"Hi, I'm Georgia, and I live in L. A. and this is my walk away video.

So I voted Democrat my entire life, but I walked away in about December of 2018 and it was hard for me. I'll make this video because I know kind of how people feel about conservatives, especially if they're Trump voters. And I didn't really want to think that people would be feeling that way about me. But that's actually why I think it's really important to make this video when I kind of busted out of the Democrat Echo Chamber. That's when I realized how warped and inaccurate my whole perception of conservatives was and I want to make this video to help explain to some people the things that I didn't understand.

So I was born and raised in Massachusetts in a pretty progressive community or in a pretty progressive environment. And like a lot of people who grow up in blue states, I was raised basically to be a Democrat. So, you know, from a young age, I was taught this story about American politics and the story goes, Democrats are the good guys. They are looking out for the little guy. And Republicans are the bad guys. They are for the rich. They may be like, exploit, and they're bigots. In the case of women, it's like they want to control your body, etcetera. And this whole story is very emotionally resonant, especially for a teenager when you learn it, because it taps into that idea of good versus evil. And you want to be on the side of good. And if I'm really honest probably the only issue that I even leaned left on early growing up was gay marriage. And in Massachusetts in the early 2000s, this was a hot button issue for us. And I had gay friends at school. And so for me, I was totally pro gay marriage. And so that was, um that was, basically the thing that made me decide that I was gonna be a Democrat and I didn't learn to be honest, no, too much else about the platform even from the start and certainly during my early years in adulthood. There were kind of cracks in this story and things that made me have my doubts. And my whole walk away story is basically the story of me ignoring those clues, ignoring the cracks and just putting them aside, putting them aside, putting them aside until I reached this point in 2018 that I couldn't anymore, it was... it was too much. It's almost embarrassing to tell you about all the things that I ignored. But that's the story of this whole walk away thing is: all those things that we ignored until we couldn't ignore them anymore, and that was what happened to me. Okay, so I'm just going to jump in.

When I was 22 I graduated college and I joined this program called Teach for America. So I've always been very passionate about educational equality, and this program was basically a program that trains teachers and puts them in low income schools to help, to turn those schools around. And what I didn't know at that time was that Teach for America or TFA was becoming a very woke organization. So, in 2020 you probably know what I mean when I say woke. So, for example, we would have a lot of group discussions about, oppressor and oppressed. And that's where I first learned words micro aggression and systemic racism, that kind of thing. And this was my first job, and I really I was very impressed with my peers, and I really wanted to fit in, and I was definitely, very on board with this whole goal of helping these schools and helping these kids in these neighborhoods. But very early on, I was bothered and uncomfortable with the way higher ups in this organization were framing our conversations around race. It felt unhealthy. So I really didn't like how I felt. We were being coached to, like, take a sence at a lot of little things and to kind of sniff out racism, in our peers or in other people. And I really didn't think it was healthy the way my black peers were coached to or pushed to dredge up generational grievances and, interpret benign interactions as microaggressions. I can't really think of anything more psychologically abusive then training people to live in a state of resentment.

And I felt this organization was pushing that on my black peers. And of course, if you're white like me, you just become accustomed.  You know, everyone just dumps on your race, all the time. And of course, it's irritating and not constructive at all. But you are trained to think that there's something valuable or moral about doing that, and all of this felt to me sort of alien and backwards from the morality I had been raised with... that I thought we'd all been raised with where you're supposed to judge people by the content of their character, or basically anything except the color of their skin. And sometimes people would say, Hey, shouldn't we be doing what Martin Luther King said, judging people by the content of their character on. That was one of the wrong opinions.

