Virus and Trip Masterpost

𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔 ❀「 Kit 」Today at 4:28 AM
I'm thinking about the two of them, like,
Using Aoba as a conduit for what they'd otherwise do to each other, eyes locked on one another even though they're ostensibly focused on their favorite
Whoever breaks first loses

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:43 AM
"but point blank: Don't offer up your submissive uguu twinks for ravishing and don't expect this twink to fall all over himself for the first person who looks his way in a vaguely authoritative manner. Shop's closed, fresh out of bodice-ripping fantasies."
THIS HAS TAKEN ME TO THE EDGE OF DEATH ITSELF :joy:

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:45 AM
Though I'm not saying Trip is the one person Virus would ever consider allowing himself to be vulnerable with after plenty of coaxing but that's exactly what I'm saying
It's framed as this very resigned "I Guess if that'll get you to settle down" but like.................... We been knew
Clawing his way down the length of Trip's back
Trip can have little a topping his idol... as a treat

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:47 AM
Trip deserves the whole cake but he'll take the strawberry on top
he can vibe with that
like that whole imagery above is just...
wow.
that is
good. fucking.
food.
i am being fed in this moment.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:48 AM
Foodplay is also good
Like
Virus taking a sip of wine and giving Trip an openmouthed kiss...

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:48 AM
OH, SEXY
SEXY HOT
Trip may make a huge fucking mess but for sure know that he'll chase the taste of expensive wine across Virus' whole mouth even though he's never really considered himself much of a wine taster
it's like ..... it's not the wine that's tasty, ok.
it's virus.
thanks for coming to my ted talk!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:50 AM
Oh, that's delicious
He spills some and that prompts Virus to shake his head and mutter not to go wasting it right before he licks a stripe down Trip's throat and along his chest

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:52 AM
OH
And what can Trip do but sit back on his elbows and watch until the sight of Virus' pink tongue and quiet drags are enough to make him wrap his arms around him, flip them over, and bury his face in whatever comes first: Virus' neck, or between the guy's fucking legs. Trip isn't picky.
Sex between these two sounds like a fucking,
wait for it.
Trip.
Like the whole experience just makes the word 'Dizzy' come to my mind instantly. Which may be because of the alcohol or because of the morphine
Either way.
Virus is still the one person Trip'll never bite. Even in bed, okay. Like he'll lick and drag his teeth but he'll never sink them in or seek to draw blood. Because a good dog never bites its master. These are the facts.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:55 AM
I like the idea of most of their encounters being very languid and deliberate; Virus likes to take his time, there's no real hurry or desperation when he has control of the reins
But when Trip's behind the wheel... Well, different story
It's not often he's allowed off his leash but every so often, Virus will let him do as he likes

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:56 AM
Woof WOOF woof
Trip's probably really playful in the bedroom. For anyone else that spells disaster because they've both got some pretty nefarious ideas of what constitutes as play but with Virus it's probably the most 'innocent' or 'normal' it's ever been. And then you have Trip, who's torn between this not wanting to end and chasing the way holding Virus down makes his heart almost race. Almost. (The two of them with super slow, sluggish heart rates that keep them collected and together in even the most dire of situations? sign me up). And that almost is purely addictive.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:59 AM
FANS SELF
It's not just that they look good together, it's that devotion, as twisted and self-serving as it might be
And as much as he tries playing detached and that he's only interested in toying with Trip, Virus is keenly aware that there is nobody else on this earth who truly knows all of him and stays with him willingly regardless
His worst impulses, his lack of a typical moral compass, his faulty sense of empathy, he can lay all of that bare and still have Trip trailing after him no matter what
And it goes both ways
He doesn't want to lose the one thing that makes him feel like he slots neatly into the world instead of being an outside observer

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:02 AM
Kit why are you so good at that
Why're you so good at making me invested
i swear to fucking God I wasn't even thinking about Trip and Virus in the fucking slightest until your ass walks in here two hours ago and we both just randomly decide 'ok, lets go over there and destroy the place' @ the dmmd room

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:06 AM
Without Virus, Trip is little more than a lost child, but without Trip, Virus has nothing
No drive
No ambition
No goals
Nothing keeping him moving

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:07 AM
And it's so interesting to believe that about himself when to Trip Virus is the entire world.
Like, you really gotta wonder what kind of background Trip comes from if his dedication to somebody pegs so heavily on whether or not they'll never lie to him or steer him wrong. While also locking out and hating the rest of the world and limiting his own to Virus and all that he wants. It's enough.
me, only just now realizing Trip wears suspenders under his vest: :flushed:

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:12 AM
I might be basing this on nothing so feel free to tell me if I'm on some crackheadery but for me another fascinating part of their dynamic hinges on the presumption that Trip will someday outlive his usefulness, that gnawing worry that one day if he says or does the wrong thing, that Virus will tire of him and find someone else to serve his ends and suit his needs

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:13 AM
OH THAT IS SOME SAUCE NO I WILL NOT TELL YOU YOURE ON SOME CRACKHEADERY
Telling yourself you would be fine if you were cast aside by the person you love idolize, so long as you can be with them now is so different from actually facing the reality that it could actually happen.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:14 AM
Imagine with me...
Come play in the space where

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:14 AM
here we are on this pain train.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:16 AM
They get into an altercation with some group or another, a different branch of the yakuza with a bone to pick with the two of them, it doesn't really matter, until
One of them aims for Virus
And Trip does the only thing he can possibly think of
Makes the split-second decision of: "between me or him, let it be me."

