[2:21 AM] Ilkanta: man nothing actually happened you know that shit with that towel i sleep with right
[2:21 AM] Ilkanta: i've talked about it on plurk
[2:21 AM] - arcferrier.: i haven't seen that
[2:21 AM] Ilkanta: LMF so basically i've had this towel LITERALLY
[2:21 AM] Ilkanta: since i was born
[2:21 AM] Ilkanta: baby blanket thing
[2:22 AM] - arcferrier.: they threw it out?
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: i don't necessarily need it to sleep but it's always there and it's like
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: immense sentimental value
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: i used to have two and they threw out one
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: so lmfao THIS THING IS REALLY FUCKING OLD.
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: so it's really not a towel it's like
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: a loose collection fo strings
[2:22 AM] - arcferrier.: awwww i actually know that feeling because my mum did the same to me.
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: no no as in
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: they threw out that one when iw as like
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: ten or something
[2:22 AM] Ilkanta: i was really upset at the time..
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: anyway you know how my dad likes coming into my room and messing with all my shit
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: whenever i'm not around
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: or even when i go shower
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: which is seriously one of the reasons i fucking hate showering or leaving the room at all when my family is around
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: BECAUSE I CAN'T TRUST THEM TO LEAVE MY SHIT ALONE
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: for like /years/ my dad has always jacked my towel and chucked it in the washing machine.
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: which is okay. honestly. shit needs to be washed. but like i've always asked him to
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: just tell me
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: when he does that
[2:23 AM] Ilkanta: or ask me
[2:24 AM] Ilkanta: because otherwise i spend HOURS looking for it scared that i lost it or something
[2:24 AM] Ilkanta: and lmfao i know it's silly but it's of such immense sentimental value to me i get pretty crazy over it and it just
[2:24 AM] Ilkanta: fucking upsets me because every time i say that my dad either ignores me or says yes adn then you know... acts like he'd ignored me...
[2:24 AM] - arcferrier.: i had this very small pillow and bolster from since forever
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: and every time i push it and argue a bit more and be like pLEASE THIS TIME??
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: he just laughs at me LMFAO my whole family does
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: because aw lookit abigial and her fucking towel
[2:25 AM] - arcferrier.: that's kinda mean
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: i don't fucking care if they make fun of me but he does that and THEN just completely doesn't listen to me
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: EVEN IF I AM LITERALLY
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: YELLING
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: AND CRYING
[2:25 AM] Ilkanta: he's still joking and shit
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: and what the fuck do i ahve to do to be taken seriously!!
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: i mean the fact that it's about this stupid immensely important thing to me makes it very eprsonal yeah but i argue because it's like
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: this ONE SMALL THING
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: I'VE BEEN ASKING MY DAD
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: TO DO
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: FOR /YEARS/
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: and he's NEVER LISTENED
[2:26 AM] Ilkanta: NOT ONCE.
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: and it's especially worse now since like
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: lmfao dude it's an ancient towel
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: that is falling
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: apart
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: and every time i see how falling apart it is it just makes me really sad
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: HOW DO YOU THINK
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: IT'S DOING
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: WITH FUCKING
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: /WASHING MACHINE/
[2:27 AM] Ilkanta: TREATMENT
[2:28 AM] Ilkanta: so yeah when i was out at work right, my dad took it AGAIN and i just asked for it back and it was at the washing machine
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: and i was tired and grumpy and so i was already like UGHHHH WTFFF
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: but i just asked him to not do it
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: and you know he just ignored me
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: and i repeated it
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: MORE IGNORING
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: and i tried again and again because lmfao come on how fucking hard is it to listen to ONE TINY FUCKING THING that your kid asks from you that is obviously important to them
[2:29 AM] - arcferrier.: keep the towel somewhere unfindable when you leave your room?
[2:29 AM] Ilkanta: i don't want to have to do that it's just so ugh
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: its like the principle of it i guess
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: i mean like
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: when he did acknowledge me he told me he nearly threw it out
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: and that i wasn't at home so he couldn't ask me
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: and i'm like
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: lmfao WELL WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU THROW IT OUT IT'S NOT LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW IT ISN'T IMPORTANT TO ME
[2:30 AM] Ilkanta: and IS IT SO HARD TO WAIT UNTIL I'M HOME AND ASK
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: it's not like it's a shirt you need the next day and you need to wash it with today's laundry NOW!!
