[02:15] A stare, seconds would pass as Bai regarded their friend. Noticing the hint of annoyance in their composure however a light-hearted chuckle is given and Bai quickly moved to walk next to him. With one swift pat, he'd knock Sal on the shoulder with his mage-strength, "Alright, alright. Do what you have to do, what you need to do."

Passing by Sal, they'd push open the door to the building and look back at the young man for a mere moment, right before turning to look into the house, "Just so you know Sal, you're part of the family...If you have problems, speak with me, I 'can' always assist. Not to mention because of that you have a home you need to return to!" Their voice was filled with glee, strangely jolly compared to the subtle heavy attitude he had when discussing with Aly.

Then, they were gone, into the doorway to situate themselves inside.
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[02:16] The magi pursed his lips, his features softening.

"A woman," he admitted with a sigh after the Long's words.

"It irritates me so much," scowled Salthiel.
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[02:16] Bai actually gives an audible laugh as they close the door, though now a bit confused why he gave the arcanium to Guren.
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[02:29] Salthiel sighs, chuckling for a bit.
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[02:35] Salthiel cast his gaze down upon the ground. When he said he was going out, he never had the intention of coming back.
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[02:39] Salthiel lay his leg against the ground. "Many things, brother. I want to fight, without anything holding me back. To not be swayed by emotions like romantic love or wrath. But, no matter what I do, I remain at a loss. I remain weak. I remain insignificant."
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[02:39] Salthiel Anauel says, "And now."
[02:39] Salthiel glances to Alyka.
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[02:39] Salthiel Anauel says, "Such emotions clouded my judgement, clouded what I already have."
[02:40] Salthiel Anauel says, "I don't even know if I'm fighting for the right thing anymore."
[02:41] Bai Long says, "As long as you fight for yourself, or for those you truly...TRULY, want to protect, then you're fighting for the right thing."
[02:44] Bai slammed open the door, having been eavesdropping for majority of the conversation so far.
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[02:44] Bai Long exclaims, "As long as you fight for yourself, or for those you truly...TRULY, want to protect, then you're fighting for the right thing!"
[02:45] Salthiel remained silent, before parting his lips open as if to say something in response to the Zam. However, no words seemed to leave his mouth. Then, the Long suddenly appeared, loudly opening the door of his home. "Ah. Maybe, you're right," he said and smiled.
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[02:54] After bursting out of the door, speaking their select words, Bai stopped right in front of Sal, staring down at their friend, dead in the eye, "I've been listening from inside and I've got to say now Sal...You've got me worried, so that's why I think it's time me and you have a very simple conversation, like the ones you had with Zer before, or maybe like the ones you had with Satsuki on Illuminated." A pause is taken as they gave a motion for the young man to follow him inside.

"And...You can listen in as well Aly, now come, come, inside for a bit."
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[02:56] Salthiel seemed not to breath, before closing his eyes and nodding his head. He respected the Long so much that he felt it not right to ignore him. He is family, forever will be, and he is also a benefactor.
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[03:01] They stood on the cobbled together floor, blue eyes staring deeply at their younger friend. At this point Salthiel was practically a younger brother, someone they actually dotted on, as shown by the various potions they stuffed him with.

A single step brought him closer, closing the distance between the two of them, "I've got a few select things to say...But I'll tell you now Sal, I'm not the 'smartest' cookie in our family, I don't think too hard on these things, or maybe I think too hard?" Pausing they'd just continue staring, awaiting the momentary answer.
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[03:04] Truly they dotted on him a lot, and they required not even payments for all the potions he consumed.

However, the act and the thought itself of caring for him? Realizing struck upon the young magi, that it was a debt he could never pay.

Thus, he remained only silent as he looked down.
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[03:20] "Sal, I love you, just like I love Ban, Zer, Ter, and Yui." There was a small pause, as Bai gave his true feelings out, yet right after he finished speaking a sudden sullen atmosphere filled his face, "And I'll tell you now...If anyone dared to harm our family, to tarnish any of you, to..." A momentary glance is given across the entire body of Sal, leading to Bai scanning his eyes, that were once wounded.

"Injure one in such a way, I'd 'slaughter' them." Knuckles cracked out of sheer anger, at himself for their inability to protect the youngest of them all, "Whether it be a Vampire, a Qilin, or just some magi...It doesn't matter, I will always, always, be on your sides." Soon they had calmed down, breathing growing relaxed as the usual smile took their face, a façade that hid the few dark feelings that penetrated their being.

"Simple, right? This is my advice for you, the few words that I go by against everything. Nobody else matters but you and those that 'you' care about, people think your wrathful tendencies are bad, that you should change? Fuck them, fuck everyone that takes their side, fuck their mother...It doesn't matter, in the 'least'." As they spoke a hand reached into their pocket, a single petal being removed from some reagent they had right before it was tossed into his mouth and chewed up.

"I'm sure you get the picture, but one more just to give an idea. Boy or girl doesn't like you after liking you? Fuck them." Constant fucks were thrown,curses that normally never left Bai's mouth all released in this one conversation, it was definitely a different face of the usual only happy and calm man.