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:17 AM
oh dear fuck oh dear god oh shit oh fuck

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:19 AM
There's a red-hot sensation in his gut and the distinct, painful thought of "ah, so this is it." This is the end of the line where he's useful. He's done everything required of him, and now, he'll be left behind for Virus to find some other pawn.
He tries to tell himself it's better this way.
There comes a numbness that leaves him unable to think of anything except the hope that Virus got away safely.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:20 AM
KIT DO YOU ENJOY PLAYING MY HEARTSTRINGS LIKE THIS
IS IT FUN?
ARE YOU HAVING FUN, KIT?

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:20 AM
It is fun, yes!

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:20 AM
damn you and your earnest nature and your hurt and your COMFORT
I like the idea of him being so unaware/detached from the pain but he's still quite familiar with the sensation of dying. So it doesn't come as a shock. It comes in the form of severe and growing drowsiness. Which I guess is how dying just, is.
You're killing me Kit you're killing me with the imagery that of all the things he thinks about when he thinks he's gonna go under it's not himself it's not Aoba it's not Morphine it's not Toue it's not any of the obligations or sweets or toys he loved to stockpile together but it's Virus

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:24 AM
There's the hurt, now comes the comfort. Because against all odds, he does wake. Slow instead of all at once. His body feels like it's made of lead and he can't move, which makes him think maybe he didn't survive in the first place. After all, if this wasn't some form of afterlife (that he doesn't believe in, obviously, what is he, some kind of kid?), then why is it showing him an image of the very thing he loves treasures wants to see most protected?
If he made it out miraculously, why isn't it in some filthy back-alley alone instead of the familiar smell of their sheets, the pressure of their mattress underneath him, and Virus's face drifting in and out of his field of vision?

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:25 AM
AHHH
he expected it he expected to get left behind and become another dubious stain on the concrete he EXPECTED and ACCEPTED IT and yet. AND YET!!!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:27 AM
"Honestly," comes his voice that he never thought he'd get to hear again. "You just love causing me trouble, don't you?" And there's Virus, sweeping Trip's bangs from out of his eyes, the cool skin of his palm pressed against his forehead. "I thought you were a goner for sure."
His gaze holds something Trip has never seen before in all their years together. Just when he thought he'd calculated all of Virus's expressions, knew his features as intimately as he knew his own, here's something new:
Worry.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:28 AM
AAAAAAAAAH
Trip, who's always told himself that being close to Virus is all he's ever wanted and needed in life. He would do anything to anyone and anything if it meant defending that position as Virus' right hand. But the key unspoken promise there is the allowance of a moderate distance. But in that MOMENT Kit, Goodness. Trip doesn't give two flying fucks (And honestly, probably doesn't feel) about the wound stitched up in his middle. What he does first and foremost is slowly reach over and wrap his arms around Virus' middle and burrows his face against his side. He's injured and childish, so he figures now's a good enough time as any to make some selfish request.
Come.
tfw you realize maybe you're not as okay just remaining at Virus' side as you thought
Trip @ his own feelings: :SurprisedPikachu:

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:35 AM
He can feel Virus's breath stirring his hair as he sighs, tugging out of Trip's grasp that makes him only want to hold tighter. Virus places a firm hand on his arm and pulls away, but his absence only lasts for a moment as the mattress creaks under the weight of an extra person. Fussy and particular as he is, Virus needed to pause to wriggle out of his shoes before he finally caved into Trip's want.
He settles next to him, careful not to disturb the wound in Trip's stomach, and opens his arms. Inviting. Consoling. Comforting in a space nobody else would be able to witness. A rarity only being brought to the brink of death would allow.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:38 AM
Virus has no idea the kind of door he's opened. Like. Trip has never wanted anybody before. Even wanting Aoba I feel was partially because Virus wanted Aoba and Trip will do and love anything if Virus does. But he wants and he wants and he wants so much in that moment that it causes him physical pain. And the pain only dies down when he's holding Virus, just like this.
He's content enough to purr.
Trip: is asleep
Virus: alright time to tend to some business [starts to get up]
Trip: wide awake

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:40 AM
And maybe this has prompted a change in Virus as well, because neither of them knew the kinds of lengths he would go to when push came to shove. Not even Virus himself knew if he'd just as soon wash his hands of Trip and leave him to his fate.
Instead, there's something he's never experienced before in all his years.
His heart pounds and he's overcome by something... Other.
It's desperation.
Not like this, not so soon, not because of him.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:40 AM
You have the key to my literal heart in your hands rn
how is the food this good. How is the sauce this thick. How is the cake this moist.
This is unprecedented.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:43 AM
The image of Virus having to carry his partner in crime, his mirror image, his other and, let's face it, better half through the streets of Midorijima, bloodied and panting is
Mm, it's delicious

