Apr 30 09:54:30 *	Q-33_North knocks on the door to Hana's room,  She's closest right now, after all.
Apr 30 09:55:20 <Ikiryo>	"Huh? Oh, come in." She hears from inside.
Apr 30 09:57:54 <Ikiryo>	Hana is currently...sitting on the floor. Or close enough, she's made a small rock garden in the middle of the room and is sitting cross legged in the middle of it.
Apr 30 09:58:02 *	Q-33_North steps inside, and fidgets, nervously.  "Hey.  How's things?"
Apr 30 09:58:13 <Ikiryo>	Hana is still the excess-caused tall, curvy woman with rich chocolate skin. Her usual cracks in her skin have become red tattoos that are rather visible concidering she's wearing short shorts. Still, she managed to borrow a t-shirt from someone so it's more respectable than before.
Apr 30 09:58:31 <Ikiryo>	She has rather a lot of gold jewelery on, ear piercings and a lip piercing and a gold choker. She smiles at Q-33. "Not too bad...just doing some meditation."
Apr 30 10:00:59 <Q-33_North>	"Cool.  Cool.  So uh.  Question, then.  If I were, say, to be thinking about changing my name, is that. . . is that a good idea?"
Apr 30 10:02:31 <Ikiryo>	She raises an eyebrow. "It's a bit hard to say without hearing why...or to what." She stretches, standing up from her meditation.
Apr 30 10:04:34 <Q-33_North>	". . . Blueshift.  Blueshift North.  And. . . Look. Q-33 is fine, it's served me a long time, but.  It's not. . . it's not a name.  It's a model number.  And. . . I don't want the thing that wants me as a body to have any more ownership of me than it already does."
Apr 30 10:05:38 <Ikiryo>	"...Blueshift...North..." Her lips quirk upward in a smile.
Apr 30 10:06:18 <Q-33_North>	"It's too much isn't it." She sighs.
Apr 30 10:06:49 <Ikiryo>	"It sounds very...you."
Apr 30 10:08:41 <Q-33_North>	"Is that good or bad?"
Apr 30 10:14:58 <Ikiryo>	"Not good not bad. Just...you." Her smile widens, a bit impish.
Apr 30 10:15:23 <Q-33_North>	"What does that mean?" She sounds worried.
Apr 30 10:19:45 <Ikiryo>	"You know how Sierra gives really functional names to everything that are kinda dull?"
Apr 30 10:20:31 <Q-33_North>	". . . Yeah?"
Apr 30 10:21:17 <Ikiryo>	"You are not that." She smirks. "I think it's cool if you like it."
Apr 30 10:23:01 <Q-33_North>	"So you're saying I'm a dork."
Apr 30 10:25:09 <Ikiryo>	"What did you spend last weekend doing?"
Apr 30 10:26:17 <Q-33_North>	"I was fixing drivers for the weapons systems on the Lily's ship?"
Apr 30 10:27:29 <Ikiryo>	"And the card game I walked in on you and her playing while you did it?"
Apr 30 10:28:13 <Q-33_North>	"Compiling takes a long time." She says defensively. "Anyway you had your deck on you too."
Apr 30 10:31:02 <Ikiryo>	"Yes but I didn't make laser noises with my mouth when I zapped your creatures." She puts an arm around Q-33
Apr 30 10:32:37 <Q-33_North>	"Only the laser based ones!" She protests.
Apr 30 10:34:20 <Ikiryo>	"And the lightning based ones you borrowed from Adelinda's deck?"
Apr 30 10:37:03 <Q-33_North>	"I mean that just makes sense."
Apr 30 10:38:06 <Ikiryo>	She smirks and ruffles Q-33's hair. "You are a dork. That's part of why you are my friend."
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Apr 30 10:39:48 <Q-33_North>	"I kinda can't help it."
Apr 30 10:41:09 <Ikiryo>	"I wasn't really complaining. I mean, you put up with my temper issues."
Apr 30 10:43:14 <Q-33_North>	"I mean, why wouldn't I?"
Apr 30 10:45:07 <Ikiryo>	"Well, why would I not like you being a dork?"
Apr 30 10:46:52 <Q-33_North>	". . . I don't know."
Apr 30 10:47:13 <Ikiryo>	"So, should I call you Blueshift now then?"
Apr 30 10:48:00 <Q-33_North>	"I need to get the paperwork filed with the Pirates first, and. . . I'd need to talk to South."