So there were there were right opinions and there were wrong opinions, and that was one of the ones that you have to learn is a wrong opinion. It would be told in order to honor the legacy of Dr Martin Luther King we need to go beyond his prescription of focusing on character. And we need to dig in and really understand how race informs all aspects of American culture or American institutions. So these things were explained with kind of academic speak. That had a patina of plausibility, especially for a 22 year old who didn't have any life experience. And certainly there were nuggets of wisdom that were in there that would draw you in, and certainly as a white person, this ideology breaks you down and breaks down your own trust in your own moral compass. Because people are telling you, your opinions aren't really as valid as someone else's because you don't have, the correct, lived experience to fully understand the situation. So, needless to say, there was a lot of crying and stress and unhappiness involved with this organization and as an adult, I look back on that, and those are clear signs of a toxic work culture. But back then I was naive. We were basically told, that the discomfort was part of the process, and our discomfort was us clinging to our privilege. Or it was our white fragility. They had all these kind of terms that functioned to normalize the very toxic cognitive dissonance that we were experiencing and they had all this language that served to make us feel shame and doubt about our doubts, made us feel bad for even having questions about the things that we were being told.

There were also a fair amount of no go topics. For example, you couldn't ever mention anything about how culture might affect academic performance. Because that would be considered blaming the victim. It's never mentioned Asian students, for example. Another no go topic. was you should not reference any sort of or affirm any sort of generational progress. So, for example, people would get really ruffled if you were to suggest that, maybe racism doesn't play as large a role in our school failures today as 50 years ago. That was a no no go. And this kind of intellectual gate keeping was really a red flag for me. Pretty early on this was something that really got to me because my feeling is, this is not how you approach a problem when you really want to solve the problem.

The thing that really snapped me out of this whole SJW think (and frankly, I'm not really sure that I was ever in it), but the thing that really solidified for me that I did not wanna be a part of this way of thinking was my students. So I loved my students, and I had this extremely strong gut instinct that I do not want, I do not want them exposed to this kind of ideology. This is not gonna be good for them. I do not want them entering the world feeling like they are victims. I wanted them to feel like they had this totally bright future and that, if they just work hard, that that is totally possible for them. And it's not that I did not acknowledge the injustice. I was massively stressed about sort of the injustice that my kids faced, you know, by Dent(?) of attending this school system that was, you know, totally, totally inferior to the one like I had attended. But what I didn't want was for them to internalize that, as a reason to give up. So I was very cognizant, from the beginning, and throughout of always being a cheerleader, always be a cheerleader. When I was growing up, I had one of my older cousins, she was always my biggest cheerleader. And when I was with her, I felt like I could do anything. I could be anything. And so that was the guiding North Star that I kept throughout this program, like that's who I wanna be for my students. And this whole victim mentality, that has no place in our classroom in our relationship, you know? Or in my kid's heads, frankly, at all. At that time, I did not comprehend at all that this was a political stance. And I certainly didn't comprehend that my instinct in this regard was deeply conservative.

As far as I knew, as far as I was taught conservatives don't give a damn about my kids, they only care about themselves. They only care about, shareholders or whatever. So it never crossed my mind that I might be one of these dreaded conservatives. But the experience did wake me up to the destructiveness of identity politics, and it did clue me in that this was a creature of the left things, whole identity politics thing. Although it was much in the mainstream, it was much less than it is today. And it also taught me the super valuable lesson that a lot of people who claim to be fighting racism are absolutely doing nothing of the sort. And basically, at this point, the louder the person is about fighting racism, the more suspicious I am of their ability to do that. In any way being part of a social Justice organization brought me into contact with a fair amount of people like that. And it taught me that there is a certain type of person, who makes fighting racism a part of their identity. And the problem with that is, as noble as it sounds, the problem with that is, if you know the existence of a problem is part of a person's identity, they become very threatened by the idea of that problem being resolved and they may even engage in sabotage behaviors, which, frankly, I think a lot of this woke ideology is a sabotage is a sabotage effort.

That's why you see some of these people desperately trying to expand the definition of racism so that there's always going to be a sufficient amount of it, that they can continue wallowing in there in their heroic identity. And there's very clear distinction between those people and the real deal like Martin Luther King, because someone like Martin Luther King actually had a vision for a time in the future where this problem wouldn't be there like his goal, his future. His vision was a vision for the future where he did not need to have this problem, and that is distinctly different from the crew of people we see today more than ever, of people who who don't really want to move past this problem because they have a lot of personal investment in the problem.