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:44 AM
Chugs this fucking Slurpee with true fucking energy. Kit the world is not ready for the power we are about to unleash as Virus and Trip. And what do I have to say to that? Good.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:45 AM
You know what I want
And crave
The thought of Trip being cared for as this completely alien experience
He's still grievously injured; all Virus was able to do is keep him stable, so that means long swathes of time spent bedridden and Virus setting aside time to make sure he has the best chance of healing properly
Seemingly mundane acts now require careful planning and forethought, something Trip isn't great at but comes to Virus naturally
What I'm getting at here is
There's just something so intimate about having your hair washed by somebody you love
And since raising his arms or doing anything that would put a strain on his wound is an absolute no-go, Trip needs a little help when it comes to bathing
Of course he tries to resist and insists that he can take care of it on his own, but Virus shuts him up with a finger against his mouth and the coy murmur of, "Why don't you let me dote on you just a little?"

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:10 PM
BRUH CATCH ME IN MY FEELINGS.
From the second Virus goes 'let me dote on you in a little' is when all of the fight just leaves him because Trip is that bitch. If Virus wants it, he won't question it. Even though it's so alien and weird and the feeling of clench in his chest borderlines uncomfortable.
But he watches and lets Virus do it. A thousand yard stare that goes on forever.
And the feeling of hm kind of grows until,
y'know
because Trip is a bastard
he pulls Virus into the bath with him with no fucking hesitation and kisses the bubbles right off of his face

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:13 PM
Oh, we do love that
He's sopping wet and fully clothed and very tempted to hold Trip's head under the water till the bubbles stop

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:15 PM
These are the good bath bombs Virus you should enjoy yourself a little.
Like even if he did that and even if Trip struggled to breathe to the very last wash of darkness trying to wave over his eyes he'd still  come up from the water, greedily gulping down water, pupils wide, and he'd use the breaths he's so dangerously low on to still kiss Virus. Like, it'd be the first thing he did, okay.
Kiss him firm, whole, and powerful.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:19 PM
"You're like a cockroach." It's said between inhales as Virus has to catch his own breath after that surprise smooch. But he winds his arms around him regardless because wet clothes and the cool air around the bath Don't Mix and he's getting chilly.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:21 PM
a cockroach that feels none of the pain from his healing gut wound and just picks Virus up like he's nothing and for once says nothing. His actions are the ones doing the talking now. And Trip, naked as the day he was born and now tracking soap suds and water everywhere is carrying Virus to bed while laying kiss after kiss after kiss after quietly, thickly mumbling with a smile in his voice about Ah. You smell nicer now. Because he just took an involuntary dip in Trip's stoopid ass bath bomb and he can't help thinking how nice it is that they smell the same.
Trip can't help himself that whole time Virus was doting on him he was trying to figure out what the feeling in his chest was and what it was exactly Virus wanted. It's always about wanting something with Virus. Something ulterior. And Trip finally makes the resolution that they both want the same thing: Each other. 'Cuz he's childish and he can't accept any view outside of his own and ah now he's kissing Virus into bedsheets!!!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:24 PM
And the thing is... He's not even wrong! It's Virus wanting to try something new, something unprecedented, taking an active role in taking care of (injured, bored, annoying) Trip instead of just passively observing his progress like he had since they were young
He wants to put a name to what's going through his head
Why he felt so uncharacteristically panicked at the thought of losing Trip
So the obvious solution, in his mind, is to try the first thing he thinks of, something alien to both of them, but that he finds himself... Enjoying

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:26 PM
it's all fun and games until they have to sleep in ice cold bed sheets because Trip didn't care to have enough insight to dry off before shoving Virus' dick in his mouth.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:27 PM
Wuh-oh... Guess the only thing they can do is... Cuddle... and share body heat...
Certainly not just going to order an extra layer of blankets, pshhh, that'd be stupid!

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:27 PM
oh no... you're right ... we can't have one of them catching their death of cold ... oops!
That'd be
that'd be so FOOLISH

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:28 PM
Virus: Should you really be giving me a blowjob when you're still recoveri--
Trip: [muffled] Yes, now shut up
Virus:
Virus: Alrighty then

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 9:31 AM
God, I'm deadass, like,
Getting WAY too into fucking daydreaming about scenarios
What is this
What is my life
Love for these bastards is infecting me

