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- invaderzimriToday at 12:46 PM
- hi matt, how are you doing?
- funsizedToday at 12:52 PM
- eh
- invaderzimriToday at 12:54 PM
- what's up
- were you able to eaet a bit more?
- funsizedToday at 12:54 PM
- yesterday yea but I'm starting a fast later today
- invaderzimriToday at 12:55 PM
- matt, if you don't keep eating for the next two weeks or so the syndrome is going to get worse
- why are you fasting?
- funsizedToday at 12:55 PM
- oh I ate enough yesterday that like my body is back to normal-ish
- it's back to my normal
- invaderzimriToday at 12:56 PM
- your normal is not healthy normal, matt
- can you start a semi-fast, if you need to restrict that badly? you need to be eating at least enough that your body learns it needs to digest food, to help the syndrome
- funsizedToday at 12:57 PM
- ik I'm fineeeee
- I spent Fri and Saturday eating cheerios slowly and sllwlu
- until I was able to have a full meal
- invaderzimriToday at 12:57 PM
- !!a full meal is really good
- funsizedToday at 12:57 PM
- it's just that I'm starting a 2 weeks group fast so later tonight I gotta start a 24 hr fast
- invaderzimriToday at 12:59 PM
- a group fast? i thought the group thing was going to be a healthy thing where you eat more
- matt, you realize that doing this can kill you right
- who are you doing this group fast with?
- funsizedToday at 1:02 PM
- I'm fine zim
- invaderzimriToday at 1:03 PM
- you act different when you aren't fine
- i know we're not like best buddies but i can tell when something is wrong and i know something has been very wrong
- you're more stressed and you lash out at people more easily, and you insist you're fine more when you aren't fine
- i'm really worried for you. i have more to say, of course, but that's the most important thing right now is that i am very worried and i know a lot of people are very worried, too.
- i can't tell you what to do or how to do it... but i know you're hurting and i know i want to help
- funsizedToday at 1:06 PM
- I've been pissy because I got fucking betrayed by my first mod and by 2 people who were previous mods in my server that I feel like I have no fucking control over and I've been debating demoting everyone and getting a new team
- not bc of fasting
- ive been fasting for months
- invaderzimriToday at 1:07 PM
- i know, but that's piling up
- you fast for months and then this? that's stress on top of stress
- matt, the server is hurting you
- it's adding stress on top of stress on top of stress
- you're trying to manage a server and manage your life on top of that. you need to focus on helping yourself
- i know emma hurt you, but i've also been talking to her and i can tell you that she feels really bad
- funsizedToday at 1:08 PM
- fasting doesn't stress me out
- invaderzimriToday at 1:08 PM
- she's lamented to me about wishing she had been more involved on the server where the venting happened so she could have stopped it
- funsizedToday at 1:08 PM
- and I don't give a fuck if she feels bad
- I really don't care
- oh well she fucking feels bad that doesn't undo anything
- maybe she should have fucking thought about that before
- invaderzimriToday at 1:09 PM
- nobody can undo anything, we can only move towards the future
- you don't need to forgive emma, you have no obligation to forgive her
- i'm not saying that you need to be friends again or fix anything, i'm just trying to explain what i've seen, that's all
- funsizedToday at 1:10 PM
- she should be happy I'm even giving the 3 of them the option to stay in the server
- invaderzimriToday at 1:10 PM
- emma doesn't have any obligation to be happy, neither do you
- from her side, the situation is very different. from my side, it's very different. your perspective is valid but it doesn't dictate anyone else's
- matt, i'm going to assume for a moment that what you're saying is true and there really isn't anything wrong.
- why am i so worried about you, then?
- if there's nothing to support you with, what's wrong with me that i'm so worried for you?
- if there's nothing wrong on your end, why have you lashed out at people on the server, and how do we fix that situation?
- what's wrong with me that i'm so worried?
- funsizedToday at 1:13 PM
- idfk
- idk why you're even getting fucking involved in any of this
- when it's not even any of your fucking business
- I already told you what's fucking wrong
- invaderzimriToday at 1:13 PM
- it's my business when it affects me, and it's affecting me
- man, i had a panic attack over this situation and i cried and couldn't breathe last night
- i contemplated killing myself because of this shit
- funsizedToday at 1:14 PM
- don't know why that would happen to you considering that this situation has literally nothing to do with you
- invaderzimriToday at 1:14 PM
- you guys are extremely important to me and when something affects you it affects me
- funsizedToday at 1:14 PM
- you've inserted yourself into the situation for no reason
- I'm fine
- idk why you're inserting yourself into something that had nothing to do w you from the beginning
- just to stress over?
- invaderzimriToday at 1:15 PM
- because you are my friend. and when something happens to my friends, it affects me.
- because i have empathy, matt, and i feel bad when bad things happen to people i love
- because it's obvious that you're not fine (you're blowing off me being suicidal, there's gotta be something wrong, i know you're kinder than this, matt) and i want to help you
- because a while ago i called CPS on emma's mom and i've been involved in her life to such an extreme extent that i can't pull away now.
- funsizedToday at 1:16 PM
- there's nothing to fucking help
- so if you could stop messaging me about shit that isn't your fucking business
- I'd really appreciate it
- that's how you can help
- leave me alone
- invaderzimriToday at 1:17 PM
- if i stop messaging you, will you fix the situation?
- funsizedToday at 1:19 PM
- nothing that YOU will do will fix the situation because ITS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS
- unless you want me to block you too LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
- invaderzimriToday at 1:19 PM
- i'll stop messaging you now. think about what you said to me today. have a good one.
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