eddaket's stream changes

I don't want to grind speedruns anymore.

(I very much wrote this in a stream of thought kind of state, so I apologize for rambling)

At least not for a while. I'm all about doing silly races, learning new runs and getting okay times, but I'm just not enjoying the grind to shave off the last few minutes. I'm well aware that none of my current PBs are all that good, and it's because I just lose the motivation for a run after a while and then play like crap. Let's take Red for example: I recently went back to it and got a few new PBs (yay) shaving about 2 minutes off my time. During that time, I was having a blast. After a while of doing the same thing over and over again, I started to enjoy it less and less and we just started playing horribly. Early on, I was losing runs to learning mistakes where later on it was sloppy play. The play was sloppy because I was disinterested. It happened with ORAS too, and whatever run I was doing before that. It's sort of like I want to "do a great run" and skip past the "try to get a good run" phase. It's just very hard for me to do the same run over and over again. I need more variety.

What does this mean for the stream? I won't do many "PB Attempt" streams in the (near) future. If I do them, it's going to be something I truly enjoy doing, and not something I'm doing just to do. I'll be doing a lot more learning of new runs and first attempts, but probably not much past that unless I fall in love with a game/category. With my job and other IRL commitments, the only time I can actually play my speedgames are the 20 or so hours a week I have blocked off for streaming, and I never want to "waste" that time with practice, since it's the only time I have for runs. At this point in time, I feel like I'd rather be okay at many games than great at one. I know I don't share that mindset with a lot of people, but with the way my speedrunning career has been, I feel like that's my best chance at personal success.

I've had this feeling before, but one of the biggest reasons I haven't made a change is my stream. It may not be common knowledge, but one of my more recent goals is to become a partner. I'm nowhere near the right numbers for that, but a lot of my decisions about the stream recently have been trying to get myself toward them (and for a time, I was moving [ever so slowly] toward them). This will always be a goal in the back of my mind, but I feel like in order for me to enjoy streaming and speedrunning, I need to remove this goal from the forefront and return to the important part: to enjoy streaming. It'll be tough to remove things like numbers and viewers from my mind, but I think it's the best option at this point in time. I'll stream what I wanna play, and if people watch? Great! If they don't? I can't let that drive what I play.

Now onto the future. Here's a very rough list of things I want to stream over the next half a year to a year, including one off "meme" runs:

Speedruns:
- ORAS with Torchic - I'm doing this until PSR Marathon and then never touching it again
- ORAS with Treecko - Just a fun thing to do one or two times. Probably not truly routed, just some basic "here's the general moveset" kind of routing beforehand
- ORAS All Legendaries - Another fun run, kind of like the 150 Solo run, that would be a special occasion, one off kind of thing
- Yellow 151 - Probably no grinding unless I get this in a marathon. Want to reroute and have fun with THE Manip
- Yellow 129 - lol
- Yellow Glitchless learning
- Emerald Glitchless learning
- FireRed/LeafGreen learning
- HeartGold/SoulSilver learning
- Remake Trifecta (FRLG, HGSS, ORAS)
- NSMB2, NSMBU, other platformers
- DK64
- A secret Red/Blue run...

Non speedruns
- New game playthroughs
- PUBG (probably the game I enjoy the most at this point in time)
- Sun/Moon playthrough
- Really anything I'm feeling

The next few weeks after PSR (even before PSR, depending on how comfortable with Torchic I am), I'll basically be doing whatever I'm feeling when I hit "Start Streaming". I'm hoping after a few weeks I can figure out a good balance of casual, memes, and speedruns to make a better and more clear schedule so people can tune in when they want. I'm not expecting anyone to be excited about all of these things listed above, but I do hope I can do a little something for everyone.

Thank you guys for all the support; it's been amazing. I know this may be disappointing to some people, but I need to change my approach to streaming because I'm getting burned out. I love doing it, and I want to do it for as long as I can, so I think this change is necessary.  Much love