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 9:50 AM
It's a few months after Trip's brush with death and it's emboldened him in a way that neither of them have expected. He was forced to reassess his priorities and thee's a growing sense of unease that the things he'd always taken for granted, the truths he always assumed were absolute, aren't what he once believed they were. When Toue has a new mission for them, expecting both to be at his beck and call, Trip gets carried away and mouths off that he can do his own dirty work once in a while, two steps away from telling the old man where he can shove it. Virus has the better sense of self-preservation between the two of them and takes it upon himself to slap him before Toue can do worse, grabbing him by the hair and bowing their heads to apologize on his behalf. Far from angry, Toue is instead amused, the picture of a cat who found a new game.
"Well, now that just won't do. Don't forget who took you both in and raised you. Am I supposed to tolerate this disrespect with a simple apology and leave it at that? Or are you willing to take full responsibility for your little pet's misbehavior?"
Virus doesn't hesitate before answering a swift, "Yes, of course," and Trip's heart drops into his stomach. He moves to stand in front of Virus, to shield him somehow, but he doesn't get more than a couple of steps before a pair of goons are restraining him, and he hears Virus say in his chilliest tone, "Get him out of here before he makes a fool of himself."
It's hours later. Long, torturous hours before Virus returns and doesn't even get through the door before Trip is all over him. He's got a split lip, a fresh welt on his cheek that's starting to turn purple, and plenty of bruising all around his torso that doesn't feel great when Trip's trying to squeeze the life out of him. Rather than pure relief, he's shaking with anger at the fact that Virus took his punishment for him, at the fact that Toue has them both dancing in the palm of his hand. "We should leave," he says, face buried in the crook of Virus's neck. "Go somewhere they'll never look. He'll never be able to touch either of us again."
He feels rather than hears Virus's laughter, shoulders shaking at the ridiculousness of the suggestion. "Still thinking with the logic of a child at your age." His expression is pitying, indulgent. "You know there's no leaving. He'd find us. We've been on the opposite side of this situation enough times to know better."
They'd had it branded into them since they were children. Loyalty to Toue. Being useful. Being needed. "He's given us everything we could possibly want. Take that away and what are we? Are you suggesting we go respectable? Open a shop somewhere in the countryside?" Like the very thought is laughable.
Trip is confident in his assertion, chest puffed out, that it doesn't matter what they do. He'll steal whatever money, kill whatever person they need to stay alive. If it's the two of them, they'll figure something out.
It's then that there's a rare show of anger from Virus, spilling over from frustration that's been simmering for far longer than this latest disagreement. "You're acting like a spoiled, ignorant fool! Do you think I like doing this? Cleaning up after your messes? Who do you think's been protecting you ever since you latched onto me? And you have the nerve to try and get the both of us killed because all of this isn't good enough for you?"
That cuts. Because throughout everything, his first and only priority is making sure that he doesn't take for granted the second chance he's been given. Rather than answer, Trip muscles his way out the door and into the streets, headed somewhere aimless in an attempt to clear his head, trying to ignore how foreign it feels for there to be empty space at his side when Virus doesn't follow.
He doesn't want to be somebody's hired thug for the rest of his life. He doesn't want to feel indebted to Toue who raised him to be a useful tool. And maybe, just maybe living according to what Virus wants and needs isn't the way to spend his life, either, forever in his shadow while he refuses to help himself.
Trip goes to the only place he can think of. The Seragaki residence. He shows up at Aoba's door, no weapon, no ulterior motive, no plan or expectation.
Just a request.
"Help me."
Not "us." Not "we."
"Me."

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 11:55 AM
KICKS door open. I'm just so fucking. Everything about this. The palpable evolution of Trip and Virus from who they are now to who they become after you injected the concept of a sick, and warped love into their veins. Like, I'm actually living for this. I am so fucking living for this. From start to fucking finish, I am living for it.

What really gets me though is how one hundred percent, confident and certain Trip would sound about all of that. When he says the words "Let's run." There's no doubt present in his voice, even though it's a sure fire deathwish. He is speaking like a child. He is speaking like someone who believes themselves to be invulnerable. But that's the feeling being with Virus has instilled in him:  in inability to feel pain. And an inability to process failure.
Like ... nobody taught these two how to love. It's so evident in all of their interactions. They say they love Aoba but in their minds it's some deep rooted, sick desire to own him and possess him and make him theirs. But this is that next LEVEL shit.
I know you haven't watched Killing Eve yet and I haven't watched season 2 but there's this scene, right. And I thought of it next to immediately after reading all of that:
Villanelle is trying to convince Eve that she loves her.
And Eve goes 'You don't know how to love' and I remember seeing how sheepish Villanelle was in the screenshots how she brought her fingers together like for the first time she was nervous and stricken by doubt and had the clammy nerves of a kid in her face even though she was a trained, professional killer who had killed hundreds: some of which in an attempt to get closer to Eve. But she's rock solid in her assertion, and looks so
Almost helpless.
Going "I do. I do love you."
And that's....................
Kush.
That's Trip @ Virus.
Tfw you're content with being those tools for murder pain and suffering for so long
but it's terminal, Kit.
There's no reversing it.
Trip 'loving' Virus made him the one (1) thing you cannot be in this profession. It's made him human.
Now there is no going back.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:05 PM
He reaches out to the one person he thinks can fix this. The only one with the power to change things-- truly change them. There's not a doubt in his mind that if he wanted to, if he had the courage to stand up for himself, Virus could make a real difference, but in his own way, he's too paralyzed by what he was made to be. He's afraid. Not only for himself, but for Trip, which is what hurts most out of this equation. He isn't supposed to feel anything for anyone beyond Toue, beyond what he's been told. All this is a misguided attempt to keep both of them safe, however much it costs them in the end, even if it's their souls on the line.
So that just leaves Aoba. The one that got away. The only one of those wretched children to escape the fate meant for him.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:06 PM
"He's afraid. Not only for himself, but for Trip, " chokes back ugly tears.
This whole thread has just been us constantly
tripping
and hitting our knees
on our feelings
and taking a deep breath before going
'aaAAAAAAAH'
and yet we keep doing it

