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- Swing - Yesterday at 6:37 PM
- EXCUSE ME CHILD CAN I HAVE A WORD WITH YOU
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:38 PM
- Mmmhmm?
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:38 PM
- I need to know
- If you want to actually be speaking with me or if I should just
- kinda
- stay away or something because
- Discord isnt sending my messages
- OK
- I havent known really how to talk to you or approach you
- but I dont want to like
- ...not be your friend?
- BUT I FEEL LIKE IVE DONE SOMETHINGWRONG
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:40 PM
- Hmm.
- What brought this up tho
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:40 PM
- Me thinking
- While looking for rat tails for fishing
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:40 PM
- That's an odd thought.
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:40 PM
- (I googled it)
- I think about a lot of things
- One of them being all of the junk I've helped you through and wondering if you still want me around
- another being if I inhaled too much bugspray 10 minutes ago when I sprayed the plants
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:43 PM
- That's probably unhealthy
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:44 PM
- Well, yeah. I think im fine
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:44 PM
- I'd hope so
- What a sudden and difficult question you've given me
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:45 PM
- Well I've been thinking about it for a few days, but it got to that point where It bothered me
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:45 PM
- I've thought about it for a long while.
- It's conflicting
- Most honestly,
- I felt a little relieved when we started talking again
- But at the same time I didn't feel comfortable either.
- To tell you the truth I don't feel like I hold that same emotional connection with you
- I didn't know how to say it.
- Without potentially hurting you.
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:46 PM
- Well, yeah, that's what happens
- No, no it doesnt hurt. I prefer honesty over everything.
- Well, when it comes to things like this
- I cant be straightforward with certain things
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:47 PM
- I've been fighting Michael about it
- He kind of guilt tripped me back into the FC
- Because after what Lemon said to me
- And after how I felt about everyone
- I didn't want to come back
- He didn't even give me a day.
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:48 PM
- Well, I wasn't here for your leveling process, and I don't know who all helped you, so I don't really have a say
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:48 PM
- No one
- Except maybe Ness
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:48 PM
- but I CAN say that it's sort of a silly thing for both of you to be upset over
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:49 PM
- I got over it, but I just didn't really want to continue to talk to him
- He's so overly pushy
- And we clash if we talk too much to one another
- I.
- Hhh.
- Okay.
- I'm just going to say this all at once.
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:49 PM
- Ah.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:49 PM
- Just to finally get it off my chest
- The moment you all stepped into FF14 I felt so off
- And then you and Blaze got super close and I felt
- Well, physically uncomfortable
- Because Benji,
- You left Oliver and Chief behind
- I don't think you meant to do it on purpose
- But they both came to me.
- Both confused and kind of upset
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:50 PM
- Yep, I know. I unfortunately cant pay for everyone.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:50 PM
- I don't think that's the point, really..
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:51 PM
- I still spoke to them offhand
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:51 PM
- I mean apart from the game itself, they both said you were ignoring them
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:51 PM
- chief...never really played anything with me to begin with?
- And Oliver gave me attitude whenever I spoke to her, and the whole ordeal with Meena was happening, so I wasn't having it
- much like I was just ignoring anyone that tried to quip at me
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:52 PM
- Ordeal with Meena?
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:52 PM
- She got extremely stressed out and threatened to leave me
- and while she didnt mean it
- it still hit me really really hard
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:52 PM
- Hm.
- Sorry that everything happened at once I suppose.
- I just don't really know what to do.
- Michael wants me to stay friends with all of you
- But I want to run
- I feel like nothing ever really works out.
- And that this is just a constant and unfortunate loop
- I can't trust Six
- I can't trust Blaze
- You and I are so up and down
- It feels like I get hit with the weirdest shit all the time
- I do hope you realize why I was so upset with you way back when
- I never really said it outloud to you as I never got the chance to
- I guess it doesn't directly matter as much as it did then since you kind of distanced yourself from Snakai too
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:57 PM
- I had to
- Meena told me
- "I fucking hate Snakai. Fuck Snakai."
- And I just
- ...dropped him. Even if I worry.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:57 PM
- See like
- I got upset because you were pulling a 180 on my fucking ass
- Because you did the exact same thing I did with Kinnis
- But instead of Six throwing someone under the bus I threw you under the bus
- Not that it was much of a secret
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:58 PM
- Yeah six...already knew
- everyone did
- I was just more hurt by it and felt
- ..bad?
