Levi and Lily have emotions and things

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* arthurianNoblesse began espering stardustBlockbuster
arthurianNoblesse
HEllo LIly.
I Am sorry I Have not been building up for you, I Shall begin doing so as soon as I Am able.
stardustBlockbuster
LEVI
OH MY GOD
ARE YOU ALRIGHT?
arthurianNoblesse
I Am altogether unharmed, which I Suppose one could view as the ultimate problem with this situation.
stardustBlockbuster
shhh
shhhhhhhh
listen
neither of you knew what would happen
Portia isn't dead
well
her dreamself is dead
but for people who are on derse
idk how much it matters
because that dude sounds like an ass
ill probably kill him later
arthurianNoblesse
SHe isn't? DReamself? I Don't understand.
stardustBlockbuster
after i figure out what the goal of this is
yeah
...you havent read the info dump yet?
well
to be fair
i ommited the part about "not dying"
arthurianNoblesse
NO, I Only just awoke and saw the memo, and then you contacted me.
stardustBlockbuster
from what i understand
arthurianNoblesse
OR rather, demanded that I Contact you.
stardustBlockbuster
every person has two selves
their regular self
yknow
you and i as we are right now
and then their dream self
which is on prospit or derse
when we sleep as normal selves
we wake up as dream selves
they are two different selves
death in one means you can still live in the other
but
arthurianNoblesse
IT does?
stardustBlockbuster
dont think this means you can go off and die
you have to make your lives worth it!
including the one you are living right now!
arthurianNoblesse
THen, POrtia is still alive?
stardustBlockbuster
definitely
albiet
shaken up
so we know portia is, or er, was on derse
arthurianNoblesse
THat is gratifying, I Am glad she did not die for me, I Don't deserve such a sacrifice.
stardustBlockbuster
meaning she is an actual player
stfu
you deserve every sacrifice
arthurianNoblesse
NO, LIly, I Don't.
stardustBlockbuster
i would gladly give my life to keep yours going
arthurianNoblesse
THat's terrible, I Don't want you to die at all, much less for my sake!
stardustBlockbuster
i dont want anyone to die
and ill do anything to stop it
arthurianNoblesse
I Don't deserve anyone's death, least of all yours!
stardustBlockbuster
listen
ive learned a few things over the years
and your negative emotions
are in the wrong place
youre sad
let me ask
what is sadness doing other than pulling you down
its shit
fuck sadness
get angry
dont charge at that king fucker tho
we gotta plan
think of a way to take him down
arthurianNoblesse
I Can't just say fuck sadness, and I Don't deserve the removal of it that anger will bring.
DOn't you understand LIly?
I"m worthless.
A Weakling.
stardustBlockbuster
no you arent
you are anything but
arthurianNoblesse
POrtia died because I Was helpless.
OR maybe she didn't but that changes nothing about me!
I Didn't know she'd continue to live, and I J Ust left her behind!
FIrst my sister leaves because of it, now I Leave someone to die!
I Bring nothing but burdens on everyone around me!
stardustBlockbuster
thats a load of crap and you know it
arthurianNoblesse
YOu deserve better than me, everyone does.
stardustBlockbuster
stop trying to rationalize the world being unfair
thats just how it is
arthurianNoblesse
I"m not rationalizing it, I Should be stronger and I"m not, and people die because of my failures.
stardustBlockbuster
people always make failures
two people died because of you
big whoop
two species died because of my shit mistake
and im still going!
because despite my lack of judgement
and my stupidity
i have to find a way to make it up to everyone
arthurianNoblesse
WHat? LIly, you made one poor decision you had no way of knowing would lead to all of this, and what's more you didn't even make it alone!
stardustBlockbuster
i have to save everyone
arthurianNoblesse
I Was as much of an accomplice to this as you were, or any of us!