Apr 30 10:48:31 <Ikiryo>	"Yeah...concidering you share the first name."
Apr 30 10:52:05 <Q-33_North>	"Yeah. Anyway thanks, I've got a few other people I need to tell."
Apr 30 10:53:52 <Ikiryo>	"Yeah, if you want. I was planning on meditating more...I don't want to lose control during the fight we've got coming."
Apr 30 10:54:48 <Q-33_North>	"Sure.  And uh.  Thanks.  For being my friend, I mean."
Apr 30 10:57:18 <Ikiryo>	"...likewise." Her smile is shaky for a second but she nods.
Apr 30 10:58:55 <Q-33_North>	". . . You going to be okay?" She pauses, in the door.  "If you need to talk. . ."
Apr 30 11:00:25 <Ikiryo>	"Just history stuff." She shakes her head. "...if you'd spoken to me a few years ago, I'd be the one grateful to have anyone willing to call me a friend."
Apr 30 11:02:02 <Q-33_North>	"Yeah well. . . I think we're both in better places than we were a few years ago, given that I was in suspended animation.  I think."
Apr 30 11:02:37 <Ikiryo>	"And I was...well, I was a mess." She frowns. "...kinda glad you don't know me from then."
Apr 30 11:03:28 <Q-33_North>	"Can't be that bad."
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Apr 30 11:05:45 <Ikiryo>	"...I dunno, I was technically part of a terrorist cult."
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Apr 30 11:06:54 *	Q-33_North cocks her head to the side.  ". . . You were?"
Apr 30 11:07:40 <Ikiryo>	"...yeah." She sighs. "I'm not exactly proud of it."
Apr 30 11:08:34 <Q-33_North>	"Hey, we all do things we're not proud of.  Do. . . you want to talk about it?"
Apr 30 11:10:09 <Ikiryo>	"...have you heard of the Sul-Sigmarites? They are a religious cult."
Apr 30 11:10:26 <Q-33_North>	"I have not." She sits back down next to her friend.
Apr 30 11:18:32 <Ikiryo>	"Well, they have a pretty basic idea. Sigmar was a human when he was alive, so they think he's the god of humans and that human cultures should obey him."
Apr 30 11:19:04 <Q-33_North>	". . . What about nonhuman cultures?"
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Apr 30 11:22:45 <Ikiryo>	"They don't care about them...unless they are chaos worshippers. Then they are enemies of sigmar."
Apr 30 11:23:10 <Q-33_North>	". . . Ah."
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Apr 30 11:24:54 <Ikiryo>	"My parents were Sul-Menites. They hate two things: Chaos Worshippers...and Magic."
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Apr 30 11:26:39 *	Q-33_North leans over and hugs her friend, hesitantly.  "Well, I think you've come a ways since then."
Apr 30 11:28:26 <Ikiryo>	"...that's not the group I was talking about." She hugs back though. "So, when my powers awakened and I started setting stuff on fire...well, the exiled me from my clan. Honestly better than being Wracked."
Apr 30 11:29:19 <Q-33_North>	"Sorry. I have trouble with religion. . . Wracked?"
Apr 30 11:34:08 <Ikiryo>	"It's...well, it's a symbolic punishment. When Sigmar led the uprising against the ogre ocupation they captured him and strung him up. He was left like that for days without food or water...the punishment version includes fogs of incense and chains blessed to cure those wrapped in them of any calluses...or ability to get used to the pain over time."
Apr 30 11:34:28 <Ikiryo>	She frowns. "It's a punishment for those who need to repent of darkness, like being born a sorcerer."
Apr 30 11:35:21 *	Q-33_North looks very upset, and hugs her friend, unsure of what to say.
Apr 30 11:38:02 <Ikiryo>	"...well, I was picked up by a group when I was half dead. The Circle Ouroboros. They worship a minor god called the Devourer, the child of Luna and Khorne and hate menites." She hugs back
Apr 30 11:39:15 <Q-33_North>	". . . Yeah.  That would do it."
Apr 30 11:41:16 <Ikiryo>	"They took me in and taught me to use my powers...and then I ran away." She sighs. "...they tried to show me thier weapons of war and I freaked out. I'm glad I did, I'm not sure what it would say if I was alright with what I saw."
Apr 30 11:43:16 <Q-33_North>	". . . I don't know.  And. I don't know who I used to be, before I lost my memory, but.  I get the feeling I won't like them."
