Hello reader. Today I'm going to elaborate on my experience with The Crit Squad, or Crit for short. It was a guild that I was a part of for a short time, and while I was there I just so happened to join the discord. The discord is an absolute fucking mess, and so is the guild. Never ever join either one of them. Never associate with Crit. Here's why.

During my time there I experienced alot of bullshit, including bullying, sexism, harassment, the list goes fucking on. One night, Darian aka duckduckdawg thought to himself "hey, i'm gonna be a little bitch to amelia and see what happens" so he started to fight with me. I didn't want to stop fighting until I had won. But all of the little fuckboys that suck leaderboarders dicks including looebag, oonaugh, thickdad and more that I can't remember started ganging up on me and harassing me to leave. I kept trying to stop it but they wouldn't. They just kept going at me. I felt so fucking attacked, like I should have listened to everyone saying that I should just quit blitz, like everyone fucking HATES me. I just decided to fucking leave at that point. It was crushing me that my main game was full of people that absolutely hated me. I told Maj about everything and all he went on to tell me that it was MY fault and he practically forced me to apologize.



Mason - 03/15/2018
I was trying to give you advice lol
amelia - 03/15/2018
I appreciate it
I'm not mad at you
It's just pointless staying there knowing that I'll just get everyone to hate me in a matter of minutes again
Mason - 03/15/2018
do you care about what people think of you?
amelia - 03/15/2018
very
Mason - 03/15/2018
is that sarcastic?
amelia - 03/15/2018
nope
Mason - 03/15/2018
okay
do you want me to tell you what to do
because it will fix all your problems very quickly
amelia - 03/15/2018
"stop caring"
ive heard it before
doesnt help
Mason - 03/15/2018
no
you go back on the discord and apologize to everyone
even if you don't mean it
sometimes you have to sacrifice your ego in order to be accepted by people
humility is a good trait and people respect it
amelia - 03/15/2018
you're still acting like this is completely my fault
i'll make a deal
Mason - 03/15/2018
it's not
they're being dickheads
amelia - 03/15/2018
if they all apologize to me, i'll apologize to them
Mason - 03/15/2018
but that's who they are
amelia - 03/15/2018
i dont think its fair for me to apologize without one back
would you agree?
Mason - 03/15/2018
no
you need to show humility
do your part, and whether they verbalize it or not, they will respect you more
I promise you
amelia - 03/15/2018
i think im fine with 6 blitz playing douchebags hating me in that case
Mason - 03/15/2018
no one will like you if you don't get past your ego
but that's ultimately your choice
amelia - 03/15/2018
It's not even my ego at this point
It's my dignity
My self respect
Mason - 03/15/2018
synonyms
amelia - 03/15/2018
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
so do you hate me now
just curious
Mason - 03/15/2018
oh
no
I just want you to do the right thing
I don't think people should hate you
and that's how you get them to not hate you
it makes me sad to see that you can't be humble
EVEN if you're right
it's okay to say you're wrong
amelia - 03/15/2018
i tried to be humble
didnt you see?
i attempted to make a peace offering
and they blew it
so why bother trying again when they're just gonna spew out some "women shouldnt play blitz" bullshit
Mason - 03/15/2018
best way to handle that is to just play along
just make some joke about women being objects
if you deflect darian's jokes he'll stop making them
amelia - 03/15/2018
really?
Mason - 03/15/2018
yeah lol
just agree with his jokes
and then there won't be any point in making them
amelia - 03/15/2018
hm.
okay fine.
ill take an invite back.
dont expect everything to be peachy right away though
that wont happen tonight, if at all
Mason - 03/15/2018
what are you going to say
amelia - 03/15/2018
"can we stop bickering like immature little pricks this is blitz sg whats the point of fighting"
hows that sound
Mason - 03/15/2018
nope
apologize or it won't work
I promise you
amelia - 03/15/2018
"can we stop bickering like immature little pricks this is blitz sg whats the point of fighting also sorry"
Mason - 03/15/2018
no lol
amelia - 03/15/2018
sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorry
if i dont catch their attention they'll just ignore me
Mason - 03/15/2018
more to the tune of "I'm sorry for acting like an idiot"
or "that was uncalled for"
and then a line about how there's no need for you to get upset at the game and call people out
maybe a line about how you're trying to learn to play better
or it's hard for you around a lot of new people
there are a lot of options
amelia - 03/15/2018
I'm not gonna call myself an idiot but I'll think of something
Mason - 03/15/2018
let me know
amelia - 03/15/2018
Listen, I just want you guys to hear me out here.
I'm not trying to start anything. No more drama, no more fights. I want to apologize for being stuck up and not accepting defeat when I should have.
I was being stupid. I get it. No need to make fun of me anymore than you already have.
There's really no need to call people out, especially in a public discord.
I still disagree with some things you said, like "all females that play blitz are wholly retarded", which is absolutely not true.
I was just acting like a dumbass.
I'm not gonna sit here and beg on my knees for any of you to like me.
This is merely a peace offering.
You guys don't have to like me, I don't have to like you guys.
But instead of being immature, we can pretend like nothing ever happened and simply deal with the fact that we share one discord server.
Please don't act like a dick to me just because of this.
I'm sorry.
Mason - 03/15/2018
Listen, I just want you guys to hear me out here.
I'm not trying to start anything. No more drama, no more fights. I want to apologize for being stuck up and not accepting defeat when I should have.
I was being stupid. I get it. No need to make fun of me anymore than you already have.
There's really no need to call people out, especially in a public discord.
I still disagree with some things you said, like "all females that play blitz are wholly retarded", which is absolutely not true.
I was just acting like a dumbass.
I'm sorry.
fixed it for you
the second half is passive aggressive
for no reason
which won't help you
amelia - 03/15/2018
But instead of being immature, we can pretend like nothing ever happened and simply deal with the fact that we share one discord server.
this is passive agressive?
Mason - 03/15/2018
kind of
let's unpack that statement
you're saying that they're being immature (which they don't want to hear and won't help you)
and you're saying that you have an established place on the discord  (which they don't want to hear and won't help you)
amelia - 03/15/2018
wdym established place
i am confused
Mason - 03/15/2018
like
"MINE"
kinda thing
that's kinda eh
amelia - 03/15/2018
where did i imply that
Mason - 03/15/2018
that's what it comes off as
I'm reading it through their eyes
amelia - 03/15/2018
but how does it come off as that im so confused
Mason - 03/15/2018
just trust me
amelia - 03/15/2018
just tell me why it comes off that way
Please don't act like a dick to me just because of this.
if i change this slightly
i think it would be fine
Mason - 03/15/2018
I'm going to remind you to let go of your pride
amelia - 03/15/2018
I really hate what you're implying here
I have self-respect, you know
I'm not just gonna beat myself up so 6 blitz players can like me
Mason - 03/15/2018
You might see it when you're older or study personality traits
But it is advantageous to be an agreeable person in order to change someone's opinion
You and I are similar in that we are disagreeable people
Which is good in a lot of ways
Except for how other people see us
In those cases, we need to fake agreeableness
Which is what I'm advising you to do
https://discord.gg/hhEyne
Mason - 03/15/2018
might wanna tag em
amelia - 03/15/2018
cant tag people people in a public discord it means im upset :flushed:
Mason - 03/15/2018
this is a good exception
especially if you're apologizing to certain people
amelia - 03/15/2018
if they're as active as they say they are they'll see it
one already has
Mason - 03/15/2018
just tag darian and adam lol


