Kogasa_Tatara	I, hate you. Due to you I am not longer friend with Kalinka.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am not even longer "me".
	Kogasa_Tatara	Yet at Komachi's request, I am here to talk to you.
	Alynna	Why is that my fault?
	Alynna	I haven't even gotten to talk to Sanae, at ALL
	Kogasa_Tatara	You invaded Kalinka's sanctum and privacy.
	Alynna	i was invited there
	Kogasa_Tatara	With the matter of threatening me.
	Alynna	you all went to hide away from me
	Kogasa_Tatara	It's called "We are eRPing"
	Alynna	the very thing i was upset about in the first place
	Kogasa_Tatara	Maybe you are an exhibitionist
	Alynna	for 8 days?
	Kogasa_Tatara	We aren't.
	Kogasa_Tatara	6.
	Kogasa_Tatara	We didn't show for 2 days.
	Alynna	i couldn't come there cause you both were in private
	Kogasa_Tatara	... That's not the important part. The important part is between you and me.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I used to consider you a dear friend.
	Alynna	and yes i was upset
	Kogasa_Tatara	I sang and shared a song with you.
	Kogasa_Tatara	(You and Chen)
	Kogasa_Tatara	I looked up to you.
	Alynna	i admit that and I am very sorry about it
	Kogasa_Tatara	... Then, let's talk price that you paid and that I paid.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You lost me. I lost you, Kalinka, and in some part Komachi's trust.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I lost way more than I should, I even lost myself.
	Alynna	but damn, i wasn't even waiting for you to talk to me, I was just waiting for you to be available to be talked to.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am always on Steam
	Alynna	I dont want to lose you, i just want the whole issue to freaking pass
	Kogasa_Tatara	You don't want to lose me,
	Kogasa_Tatara	I don't want to lose myself or Kalinka.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Yet you did those things and the damage's there.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I just want you to come to term with it.
	Alynna	i dont know how you lost Kalinka, I havent even talked to her about you or anything
	Kogasa_Tatara	Yeah. She won't talk to me or be there anymore.
	Alynna	i just wanted to be with you two..
	Kogasa_Tatara	What you did caused the exact opposite.
	Alynna	i want to talk to Sanae about this whole thing
	Kogasa_Tatara	You should.
	Alynna	but I have literally no other form of contact but that game
	Kogasa_Tatara	Why do you think she's avoiding us both now?
	Kogasa_Tatara	Thanks to you.
	Kogasa_Tatara	*sighs*
	Kogasa_Tatara	Look. Let's be adults. You are older than I am.
	Alynna	i waited around for like however many number of days it was for you two to come out of hiding
	Kogasa_Tatara	I honestly don't enjoy this. My wounds on my arm be witness.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You are the one that refuse to page or IM me.
	Alynna	i don't refuse to
	Kogasa_Tatara	You have no right to say that.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I honestly won't enjoy your company anytime soon.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Please stop making a fuss about this thing. Retcon "Kogasa" out of your life, like you said.
	Alynna	how do you expect me to do that
	Kogasa_Tatara	You said you were going to do that.
	Kogasa_Tatara	And brandished it.
	Alynna	and i admit I reacted out of depression and anger.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Welcome to putting me in depression and anger.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Unlike you, this could kill me.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Unless it would kill you as well?
	Kogasa_Tatara	In any case, it seems that I am cheap enough to be trot on by people.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Here's the ultimatum since you are so eager to rush it:
	Kogasa_Tatara	We are through. I am done with RP. I lost the personality of Kogasa and not longer deem myself worthy to bear that name and mask.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I not longer consider you a friend and will henceforth not talk to you.
	Kogasa_Tatara	And I want you to act like an adult about this.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am way younger than you are, as someone older I expect maturity from you.
	Alynna	your actions aren't mature
	Alynna	i'm going to admit that neither were mine that night
	Kogasa_Tatara	It's as mature as I could see: Since you wanted a resolution, here's mine.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You rushed for a resolution that night.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Here's what you get.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Cause and effect. Now take responsibility for your action.
	Alynna	I should have found one more place to put hurt
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am not even blaming you for ripping my face off right now.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Even though I fully want to.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Now, are you going to accept or are you going to come to another standstill?
	Alynna	i am going to accept that you know how to hurt me for what i've done.
	Alynna	and you're doing it.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You can't even imagine how hurt I am, huh?
	Kogasa_Tatara	I lost my /home/.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Thanks to /you/.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I lost my will to go on, I lost my family.