- I felt really bad
- Mobian - Yesterday at 6:59 PM
- Yeah I totally know how you feel
- Swing - Yesterday at 6:59 PM
- and then meena did what she did and I panicked and shoved everything away
- I actually spoke to Oliver yesterday
- and told her everything
- We both apologized and agreed to stay friends
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:00 PM
- But...with chief..I really don't know what to say or do
- I try to talk to him but he just strays the topic or doesnt respond
- but I did it back and he got upset????
- I figured it was an okay thing to do, I don't know
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:01 PM
- I don't know
- He felt obligated to come to ff14 because he wanted to be around you but it got overly complicated
- Ultimately I just told him to play for himself and to not be extremely fixated
- Snakai is kind of lowkey fucking him over
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:01 PM
- I mean..that's what I've been doing, really
- ..eh?
- I thought they stopped talking?
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:02 PM
- It's in relation to someone else
- But he's just talking bad about Chief openly
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:02 PM
- Oh, yeah he did that frequently...
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:02 PM
- Snakai is a very bad person!
- No matter what I cannot see him as otherwise.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:03 PM
- I'll just have to agree with you.
- He didn't treat me badly, but I know he does it to others.
- So that must mean he does it to me while im not looking?
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:03 PM
- I mean
- Most of the people you tried to talk to from your past
- May it be Peej, Curry, or Snakai
- I think the only one who didn't was colors
- But he wasn't really around for a long while
- I dunno, just bad people.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:05 PM
- I'm a fridge in a world of magnets.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:06 PM
- I guess it happens.
- I don't know.
- Michael wants me to be friends with all of you I didn't really know how to approach this.
- Basically.
- He stomped on my feelings for all of you.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:06 PM
- See thats
- ...ugh I feel disgusting saying this
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:07 PM
- Just go ahead.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:07 PM
- I'm trying to word it correctly
- it isnt the right or wrong thing to do
- but at the same time
- I...he should be sensitive to your feelings, and you should be wary of how much he hates being ignored
- but at the end you're both still together and you're both toughing it out
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:09 PM
- I almost killed him for forcing me back into the group
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:09 PM
- that's what matters, Aidan
- What matters is that you get through it together
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:10 PM
- I guess so.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:10 PM
- don't let go of each other, and everything will be okay.
- Cause' he's your best friend.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:10 PM
- I know.
- I feel like ass for thinking ill of you
- But at the same time I don't know if it's beneficial for the both of us to keep this up
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:12 PM
- It probably is
- we both just have to heal because we hurt each other
- that and you're still growing
- as much as you're probably done with hearing that
- But everything will be okay, if you let it.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:13 PM
- I don't know
- I just feel like history is constantly repeating itself
- And I need to somehow get out of the loop
- Or find somewhere else to go
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:14 PM
- If..that is what will make you happy.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:14 PM
- Nothing will ever make me truly happy
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:14 PM
- Then yes, that's what you need to do.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:14 PM
- But
- I just feel like
- Our group as a whole has never been that good
- Everything was always kind of stressful and toxic
- Well, not all the time.
- And it's not like I can directly blame you for all of it either
- I mean when I say I'm going to leave I'm just
- Dropping a lot of people maybe I don't know.
- It's conflicting, I guess
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:17 PM
- It's...well. When it boils down to it, you're doing what you want to do.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:17 PM
- Trying to, anyway
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:17 PM
- And you need to talk to Michael about it. Don't forget to do that.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:17 PM
- Always tried to
- He kept saying he understood where I was coming from, but said I was being stupid
- And kind of just started gaslighting everything
- So that was fun.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:18 PM
- I had to google gaslighting
- Also that
- isnt right I
- hhHHHH
- It isnt stupid to have emotional issues
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:19 PM
- Oh no like
- lol
- ok
- so
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:19 PM
- I wish it was stupid
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:19 PM
- Before I told him everything
- I told him mentally I wasn't feeling right
- Like, I just felt really off and dysfunctional
- And he
- He doesn't understand mental illnesses.
- He didn't really believe I was feeling depressed or I had anxiety
- And I was like
- uhm??
- ???????
