JT LeRoy (2018)

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Subtitles by explosiveskull

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<i>I was 18
when I wrote my novel "Sarah."</i>

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<i>Never thought
it'd become a bestseller</i>

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<i>with all these fancy people
wantin' to meet me,</i>

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<i>the illusive JT LeRoy.</i>

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<i>But I prefer to be a shut-in</i>

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<i>'cause when I'm writin'
or on the phone,</i>

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<i>I get to show people
exactly what I wanna show 'em.</i>

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<i>I can focus on the words and
just... leave my body behind.</i>

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- Dude, it's so good!
- Yeah?

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We just got the, uh, the demos
back from the studio,

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so, yeah,
I'm pretty fuckin' excited.

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- Is that her? Is that Laura?
- Uh-huh.

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- Yeah, no, no, that's her.
- Cool.

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- Pretty fucking great, right?
- Yeah.

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Man, she's, uh...

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I... I just can't wait for you
to meet her.

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I fucking live here now.
I can't believe this.

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Fuck, yes, you live here.

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Dude, you made it out
of mom's place.

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You're going up in the world.
I'm proud of you.

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- Proud of you.
- Thanks.

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Hey, hey!

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Hey, come in. This is us.

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Uh, kitchen right over here.
Come through.

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- I kept those books out...
- Oh, these are beautiful.

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I wouldn't touch that. You know,
we got lead. I had it tested.

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Alright, this is it.
This is where the magic happens.

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- This is so cool, Geoff.
- Right?

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Now, listen, uh, couch opens up,
uh, make yourself comfy,

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and, uh,
I'll... I'll make some tea.

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You want a tea?

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I'd love a beer.

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Beer. Right on.
Okay. You're in luck.

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I, uh, just made a fresh batch
of home brew. Cool.

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- Hey, yo! Come meet my sister!
- Be right there!

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Anyway,
every time I tell him no,

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I can feel him wantin' more.

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I just can't believe this
itty-bitty Southern rant boy

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is denyin'.

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I gotta admit,
I like having the power.

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Alright, yeah.

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Yeah, thanks.

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Same time tomorrow. Bye.

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Where is she? Where is she?

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- Hey.
- Oh, look at you.

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Oh, Savannah.

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Geoff's baby sister.

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- I see your soul in your smile.
- Cool, you guys have met.

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Look at this creature.
Just as you said.

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I can't believe you made this.
That's so cool.

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No. I'm good.
I'm getting good at this.

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You're good
at everything, baby.

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Mm, I heard the music
in the car.

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- It is good. It is...
- Amazing, right?

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It's so cool.
He's in his zone.

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- I'm just writin' lyrics...
- Oh, she's just writing lyrics?

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No, no, no, no.
This woman is turning my music

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into, like,
these beautiful songs.

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We're writing two, three songs
a day. It's insane.

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- He's on fire.
- You're on fire.

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- You're on fire, babe.
- We're on fire.

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What's that?

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Oh, it's just this thing I made.

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I had an extra roll of duct tape
lying around.

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- Wait a minute. Hold on.
- That's pretty cool.

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Yeah. Just a thing you made?

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That is not just a thing.

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What is that?
Like magical unicorn backpack?

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That is blowing my mind.

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That's pure art.
That's, like, creative genius.

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Don't, don't put
that stuff down. Right, baby?

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- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah, yeah. No, fuck, yeah.

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Oh, you gotta take her
to Lee's party.

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- You gotta go.
- Oh, we gotta go.

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- We gotta go.
- Oh, yeah, first night.

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- You're gonna come, right?
- Of course, yeah.

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Anything you guys wanna do,
I'm open.

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Are you gonna come?
She just got here.

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And you've gotta come.
Come on.

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We don't want you to come,
we need you to come.

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- Alright, alright.
- We need you!

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You're dragging me
into the celebration!

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You're going to Lee's party!
Sav's moving to San Francisco!

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- Yo, yo, what's up?
- Hey, Sav!

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I put this on you.
We share clothes.

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Oh, my God!
It looks amazing with your hair!

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Oh, Samuel!

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This is Geoff's sister,
Savannah.

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Yeah, she's taking over
his old apartment.

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Hey, I'm Sav.
Nice to meet you.

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Twist & Scream poster
is on the wall.

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Oh, shit!

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That's so beautiful.
That's our band. Yeah.

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- So you're an artist?
- Yeah, yeah.

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- What's your name?
- Sophie.

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- Sophie. What kind of art?
- Yeah.

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It's like conceptual.

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And the writing
has been amazing.

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Finally not paying the rent
with phone sex.

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And I'm getting some offers.
It's like...

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Laura,
you say you did phone sex?

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Yeah. Oh, yeah.

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It's one of the more
creative jobs ever.

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You know, you have to get
into the role play of it.

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But as a writer,
it's in the madness

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of creating a character,
you know what I mean? You're...

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And then their attention
turns to Sophie?

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Because
of her rinky-dink paintings?

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I mean, I'm sorry,
but, like, she's getting that

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'cause she's a cute girl
with a cute little fucking ass

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and her cute little art.

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Can you imagine
if they knew I was JT LeRoy?

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Right?

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If they knew I was a "New York
Times" bestselling author.

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I mean, that's just so crazy.

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- Yeah, well, then tell them.
- Geoff.

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You know we can't do that.

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<i>I got an idea.</i>

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<i>What if I do go out
for some kind of disguise?</i>

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What's up?

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You wanna keep a secret?

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- What's this?
- It's my book "Sarah."

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My shot at immortality.

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Oh, so JT's
like your pen name?

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- More like my avatar.
- Who is this kid?