All right, so I also saw pretty quick that a lot of this progressive ideology had percolated through the school system from the Department of Education level. And we had all these policies in our district that were theoretically designed to help the most vulnerable students and give them a boost on. Of course, that sounds great in theory, but in practice, they were a complete disaster. So, for example, it was nearly impossible to give a student a failing grade. Um, it was really difficult to give a disciplinary consequence for really egregious behavior. I mean, we had kids. If they got expelled, the district would overturn it a few days later and they'd be back in the school, you know? So the standards for graduation basically were just dirt low. It basically created the situation for the 90% of kids who want to learn who are doing the right thing where they're not able to learn because we were kind of forced to coddle and bend the rules for this lowest performing 10%. And it was spoiling the opportunities for the other 90%. It was a joke, and kids would learn wow, school is a joke. You would think, with how spectacularly bad the test scores were and with the basically zoo like chaos in the hallways, and just catastrophic failure year after year - you would you think that, the Department of Education, would maybe rethink some of their policies, question them, but no, they never do that. What they do is they just double down on more of the same, like more of these compassionate policies that just, spiral our standards down. It's like we're chasing our standards down a swirling toilet at this point in the Department of Education.

And it was during that time when I worked in education that I became really uncomfortable with the patronizing attitude that I sensed from the political left towards minority students or minority people in general. I was developing a very deep sense that a lot of these policies, these compassionate policies were undergirded with this deep belief that some people specifically black people are not really capable of meeting the same standards that white people are, and you need to give them accommodations that we can even the playing field, which is, frankly, it's just like a PC, like sort of friendly way of saying: Oh, go easy on them, because they're not like us. And I remember seeing a quote from George W. Bush about the soft bigotry of low expectations. And I remember being kind of surprised and confused that, a Republican, said that because, you know, I always thought of Republicans don't care about racism. There may be racist themselves and, like Democrats, the ones who care about racism. But here was this Republican president who is speaking exactly my mind about the nature of racism in America today.

Anyway, there is so much more wrong with the school system, and actually, it's a microcosm for how the problems with the left in general. But I'm just gonna give you, maybe two more examples, so this is gonna blow your mind. The department education is a bloated disaster of a bureaucracy. Let me just explain, for everyone. Teacher that was hired in my district for Memphis city schools, there were thousands of teachers. There were two administrators hired, and virtually all of them worked at the central office, which was basically the size of a small shopping mall. It was huge. So more than half of our budget for the Department of Education was going towards adults who, did not even work in the schools. And so, for for perspective, you know, I never had a class with less than 30 students. My second year, I had a special needs class with 37 kids. We didn't even have school busses to transport our school sports teams to their events. We had to have parents and teachers. We were operating on a shoe string and more than half of our funds were going to I assume this central office and I knew on some level that big government bureaucracy, that that's more of a left wing thing. But to be honest, it was just another thing. It was just another thing that I put in a box that I put away that I just didn't think about because I just legitimately thought that Democrats were the only acceptable option if you're not just a horrible person.

Meanwhile, I had colleagues who worked at charter schools, and charter schools are also free for the public, but they're less connected to the Department of Education. They're more independent, so they receive less funding per student. But my colleagues were making, like, $15,000 more per year than me as a teacher, and they had, like, 20 kids in a class, and their kids were succeeding. You know, I observed some of their classes, and it was like night and day when you compare the public school to the charter schools. Even back then, I knew that charter schools were kind of political, but I didn't fully understand the true details of them of that. I knew on some level that conservatives were pro charter. They wanted to expand charters, expand school choice and I knew that the teachers union was against charters and that the Democrats were largely funded by the teachers union. But to be honest, this was during the Obama years. And I just looked at President Obama. I thought he was so impressive, so articulate. Whatever. I just trusted that the Democrats had their reasons for doing things that they do. And so, even though it seemed crazy to me, I just I trusted the brand. I trusted the Democrat brand to do the right thing for my kids and what a lot of people don't realize. Now a lot of people in a few weeks from now are going to go to the polls, are gonna vote for Joe Biden, and they're not going to know that they're voting to shutdown charter schools in minority neighborhoods. They just don't know.