- He has
- pretty much no empathy and can't understand where I'm coming from at all
- I wish I could let him know
- Or he could feel it or something
- But he can't
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:22 PM
- I've tried to tell him, or explain it, or anything
- But I honestly don't know what to do to about it...I mean..it's real. It's why psychology exists
- well not MAINLY why but you get me
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:23 PM
- It's a good reason as to why it partially exists
- I mean I took a class on it to further understand myself
- A lot of people in that class did
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:23 PM
- it's why I took it
- it's...why I was okay with taking medicine
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:24 PM
- I don't think I'll ever be okay with medication even after it
- I just want to pull through on my own will
- Depression may cloud my judgement at times
- But at least it's what I know I'm feeling
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:24 PM
- It
- DOES help
- it doesnt control you or anything, it's literally just stimulation to chemical release
- but sometimes it doesnt work and I fucking crash and burn
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:25 PM
- I'm not saying it controls you in that sort of manner I just know that some medication can numb you out
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:25 PM
- Hoo yes it can
- But I
- Welcomed it
- I was having day-long panic attacks
- and just...crying and shaking constantly, always scared of something, always wondering if i was doing something wrong
- constant, constant weight on my body
- and then it just
- Stopped.
- Eugh, sorry. It's a dark topic.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:27 PM
- I don't get into major panic attacks I still have the fear looming over me but it makes me feel like myself
- I'm fine.
- I mean I didn't want to tell you everything that was going on or how I felt but here we are
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:29 PM
- I'm probably just easy to talk to somehow
- I don't tell anyone anything anymore, don't worry.
- The most I tell michael is like
- ...memes.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:29 PM
- I dunno after dealing with Spot anyone is easy to talk to
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:30 PM
- I..havent spoken to him in months
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:30 PM
- Just
- don't
- Just block him
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:30 PM
- After I started being straight with him he didnt want to talk to me
- [Chat log between Spot and me for the last time]
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:34 PM
- jesus christ
- what in the hell and back
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:34 PM
- Yeah it was really really odd and random I just blocked him the day after
- I don't even know what's wrong with him
- Obviously more than most people
- He's part of the reason I sold my Ga2 account
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:36 PM
- I havent sold mine simply because I just
- I cant
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:37 PM
- Ian tried selling his
- No one wanted it..
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:39 PM
- ...Ah.
- I just cant sell mine because thats...like 7 years.
- I'd feel bad.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:39 PM
- I felt bad at first
- But every single fucking person on Ga2
- Who caused problems or purposely went after me
- Made me change my mind
- The game itself is dying
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:41 PM
- I know, I know
- theres every reason to but like
- I dunno
- I met meena there
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:43 PM
- That is true.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:44 PM
- Met you there. MEt everyone there. So much history.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:44 PM
- I dunno I met people on Roblox doesn't mean I'd ever go back to it
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:45 PM
- Well I dont wanna go back I just
- Don't want to give it to someone else.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:50 PM
- And
- Also
- Maybe we can stay friends
- But I don't think we should be super close, at least not as much as we used to be
- I'm still going to keep a good distance from everyone
- Just for the sake of staying out of shit
- I can probably help you out in a couple things but I dunno.
- That's what I'm thinking right now
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:51 PM
- That's all good. You do you and just...try to keep well.
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:52 PM
- Keep in mind I'm hardly awake and I'm having extreme tunnel vision because of energy drinks.
- YOU KNOW WHEN YOU MADE ME YOUR RETAINER I WAS LIKE
- HM.
- HM.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:53 PM
- I DID IT BECAUS EI LIKE YOU
- IT WAS MEANT TO BE A COMPIMENT
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:54 PM
- OH I'M COMPLETELY AWARE I WAS JUST.
- NOT CERTAIN ON MY POSITION WITH YOU AT THAT TIME.
- AND I CALMLY KEPT SAYING
- "DON'T TOUCH THAT CACTUS."
- PLEASE IT HAS A WIFE AND SOME KIDS
- AND THE KIDS ARE SMOL.
- THEY'RE LIKE.
- LITTLE CACTI.
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:55 PM
- ITS..I MEAN..IM SORRY..
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:55 PM
- IT'S OKAY.
- IT'S TOO LATE.
- I KNOW YOU WERE JUST TRYING TO BE NICE
- Swing - Yesterday at 7:56 PM
- I CAN CHANGE IT I THINK?
- Mobian - Yesterday at 7:57 PM
- I don't remember
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