	Alynna	of course I can, but at least I am trying to make amends.
	Kogasa_Tatara	And what have you done, action-wise?
	Kogasa_Tatara	To mend this broken piece of "me"?
	Kogasa_Tatara	To mend this broken piece of "we"?
	Kogasa_Tatara	Nothing, so far.
	Alynna	i am trying to talk to you about this, i am apologizing, i dont know what else you want me to do
	Kogasa_Tatara	You are just like Remilia and Kaguya.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Hurting someone badly then expect a "sorry" to cover it all.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You put me in this mess, you repair it.
	Alynna	What do you want me to do?
	Alynna	thats what I asked!
	Kogasa_Tatara	Then find out how Kalinka feel, talk to her and get her out of hiding.
	Kogasa_Tatara	... Then go and be with her and fill in the void that's me.
	Kogasa_Tatara	That's the most you can do.
	Kogasa_Tatara	And one favor I am asking you, possibly the last.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I gave up on myself. I just want you and Kalinka to do well. Even though I hate you.
	Alynna	i still care about you, and that will never turn to hate for me. i'll be waiting.
	Kogasa_Tatara	This is the perfect solution since the beginning. I just refuse to see it. I am the third leg in the relation.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Just do what you can to help yourself and Kalinka, and never repeat the same thing to anyone.
	Kogasa_Tatara	That's all I ask, in the end. And let me disappear.
	Alynna	why do you have to run away from this
	Kogasa_Tatara	Because due to you, I've hurted Kalinka.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am a blood-stained murderer, in my own eye, due to you.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I've hurted you, I've disappointed Komachi,
	Kogasa_Tatara	I've shouted at Rumia and even alarmed Manah.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I am a worthless piece of shit.
	Alynna	Then stop being so.
	Kogasa_Tatara	That's exactly the only way I know how to do.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I left Touhou MUCK because that's the only thing I could do there.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Now I have to leave because I don't know what else I could do.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Nobody will help me to stay.
	Alynna	stop blaming me for the things you did. Do you see me saying you caused me to go off?
	Kogasa_Tatara	So I am done, and I am leaving.
	Alynna	I am taking responsibility for getting angry and saying something I never should have.
	Alynna	It doesn't matter what led up to it, I was hurt and angry and I acted horribly.
	Kogasa_Tatara	A while ago, you only have 2 hours to RP and I RPed with you as much as I can. Should I blame you for not having enough time to RP with me? No.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Now I am busy RPing with Kalinka, and hurt due to real life. You are blaming me for not having enough time to be with you.
	Alynna	you know i am so desperately looking for a family online. i wanted you two to be it
	Kogasa_Tatara	Get Kalinka to be.
	Alynna	i was in despair that night
	Kogasa_Tatara	You know I am still going to be the one most hurt.
	Alynna	but i can see this much now, you won't let me try to make things better
	Kogasa_Tatara	Make things better, then. Go off and do things.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Leave me alone to my misery where I've betrayed all my friends.
	Alynna	you know why I won't do that?
	Alynna	because i'm not going to be the person you're trying to make me.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Oh, now I am trying to make you into someone.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Fine, then, don't make amend for things you've broke.
	Alynna	you're trying to fit me in the Remilia and Kaguya box.
	Alynna	I am not going in there.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Remilia and Kaguya don't fix what they break, they just break things.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You are not doing any better.
	Alynna	the fix you propose means 'you leaving forever'
	Kogasa_Tatara	Because no matter what, I'll be afraid of you hurting me again.
	Kogasa_Tatara	So I won't be with you for a good, long time.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Instead of telling you to wait, I care for you enough to tell you to find your own happiness.
	Kogasa_Tatara	And leave me alone. Please. Just do it.
	Alynna	if you can't handle someone getting upset with you just once..
	Kogasa_Tatara	I can't RP anymore.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I don't belong in this community anymore.
	Kogasa_Tatara	I lost my core being.
	Kogasa_Tatara	You striked me when I was most vulnerable. I am done with the community. I'll never RP again until I recover, which might take a long time.
	Kogasa_Tatara	No here, not in Real Life with DnD, not in my dreams.
	Alynna	ok fine, i'm going to leave you alone. Because I can see you won't have it any other way. But I'm going to have the last word on this. I'm not abandoning you. When you come back I will still want to be with you and I will still care.
	Kogasa_Tatara	Then I am done here.