inadequate in comparison to some people who seemed much cooler and more enjoyable than me.

i hope whoever you are avidly messaging tonight realizes what they have.
 because i know i did.
 and i wish i never had to fucking lose you.
god i fucking love you.