21:50:51 To [Voodoomoo]: We ever going to talk again?
21:51:31 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Hm? I just haven't bothered logging into MSN lately. Really dont care to talk to anyone really.
21:52:17 To [Voodoomoo]: Just kinda seemed like you were avoding me cause everytime I msg'd you you'd log..
21:53:21 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Na. Zwerg told me you said something. But I went away from the keyboard last night to do a few things around the house. I don't really stay to long around the computer. To hot in my room. When I came back though my power cord fell out and died. So I
21:53:29 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: said fuck it and sat in the living room.
21:53:50 To [Voodoomoo]: But your seriously not avoiding me?
21:54:04 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Na why would I avoid you?
21:54:05 To [Voodoomoo]: Cause like after the third time it was kinda like.... okay....wtf...
21:54:25 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: No. Lol. I haven't really been logging on a lot lately.
21:54:35 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: For the past while.
21:54:53 To [Voodoomoo]: lol. Kinda assumed you were sucked into Minecraft most of the time also.
21:55:15 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Minecraft, Starcraft. Then it's just been the heat. Sweating my ass off hasn't been really worth it.
21:55:44 To [Voodoomoo]: We hit 111F today.... I had to sit outside for a 9 hour shift... I was pissed and turned into a puddle.
21:57:01 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Lol.
21:57:14 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Yeah it's been hot. As hell.
21:57:51 To [Voodoomoo]: But yeah... Just been wondering wtf is going between us. Haven't gotten to talk to you at all. Was upset last night cause like I don't want to loose you as a friend and all that
21:59:04 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: I'm not gonna lie. I've been really irritated through this whole thing..talking to zwerg a few days ago. I dunno. I know I'm your friend but so am I. But understanding the pain hes going through every single day. I understood and felt what he was going
21:59:08 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: through..
21:59:40 To [Voodoomoo]: I'm not mad at what you did. Not even the slightest little bit. I see why you did and what your intentions were.
21:59:47 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: I've had a wide..mixed of feelings lately and...yeah I dunno. What to really think about everything.
22:00:42 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: My intentions wasn't to break your trust. I never wanted to make you mad. Just, when he talked to me about everything. I dunno. It just..made me a litle mad because I thought you respected him a little more, and our friendship. Like I understand theres
22:01:23 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: spats and stuff but I dunno..It was just really confusing how he would say that you were saying one thing and then saying another to me. Just made me felt like you were even lying to me..or just..making me hate zwerg just to be more so on your side about
22:01:35 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: things And it really didn't have to be like that. You know I care for the both of you.
22:01:39 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Equally.
22:02:11 To [Voodoomoo]: Yeah I know. I honestly did not know I was talking that badly about him to you. And going back and reading our convos was a huge eye opener.
22:03:24 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Yeah..It's like I told him. I said to him that I didn't like him period..because of the way you would talk about him lol. I was like yeah I thought you were a real doucher.
22:03:30 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: But yeah. I dunno.
22:03:59 To [Voodoomoo]: Yeah. Sorry for making you think falsly about him. Wish I could go back and change things.
22:04:05 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Honestly I've just needed a massive break from that. Reminds me way to much of my relationship lol..stressing to the mac.
22:04:07 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: er max.
22:04:36 To [Voodoomoo]: Sorry to bring you into our issues. :(
22:05:26 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: No it's fine. And it's like I told Zwerg :/. Lol. This is what I get for that because I care for the both of you. I want you two to be happy but I'm trying to find a divider and help you figure out things. And with Zwerg lately it's been some deep serious
22:05:43 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: talks about things. But.
22:05:50 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: I feel things are ok.
22:05:56 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: I just hope they get better.
22:06:28 To [Voodoomoo]: Between him and I. Idk there's times when were laughing, flirting, got into cyber? lol, and ya know BF/GF things. and then he just
22:06:35 To [Voodoomoo]: Goes down hill so to say
22:08:22 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: He's worried. And hes scared. What happened to him, and the stuff hes seen, heard. He's lost a lot of trust that hes slowly trying to build back up. Trust me..the things that recently happened wth everything. It's really surprising he gave you a second ch
22:08:25 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: chance.
22:09:05 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: But he believes things will change. But he's slowly going to need that time to heal. And thats probably when the down times comes. Scarrs reopen. But yeah.
22:09:15 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: It's gonna take him time. But hopefully he pulls through.
22:09:31 To [Voodoomoo]: I know he's hurting and everything and I know it's not going to be an instant fix.... which to him it kinda seems like that's what he's hoping for... But idk past two days we've been great.. He hasn't showed any sign of being hurt. Which looks like a step
22:09:34 To [Voodoomoo]: forward
22:11:51 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Yeah. That is a good thing. Like I said hes gonna have his days really.
22:12:33 To [Voodoomoo]: I know. But like I said... I don't think he gets the fact that it's going to take time... Like He said something about if I don't feel better in a week... it's like... really? A week?
22:12:47 To [Voodoomoo]: This isn't a kiss kiss hug hug thing and all is better.
22:13:50 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Well I dunno. He's worried..honestly I feel he sometimes feels it..isn't worth it. Like it is..but he feels worried that it may happen again I guess...I guess he has days where he feels maybe not being together is better then trying to fix something that
22:13:56 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: on his part he may never get over.
22:14:03 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: But I know he is trying.
22:14:20 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Which is why he continues to push for the vacation.
22:14:44 To [Voodoomoo]: I know he's trying also and I'm right here willing to drop everything to be there for him. But lately he's been putting words in my mouth which is annoying.
22:15:09 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Words as in what?
22:15:45 To [Voodoomoo]: Like stuff about Sean that I have NEVER said... We even go back to the convos and it's not said anywhere and it's like.... Stop puttnig words in my mouth...
22:15:49 To [Voodoomoo]: He knows he does it.
22:16:12 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Ah. Yeah that really :\ sucks.
22:16:28 To [Voodoomoo]: And ontop of that... I feel like he isn't listening to me...
22:18:22 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Hm..not sure as to why he would be feeling that way. Unless thats just the angery part or side of him kind of coming about. Dealing with something like that I guess it's really hard for him to push...try to forget and try.
22:18:38 To [Voodoomoo]: Like he hears me but when he gets into his "moods" my words are compltely throown out and he makes up his own words to put in my mouth..
22:19:47 To [Voodoomoo]: It's like.... don't do that cause your going to fill yourself up with lies about me..

22:20:53 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Honestly Natalie. I feel deep down he's trying SO hard to trust you. But he just doesn't have that 'spark' like he used to..and hes scared with having that spark gone..cause once that goes usually everyting falls behind it..
22:21:15 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: And I think thats whats upsetting him the most. The fact that he loves you so damn much. But at the same time it hurts to much.
22:21:37 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: I was amazed at how him and I are alike when it comes to relationships..x.x...
22:21:57 To [Voodoomoo]: Yeah... I know all of this.
22:23:23 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Yeah..
22:23:54 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: Trust me..I've sat there and gave him both of my thoughts on IF he decides to leave. And thoughts on if he decides to stay.
22:23:57 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: But for now
22:24:07 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: He told me he's giving you a second chance.
22:24:12 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: And hes keeping his promise.
22:24:31 <GM>[Voodoomoo] whispers: And for that I give that man 100 kudos. Cause..not many people would. Shows you how much he loves you.
22:25:06 To [Voodoomoo]: Yeah and I appreciate that from him and I'm doing my best to change for the man.