I hate how my fat cells refuse to relinquish lipids and my body starts cannibalizing muscle tissue and doing serious damage to itself instead. It's a nightmare. Life is a constant battle to eat at perfect maintenance calories. If I go over even a little bit I store fat which will then refuse to relinquish lipids and so becomes a permanent part of me. If I get even the slightest bit hungry my body immediately begins to break down muscle tissue and cannibalize my internal organs for energy causing irreparable harm. All I can do is wonder which will kill me first, the gradual accumulation of adipose tissue or the gradual deterioration of everything else.