I don't wanna read through the whole thing again as it will just make me sad. But from what I remember it's him telling me that I'm egotistical and that I need to say sorry or else more people will hate me. I, of course, did apologize. Not because I meant it, not because I was surrendering to their "all women in bsg are retarded" bullshit, not because I wanted them to think I was a good person, but because I wanted everyone there to like me. I wanted them to think of me as someone they could talk to, and trust. Big fucking mistake on my part. I got kicked right after I called out Airliners for cheating. Good thing nobody believed my apology anyways, according to what ThickDad had to say lol.

I don't want to bring anyone down as there are still certain people in that discord/guild that I'm friends with. But mostly everyone that has anything to do with crit is a fucking egotistical controlling asshole that gets what he wants. And yes, I'm saying "he" because most of the females in that discord/guild I never got the chance to talk to/weren't involved in my leaving.

I'm going to talk about all of the members of the guild according to the hypixel crit squad page. if i put a question mark next to their name it means i dont know their actual name and im assuming lol

MajesticWalrus / Mason - was really nice for the most part but it put a sour taste in my mouth ever since the incident where he forced me to apologize.

ToxicPlaysBlitz / Julian - been friends with this guy since last year, he's pretty genuine and he knows when someones fucked up. he's a pretty good guy, and he wasn't involved in my leaving at all.

looebag / Louis (?) - was highly involved in me leaving crit. he seemed nice, but when its a leaderboarder vs someone with 6k kills you know whos dick he's gonna suck.

ThickDad / Troy - was highly involved in me leaving crit. he was the only officer that cheats, and he was very open about the fact that he used a client for most of his time playing blitz. but its still "better game sense" according to darian. he told me to shut the fuck up multiple times, and is overall not a great person.

Rubbin / Robin - wasnt involved in me leaving crit. i do have past experiences with him though, as he's blatantly cheated on me as well as other people who have gotten video evidence.

ChrisNumberz / Chris - wasnt involved in me leaving crit. didnt get to talk to him at all. no comment on him.

relika / Juliette - seems nice, didn't get to talk to her alot either. no comment on her.

zaliance / ? - was lowly involved in me leaving crit. he probably said one message to me, and that's about it. blatantly cheated on me before, but still denies it.

tomcool / Tom - was one of the people that made me want to stay. he was nice to me, and i was nice to him. we were chill with each other.

JakeGoBOOM / Josh - wasnt involved in me leaving crit. blatantly cheated on me, as well as other people who have gotten video evidence.