Apr 30 11:48:04 <Ikiryo>	"Blood sacrafice...killing people to use thier lives to fuel golems. A dozen people killed to animate a creature of stone and plant the size of one of those land air mechs the lillies have."
Apr 30 11:50:09 *	Q-33_North hugs her tighter. "Well.  For what it's worth, I'm glad you weren't okay with it and you made it through that."
Apr 30 11:51:23 <Ikiryo>	"They said they were guardians of nature...but the devourer is focused on only a single part of it. Hunting, Killing and Consuming."
Apr 30 11:53:51 <Q-33_North>	"But. . . there's a lot more to nature than that."
Apr 30 11:56:52 <Ikiryo>	"How do you know, the closest you get to nature is declaring pizza is a vegetable?" She smiles, hugging Q-33.
Apr 30 11:58:23 <Q-33_North>	"I've had vegitarian food in the past." She huffs.  "My diet is only 60% junk food."
Apr 30 12:03:25 <Ikiryo>	"Vegetarian Pizza is vegetarian, yes. I remember what Yellow ordered last time." She nods. "...thanks for listening to me and not thinking less of me for it."
Apr 30 12:05:34 <Q-33_North>	". . . I can't really judge you when I might have done worse, can I?"
Apr 30 12:06:49 <Ikiryo>	"Eh, your body might have done worse. I'm pretty sure Q-33 is too much of a dork to have done it."
Apr 30 12:11:03 <Q-33_North>	"I don't know how different the two are, yet."
Apr 30 12:13:39 <Ikiryo>	"Different enough I won't hate you for whatever you did." She tightens the hug.
Apr 30 12:15:50 *	Q-33_North returns the gesture.  "Thanks."
Apr 30 12:18:47 <Ikiryo>	"Anyway, you should likely go talk to someone else about the name thing rather than talking about pointless things with me."
Apr 30 12:20:40 <Q-33_North>	"Syre.   Good luck.  She gets up and actually leaves the room this time., and heads for wherever Adelinda is.
Apr 30 12:23:32 <Ikiryo>	Adelinda is in her workshop, putting some final touches on the latest iteration of that pistol of hers.
Apr 30 12:24:30 *	Q-33_North knocks on the door before entering.
Apr 30 12:28:59 <Ikiryo>	"Unless it's Sierra, come in."
Apr 30 12:29:26 <Q-33_North>	"Why can't she come in?"
Apr 30 12:32:49 <Ikiryo>	"Because I've got a big magnet next to the door and unlike you, she's ferrus enough for that to affect her."
Apr 30 12:33:30 <Q-33_North>	"That's fair.  How's it going?"
Apr 30 12:36:07 <Ikiryo>	"Not bad, just tinkering...mostly because I've not got uch else to do."
Apr 30 12:37:13 <Q-33_North>	"Yeah, well, you're probably going to have something to do in a minute.  Specifically laugh.  At me.  Because I'm changing my first name to Blueshift."
Apr 30 12:41:12 <Ikiryo>	"...you are...what?" She turns, looking at Q-33.
Apr 30 12:41:36 *	Q-33_North rubs one arm, sheepishly.  "You heard me."
Apr 30 12:43:39 <Ikiryo>	She looks Q-33 up and down...and starts giggling.
Apr 30 12:44:00 *	Q-33_North waits.  She expected this.
Apr 30 12:44:58 <Ikiryo>	The giggling continues for a good few minutes.
Apr 30 12:45:09 *	Q-33_North leans against the wall until she's done.
Apr 30 12:47:03 <Ikiryo>	It...takes a while, eventually she can speak though. "So...does that mean you are moving towards me? If you walk towards the door would you become Redshift North?"
Apr 30 12:48:04 <Q-33_North>	"Names aren't positional dork."
Apr 30 12:49:39 <Ikiryo>	"Redshift and Blueshift are~" She grins.
Apr 30 12:51:35 <Q-33_North>	"I mean yes but. . . Do you not like it?"
Apr 30 12:53:07 <Ikiryo>	"It's SUPER dorky. I love it~"
Apr 30 12:53:38 <Q-33_North>	"Really?"
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Apr 30 12:55:39 <Ikiryo>	"Would I lie?"
Apr 30 12:56:24 <Q-33_North>	"I dunno I expected you to tease me more."
Apr 30 12:59:00 <Ikiryo>	"I can if you want! Like: Did you pick blueshift entirely because you were already blue?"
