Dead in the head Lyrics

Here I jot this line\contaplating snortin a line/
Cuz inside I ain't feelin fine\ alaways Running laps inside of my mind/

Let keep it real/with lyrics you can feel.
I feel lost in my mind/Looking back in time
i'm spitting raps that everyone think is crap
But fuck it, I didn't write it for you,

so shut the fuck up Before i beat you in the face
with a metal Bat/Ya I know my style is wack
Did ya expect me to give a crap? fuck you I Snapped!
No one could relate, to all this pain and hate

As I try my best to break free from this gate
I know it can't be to late I'm trying to defy fate
While everyone around me has nothing for me but hate
I write these letters to get this pain out of my head
crying my pain away in bed wishin I was fucking dead
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My fate I wanna seal it This rap i wanna kill it
What cuz you cant see doesn't mean i can't feel it
I guess my pain must be to real for you to feel it
As I look for any answer to help me heal it
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Fuck everyone who never ever give a crap
Don't forget why you started to rap
You Finally snapped
Sick of fake fucks saying they have my back
Always trying to show me what it is I lack
Never there to spit a verse with me to make a rap
Do what you do best, be a fuckin pest
Stay pissed, cuz i'm laying your asses to rest
I'm cutting all you bad apples from the tree
You don't realize how hard it is to be me


Many think im just uneducated
While i just wonder if anyone ever related
But no one gave 2 fucks not even people that are related
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It sucks big nuts. to be stuck in ruts, to the point
Ya go nuts
It sucks when you know when you die you won't be missed
Trying to figure out why i'm so pissed

Its why I rap it beats slitting my wrist
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Can you please help me find my broken heart
Between all the Ruckish we drifted apart
I can't find it, I even went back to the start
And I can't see in here my soul is to dark
Oh shit look i found a piece of my broken heart

I can't even sleep the pain haunts me in my dreams
Where no one can hear my screams
Nightmares more real than it seems
Our future staying hazy
Screaming to my wife
"PLZ don't leave me Baby!"
Tell me i'm not Crazy! At least give me a maybe!
I can't take it Without you i'd never make it
So here I face my fear I don't need this life
As I grab for a knife, say fuck it, I'll end it all here
I just wanna give you and our kids a better life
So I guess i'll see you all in the after life
As I wake from the dream in bed
Shaking my head wishing it was real and i was dead
Fuck whats wrong inside my head