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:07 PM
IT DON'T STOP, BABY
I really and truly believe that at the heart of Virus's entire pathology, it's built off of fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of future pain if he doesn't perform as instructed. He's untouchable because he has to be, he's invulnerable because he can't be, he hurts others so he doesn't have to risk being hurt himself.
All of it is just fear crystallizing into an unwillingness to be the one without control.
If he holds all the cards, if he's clever enough, quick enough, cruel enough, then he doesn't have to go through what "weaker" people do.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:14 PM
they've got that 'the weak deserve their fates because they're weak / only the strong deserve to live' psychology. It's all that simple when you've lived your whole life being strong but what do you do when you fall? For the first time?
Furthermore, what do you do when you fall for the one person who matters more to you than anyone?

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:16 PM
Virus's solution is to shut down, to deny himself any gratification beyond what he rationalizes will help in his work. After all, a happy pet is worth all the trouble indulging him. But he can't have any desires of his own, that's beyond him, that's for lesser folk.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:31 PM
OKAY BUT THATS REASONABLE AND ALSO THE BASIS OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP: TRIP FOLLOWING IN VIRUS' LEAD. What else does he know? Nothing. He doesn't know and he doesn't care to know anything outside of Virus. Which is why these sacrifices; Throwing himself in the middle of harms way to protect him, standing up to the most powerful man in Midorijima, and feeling his world shatter into pieces when he sees Virus has taken his punishment. It's so surprisingly simpleminded for a guy so fucked up. All of that is possible because There is the world
and then there is Virus.
Trip has the option of stepping into the other. But he just won't do it.
Not for this whole time cuz it's like, knowing that Virus wouldn't do it with him. Until now. Maybe. Until the time came where they had to make a change.
Where his choices here would decide for him whether or not he gets to keep the one (1) thing that's precious.
Not his life.
But Virus.
Aoba......... help :sob:

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:35 PM
He has 6 missed calls and 4 voicemails from Virus

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:35 PM
OH BOY
WHATS ON THOSE VOICEMAILS

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:40 PM
The first one is condescending, confident: "Let me know when you're finished with your tantrum and come back when you've gotten it out of your system."
The second is terse, impatient: "We both know I'm looking out for your own good, why don't you see that?"
The third is coaxing, persuasive: "Look, tensions were high, we said things we didn't mean, let's just talk about it when you're back."
The final one is a long stretch of silence before he says, in a tone that's not demanding or giving orders: "Trip. Come home." And then, barely audible, "Please."

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:40 PM
OH SHIT
OOOOOOH SHIT
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:42 PM
He's every bad boyfriend ever

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:46 PM
That fucking came into my house and punched me in the gut.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:47 PM
The question is, how does that make Trip feel? :)c

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:47 PM
Like he's suffocating.
Like the world is suddenly a dark and desperate place where all he can here is that tone replayed in his mind a thousand times over like it's on a scratched record. It's just. Heaviness. Deep rooted in his veins. Every heartbeat becomes slower and slower and you'd think time would speed up his heart would race but time is growing so sluggish and he's flabbergasted at hearing yet another voice he's never heard from Virus before in his life. Just.................. staring at his coil. Trapped in the moment where he heard it. He can't move forward.
Not five minutes later.
Not ten minutes later.
Not an hour later.
What happens next really depends on the roleplay because if unchecked Trip WILL relapse and he WILL find Virus and he WILL make some incredibly dumb decisions.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:50 PM
But if he has... a fwiend... to tell him not to be stupid...

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:50 PM
exactly.
if he has friend .............
then maybe..................... maybe.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:52 PM
Aoba just pitches his Coil into the sea
"There! Problem solved!"

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:52 PM
.
AOBA.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:52 PM
"AOBA THOSE COST MONEY!"

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 12:53 PM
Aoba just does not give a fuck
Then you have Trip, who's never been
away
from Virus for long. Like never. And if he has he's always found Virus bc the lack of him out the corner of his eye is disconcerting and wrong. So the temptation is fucking ruinous. Especially here and especially now. Even though it's looking like returning to Virus is returning to Toue, so essentially a prolonged death sentence.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 12:58 PM
And in the meantime, Virus has to explain his absence
Pretend to be unaffected
Says this won't impact his work, no, sir
All while resisting the urge to roam the streets
"He could have died in a ditch somewhere for all I know," he says, wry smile plastered onto his face.
Hand stashed in his pocket, clutching his Coil with enough force to damage the thing
Willing for it to light up, to give him some signal, some sign, anything
Or else having to contend with the notion that Trip was well and truly gone
That he'd lost his only chance to bring him home (... or to go with him?)
He puts the thought out of his head as quickly as it comes