Okay, so enough about schools. I want to talk about the media because another part of my change of heart was when I learned, how corrupt our media is so in around 2013. I remember there was this media trend, where we would see, a video of short video of a teacher, a white teacher in some sort of altercation with a black student, Or a white school resource officer, yanking someone out of their desk or whatever. And it would be this big, sensational thing. And we would have all these articles about the systemic systemic racism that supposedly pervades our schools. And I immediately knew I had just come from a school district where a teacher could get pushed down the stairs by a student - fully down a flight of stairs. They could break a bone, whatever. And the student would barely get a consequence. So I knew that this whole tale they're trying to spin. I knew that this was not really reflective of reality, and I felt bad for these teachers that were being slandered a racist, purely based on the color of their skin. I also learned from observing this little trend, how the media lies so they lie without specifically telling you lies. They lie by cherry picking stories, and then they crop the videos and then they omit certain important details and then they squash other kinds of stories. So it creates this effect off seeing this trend that in real life does not exist. So it was like deja vu when Ferguson happened and BLM sprung up and I was - I'll be honest - I was immediately skeptical of the Michael Brown story. So I waited for the DOJ report to come out and I read it and I saw: Yeah, we were lied. Massively lied. If you haven't read it, you should. And this was the first time that I really saw the sinister side off what the media is doing. So with the teacher thing, that kinda irked me. But with the BLM thing, this time we were seeing, a majority black community, be basically burnt to the ground in the name of racial justice. And it was all spawned by a media story that was a lie like a full cloth lie.

And that's when I also started seeing how the, Democrat party was pandering to black voters, wild capitalizing on their fear. That was the first time that I really got angry at the Democrats and at the media because I felt like, you know what? I see what you're doing to black Americans, and it's not okay. You act like you're on their side like blah, blah, blah about racism. But you're not on their side. You're you're trying to make them afraid, because you think you have something to gain from them being afraid. That's cruel. That's cruel. You're a bully. I mean, it's like you're the exact thing that you're claiming to be fighting against. I actually disaffiliated from the Democrats around the time that Hillary made that comment about hot sauce in my purse. That was disgusting to me. That was when I first caught the scent that the Democrat Party not only wasn't the friend of black Americans. They were actively harming them. Going out of their way to generate fear. And then they turn around and say, Oh, but don't worry we will protect you. And: See, I'm your friend. I have this "hot sauce in my purse" like it was so cheap and I could see straight through it. It was so cheap. And it was gross. But for whatever reason... Look, I know because I was brainwashed - I continued to believe everything else that they said that the media said that the Democrats said about President Trump because I had this, like, kind of script in my mind that Republicans are bigots, they're for the rich, blah, blah, blah. And so I was lulled by reporting. That confirmed that idea that I had.

But around 2017 2018 I also started noticing another troubling trend. I noticed that news reporters that were reporting on President Trump hated him. Of course, I hated him, too, but I was disturbed to see all this kind of gratuitous editorializing in their reporting. I have some old school reporters in my family, and I had heard in passing once, when I was younger, that you should never be able to tell how reporter votes from the way they cover a topic. That's how you know that. That's just part of journalistic ethics. And so I became a little bit suspicious and just concerned about the ability of these reporters to really give me the facts in a straight manner. Oh, this is really nuts. So at that time, I got most of my news, just from the Apple News app. And I didn't curate too rigorously which sources. It was mostly mainstream sources, New York Times, whatever. But every once in a while an outlet, an article from someplace like Daily Wire or someplace like that would pop in my feet, and I would read it, and I would think like, oh, my gosh, thank God there is some other sane person on this earth, thank you for noticing this. I would feel like spark of intellectual connection with this person. But then I would have this sort of Spidey sense that, like, this I think this might be a conservative outlet, you know? And I would think to myself, I don't think my people would want me reading this stuff so, no more of that. Like, that was a little tree(?), but I can't make a habit of it. And it's so insane to admit, but that was how I thought about it. And it really goes to show how strong, how strong the thought policing is among the left that you worry about what people think about just your thoughts.