"For me though, I want to protect all of you, I want all of you to succeed in whatever you want to do, whether it be killing vampires, bringing good to the world...Having your child be born, I 'want' to help fulfill and protect you along the way of what you want to do, what all of you want to do, and that's why Sal...Fuck anyone that thinks otherwise of anything any of you want to do." Finishing speaking, they released one last cuss, giving a small chuckle at their own profanity.
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[03:36] "Mister Bai, you've given me a lot of things. You sought nothing in return, and I, I only thought of myself. Of gaining strength without thinking of those who has helped me in my journey thus far," he said.

"Yet, despite that, you still speak of protecting me; protecting our family. And you have the utmost confidence in me," added the Anauel as he closed his eyes, flinching as the mark at the base of his neck throbbed. However, it was ignored.

"And I returned that with what, with ignoring your words and advice. I returned that with arrogance. But you never tire.

So, please forgive me. Forgive me for being selfish. Forgive me for losing my way," Salthiel said, and bowed lowly to the Long.
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[03:43] No words were spoken about the low bow, only a smile is given as they begin making their way to the nearby chair, "I plan to give you more things then just those as well Sal." Arms crossed, their visage as upbeat as usual, if not a bit more. Cussing really did knock some stress off of his shoulders, that's for sure, "Of course I have confidence in you, and...You're forgiven, just, can you make me worry about you a bit less? When I say that, I mean do less worrying things, but if you do...Tell. Me."

Strictly speaking the last two words, his neck would rest against the chair he was on, "So, do you still plan on going out for a bit then Sal?" Gingerly he asked, motioning to get the young mans attention.
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[03:49] "No, I don't plan to," he said after he straightened his back, shaking his head.

"I planned to go out, to hunt, to kill. And perhaps to die. And to never come back. Because I didn't want to be looked at as someone who only brings trouble. Someone fool hearted. And someone who wishes only to impress," said Salthiel.

"To gain strength was all I sought for, yet what it brought me was only weakness," glanced Salthiel to Bai.

"And mister Bai, I never realized your concern, your worry. I feel the same to you, and would do the same. I would turn the world upside down if something ever happens to you. Because that's how much I care and love my family. So, I'd try my best to confide. Because that's what family does, no?"
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[03:55] "That's exactly it, we confide, we help each other, we protect each other. That is family!" Brightly they non-chalantly waved off the whole 'suicide' aspect of what Sal has said, it wasn't something that was going to happen...So it was something that didn't need to be spoken about after all.

"We do our patrols for a reason you know, it's to hunt and work towards the whole...Killing of Vampires? I'm sort of leaving whatever happens up to Zer and you on that." Light-heartedly they shrugged, feeling rather relieved after speaking their heart out.
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[04:06] "Demons and vampires, yes," he said and nodded his head.

However, change may be slow, taking time. However, epiphany hits an individual with strength and impact akin to none.

And that was what the magi experienced.

Epiphany.

To confide, however, would take time. Akin to change, akin to development.

Where would he start? Perhaps to confide with Bai about a woman he loves.
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[04:06] Salthiel Anauel says, "Mister Bai. "
[04:06] Salthiel Anauel asks, "Do you know Yotanwa?"
[04:06] Bai Long says, "I do."
[04:06] Bai Long says, "The 'retainer'."
[04:06] Bai Long says, "That calls themselves a farmer."
[04:06] Salthiel Anauel says, "Mhm. I confessed and she confessed."
[04:06] Bai Long asks, "Oh?"
[04:07] Salthiel Anauel says, "Yes. One can involve the age gap, and perhaps frown upon a relationship due to it."
[04:08] Bai Long says, "Though it should be obvious Sal, and I'm sure you know."
[04:08] Salthiel Anauel asks, "Hm?"
[04:08] Bai Long says, "None of us here would care...Though we'd definitely poke fun."
[04:08] Salthiel Anauel says, "Yes..."
[04:08] Salthiel Anauel says, "I... guess."
[04:08] Salthiel Anauel says, "However."
[04:09] Salthiel Anauel says, "When she said she wanted to be with me, to be her woman, I couldn't."
[04:09] Bai Long asks, "Wa-...She wanted you to be her 'woman'?"
[04:09] Salthiel Anauel says, "I love her, and I love her still."
[04:09] Salthiel Anauel says, "No no."
[04:09] Salthiel Anauel says, "She wanted herself to be my woman."
[04:10] Bai Long says, "Oh, I understand."
[04:10] Salthiel Anauel says, "She asked me to think of what we could have been."
[04:10] Salthiel Anauel says, "And I said, we could have a family. Even children."
[04:10] Salthiel Anauel says, "But, I told her such life was beyond me."
[04:11] Salthiel Anauel says, "I love her so much that I can't- that I can't put her to such suffering."
[04:11] Salthiel Anauel asks, "We hunt, we roam. What if tomorrow, I die?"
[04:11] Salthiel Anauel says, "I cannot fathom the thought of leaving her in suffering and pain."
[04:11] Salthiel Anauel says, "She said she understood, and she accepted that fact."
[04:11] Bai Long says, "...Mmm."
[04:12] Salthiel Anauel says, "That she will be with me, whatever will happen."
[04:12] Bai Long asks, "Do you know about Aly and Ells situation Sal?"
[04:12] Salthiel Anauel says, "Yes...."
[04:12] Salthiel gritted his teeth at the very thought of it.
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[04:16] A momentary sigh, "I'd rather not bring this up, as...You know, but you also know that they both fell in love, so they got married. It is a normal thing, especially here on Agartha." A hand motions to the house around them, though mostly to the landmass they lived on.