Apr 30 12:59:24 <Q-33_North>	"I can change colors!"
Apr 30 13:04:19 <Ikiryo>	"Then why blueshift?~"
Apr 30 13:05:03 <Q-33_North>	". . . Because I'm moving towards a future I chose rather than one that was chosen for me." She says, looking away.
Apr 30 13:05:29 <Ikiryo>	"...oh my god that is adorably dorky!" She suddenly hugs Q-33
Apr 30 13:06:12 *	Q-33_North hugs her back.  ". . . Thanks?"
Apr 30 13:10:15 <Ikiryo>	"I'm sorry, that was just so...wow. So sappy and dramatic it was amazing."
Apr 30 13:10:46 <Q-33_North>	"Well like.  There's not exactly a guideline on picking new names." She huffs.  "I checked."
Apr 30 13:14:03 <Ikiryo>	Adelinda pinches her cheek. "You went and you looked up a guide on how to names?"
Apr 30 13:15:05 <Q-33_North>	"None of them were good!"
Apr 30 13:16:44 <Ikiryo>	"...wait, you seriously did?"
Apr 30 13:18:18 <Q-33_North>	"The only ones I could find were for babies and I'm not one so it didn't work."
Apr 30 13:19:06 <Ikiryo>	"And because they were normal person names? Unlike the name that sounds like it came out of a holonovel?"
Apr 30 13:19:52 <Q-33_North>	"I mean so does my life story."
Apr 30 13:21:23 <Ikiryo>	"Yeah but...wow, Blueshift. That's like Viviance Vance, Virtuakinetic levels."
Apr 30 13:24:06 <Q-33_North>	"I don't want to hear it from you.  You made me play the Jax Voidslayer CCG with you."
Apr 30 13:24:42 <Ikiryo>	"Hey, that was fun!"
Apr 30 13:26:43 <Q-33_North>	"I mean yes but the naming scheme? Come on."
Apr 30 13:27:07 <Ikiryo>	"And now you get to join it~"
Apr 30 13:30:21 <Q-33_North>	"I think you're just jealous."
Apr 30 13:31:28 <Ikiryo>	"Why would I be jealous?"
Apr 30 13:32:40 <Q-33_North>	"Because I get to pick my own name."
Apr 30 13:34:21 <Ikiryo>	"I could do that if I wanted!"
Apr 30 13:34:29 <Q-33_North>	"Uh huh, sure."
Apr 30 13:34:57 <Ikiryo>	She whaps Q-33 on the back of the head. "Keep thinking that, blueshift~"
Apr 30 13:35:31 <Q-33_North>	"You're just jealous of my good cool new name." She sticks out her tongue.
Apr 30 13:40:08 <Ikiryo>	She grins...and a spark of electricity jumps to Q-33's tongue.
Apr 30 13:41:01 <Q-33_North>	"ACK!"
Apr 30 13:41:48 <Ikiryo>	She giggles.
Apr 30 13:43:47 *	Q-33_North throws a snowball at her friend.
Apr 30 13:45:18 <Ikiryo>	"Oof!" It hits her right in the face.
Apr 30 13:46:29 *	Q-33_North giggles this time.
Apr 30 13:47:02 <Ikiryo>	"Oh, you are in for it now~"
Apr 30 13:47:30 <Ikiryo>	[From: S3dluhn - Alright, now rip her shirt]
Apr 30 13:49:02 <Q-33_North>	"Try me.~" [I'm not flirting with her though?]
Apr 30 13:50:55 <Ikiryo>	[From: S3dluhn - You sure?] "Alright then~" She tackles the other girl, poking her with crackling fingers and giving her tiny shocks.
Apr 30 13:52:35 <Q-33_North>	[Last time I checked our relationship was entirely non-sexual.] "Ack!"
Apr 30 13:55:27 <Ikiryo>	[You are currently rolling on the ground with a big breasted girl while she zaps you. I know people who pay good money for that.]
Apr 30 13:55:40 <Ikiryo>	"Suffer!~" She giggles
Apr 30 13:57:42 <Q-33_North>	[I'm not Annandra.] "Oh no electricity, one of my many weaknesses!"
Apr 30 13:59:17 <Ikiryo>	"Yep! Soon I will zap your brain too!" [Well no. She wouldn't resist this, that's no fun~]
Apr 30 14:00:11 *	Q-33_North makes it start to snow over Adelinda.  [Anyway look we're not flirting.]