I also noticed this fairly concerning trend of where things that Trump said that seemed crazy would turn out to be true. For example, when he said that Obama wiretapped his campaign offices, of course, everyone said it was crazy and whatever, and I thought he was just speaking off the cuff, saying crazy things. But then, lo and behold, months later, evidence starts bubbling up that they did in fact, listen in on his phones and during his campaign. And so, I noticed that CNN when this came out. It's like the issue, sort of a terse little paragraph. That's like, there was some surveillance during Trump Campaign at Trump Tower. But it was all above board and it's not even necessarily confirmed. Accounts like Trump could still be lying about this and, moving on. Nothing to see here, folks. So the story would die. It would be up for a day and then it would be gone. And a similar thing would happen when it comes to controversial Trump quotes. So I remember there were so many times that I would see like a whole flurry of articles, come up about some really offensive quote that Trump said, So I would go and I would listen to quote or look at the quote and I would see it and I would think, maybe I'm crazy. But this isn't like that racist. It's more just like a foot in mouth it's like off putting. But I don't know if this indicates, like genocidal tendencies by any stretch of the imagination. It kind of sounded like this is a guy from Queens talking like a guy from Queens and how does anyone not immediately see that? And I started getting annoyed with the phony Pearl clutching over every little thing that he said. I still assumed that he was racist. Of course, that's what they told me. But I was kind of wondering, why the media was wasting all their time on these, kind of weak examples, if you know, bring us some strong examples, why would you need to waste your time with this?

Probably the thing that bothered me the most was the broad and rampant and totally unapologetic disparagement of Trump's voters. I was most shocked to see friends and family and people I knew to be good and decent writing off Trump voters like deplorables. 63 million Americans like racist transphobic deplorables. And I heard that come out of the mouth of people who I knew to be kind and gentle people, and I just was thinking you wouldn't have said that on your own. The TV must have taught you that because that's not who you are. And that's where I started really putting together how divisive our media is because in the way that it's able to brainwash good, decent people into hating their neighbors, into just blindly disparaging huge swaths of this population, it brainwashing them into thinking it's like praiseworthy, even to demonstrate contempt for millions of Americans that they've never met.

So I've spoken about how Democrats fear monger to black Americans, But I haven't yet mentioned how I began to realize how they fear longer to women. For years I was conditioned to think that every election is a potential attack on Roe v. Wade, which is de facto an attack on women. So in 2017 I graduated nursing school and became an Emergency department nurse, so I won't go anything like into any gruesome details. And I don't wanna get sanctimonious on the concept. But suffice it to say, my experiences as a nurse made me feel really differently about abortion. As an ER nurse, I see miscarriage up close. For example, when miscarriage happens in the ER, it's the nurse who is there with the woman and we take away the bodies... That's something I'm exposed to. And it's part of my work. I think it was probably the day that I saw a woman miscarry at 20 weeks, that I kind of reached a turning point. And I remember walking down the hall in the hospital and thinking to myself, I'm ready to let go of my attachment to this abortion issue. I don't have any fight left in me for this. It clicked in my mind that conservatives aren't trying to control my body. That message was kind of running as a background script in my mind, because I have been given that message so young. But this experience made me become conscious of it. And when I became conscious of it, I realized how absurd the whole idea is. And I look back on that moment as kind of the moment I opened my mind. You know, it's not like I became suddenly overnight pro life. But that was the moment I lost my fear. I no longer felt attacked, and I got this new emotional distance from politics that allowed me to see things from sort of a cooler head. And to be honest it knocked me off my moral high horse a little bit because it made me realize, like, wow, some things I thought maybe were obvious or I was taught were obvious. Like, maybe I was wrong. And what else, what else am I wrong about? If I was wrong about that, what else was I wrong about?