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 1:01 PM
This whole thing was playing my heart like a bowstring but that last '...or to go with him?' fucking killed me.
It slayed me.
You're killing me, Kit.
Can I just say that . . . . . .  i'm still.
thinking. about.
Virus, who mockingly went 'where would we go? run away and start a little shop or something somewhere?' and i just
cannot
get the thought out of my mind
of Trip fixating on that thought for days
weeks on end
just always having his mind drawn back to it in this interesting, complex, overwhelming period where everything is confusing
it's the one thing that quiets the storm and fills the space Virus left temporarily.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 1:03 PM
It's almost too ridiculous to imagine; the two of them, cooped up in domesticity somewhere far away with a language neither of them speaks. A shop tucked away and filled with the smell of fresh pastries, Trip's hands constantly covered in flour and getting all over Virus's crisp suit as he handles all the accounting and customer service.
It's a pipe dream.
Illogical.
Unfathomable.
He wants it more than anything.
Neither of them deserve an ending so happy with what they've done and what they're willing to do, but it doesn't stop him from longing for it.
A way to get their happily ever after.
(Important detail: In this fantasy, Trip's hair is its natural red; he's no longer a pale imitation of Virus but his own person, and it's not a mark of shame but another part of him that's loved and adored. He imagines Virus carding a hand through it idly to rid it of some stray bits of powdered sugar and needs to go lay down on the floor for an hour or two.)
The thought of Trip slowly growing to consider how he might step out of Virus's influence and to become his own, distinct entity separate but not apart from Virus...
Growing with him
Seeking better together
It's doing things to me
The thought that Trip might offer a hand... And that Virus might take it...
Trip being a leader instead of a follower
Forging a path for the two of them to take side-by-side
As equals

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:45 AM
Hey, so
When do you think... one of these two disasters might actually say the L word

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:45 AM
Good. Question.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:45 AM
Whether misguided and based on their own twisted sense of "love" or finally, after long, hard, arduous development

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:45 AM
I definitely think Trip'll be the one to drop the word first.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:46 AM
With a fully, deeply, true understanding of what it means

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:46 AM
Like I think he'll lock onto the word as soon as it's made in association to how he feels because he's got no other word, no other way to understand it.
(i.e. "Do you love him?" "...Love?")
Imagining Trip saying that to him is an ordeal in heartbreak let me absolutely tell you

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:48 AM
I imagine that the first time, Virus is kind of dismissive of it, like, "oh, come on, be serious, we have no use for it in our line of work"
But if Trip presses
And insists
Then he's kind of at a loss for what to do
Who put this idea into his head? Where did he get it from? Because it certainly wasn't Virus's doing, and he can't fathom a world where it's actually correctly naming what he's feeling
He rationalizes that it's just misplaced attachment
Not something so nebulous and ill-defined as "love"
He's just delusional

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:50 AM
Bruh
I need this, now.
I need it in character

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:50 AM
Caught in a playhouse version of what he thinks is love

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:50 AM
and I need it like I need air.
I need to write out Trip's exact emotions, expression, and how he reaches for Virus before he can pull away while coolly repeating the fact that he does. He does love him.
I neeeeeeeeed that.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:51 AM
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I WANT
After... [gestures to Trip getting #woke]
Virus is, once again, for the second time,
Desperate
He'll say whatever he needs to say in order to get things back to the way they were
To replace the status quo where it was meant to be
And the only thing he can think of is to say: "You know I love you, don't you? I do."
AND THAT
IS THE FIRST TIME
He has ever lied to Trip
The one thing he promised he would NEVER do

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:53 AM
OH. BOY.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH BOY.
Bad End in progress.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:54 AM
(It's not lying in the sense that it's demonstrably not true because WE know he's caught feelings, but to him, that doesn't ring true because he's still sorting out exactly how he feels and who he is as a person without Trip there.)

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:56 AM
rift! rift! rift!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 4:57 AM
Trip stans how we feelin

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 4:58 AM
Like it's ........................
dangerous. This is a very dangerous and destructive path to go down and I feel like it'll open an equally dangerous door between them. He's never experienced Virus lying to him, so he has no idea that it's happened. But likewise, he's never heard Virus say he's loved anything. So the two are sort of clashing in his head. Kind of warping his perception. And all the while he still has this sick, nasty, twisted perverted idea of love in his head that makes him strive to possessiveness. I don't think it's immediate, but I think there is going to be a tangible shift in how Trip treats him.
Like being less willing to be apart. Less willing to compromise. Less willing to be okay with the distance as he wittles away at it piece by piece, growing unnervingly closer.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:00 AM
Ooooohohohoho
He's ready to (metaphorically) cannibalize his mans and I both love it and hate it
It's so good

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:01 AM
Facts.
And at the end of it, it's like ............ No matter what he does, no matter how far they go, he'll believe it's okay.
Because "You love me, right?"