Apr 30 14:01:13 <Ikiryo>	Adelinda shivers. "Ah, cheater!" [Rrriiiggghhhttt~]
Apr 30 14:02:16 <Q-33_North>	[We're not! This is completely chaste.] She sticks her tongue out.
Apr 30 14:03:24 <Ikiryo>	The other girl does the same. "The name is great, dork~"
Apr 30 14:05:53 *	Q-33_North sighs, relieved. "Thanks."
May 01 00:02:56 *	Q-33_North sighs.  "Here we go." She murmurs to herself before knocking, gently on South's door.  She actually waits for the other person to respond, which is new this time.
May 01 00:04:27 <Ikiryo>	"Just a moment!" She hears rummaging about before South heads out, holding a box and not letting North see inside the room.
May 01 00:05:04 <Q-33_North>	"Hey." She says, awkwardly.
May 01 00:05:59 <Ikiryo>	"Hey!" She pushes the box into Q-33's hands. "I made you a thing!"
May 01 00:06:39 *	Q-33_North gently opens it.
May 01 00:07:21 <Ikiryo>	Inside is a small cake and a card. Both look hand made.
May 01 00:08:24 *	Q-33_North takes the card and reads it.
May 01 00:10:11 <Ikiryo>	Q-33 North and South, Best Friends and Sisters Forever! It's got a picture of one of the many times South has hugged her unexpectely. "It's been two months since I came onto the ship!"
May 01 00:12:34 *	Q-33_North winces.  "Thanks a lot, actually.  I really appreciate this.  Like.  A lot.  But. . . Can I come in, so we can talk? It's not a bad talk.  I promise."
May 01 00:13:33 <Ikiryo>	"Sure! We can talk about anything!"
May 01 00:15:19 *	Q-33_North steps inside the room and gently sets the cake down on the default desk.  She sits on the bed and pats it next to her.
May 01 00:17:17 <Ikiryo>	The room is...rather a mess. It's got a lot of posters on the walls. The Lillies, photos of herself with other people and a big one with a heap of Quori ships on it. She takes a seat next to Q-33 North.
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May 01 00:21:26 <Q-33_North>	"So.  I haven't had a chance to file the paperwork yet.  And I won't until we both talk about this, and I get your go ahead.  Also I want you to understand that. . . this isn't about me not wanting you here or to be your sister.  I'm thinking of changing my name.  And it has nothing to do with you, this is all on me."
May 01 00:23:26 <Ikiryo>	"...wait...but you want to..." She just stares at Q-33
May 01 00:24:32 <Q-33_North>	"Still be your sister. And your friend."
May 01 00:25:58 <Ikiryo>	"But you don't want to be Q-33?" She bites her lip, tears starting to well up in her eyes.
May 01 00:26:44 *	Q-33_North hugs her tight.  "I. . . don't know that the name fits me anymore.  It doesn't. . . feel like it fits the person I am now."
May 01 00:27:09 <Ikiryo>	"But...but...we're Q-33..." She starts to cry.
May 01 00:28:09 *	Q-33_North gently strokes her hair.  "We'll still be the same.  We don't need the same name to have our current relationship.  I don't want that to change."
May 01 00:28:44 <Ikiryo>	She tries to escape the hug.
May 01 00:29:07 *	Q-33_North lets her, looking deflated.  "I won't do it if you don't want me to."
May 01 00:30:37 <Ikiryo>	"We're just...North, South, East West...we're all Q-33...it's what we are." She heads over to the wall, looking at a picture she has up of her hugging two Q-33's who look rather grumpy about it.
May 01 00:33:10 *	Q-33_North folds arms.  "I don't. . ." She pauses.  "I don't know if the name fits me though.  South, you said once, that I could. . . That I was the only one who could be The Puppeteer's host.  I think. . . I think I failed too.  I just. . . did it differently."
May 01 00:43:06 <Ikiryo>	"But...no, you didn't fail...you are great and awesome and..." She starts to hit her head against the wall.
May 01 00:47:47 *	Q-33_North physically transposes herself between South and the wall.  "But. At this point, the person I am now.  I don't want to be that.  And I don't know how to want it.  The person I am right now, today. Doesn't know how to want that.  And sometimes? Like right now, I hate that, because I know this doesn't make any sense to you and I don't know how to explain it." She looks like she's actually on the verge of tears.  "And I can't
May 01 00:47:47 *	Q-33_North stop you from wanting to hurt yourself because of it.  I'm really not that great South.  If I was, I'd know how to stop you from feeling like this."
