ever since i met you i knew my life would change, i knew something was different about you compared to everybody else. i dont know what about u but something about u im crazy about. i had given up in life then i fucking met u. i was planning on suicide and was going to go through with it then i met you. you never liked me as much as i liked u and still do. i dont want you for anything sexual actually i can do without that i just need YOU. holding you in my arms felt so right i knew you were special. i never felt this way about anything on earth i actually wanted to change myself for you but couldnt do anything right. i actually love you. i love you so fucking much and care so much but can't show it. i never could with anybody or anything. i just don't know how to show it or do things right. i always fuck up and have too many flaws. i would do so much for you its insane. id stop drugs, cutting, and actually try to love my parents and be good if u wanted me to. ive never had this feeling about anybody else and everytime i see you now i want to fucking cry like a pussy because its over. i dont know what to do because i still feel the same way and cant control myself. id kill someone for you. so i want to die to stop the feeling because its never going to help me or do anything.