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:03 AM
And Virus, caught between a rock and a hard place, unwilling to admit that he was being dishonest but also growing increasingly Not Okay with where this relationship is headed, has to smile. "Yes. Of course I do. I love you."
And maybe there is a little bit of actual, genuine love there, but it's wrapped up in layers and layers of codependency and budding resentment.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:05 AM
Hoo fucking boy someone please teach these men how to love before they destroy each other.
Because that's where it's headed.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:05 AM
Oh, without a doubt
This is the Vitri route where you made one bad decision and suddenly the whole thing spirals and you can't get off this train

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:06 AM
FACTS.
Virus is being more self preserving than he knows by keeping up the lie because if Trip finds out he did lie to him ....................................
Like, whoops.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:07 AM
Oh, he's dead for sure
Like, he's super dead
Trip is brutal even with the things he likes, so if that were directed toward someone he adores that betrayed him in such a fundamental way, going back on the entire basis of that idolization
Yeah, he's a goner

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:09 AM
This is such a new twist you'd never imagine Trip or Virus turning on each other until it's right in your face.  And now I'm just thinking about it.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:09 AM
Virus knows this. He understands it. They've spent long enough together that he's got a very good idea of just where to press and when to back off.
Treats him like a wild animal.
Because the other option is being ripped to shreds.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:12 AM
And then there's the quiet third option that neither of them consider because it's just not something you consider when you've been with someone for as long as they have: Virus is smart. The more clever between them. Even though Trip's instincts make him incredibly sharp. If it came to a battle of wits, Virus could outsmart and could kill him. The question is: would he? What atrocity would take things too far and finally bring him to the conclusion that euthanasia  is the kindest thing he can offer Trip?

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:13 AM
Hmmm.
I think, in Virus's case,
The thing that he fears most, hates most, is a loss of control.
Being denied agency.
He's always, always taken for granted that he has Trip by the leash.
That he would never do anything Virus didn't want.
He was so certain in this that he thinks it's worth playing along, because even if Trip gets a little more rowdy, takes more liberties, it's nothing Virus can't handle because he'll never cross that line.
He'll never take something Virus isn't willing to part with.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:16 AM
Oh goodness what a cycle they've found themselves in.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:18 AM
"As long as he's with me, it doesn't matter what happens."
vs.
"As long as I control him, it doesn't matter what happens."
It's characterized by this want to possess, but with their own distinct was of manifesting it

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:21 AM
Me, sitting here, watching Trip slowly edge further and further from the real world and into a fantasy realm where he's convinced himself that all he needs is Virus and all Virus needs is him. He's gotten more sinister in his delusions. Now he's starting to think that they both want the same thing and he'll go to any length to get it and it's just such. A mess. This can only end in tragedy.
the levels of difference between their 'good end' and their 'bad end' has me fucked UP

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:23 AM
Consider...
For this bad end to truly work
They have to end things the way they started them
Together
This time forever
Instead of one of them killing the other and going to live on, what life could you even have after that?
What point would there even be to living?
I said before that Trip is lost without Virus, but Virus without Trip is nothing
That's still true
It would be the truest and greatest expression of "love," as they've made it, to follow after one another, whoever is the first to leave

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:32 AM
I love and hate how on the same wavelength we are because I had the thought of. Like. It was in my head. The thought of something like a "burial" with them just surrounded by the rotting decay of life around them as Trip holds Virus, smiling the whole time. Never looking away. Not at the flowers surrounding them tragically wilting to nothing or the treats growing stale or the blankets growing stiff and uncomfortable beneath them. Doing nothing. Just staring at him. Happy. Content. Holding Virus hand, occasionally bringing it up to his lips to kiss the knuckles. Maybe he's even got a ring on his finger. Or a band. A promise. It's a wedding and a funeral. Idk i had this thought but I didn't wanna say it because I was like "slow your fucking rocker that's top weird" but the mood of this scene just changes depending on the circumstances that led up to it

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:33 AM
NO LISTEN
THAT'S SO GOOD
IT'S FITTING
IT'S BEAUTIFUL AND POETIC AND PERFECT FOR THEM

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:34 AM
Either Virus is already dead and Trip's last wish was to watch and waste away at his side or they're both dying (poisoned? Did Trip or Virus poison themself and then the other? It's looking likely). and they're both waiting there. Looking at each other. Waiting for their own demise. Growing weaker. Weaker. All of it happening in deafening silence.
FKXKSKSK
CLUTCHES MY CHEST
IM GLAD.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:37 AM
I'm imagining Virus taking a deep, deep draught of some wine and pressing his mouth to Trip's, another slow, languid kiss, this time with an air of finality to it
Laced with something still in development from Toue's laboratories
Supposedly painless
Supposedly peaceful

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:38 AM
VIRUSSSS
He signed their death warrants, but Trip is the one who arranged their venue. It was supposed to be a surprise. Something for Trip to wake Virus up to after transferring him in his sleep to their new bedroom where they wouldn't have to worry about anything else. Wouldn't have to answer to anybody else. Wouldn't need to be around anyone. Everything they'd ever need would be there and Trip was content to live the remainder of his life in that secluded prison, while steadily losing track of the days. He couldn't have anticipated that it would become their tomb so soon.
But he's alarmingly okay with it.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:44 AM
Like... In a way, that shows Virus's commitment
His determination
His love
Being willing to forego anything and everything to live out what time they have left as they should always be, with each other
What could make a more perfect demonstration than that? What other act could bind them together so wholly and so completely?