May 01 00:49:28 <Ikiryo>	"You are great...the rest of us? Even West? We all failed...you succeeded...I just want you to see how great you are..."
May 01 00:50:50 <Q-33_North>	"I didn't though.  I. . . I can't be the person you want me to.  Not without giving up on being me.  And I. . . don't know how to do that."
May 01 00:53:48 <Ikiryo>	"...but you COULD be it...I can't do that. I can't be that person even if I want to be..."
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May 01 00:56:52 <Q-33_North>	"And I can't want to be that person.  Even. . . even if it would be easier on me I can't want that."
May 01 00:57:24 <Ikiryo>	She starts to cry again, trying to sidestep to resume hitting her head on the wall.
May 01 01:13:16 *	Q-33_North keeps inbetween her and the wall.  She's also crying.
May 01 01:13:59 <Ikiryo>	"...why couldn't I be the success? Then we'd both be happy..."
May 01 01:17:07 <Q-33_North>	"I don't know that we can say that." She says, sadly.  "Then maybe our positions would just be reversed."
May 01 01:17:42 <Ikiryo>	"I just...I want everyone to be happy..you, West, East...all the Q-33s..."
May 01 01:23:17 <Q-33_North>	"I know.  And. . . that's one of the reasons I love you."
May 01 01:25:16 <Ikiryo>	"...but you want to not be a Q-33 like me..."
May 01 01:28:49 <Q-33_North>	"No that's. . . how to explain it."  She paces.  "It's not that I don't want to be like you it's just.  The more time passes, the less it fits.  That name marks me as something specific.  A body for a thing that. . . I can't be a part of, while I'm still me."
May 01 01:29:52 <Ikiryo>	"...but I want to be like you...but I like being Q-33..."
May 01 01:32:15 <Q-33_North>	"You'll still be like me.  We're allowed to have different names."
May 01 01:35:14 <Ikiryo>	"...but I'll be less like you...and if I change my name to be like you again I'll be less like my other sisters..."
May 01 01:36:46 <Q-33_North>	". . . What if. . . what if you were just like you?"
May 01 01:37:08 <Ikiryo>	"...what?"
May 01 01:39:01 <Q-33_North>	"What if you did the things that you like that nobody else does?"
May 01 01:39:19 <Q-33_North>	"Like I can't cook.  But you love cooking, and you're great at it."
May 01 01:40:12 <Ikiryo>	"...thanks but...I don't understand."
May 01 01:44:19 <Q-33_North>	"What if you just. . . focused on doing things you liked.  Things that make you happy.  Instead of thinking about all the things you're not, think about things you like.  People you care about."
May 02 22:59:47 <Ikiryo>	"...but I like being like you..."
May 02 23:01:10 <Q-33_North>	"You can still be like me in all the ways you are now, and could be more like me in other ways if things change in that direction."
May 02 23:03:53 <Ikiryo>	"...but...but if I do that I'll be less like West and East..."
May 02 23:06:04 <Q-33_North>	"What if you took the parts of me you like, and imitated those, and took the parts of them you liked and imitated those.  That way, you'd have all the best ideas."
May 02 23:06:27 <Ikiryo>	"...but I'd also have parts I'm not..."
May 02 23:07:42 <Q-33_North>	"Well you already have parts about yourself that I think are unique.  And I think you're better for it."
May 02 23:08:34 <Ikiryo>	"...I do?"
May 02 23:11:01 <Q-33_North>	"You do.  South, when we first met I couldn't be in the same room as you, but you kept reaching out to me and I got to know you, as a person, and I think I'm better for it.  But that's something you did, that I didn't know I wanted to do."
May 02 23:14:16 <Ikiryo>	"...no, I mean, you would have done it if you were in the same place as me!"
May 02 23:16:45 <Q-33_North>	"I don't know if I would.  Can any of the others cook?"
May 02 23:29:29 <Ikiryo>	"...I'm sure they could if they tried!"
May 02 23:30:19 <Q-33_North>	"Well that's something that you can do that I can't.  And I think that's great."
May 02 23:31:21 <Ikiryo>	"...no, I'm...I'm sure you could do it if you tried! It's not something weird!" Her eyes look a bit desperate.
