"Your tears don't fall, they crash around me."

Alexithymiaa: -Jade adjusted her bag on her shoulder as she stepped off the elevator, walking down to the apartment door and sticking her key in to push the door open. She immediately looked at Cadence laying on the couch, raising her brows and pushing the door closed. "Uh.. are you okay?"-
Covet: -She looked over at Jade and nodded her head- Yeah..Well, I will be. Just a stress headache. -she said softly, before rubbing her hands over her face, getting up- What's up? -she asked Jade?-
Alexithymiaa: -She shrugged, walking down into the living room and tossing her bag down onto the empty couch, taking a seat and watching Cadence. "Nothing. I've been so bored all day."-
Covet: Shitty. -Cadence said nodding her head- I've been cleaning... and doing laundry to keep myself occupied. Oh I made a flyer today, so I was productive at least. -She nodded her head- I think we're going to need to go to the news later this week, maybe to a radio station or two. For the video thing.
Tsaaq: Remy came down the hallway, staggering a bit. "Fuck, fuck me." He said, groaning as he rubbed his head. He unlocked the front door and saw the two females then closed the door behind him as he went towards the bedroom.
Alexithymiaa: "Oh. Right." She nodded, pushing her stray strands of her from her face. Her eyes followed Remy when he came in, staying silent but totally judging.-
Covet: -Cadence looked over at Remy as he came through the door and went to the bedroom. She closed her mouth and pursed her lips watching him- Hi...-she said in a hesitant manner.-
Tsaaq: "Where's the money?" He asked immediately after stopping in his tracks. He crossed forced his hands into his jean pockets as he went to look over at Cadence.
Alexithymiaa: -Her eyes looked between the two, starting in slow.y. "Did you.... need money.....?"-
Covet: I owe him money. -She gave a sheepish look and slid off the couch making her way over the bedroom door- It's in here. -she said walking in leaving the door open as she went over to the night stand to get the thirty bucks she'd put there.-
Tsaaq: He nodded and went to open the bedroom door as well and walked inside the room behind her. "Thank you." Remy said, taking the money and counting it out of habit. "Okay then." He whispered, shoving it into his pocket and going back out to the living room.
Alexithymiaa: -Jade sat awkwardly on the couch with her hands folded in her lap, just kind of looking around and doing everything but fucking whistling to show how weird this was.-
Covet: Seriously...-She said with a sigh as he counted it- You know I'm good for it. -She watched as he walked back out of the room, then brought her hand up to her head again walking out as well.- Are you off again then? -she asked him, crossing her arms as she walked down the stairs-
Tsaaq: "It's not you. I just do that." He whispered as he glanced back at her. "I have to go pick it up before it's stabbing hour in downtown." Remy answered before lowering his head.
Alexithymiaa: "Stabbing hour?" She repeated, unable to keep the terror from her words. "That's a thing?"-
Covet: Okay, Are you coming back here tonight or? -she asked him, biting the inside of her cheek, then let go of her arms walking over to him. She glanced at Jade- Depending on where you're at. yeah.
Tsaaq: He stared at her a moment, ignoring Jade cause he was too cranky for that. "I don't know. I was gonna hang out at my dorm or something..." Remy said with a shrug. "Not like I'm wanted here right?" He cleared his throat awkwardly.
Alexithymiaa: -She pursed her lips and looked down, not daring to answer Remy's question because she was pretty sure it was rhetorical and if she cracked a joke he'd probably snap at her.-
Covet: -Cadence stopped and dropped her head- I'm sorry if I ever implied that. If you want to come back here, you can. If not...Text me when you get to your dorm safely, at least...please? -she said, swallowing back the anger, clenching her fists tightly to feel her nails digging into her palms.-
Tsaaq: "I mean if it isn't implied then why is all of this such a big deal?" Remy asked her with a small shrug. "I mean. If everything was okay why are you doing, that shit you usually do?" He continued to interrogate. "I'll be fine. Okay. I know what I'm doing."
Alexithymiaa: Jade awkwardly scratched the side of her neck, turning to look anywhere but the two of them as she literally just sat in the middle of their conversation.-
Covet: -She looked at him and shook her head- I'm sorry. I'm trying not to. What can I do to make it better? -she told him askin the question with a genuine tone in her voice. slowly letting her hands go-
Tsaaq: He made a few noises of distress and put his hands on his head. "I don't know!" Remy answered. "I want you to just say you don't want to be with me or whatever instead of me just waiting for the impending conversation, whatever you have to say just get it over with so I can just wallow." He sighed.
Alexithymiaa: -Jade sank down on the couch awkwardly, her eyes staring at the door and wondering if she could make it to the door before they noticed her.-
Covet: Is that what you really want? -She said confused looking at him- For me to just give up on you? -Cadence asked him again, then shook her head- Because that's not what I want. I want you to choose. Which one's more important. Us.... or the other shit. -she told him, trying not to completely lose her shit- Because I'm willing to fight for us, but if you aren't willing to do the same. Then I can't do this. -she glanced at Jade, feeling bad for putting her in this situation-
Tsaaq: He shook his head. "I don't want you to give up on me but come on, I would be kidding myself if I didn't at least brace myself on the possibility." He sighed then put his hands on his head again. "I can't just choose!" He shouted. "You know you're the only person I want to be with."
Alexithymiaa: -Jade moved her hand to cover her face, letting her eyes close and trying to find her happy place because this wasnt it.-
Covet: Then don't give me a reason to do it, Remy. I feel the same about you. I do...but I can't compete with an addiction. As stupidly selfish as that sounds. -Cadence told him, then walked into the kitchen, then back to the living room again- You're going to have to figure out which one is more important. So I know what I'm supposed to do. Instead of repeatedly pissing you off.