As an ER nurse, I also see similar to when I was a teacher - I also see a lot of the the nitty gritty of reality that I think some of my progressive, affluent peers maybe don't see, working in the ER, I was again seeing a lot of these woke progressive policies that are compassionate. But in practice, they are kind of a disaster. For example, I saw the ways in which the hospital system is abused. People come in for drugs, they come in for things that they should get elsewhere, but it's free. Or homeless people, they come in for a place to sleep. And those inappropriate uses of the health care system are driving up the costs for all the regular people, the people who are paying into it. And at that time, I was working in an area that in a hospital that served a lot of homeless people and that's a big issue here in L. A. Because it's ballooning out of control, this homeless population. And because of that, because of a lot of the work that I did with homeless people, I saw another iteration of the bottomless standards that progressivism courts into society. So in other societies, I think if a person drops their pants and takes a crap on the sidewalk or throws an open bottle of urine at a registered nurse like they would, people would be horrified and they would get a consequence. But here, especially in California, if a person checks certain intersectional boxes, you could do whatever and nobody bats an eye and us Californians, I feel like we tolerate a lot of really egregious behavior because we want to be compassionate and we want, you know, we feel bad enforcing any kind of consequences on people. But letting that behavior go on and become acceptable really is punishing for the middle class and all the people who are just trying to raise their families in a clean and safe environment and frankly, like that's not compassionate. It's not compassionate to them. And I noticed that sometimes I would vent my frustrations to my family and friends who are basically all progressive. And I was sometimes made to feel like an asshole for having these frustrations, as if there is something morally degenerate about wanting to champion regular people, or holding certain victims accountable in any capacity.

And it's basically become taboo to ask is this compassionate policy actually helping anyone? Is it compassionate to decriminalize petty theft? Is that compassionate to our business owners, many of whom are small businesses? Is it compassionate to allow a tent city to crop up in front of liken immigrants? Bodega business? Is that compassionate? I started to feel pretty strongly that my progressive piers had a certain blindness. There was a blindness to the way these compassionate policies punished this silent group of law abiding people. And there was sort of this blindness to the social entropy that inevitably follows when you give up on enforcing standards, and there's a blindness to the resentment that gets fomented when regular, law abiding people feel like chumps for following the rules. You can't have a society where people feel like chumps for following the rules. Why bother following the rules if you live in a society like that, and it's not fair to those people. And it's a recipe for unraveling, in a longer term sense.

And it was about that time in late 2018 right after the election that I started hearing about this beautiful, charismatic young congresswoman AOC, who was championing socialism, and she was my same age. Um, but unlike me, her only experience at that time was bartending. So here's this woman who has never taught a day in the public schools, has never worked today as a nurse on the front lines in the ER, but she was championing out there with a bullhorn all these policies that were the same, like woke garbage that I have been fighting against my entire career. Keywords being like, entire career. And I don't wanna be overly harsh, I actually find AOC a little bit likable and impressive, even in some ways. But the things that she was saying, policy wise, they were to me as a as a veteran teacher, as a registered nurse, they were beyond parody. I mean, like, they were just naive beyond parody. But the thing that stunned me was seeing, smart and serious members of the Democratic Party taking her seriously. That blew me away. And that was the first time that I was able to see that. Like we as a party, Democrats had become a vapid laughing stock. And I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed to be a Democrat, and I always thought of the Democrats as the party of educated people, and I had sort of a pride in that, that I might be part of that elite group. But suddenly I was seeing how frivolous and sheltered and hubristic that whole kind of mindset was. Anyways, I had this feeling at that point off, like, I don't belong here anymore. Like I'm a grown woman. I have seen too much, and I have been cleaning up the messes from these progressive politicians, for my whole career, and I'm done with it. I'm done with it.

