🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:05 AM
okay. i think i'm calmer now than i was before.
i think that you have every right to be entitled to your own opinions or feelings towards me. if you don't feel attracted to me, fine. if you don't think i'm enough to satisfy you, fine.
i'm just hurt because it is so easy for you to judge me based on those things. and i've already struggled with my insecurities and my appearance my entire life. and i gave parts of myself to you that i never wanted to give to anyone again because of said insecurities.
it hurts so much because i love you for you. even if you aren't the most attractive guy ever or all this other shit, i still wanted you. because what mattered to me wasn't how physically attractive you were or how sexually attracted to you i was.
it was the happiness that you brought me when we were together. and i guess that's where we differ.
PrismalToday at 1:10 AM
ya my point is that
i like the happiness we feel when we're with eachother
but a relationshp to me needs tohave
the attracted part
or i get bored
n it makes me unhappy
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:11 AM
then i guess you get over me because i am not enough for you in that aspect.
PrismalToday at 1:11 AM
ya thats what i discussed with saki
blows
it just kinda tilts me because
i am happy with u
and when we spend time together
im lovin life
and cuddles and all that stuf
but
for every other thing
besides those
im just
:(
and :(
and the :( outweighs the :)
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:12 AM
idk. you talked about me making you feel wanted and like flirting with you
but those things are kind of hard to do considering everything you've put me through.
it's not like i'm incapable of doing those things and only care about being cute or whatever.
but it's not easy to flirt with someone when you know they don't even want you back in the same way.
PrismalToday at 1:12 AM
yeah i mean idefinitely feel like you have
a lot more to offer
than what ur giving me
but i also just feel
really unhappy
with the current situation
like whenever I am with u
and i want anything more than just
being cute and cuddly
i just feel neglected
and sad
n like
not satisfied
i guess
i mean the whole point of the convo we're ahving now
and the one i had with saki
is to bring up my concerns
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:13 AM
idk. i also just have the problem of guys usually viewing me as something to please them so that's another thing.
PrismalToday at 1:13 AM
and then see what we can do about it
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:13 AM
because i have a lot of guys who message me just asking for that.
and trying to tease me and turn me on
PrismalToday at 1:14 AM
i mean i obviously view u as way more than just an object to please me
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:14 AM
and im just like
go away.
PrismalToday at 1:14 AM
but at the same time
i also need to have
that part too
like
i dont expect it from u
and i dont only taolk to u for it
but if i dont have it
at all
then im sad
and neglected
and unwanted
🌟🌸♡⛄❄Today at 1:14 AM
idk. i do my best to give you that part. i've definitely given you it more than i have anyone ever.