May 02 23:31:53 <Q-33_North>	"It's not something weird.  It's something great.  But it's also something I can't do."
May 02 23:32:43 <Ikiryo>	"N-No...I'll stop it...please..."
May 02 23:33:35 <Q-33_North>	"I'm not telling you to stop it! I really like that you do it.  I think it's very cool and good that you can do something better than me."
May 02 23:34:23 <Ikiryo>	"No...you are the success...I'm the failure...you have to be better than me." She starts crying again.
May 02 23:35:52 *	Q-33_North hugs her again.  "You're not a failure, just because you can't be me."
May 02 23:36:49 <Ikiryo>	"Yes I am...I can't be what I'm supposed to be...if you are the success...I can't be better than you at things..." She starts to cry loudly.
May 02 23:37:47 *	Q-33_North goes back to hugging her, and gently stroking her hair.  She's not really sure about what to say here.
May 02 23:38:00 <Ikiryo>	South just cries loudly
May 02 23:39:30 *	Q-33_North endevors to just stay like that until she calms down.
May 02 23:59:35 <Q-33_North>	"I'm sorry I can't be the person you thought I was." She adds, softly.
May 03 00:00:54 <Ikiryo>	"...you can be...I'm sure you could..." She sniffles.
May 03 00:05:59 *	Q-33_North just looks sad.  "I don't think I can, because. . ."  she trails off.  ". . . South, have I told you about the only time I've had direct contact with the puppeteer?"
May 03 00:06:31 <Ikiryo>	"No?"
May 03 00:08:14 <Q-33_North>	"Do you want to know exactly what it was like." She says, very softly.  There's an odd gravity to the way she says it.
May 03 00:09:23 <Ikiryo>	"...yes." She sounds like she's being offered a religious experiance.
May 03 00:10:27 <Q-33_North>	"I don't think this is what you want it to be." She says, quietly.  She connects something to the back of her neck and offers it to South.
May 03 00:11:02 <Ikiryo>	She takes it with reverence, plugging in herself.
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	She sees a vaguely asian themed reporter, someone who looks friendly enough. "...well...umm..." She sighs. "I found a listing of avatars he's made before. Thirty Two recorded types."
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	". . . Great.  Well that's.  Fun."
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	"Great."
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	"I don't really know how to react to that."
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	Q-33 feels a single thought phrase through her head as her body moves without her orders. If you hunt the pupeteer, the puppeteer hunts you. As the rest of the scene plays itself out, her arm snapping out to choke the life out of someone whose done nothing by try to help her.  She's overwhelmed by  emotion.  Nothing clean like horror, or dread, but something messy and complicated.  It's something nauseating, and nameless, like feeling
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	something impossibly coil around your heart, and slowly starting to crush it.  In short: something incredibly unpleasant.
May 03 00:28:52 <Q-33_North>	Time progresses as things start to play out.  The door opens, and the shadow of the puppeteer looms long.  She lashes out to kill it and there's an instant of terror when it turns out to be her friend, followed by the hollow, empty realization that she's going to be subject to this thing's whims.
May 03 00:32:12 <Ikiryo>	Q-33 South...screams.
May 03 00:33:06 *	Q-33_North hugs her again, this time being a reassuring friendly presence.  "It's okay.  It's over."
May 03 00:36:54 <Ikiryo>	"What...what was that...that wasn't..."
May 03 00:37:51 <Q-33_North>	"That was what happened to me when I found out what I was intended for." She says, very softly.
May 03 00:38:37 <Ikiryo>	"...but west said..."
May 03 00:40:15 <Q-33_North>	"I don't know what she said South.  All I can tell you is that's what happened to me.  And it hurt.  A lot.  It still hurts to think about.  But that's why I can't. . . I can't be the person that's a host to that."
May 03 00:42:01 <Ikiryo>	"She said...she said he was nice and..." She shivers
May 03 00:44:33 <Q-33_North>	"I don't know if she knows for sure." She says softly.  "I do know that she made a deal with a person who hurt my friend very badly. to get at me though.  So let's find out.  Together.  You and me."
May 03 00:45:05 <Ikiryo>	"...I...I don't know..."
May 03 00:46:34 <Q-33_North>	"If you don't want to that's fine too."
May 03 00:47:40 <Ikiryo>	"I mean...I don't know what my purpose is now..."
May 03 00:48:44 <Q-33_North>	"Most people don't. And it can be hard to find one, but I did, eventually.  Plus, you have a big advantage I didn't."