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: but i kept my cool and i was like
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: well next time could you just
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: wait for me
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: to get home
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: because it's my things and it'd be nice if you did
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: and what he said was well you should ask me
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: about your things
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: why didn't you ask me
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: LMFAO AND THEN I JUST GOT SO PISSED OFF
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: and just started yelling and crying because jesus fucking christ
[2:31 AM] - arcferrier.: but your dad is unreasonable!
[2:31 AM] - arcferrier.: you /can't/ reason with hime!
[2:31 AM] Ilkanta: and then my parents popped up
[2:31 AM] - arcferrier.: *him
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: i mean
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: my mom and my brother
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: and my mom just suggested getting another towel and LMFAO UGH SENTIMENTAL VALUE IS THAT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND and my brother
[2:32 AM] - arcferrier.: well your brother's an asshole so...
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: just lectured me for making such a big deal over such a stupid piece of shit
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: and i know it's really small but that's like why i'm pissed
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: it is the smallest most trivial thing in the world
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: why will my dad not
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: just agree to this
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: it's not like washing the damn thing does him any good
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: he says it's filthy and smells and whatver
[2:32 AM] Ilkanta: and to me it doesn't but dear god if it CONCERNS HIM THAT MUCH i'll wash it by hand
[2:33 AM] Ilkanta: but even if i DID it doens't mATTER because he'd TAKE IT ANYWAY FOR SOME STUPID REASON and chuck it in the washing machine and make it fall apart evenmore...
[2:33 AM] Ilkanta: and they were all laughing like
[2:33 AM] Ilkanta: not really taking me seriously
[2:33 AM] Ilkanta: EVEN THOUGH IW AS LIKE YELLING AND CRYING AND LMFAO IT'S NOT LIKE I DO THAT /OFTEN/ IN FRONT OF MY FAMILY
[2:34 AM] Ilkanta: LMFAO IT IS THIS ONE FUCKING THING THAT MATTERS TO ME I DON'T UDNERSTAND WHY HE CAN'T SEE THIS
[2:34 AM] Ilkanta: he comes into my room and he MESSES UP MY SHIT he turns off my computers even though he agrees not to touch anything when i'm out he somehow managed to fuck up the battery controller on my xbox i assume by dropping it
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: the furniture moves around every now and then without my fucking consent
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: my things go missing bc they ~organize~ for me and fuck you i know where my things are
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: and when i ahve to ask where my shit is because they moved things around
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: they tell me it's because i'm so messy
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: NOT HOW IT WORKS!!!
[2:35 AM] - arcferrier.: change the locks?
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: lfmao my aprents would kill me
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: i ocne tried hiding the room keys
[2:35 AM] Ilkanta: my dad had extra copies and i got murdered basically
[2:36 AM] Ilkanta: lmf and i'm sick of tired of like every time i get into an argument like this with my parents eventually what comes is
[2:36 AM] Ilkanta: you are not schooling and you are useless we shouldn't even be paying for your shit!!
[2:36 AM] Ilkanta: blah blah we brought you up we pay for your food and your electricity and we give you a place to live!!
[2:37 AM] Ilkanta: well, yes but that's shit i can't help? if i coudl be self sufficient and IF I COULD AHVE BEEN SOMEHOW MAGICALLY MATERIALZIED INTO THIS WORLD without having to owe anything to a family
[2:37 AM] Ilkanta: i would have
[2:37 AM] Ilkanta: it's just so fucking unfair to hodl that kind of shit over your kid's head idk
[2:38 AM] Ilkanta: also all my pay for april is gone bc payment for the mac i'm pissed bc my dad told me the installment in march was the last one
[2:38 AM] Ilkanta: and i'd already started making plans/budgets for april/may based on projected pay that i cannot do now.
[2:38 AM] Ilkanta: he's telling me this one is the last one too but 8|!
[2:38 AM] Ilkanta: yeah anyway hi what's... up i don't even know.