Just a #talk. That's all.

(9:33:52 PM) ***cadentCorona has connected to the memo
(9:34:11 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ What's been running you down, Ockzel? /^
(9:34:56 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿ǝɟı˥
(9:35:09 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙spunos ʇı ǝʞıl ʇɐɥʇ uɐǝɯ ʇ,uop I ˙˙˙
(9:36:31 PM) cadentCorona: [You're concerned. It /must/ be bad if he's letting you know about it. ]
(9:36:56 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I know, I see. It's just- /^
(9:37:00 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Everything? /^
(9:37:21 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɥɐǝʎ 'ʇol ∀
(9:40:22 PM) cadentCorona: [ ...what do you do next. ]
(9:41:59 PM) cadentCorona: [>Stop hesitating. Hit enter.]
(9:42:00 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Would talking about any of it help? /^
(9:42:55 PM) amaSwe|Online: I
(9:43:10 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿ʍouʞ ʇ,uop
(9:43:39 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿ǝqʎɐW
(9:46:14 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Anytime something was wrong, anytime you were upset, you always kept it to yourself. /^
(9:47:49 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ooʇ 'ǝslǝ ǝuoʎɹǝʌǝ uʍop ƃɐɹp ʇsnɾ noʎ  ˙sdlǝɥ ʎllɐnʇɔɐ ʇı ƃuıɹɐɥs ǝʞıl ʇou s,ʇı 'llǝM
(9:50:16 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'd feel better, to know what's troubling you. I always would. /^
(9:53:31 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿ǝɹns noʎ
(9:58:03 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'm...I know I spent a lot of time ignoring things before. /^
(9:58:25 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'm trying not to be that person. /^
(9:59:25 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ʇı ɹoɟ ɹǝıddɐɥ ǝq ʎlqɐqoɹd p,noʎ  ˙ʇno ʞɔɐq oʇ ǝɔuɐɥɔ ʇsɐ˥
(10:00:24 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'll be standing my ground, Ockzel. /^
(10:01:04 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿sdolɔıƃ ǝɥʇ ɥʇıʍ ǝɯıʇ ǝɥʇ ǝʞıl 'ʇɐɥM
(10:05:06 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Precisely. /^
(10:05:39 PM) cadentCorona: [That that was /much/ easier, however, than this might be.]
(10:08:03 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɯǝɥʇ ɟo ǝɹɐɔ ƃuıʞɐʇ dǝǝʞ uɐɔ I os ʞɔıs ʇǝƃ /ʇouuɐɔ/ puɐ pǝʇɔǝɟuı ɯ,I 'ʞɔıs sı ɹıʇnɔS 'ʞɔıs sı uǝʍoɥϽ 'uoıssǝs sıɥʇ xıɟ oʇ ǝʌɐɥ I 'pɐǝp s,ɯıɥɐɹq 'ƃuıʞɹoʍ pǝddoʇs ǝpɐds ɹno ʎɥʍ uıɐldxǝ puɐ puɐʇsɹǝpun oʇ ƃuıʎɹʇ sɐʍ I ǝlıɥʍ ǝɯ pǝdɯnp uǝʍoɥϽ
(10:08:08 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙/ʇno/ ǝldoǝd ʇǝƃ oʇ ǝʌɐɥ I puɐ ɹǝɹǝpɹnɯ ʎɯ llıʞ oʇ ƃuıɯoɔuı ɹǝʞɐǝdS ɐ sı ǝɹǝɥʇ ǝsnɐɔǝq ƃuıuoıʇɔunɟ doʇs ʇ,uɐɔ I puɐ 'sǝssǝuʞɐǝʍ ɹıǝɥʇ uı ǝldoǝd qɐʇs oʇ ʍoɥ sʍouʞ puɐ puɐS sɐɥ ɐɹɥʇıƃ 'sǝoƃ ǝƃɐɯɐp lǝƃuɐ ǝɥʇ dǝǝp ʍoɥ ʍouʞ ʇ,uop /llıʇs/ I ǝsnɐɔǝq ǝɯ sǝıɹɹoʍ ǝɯɐuu∀
(10:08:25 PM) amaSwe|Online: [It's not everything.  But it's a start.]
(10:15:13 PM) Impern left the room (quit: Quit: http://www.mibbit.com ajax IRC Client).
(10:16:13 PM) cadentCorona: [That is...quite a lot.]
(10:16:34 PM) epinephrineElectrified is now known as OJ
(10:18:14 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɥɐǝʎ  ˙oS
(10:18:17 PM) cadentCorona: [...oh, your pusher.]
