For the memories

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGpypPiPbVE

couldnt save you couldnt save me couldnt feel anything

time is a haze the days flow together a river of consciousness of the fact that i have nothing to do
nothing to say
nothing to save
nothing to feel
couldnt save you couldnt save me or feel anything

what is the point if not to laugh and point at an image a person inside or online
we run and hide and check all the likes on a post that has nothing to do with us
the layers of a personality as complicated as fabricated for betrayer fear
fear of people
fear of mere words mere letters written to a rhythm manage to do more for me than the people
the people i help the people i save it all aint for me or my ego
it aint for no one
its for nobody
nobody you can see
its for the dead and the ghosts
for the haunting memories
for the souls of a thousand pure energies turned to black and ash in the dirt below
those that felt like they didnt belong those that wanted to be down and go
without breath without goal seeking escape without life seeking death without suffering without pain without anything
without anyone
not to feel anything
the lives of many are worth the few in any moment in any time
as the clock flows and turns and goes they still dont let go
as the knives cut and the blood flows and they feel so low
standing on the precipice
a mere breeze so treacherous
falling eternal
cold depths internal

who are you who are we to say what we feel what we think what we are or what we do
who are you
who are me
the few or the many
a river of consciousness a single thought | or a lot | a ho | or a thot
a slut or a cunt
who are they to call themselves that
reflect it back
what they call you yet | you are them | you are they | you are humane
youre a human
no solution
then a breeze blows

single slice a gunshot a bullet wound bleeding out of tears of fears of a pain so sincere
a panic in those beautiful brown eyes
a struggle to hold on
to go on is to suffer but to die is to never be at peace
it's so hard to be tougher to not lie down and cease
but please hold on
never ever are you alone | you got you | you got me |you got them | who am i but a thought in your head
who doesnt wish you dead

you seek escape you dont seek death take a breath youre yours to keep your yours to sleep
on
go on
bawl your eyes out grab a hold of the knife but you dont want it do you
you want life
you want a life
not to survive but to thrive in an environment cold and sadistic
torturous and conflicted
a hellscape of feelings of insults and pain
everyone swimming but youre slowly drowning
being pushed under by the weight of the water
by the weight of the waiter asking you how its going
by the weight of your mother asking you how you doing
youre not
but you say yes you hide it they wouldnt get it they wouldnt understand
they dont feel

you pray its not real

who are you who are they who are me who are they who are you who are me
the people i help the people i save it all aint for me or my ego
it aint for no one
its for nobody
nobody you can see
its for the dead and the ghosts
for the haunting memories
for the souls of a thousand pure energies turned to black and ash in the dirt below

please dont go

please dont let go

grab a hold of my hand i will pull you up a mere voice in your head
grab a hold and trust in me trust in my peace
take a piece of my soul and use it to mend your broken mind
your broken heart
your shattered light

i dont want more

i dont want more pain more suffering more torturous struggling to swim in an icy cold lake.

i want you to swim free to swim to the surface and breath
take a breath


who are you | who are me | who are they
who are you
who are me
the few or the many
the people i help the people i save it all aint for me or my ego
it aint for no one
its for nobody
nobody you can see
its for the dead and the ghosts
its for the haunting memories
for the souls of a thousand pure energies turned to black and ash in the dirt below

who are you who are we to say what we feel what we think what we are or what we do
the people i help the people i save it all aint for me or my ego
it aint for no one
its for nobody
nobody you can see
its for the dead and the ghosts
its for the haunting memories
for the souls of a thousand pure energies