"Nobody knows when they are going to die here, in this land. You might die tomorrow, I might die tomorrow...Though we won't, Yotanwa might die tomorrow." A moment was given after they spoke, breathing in and out ever so lightly.

"So why worry about that you will die when they can very well die just as easily by walking...And I'll tell you now, this just happened a few hours ago, walk outside the settlement only to meet a kaor."
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[04:24] "I know, I understand. And even I, myself, told them that fact. Nobody knows who will be dying tomorrow. So, I told them to relish the moment of being with each other. To form bond and memories of each other. To find happiness in a world of darkness," he said with a pained voice.

"But, what I do not wish to inflict is pain. Pain because of my death, or pain generally caused by me. I simply cannot. I cannot allow it. Therefore, I've chosen not to be with Yotanwa, despite myself wanting to. Despite herself wanting to.

Simply, because I cannot. I will fight within the battlefield, and die on it. That is my creed, and I'll never forgive myself if someone suffers because of it.

However, it's painful. Whenever I see her, it's painful. I can't even talk to her normally. She seems cold, and I do not blame her for it. I rejected her.

But, it's painful.

I can't-

I don't know what to do. I wish to end this pain, to move on. And it's hard," he said and closed his eyes, tear falling off his right cheek.
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[04:25] Salthiel Anauel says, "I've never felt this way... and I feel so vulnerable, so weak..."
[04:33] Bai listened, in silence as they watched Sal slowly breakdown. A small pang struck his heart, just seeing their younger sibling in so much pain, "I thank you for confiding in me...I really mean it." Fingers slowly intertwined, eyes closing as they gave Salthiel the privacy of how they looked right now.

"I can only give one piece of advice...and it's simple, if you truly love this girl and they truly love you back, ask them to wait then. Ask them to wait until you feel comfortable enough to think you'll survive the next day." It was their only advice, one thought up after a lot of thoughts rushed through his mind.

"And before you say, you don't want them to wait on you...I'll remind you that they are a Dryad, if I know my lore correctly, they live about three timesas long as us?"
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[04:35] The youth glanced to Bai, shadows under their his lids, the white of his eyes reddened by his tears.

"Assuming your lore is right, what do you mean? To ask them to wait, but not wanting them to wait on you?"
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[04:36] Bai Long says, "Really, if this is as much as it seems to be...I doubt you even need to ask them to wait."
[04:36] Bai Long says, "Because they will either way."
[04:36] Salthiel Anauel asks, "Ah. Even after I told her that it's impossible for me to be with her?"
[04:36] Bai the love guru is giving advice, he has lots of credentials.
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[04:37] Bai Long asks, "Probably?"
[04:38] Salthiel Anauel asks, "Why would someone wait for someone who told them that he'll never be with them?"
[04:38] Salthiel Anauel says, "If I were them, I'd try to move on. Not wait....."
[04:38] Bai Long says, "Not like I'm Yotanwa, so I don't know their mindset...But they seemed to be pretty...Whats the word."
[04:38] Bai Long says, "One track."
[04:38] Salthiel Anauel asks, "What do you mean?"
[04:39] Bai Long says, "They've got a one-track mind, or at least thats what it seemed like when I spoke with them."
[04:40] Salthiel Anauel says, "Mister Bai."
[04:40] Salthiel Anauel says, "I love her, yes."
[04:40] Salthiel Anauel says, "But, what I wish to do is to completely erase such emotion."
[04:41] Salthiel Anauel says, "To be completely null of it."
[04:41] Bai Long asks, "That's what you wish to do?"
[04:41] Bai Long asks, "You're certain?"
[04:41] Salthiel Anauel says, "That is my wish..."
[04:41] Salthiel Anauel says, "To end the pain."
[04:41] Salthiel Anauel says, "But my feelings doesn't seem to agree."
[04:42] Bai Long says, "...Well Sal, I need some sleep, so I'll give you some advice."
[04:42] Salthiel Anauel asks, "Hm?"
[04:44] Bai Long says, "Either go with your feelings and enjoy what you can, or forget, ignore their existence...Maybe I can concoct you something that'll make you 'forget', or you just get over it naturally. "
[04:44] Salthiel Anauel says, "I'd.... rather have something that will make me forget."
[04:44] Bai Long says, "Just, please don't throw yourself into danger to try and fight away this 'pain'."
[04:44] Bai Long says, "That'd just be you passing on the pain to others."
[04:44] Salthiel Anauel says, "It seems you've finally caught up."
[04:44] Salthiel Anauel says, "And- I'm sorry..."
[04:44] Salthiel Anauel says, "I didn't realize that."