(10:19:22 PM) amaSwe|Online: [You don't mention your redshifting, or your worry over Li even though you're talking again, or your worry about your Deals, or that you're still wigged out by memories of your death, or that you blame yourself for Cho being sick and having to deal with your faults.]
(10:19:31 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Sounds as if the weight of the world would be lighter. /^
(10:19:57 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ʇɐɥʇ ǝɹǝʍ ʇı ʎluo ɟI  ˙ɥɐH
(10:21:25 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ If only that simple. /^
(10:22:04 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ƃuıuɹoɯ ʎɹǝʌǝ /sǝɥɔıʍpuɐs/ ǝɯ ƃuıʞɐɯ ʎq ǝɯ ɟo ǝɹɐɔ ǝʞɐʇ oʇ sɐɥ ǝɥs ǝʞıl slǝǝɟ plo-dǝǝʍs-xıs ǝɥʇ uǝɥʍ ƃuoɹʍ ƃuıɥʇǝɯos s,ǝɹǝɥ⊥
(10:23:00 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Someone has to make sure you eat, Ockzel. You can't pretend otherwise. /^
(10:23:41 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ǝuıɟ ǝq p,I  ˙ʇɐɥʇ ʍouʞ noʎ  ˙ƃuıʇɐǝ ʇnoɥʇıʍ ɹǝƃuol ǝuoƃ ǝʌ,I
(10:25:34 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I can't have my engineer collapsing into unconsciousness and waking up in a doctormentor's bed with a glucose drip in his arm three nights later. /^
(10:26:19 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Your sessionmates won't have the same resources. /^
(10:28:12 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ǝɔuo ǝɥʇ pǝuǝddɐɥ ʎluo ʇɐɥʇ pu∀  ˙ǝuıɟ ǝq ll,I  ˙puɐʇsɹǝdɯǝS
(10:28:51 PM) cadentCorona: [But it wasn't the only time he overworked himself to exhaustion.]
(10:33:17 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I know you must be fretting about how you can't help the wider session, while you're quarantined with the gillsick. /^
(10:33:49 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ It's not wrong to narrow your focus. /^
(10:34:17 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɹosıʌ ʎɯ uo ǝuop ʇol ɐ ʇǝƃ I 'ɹǝʇǝınb ǝɹ,ʎǝɥʇ uǝɥM  ˙soɯǝɯ ƃuısn ɥƃnoɹɥʇ ǝzıuɐƃɹo pu∀  ˙sɹǝɥʇo ǝɥʇ ɥʇıʍ ǝʇɐɔıunɯɯoɔ llıʇs uɐɔ I
(10:46:15 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ That's good. /^
(10:48:41 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɟǝıɹƃ ǝɯ pǝʌɐs ǝʌ,plnoM  ˙dıɥs ǝɥʇ uo ʞɔɐq ǝsǝɥʇ ɟo ǝuo pɐɥ I ɥsıʍ I
(10:50:05 PM) esoRem|offline left the room.
(10:50:10 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Hands-free is wonderful, isn't it? /^
(10:50:29 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ʇɥƃıɐɹʇs uɯɐᗡ
(10:58:01 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Ockzel? /^
(10:58:25 PM) amaSwe|Online: ¿ɥɐǝʎ
(10:58:36 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ Who was Brahim? /^
(10:59:11 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙lıɐɹıoɯ ʎɯ sɐʍ ǝH
(10:59:27 PM) cadentCorona: [Oh.]
(11:00:27 PM) cadentCorona: [You feel more terrible than you did a few moments ago.]
(11:00:40 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ You haven't even had time to grieve him. /^
(11:01:57 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙suǝddɐɥ ʇıɥS
(11:02:21 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'm sorry. /^
(11:03:06 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ʍouʞ I
(11:07:52 PM) Bookwyrm [[email protected]] entered the room.
(11:08:33 PM) cadentCorona: ^\ I'd like to hear about him, some night. /^
(11:09:32 PM) amaSwe|Online: ˙ɟlǝsɹnoʎ ɟo ǝɹɐɔ ǝʞɐ⊥  ˙oƃ ɹǝʇʇǝq p,I  ˙uıɐƃɐ ƃuılıɐʍ s,ɹıʇnɔS˙˙˙  ˙ǝqʎɐW  ˙ɥɐǝʎ
(11:09:43 PM) ***amaSwe|Online has disconnected from the servers!
(11:13:36 PM) cadentCorona: [>Kamsya: lean back against  your stack of cushions. Rub at your temples. ]
(11:14:59 PM) cadentCorona: [...you weren't supposed to feel so scummy about this.]