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:49 AM
Me, predictable, sipping some fucking toxic ass TONIC for these two TRASHBINS. I've had the lines this is the night young love died/ buried at each other's side since we started this TRIAL
and I am weak.
I don't usually get invested in bad endings because I am no pain goblin like you are but this has literally taken me CAPTIVE

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:50 AM
In my heart, both these endings have names attached to them
The bad end is "Forever," and the good is "Together."
One is final, a door closing and never opening

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:51 AM
OH YOU MOTHERFUCKER

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:51 AM
The other is full of possibility for the future

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:51 AM
OOOOOOH YOU MOTHERFUCKER

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:52 AM
Two mirror images of one another, static, unmoving, and unchanging
Contrasted with two distinct, separate people with their own lives and goals who have learned to live without each other but want to stay close to one another

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:53 AM
SHAKES YOU. DO YOU THINK THIS IS A FUCKING GAME

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:53 AM
I take it very seriously, as I know you do
The bad end is stagnation personified, and the good is growth and change

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 5:57 AM
the contrasts between Together and Forever. Forever is half complete. Because their deaths were so sudden. His "forever" home with Virus is riddled with incompletion and the symbolism of that reflecting how incomplete and twisted their idea of love is has me fucked up. The only part of it done is the bedroom. Surrounded by Trip's childish paraphernalia. Everything is rooted in the past as if to contrast how in "Together" they've both moved forward and grew for the future, for the better. They started a SHOP, Kit. They started a SHOP, where the door to the outside world is always open
Whereas the door has been locked shut in "Forever."
I am
I am in pieces.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 5:58 AM
The FEAST
The FLAVORS
You know as soon as you get your computer that I'm commissioning you for some FUCKING ART of these two
I need to see your vision of their burial
I NEED TO SEE THEM FINALLY HAPPY...

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:00 AM
NOT BEFORE I COMMISSION YOU FOR A PIECE OF THESE TWO
Cuz ...
Lemme tell you ...
Trip. he wants to ask Virus to marry him. And how does he do it? After they discuss the idea. Let it settle. Ferment. Stew. Ponder over nights and nights over whether or not it's something they both want and are ready for. How does Trip pop the question?
He does it by baking Virus a wedding cake. A tiny one, just big enough for two. But it is undeniably a wedding cake.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:02 AM
AH...
Virus, not normally one for sweets in the slightest, cuts a huge slice and eats every bite.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:02 AM
Two rings probably propped onto a little sugar platform in the middle because of course he even made an edible ring box.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:02 AM
(Occasionally feeding some to Trip.)

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:03 AM
AAAH
Virus gets some frosting stuck on his face from a too big bite and Trip doesn't hesitate to lean forward and lick it off and just stay there, foreheads touching, staring deep into Virus' eyes.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:05 AM
Virus smiles, and it's not snide or pitying or condescending or anything except...
Fond
"I know you're not going to let me leave until I give you an answer, so I'll cut the suspense short and just say yes. But only if I get to smash the other half of this cake into your face. It's tradition, after all."

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:06 AM
Trip
Is
Elated.
He doesn't burst it out like a normal person would because neither of them grew up / raised to support an outburst of emotion. But he does it in his own way. He's! Smiling!!! His cheeks genuinely hurt even though its not that big of a smile while lifting Virus up into his arms and he doesn't know what else to do other than twirl him. It's in the middle of the day. They have a few customers. But he honestly couldn't care less. All he can say is "Whatever you want," pause. He's called him every name under the sun. honey. Sweetheart. Virus. Partner.

"...Fiance." He didn't know it was possible to be in love with how a word makes you feel until now.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:11 AM
GOD.
THAT.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:11 AM
Virus can smash the cake in his face but Trip is just going to kiss him and get him just as messy too.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:11 AM
KILLED ME.
I AM DEAD.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:11 AM
ME TOO ME FUCKING TOO!!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:11 AM
The thrill he gets from imagining how the word "husband" will taste on his tongue.
But unwilling to commit it to speech just yet.
That, he wants to save for when it's actually true.

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:14 AM
I DO NOT KNOW HOW WE GOT HERE BUT I AM LITERALLY NEVER GOING BACK

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:15 AM
It's burned into my soul now
The story of how two horrible people came together, broke apart, and then came together again to build something new and beautiful for themselves is
Everything

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:17 AM
This is content this is content this is so sweet I've literally never been more invested in Virus and Trip. How have you walked into my house and injected me with loving bastard syndrome.

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:18 AM
It's what I do
I love bastards so much, my mere presence has caused people around me to love them too

𝙏𝙧𝙞𝙥 & 𝘽𝙚𝙣𝙞『 Yaki 』Today at 6:19 AM
it's fucking contagious!!!

𝚅𝚒𝚛𝚞𝚜 ❀ 𝙼𝚒𝚗𝚔「 Kit 」Today at 6:20 AM
I think that... I'm not very good at portraying bastards as bastards but as people, and because I love people, that just makes me want to humanize them more and put them on a better path than they've otherwise been shown because they'd deserve more than just being villainous assholes
I want to understand them, and through understanding comes empathy, and through empathy comes a desire to see them grow and change for the better
It's comforting, I think, to know that even the worst people can become better, even if it's just in fiction
Even if it's just in my head, with my hands and my friends
That no matter how far gone you are, with enough care and support and love, you can grow
I love bastards not for what they are but for what they could be
It's a concept and an ideal that really resonates with me