Tsaaq: Remy stayed in his spot and shook his head. "It's not ruining my life and I'm not killing myself. Why can't I have both?" He asked with a raise of his hands.
Alexithymiaa: -Jade seemed to melt into the couch, her body sliding down until her back was on the horizonal cushion.-
Tsaaq: ((-pats-))
Covet: Because you and I both know it's not that easy, and it won't always be that way, despite how much you think you've convinced yourself of that. -She told him, shaking her head.- I can't be okay with what you are doing. Because if anything happens...-she stopped talking and shook her head feeling the moisture in her eyes. She turned around to try to compose herself. Seeing Jade being all awkward on the couch she spoke up again- You don't have to stay here to figure it out... Just...let me know when you have.
Tsaaq: "So what now? You don't want me to come back until I decide  or some shit so I was totally right?" He asked, getting angry. "And nothing will hapen. I haven't convinced myself of shit okay? The proof is in the obviously not corpse standing in front of you."
Alexithymiaa: -She sat up ready to bolt off the couch at Cadence's words, her spirits fading when she realized she wasn't talking to her, but to Remy instead.-
Covet: I'm saying if you have somewhere to be, so you don't wind up being a corpse in front of me....Then you should probably get on with it. Because if you stay , all I'm going to do is piss you off, and you'll wind up leaving anywas. You know what I want, I've made that clear. I don't need to repeat it. If you come back, you get the couch, because I'm going to be in the room the rest of the night. -she told him, heading that direction-
Tsaaq: He furrowed his eyebrows at her. "I don't have somewhere to be okay, It's not urgent. I don't need to get it right now. That's the point I keep trying to make." Remy said loudly and shook his head. "And you only piss me off because everyone pisses me off. I can't help it. That's why I have to get fucked up enough so that I don't care about anything."
Alexithymiaa: -She turned her head to watch Cadence go off toward the bedroom, turning to look at Remy and not opening her mouth.-
Covet: If any of that was supposed to make me feel better about any of this, it's not. In fact I'd really just wish you'd shut up right now. Stay here, go to your dorm...go do whatever you need to do. My head hurts too much to keep arguing over this shit right now. -she said pressing her head against the bedroom door, resting her hand on the handle-
Tsaaq: "Well fuck you we're talking about it now. So tough fucking titty." Remy said crossing his arms over his chest. "Why would I stay here, what's the point you don't even want me in the bed with you or anything like we're not engaged or any of that shit?" He began to rant. "Do you want me to be pissy and miserable or something?"
Alexithymiaa: -Jade saw her opening and slithered like a snake off the couch, basically crawling on her hands and knees across the apartment to her bedroom in a pathetic attempt to escape this conversation. She crawled all stealthy into her room, very quietly closing the door.-
Covet: You mean like I am?  No...why would I ever want you to feel like this. -she said hoarsely then walked into her room regardless of what he said. Putting her hand on her forehead squeezing her eyes shut-
Tsaaq: He followed behind her then slammed the door closed behind himself. "Yeah that's how you feel now? That's how I feel all the time. Always." Remy said forcing her body to turn around so she could face him. He kept his hands on her shoulders. "Do you get it now?"
Covet: -She winced when she heard the door slam behind her. Standing there until he turned her around. She kept looking at the ground and shook her head- And how do the drugs make any of that better? -she asked him as she wiped the tears from her eyes.-
Tsaaq: "I don't know. It just does. Science?" He said, trying not to get emotional. "Serotonin, chemistry?" Remy sighed and saw her crying, wiping the tears with his forearm with a frown. "I can't really explain it." He whispered.
Covet: I'm sorry for being such a wet rag and a nag about it. My mind keeps jumping to the worst scenario. I can't stop it.  -she told him, sniffling as he wiped away the tears.- I've tried....
Tsaaq: He furrowed his eyebrows and pulled her in so he could hold her. "I never wanted to make you feel like this okay?" Remy sighed. "I don't know. I'm in a weird place in my life... And I guess I'm just stringing you along for the ride." He muttered.
Covet: -she wrapped her arms tightly around him, nodding her head- I don't want to just be along for the ride. I want to help.....Figure it out...or make it easier...I don't know either. I just don't want to loose you. -the last sentence said nearly silent.-
Covet: *Lose
Covet: [Wow...that was bad]
Tsaaq: Remy sighed and just squeezed her tight against her like she was going to float away if he didn't. He leaned his head against hers and let a sigh leave from his nostrils. "I don't know. It's convoluted right now. You shouldn't have to suffer cause of me." Remy said softly.
Covet: I wouldn't suffer for anyone else. You mean that much. -she said closing her eyes and just breathing him in.- Can we try to make better sense of it later...and get some sleep...together...in the same bed tonight?  -she asked him.-
Tsaaq: He inhaled deeply and nodded his head at her. "I guess..." He whispered then put his hand under her chin to lift her head a bit so he could kiss her. "I haven't slept in days." Remy revealed after pulling from the kiss.
Covet: -She kissed him back, then looked up at him with a frown- Babe...-Her hands moved up to his face then ran up through his hair, just looking at him- Then come lay with me and I'll try to help you fall asleep...Whatever it takes... -she told him  with a small smile. Turning around to strip down before climbing in bed.-
Tsaaq: He ran his hand down his face and nodded before taking off his clothes as well and getting in bed with her, instantly putting his arms around her waist and laying close to her, trying to get to sleep.
Covet: -Cadence probably ran her hands through his hair and shit trying to help before passing out on him.-
Covet: [Bed? :D]
Tsaaq: ((yes!))
Tsaaq: There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in
Tsaaq: the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging
Tsaaq: ((WHAT COMPUTER WHAT))