May 03 00:49:20 <Ikiryo>	"...I do?"
May 03 00:50:15 <Q-33_North>	"You have a bunch of friends to help you.  And.  You have me."
May 03 00:51:05 <Ikiryo>	She hugs Q-33 tightly.
May 03 00:51:43 *	Q-33_North returns it.  "I'm sorry you had to find out this way." she says, very quietly.
May 03 00:52:07 <Ikiryo>	"He's supposed to be..."
May 03 00:53:25 <Q-33_North>	"What?" She asks, gently.
May 03 00:54:40 <Ikiryo>	"Kind and nice and...he made us for good things..."
May 03 00:57:40 <Q-33_North>	". . .Can I let you in on a secret, South? Because I think I know something that, if it's not weighing on you now, it will.  It doesn't matter what you were made for, or where whatever powers you have come from.  It matters what you do with them.  So, whatever you were made for? If you want to do good things? Do them."
May 03 00:58:11 <Ikiryo>	"But if it's not my purpose..."
May 03 00:59:55 <Q-33_North>	"Then make it your purpose."
May 03 01:00:22 <Ikiryo>	"...can I do that?"
May 03 01:01:37 <Q-33_North>	"What's stopping you?"
May 03 01:02:36 <Ikiryo>	"...I don't know." She frowns
May 03 01:05:02 <Q-33_North>	"Then, make that your purpose.  Until you find something you like better."
May 03 01:06:49 <Ikiryo>	"I...guess?"
May 03 01:09:15 <Q-33_North>	"No guessing about it.  Just do it."
May 03 01:10:20 <Ikiryo>	She nods. "...alright."
May 03 01:14:08 <Q-33_North>	". . .so are you okay with me changing my name? I'm going to keep North, I'm not going to forget where I'm from, but, I also want to look towards the future."
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May 03 01:14:50 <Ikiryo>	She bites her lip, hard. "It's your name, you can do what you want."
May 03 01:15:59 <Q-33_North>	". . . and if I said I didn't want to upset you?"
May 03 01:16:32 <Ikiryo>	"...if I say no, you'll be sad and that would make me sad."
May 03 01:17:40 <Q-33_North>	"I also don't want you to lie to me,  I appreciate that you care though."
May 03 01:19:55 <Ikiryo>	"I don't know what I want. If I say no, you are sad. I don't want that. If I say yes, you are happy. I want that."
May 03 01:26:29 <Q-33_North>	"Are you sure? If you say so I'll delete the paperwork right now, and forget about it.  I want you to be happy too.  And. . . I wish I didn't have to show you that for you to understand." A beat.  "It's okay if you hate me for that."
May 03 01:27:52 <Ikiryo>	"If I make you sad, I'd be sad. This way you are happy."
May 03 01:28:21 <Q-33_North>	"Yeah but if I make you sad the same is true of me."
May 03 01:29:46 <Ikiryo>	"...then I think we are both sad no matter which choice is made."
May 03 01:32:28 <Q-33_North>	". . . Okay I'm going to make a deal with you.  I promise not to submit the paperwork until you say you're okay with it.  In the meantime.  I'm going to forget about it. I have a very nice cake I want to share with someone, and I need to go looking for someone to do that with." She smirks a little.
May 03 01:33:00 <Ikiryo>	"...I'm okay with it."
May 03 01:33:29 <Q-33_North>	". . . are you sure?"
May 03 01:33:44 <Ikiryo>	"...I'm okay with it." She repeats
May 03 01:35:31 <Q-33_North>	"I. . . if you're sure. . ."
May 03 01:35:49 <Ikiryo>	She hugs Q-33.
May 03 01:37:09 *	Q-33_North hugs her back.  "Do you want to split the cake? If you need time alone I can do that too. . ."
May 03 01:37:49 <Ikiryo>	"I like cake."
May 03 01:39:17 <Q-33_North>	"And I like things you make."  She pulls the box closer to the bed.  "You should probably cut it."
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May 03 01:40:07 <Ikiryo>	"You have the energy blade."
May 03 01:41:12 <Q-33_North>	"Yeah but I only use it for fights, so I'm worried I might cut the desk in half.  I'm not good at work this precise." She flips the hilt off her waist and offers it to her sister.
May 03 01:41:45 <Ikiryo>	The other girl cuts the cake for the pair.
May 03 01:43:51 *	Q-33_North goes to have her portion.