And to be honest, I had other things also that were swirling around in my mind at that time. I was livid seeing democrats tearing down the legacy of this country, disparaging our founders, disparaging our people, disparaging our values. As if it's some sort of sign of virtue to, talk shit about your own country, which is really just a way of saying all you people suck, but I'm different, and I'd also had it up to my ears with the transgender stuff, the pure insanity of pumping prepubescent children with drugs to arrest their puberty... I am a nurse. You don't have to be a nurse to be like, Hold on. What? Red flag? No! I had at this point just felt like the walls of crazy were closing in and I had just was out of there like a bat out of hell. And it's funny because even though I was just red hot, angry at the Democrats, I still had my irrational, sort of pre programmed fears of Republicans, from all those years of brainwashing. And even though I lean to the right on most issues, I still had this little voice in my head telling me that, yeah, those people maybe agree with you, but they don't agree with you for the right reasons, you're not one of them. Which is, of course, such a deranged and hubristic thought. But that's part of the Democrat moral universe, you have to buy into that. You know that a Republican can have a good idea, but they're not allowed to have that idea for any sort of good reasons. But I did feel like, if I can't vote Democrat maybe I should just listen to what these conservatives have to say because what else am I gonna do? Not vote?

That is when I went down the rabbit hole, started listening, kind of like long form interviews with people like Dave Rubin. And eventually I found Ben Shapiro, the dreaded Ben Shapiro. At first I actually felt really guilty for listening to conservative ideas, as if there's something naughty about listening to wrong think which some of you maybe feel bad listening to all my wrong think but again, it just shows you how strong, how strong the brainwashing is that we don't even let ourselves think for ourselves. Even though we know we're holding in our thoughts and we still do it. And on some level, I was also afraid that I might actually agree with these people, because if I agreed with them, that would mean that now I'm like outside of my tribe. And even if I held my opinions in, and I stayed silent around my friends and family like there's still something really lonely about feeling like, even if they don't know it, like I know, that I don't fit in anymore. But to be honest, like I had kind of reached a point of no return where I felt like I need to think for myself and I need it like I need oxygen because I was just so surrounded by so much crazy for so long that I just was like starved. I was. I felt like I was starved for actual stuff. That makes sense. So I started listening. The people like Dave Rubin and Ben Shapiro and Larry Elder, and I remember thinking, Oh my gosh, there are people out there just peaking their mind, like speaking totally freely and making sense and, uh, like hallelujah I am not alone. I'm not alone thinking the way I think.

In the past, my exposure to conservative thought had basically been like this is not like joke, but basically it was limited. The clips of Sebastian Gorka shouting someone down for 45 seconds on CNN. So now I was listening to these conservative arguments, fully explained in their strongest form. And it was nothing short of an awakening. I don't use that word lightly. I felt like my whole left wing brainwashing and programming, I felt like it was falling like a house of cards and all the things that hadn't made sense that for years I was forcing myself to just ignore the fact that didn't make sense. It was like all of a sudden that stuff was falling away and I didn't have to believe things that I didn't really believe. I only have to believe things that are true that have evidence. Oh, my God. Life changing, life changing, you know, And I won't go into all the reasons that I really respect conservatism as a philosophy because that would take... that would be a whole other video, or a whole other set of tones. But I will say this the whole experience of breaking out of the progressive hive mind or the progressive echo chamber, was a pretty profound experience, and it made me realize a few things.

First, it made me realize that our mainstream media is garbage. I mean I knew it was. I knew there were some problems. No, like it is. It goes out of the way not just to not tell you things, but to obscure the truth, to twist the truth, to tell you something that is the opposite of the truth. It is that bad.

And what the other thing I kind of learned is that that same media, if you don't if you don't know what it's doing, it controls us on a profound level. I mean, I went through years off ignoring, ignoring clues, ignoring clues, ignoring clues because I was sort of washed over with this media that told me the things that I see with my eyes and ears in real life those aren't riel. The stuff on the telly is real. Yeah, you know, don't believe your own eyes and ears believe the television. And for years I did, and I think of myself as a like a good critical thinker or like someone who thinks for themselves. But I was duped for years.

So at this point in my life, I can proudly say I am a conservative woman. And I have no shame now saying that because now I know what it means to say you're a conservative. And all the reasons that I thought I was a Democrat, I after I went through all these experiences in my life, all those reasons I thought I was a Democrat, being tolerant, being caring about fairness. All those reasons I thought I was a Democrat are now the reasons that I will be... Going forward, I'll be voting Republican if anyone still watching the super long video. Thanks for watching and God bless the USA.