My opinions are right and yours are wrong, ok???

Watching speedrunning is boring to me recently. It's not because I don't like it, it's because I don't relate to most runners these days. Sounds elitist but I don't care because it's true. The thing is, I don't really respect most runners, especially newer ones. Like when I first came into the community there were so many people who just went above and beyond, who really made an impact. Not many big names really come up any more, and those that do make it big because they're entertainers, not individuals who go above and beyond to really make an impact. That's what I respect and that's what I find value in. These are the things that interest me.

So if you're an entertainer, not a groundbreaking member of the community, but a cool guy who's pretty decent at what you do, I'm not saying I dislike you at all. I enjoy most people in the community. But there are just so many streamers and people out there like this that it's become boring, and I frankly just don't see myself in this mentality. It's very hard for me to invest in a streamer if I can't relate to them, that being their personality, play style, views on speedrunning etc.

For awhile I thought I was just being a grouchy "old boy" who didn't want to associate with newer runs because I was somehow above them, and it would frustrate me a little that I had this mentality, but this was never the case. There wre ea very small handful of newer runners and streamers who I genuinely enjoyed. I think most speedrunners just see it differently these days.

The other thing is that the communities that I was really invested in, the ones that included my best friends, they don't really come around anymore. It really makes me sad to think about this, and I am constantly disheartened by the distance growing between me and both the older and newer generation of speedruns. I feel like I'm stuck in a limbo of sorts. This doesn't demotivate me, in fact it gives me resolve to do something very different. My life and situation is a little weird right now, but when things settle down, I want to prove to myself that I can be the kind of streamer and speedrun that I respect. I also want to prove to others that this is something to value. I guess I want to show people an attitude that they would be inspired to follow.

There's been this huge debate about content creation and it's kind of bullshit I think. I personally don't want to see the community influenced by shitty youtube highlights and clickbait. I want to see it transformed by attitudes and mentalities that inspire others to act the same way, just like how I was years ago. So, no, I don't want people to think I'm some shit elitist who think everyone else acts and plays their video game the wrong way and that I'm absolutely right. Keep doing what you love. My stance is more so that I would like to inspire an attitude that other would like to follow on their own accord.

I've always kind of wanted to be a bigger name in the community, someone who people know, but the popularity is never what made me want this. I've only ever wanted to inspire other to see speedrunning the way I do because they want to. It sounds weird, and once again elitist, but it's seriously boring for me to see speedrunning and twitch move in the direction it's going.