YOu're not to blame for this game, none of us are!
stardustBlockbuster
think of it like this
arthurianNoblesse
WE couldn't have known that it would turn out like this when we began playing, and expecting you alone to stop us is a fool's errand!
stardustBlockbuster
does that make me less of the guilty party
arthurianNoblesse
YEs!
stardustBlockbuster
my hands dont feel any less bloody
arthurianNoblesse
WEll your hands are stupid!
stardustBlockbuster
thats a fair point
but so are you
lets say
you did protect portia
and you didnt run
what weapons did you have on you
arthurianNoblesse
I Didn't even think to check.
stardustBlockbuster
trick question you didnt have any
you would have charged at the king dude
and then died
and then portia would have charged at the king
and died
so then were left with two dead dream selves
and nothing to gain
this way
if you do die in your waking self
you have another self to go to
or
if you do get back on derse
you can spy on the king
arthurianNoblesse
BUt, I Could have given POrtia time to escape, they decided to spare me for her bravery, why wouldn't they have spared her for mine?
stardustBlockbuster
she wouldnt escape
i dont know her much
but from what you said
shes like me
she wouldnt run
shed fight those in power
arthurianNoblesse
BUt maybe if I Had been stronger we could have won.
stardustBlockbuster
you wouldnt
and even if you could
you wouldnt know you could
its smarter to run
and exact revenge later
than to get two people killed at once
arthurianNoblesse
LIly! I"m still so weak though, I Can't even begin to fathom POrtia's strength and they dispatched her as though she was nothing more than a mere fly clinging to a spider's web. HOw will I Be of any use in the coming battles?
I Just feel so worthless.
stardustBlockbuster
how about this
well train
we will beat the shit out of imps
and get stronger
and not die
and keep living for others
arthurianNoblesse
HEh.
stardustBlockbuster
and keep learning
and keeping finding new things
and BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF ANYONE IN OUR WAY
weakness isnt losing its giving up
and if i see you give up
ill beat the hell outta you until you give up giving up
arthurianNoblesse
LIly, I Doubt that I Shall ever understand how you're managing to cheer me up.
stardustBlockbuster
im cheering you up cuz im your leader and your friend
this is what i do
arthurianNoblesse
I Guess you are our leader aren't you?
ALright, "Leader"< I"ll follow your battle plan, but you have to promise me you'll take your own advice as well.
stardustBlockbuster
yeah yeah
do as i say and dont do as i do
keep yourself alive
arthurianNoblesse
NO.
YOu have to promise me.
stardustBlockbuster
i promise
arthurianNoblesse
YOu promise to what?
stardustBlockbuster
for you
i promise i wont do anything dumb
and get myself killed
arthurianNoblesse
THank you LIly, I Can't imagine what I"d do without a friend like you.
stardustBlockbuster
if i do somehow die though
which
i dont plan to
make sure that bastard roland doesnt become the new leader
id come back from the dead and haunt you
arthurianNoblesse
LIly, if you die, I"ll be rather preoccupied ensuring that your killer's existence comes to a short and excruciating end, with absolutely no regard for my own life or limb.
stardustBlockbuster
dont do that
if i die its gonna be protecting one of YOU numbskulls
and if you go out and probably get yourself killed
then youll just end up disappointing me
arthurianNoblesse
THen view this as insurance that if you die, it shan't be in defense of me.
stardustBlockbuster
and then ill haunt your ass in the afterlife
arthurianNoblesse
I Shall enjoy your haunting, after all you're a very close friend.
stardustBlockbuster
sigh
just keep on going alright?
we gotta end this
and i cant do it without you
every piece is important to this
arthurianNoblesse
NOr I Without you.
stardustBlockbuster
surprisingly, especially rolandsprite
arthurianNoblesse
WE shall end this, but we shall do it together.
ALive.
stardustBlockbuster
exactly
now
go build me up some, could ya honey?
it would mean a lot to me ;)
arthurianNoblesse
I Shall tend to that task at once.
stardustBlockbuster
stay strong soldier!
catch ya later
arthurianNoblesse
AU revoir LIly, when we meet your house shall tower over us mortals.
* stardustBlockbuster ceased pestering arthurianNoblesse
arthurianNoblesse
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