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That's just a photo
I found at a thrift store.

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I loved it 'cause he looks like
a kid in a Dennis Cooper novel.

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- I love Dennis Cooper.
- Of course, you do.

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Oh!
Hey, do you know Mary Gaitskill?

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Um, yeah, but I haven't...
I haven't read any of her stuff.

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- I want to.
- Oh, you're gonna love it.

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I'm just finishing
the Colette books right now.

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My God, I remember
the first time I read Colette.

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I'd feel so French and...

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All this great writing
that comes from distress.

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But it has beauty in it, too,
you know.

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Like, ah, JT certainly had that.

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Like, his grandparents were
fundamentalists, super sadistic.

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Hey, let me know
what you think?

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Of course, yeah.

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Hello.

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Hi.

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<i>"It's my first day
on the lot.</i>

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<i>I'm wearing
the golden Rapunzel wig</i>

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<i>bestowed upon me
by my mother, Sarah,</i>

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<i>the legendary beauty
and fiercest hooker</i>

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<i>that ever did work
a truck stop down south.</i>

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<i>In her high heels, I strut</i>

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<i>between the long shimmering
lines of big rigs."</i>

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<i>"Cash's hand is like the maw
of some big animal</i>

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<i>as he opens it
revealing a raccoon penis bone.</i>

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<i>The talisman that distinguishes
his asphalt girls</i>

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<i>from all others.</i>

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<i>The bigger the bone,
the more in demand</i>

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<i>her soft girl material is.</i>

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<i>If you didn't notice the
raccoon penis bone necklaces</i>

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<i>and you didn't know
what that meant,</i>

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<i>you'd never know
they were actually boys.</i>

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<i>You got to earn that raccoon."</i>

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<i>"The mob surrounds me.</i>

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<i>Tearing at my lace,
ripping my hard-won finery.</i>

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<i>"It's a goddamn boy,"
they yell.</i>

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<i>Hungry jackals
begging at the moon</i>

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<i>while chasing me
through the woods.</i>

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<i>This is all I am.</i>

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<i>A bloody glittering heart</i>

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<i>thumping
under a bruised black sky,</i>

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<i>refusing to let anyone tell me
who I'm supposed to be."</i>

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Found it
so beautiful.

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It's crazy.

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I've never read anything
like it

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and it's really painful,
you know.

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But like fucking magic
and I can't even...

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I can't, like, think
of the right way to describe

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how it makes me feel, honestly.

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Oh, my God,
that's so beautiful

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to hear you talk about it
that way.

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God, of course, you so get it.

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I don't know if Geoff told you.

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I was in such a dark place,
you know.

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And it was... soul or spirit
or whatever you wanna call it

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just... embodied me.

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This Jeremiah...

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Terminator LeRoy.

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Jeremiah Terminator LeRoy.

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Wow.

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Then he started calling
this therapist

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who told JT, "Hey, you should
write your story down."

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And it's kind of amazing
sharing this with you

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'cause, um,

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when I first saw you,
I thought you looked like him.

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- Huh?
- It's why I was just...

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I wanted to ask you if I could
take a picture of you as him.

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What do you... what do you mean?
Like...

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I'm... I've been JT
on the phone for years,

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and people need to see him now.

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I mean, I'm... a girl, you know.

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Just to state
the obvious.

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No. No. That's what's beautiful.

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He's androgynous, you know.

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He's like, you know,
discovering his own identity.

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Boy, girl. He's in disguise,
and I'd pay you 50 bucks.

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It is for "Interview" magazine.

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Sav, "Interview" magazine!

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What do you think?

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I mean, yeah, sure. Why not?

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Oh, really?
This is what it looks like?

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- Yeah.
- Ew.

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- Looks great.
- Okay.

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So put your chin down.
Keep it tilted. Perfect.

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Little bit to the right.
Now just give me eyes though.

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A little bit. Perfect.

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Oh, my God,
I'm getting chills.

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Sav, you look great.

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That's JT.
It's fucking perfect.

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- You don't wanna do one more?
- Are you kidding me?

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These are $12 a box. Let's go!

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<i>I did it.</i>

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<i>This is a whole new beginning
for me.</i>

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<i>Like a whole new world.</i>

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Here you go. You all good?

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That hair looks good on you.

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Thank you.

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I was noticing your shoes.
I've never seen that.

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Yeah. Free the toes
and the rest will follow.

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You've been in here.
I've seen you in here.

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You... do you live nearby?

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Uh, pretty close. Mission.

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- You?
- Uh, Soma.

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Right.

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If you need anything,
I'm gonna be working here

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for the rest of the time
you'll be here, so...

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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- Hello?
- Savannah, it's Laura.

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Oh, my God, how are you?
Can you do it one more time?

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Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.

238
00:14:54,225 --> 00:14:56,628
Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.

239
00:14:59,063 --> 00:15:01,530
Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.

240
00:15:01,532 --> 00:15:04,101
Hey, I'm JT LeRoy.

241
00:15:06,337 --> 00:15:07,605
It's great.

242
00:15:09,373 --> 00:15:11,306
I mean, it's one thing
taking a photo,

243
00:15:11,308 --> 00:15:13,242
maybe saying like,
hey, I'm JT LeRoy,

244
00:15:13,244 --> 00:15:14,844
but it's another thing
being him.

245
00:15:14,846 --> 00:15:17,346
No, no, no, first of all,
I did the interview already.

246
00:15:17,348 --> 00:15:19,314
So it's not like he's trying
to talk to you, right?

247
00:15:19,316 --> 00:15:20,817
He just wants to get
the picture.

248
00:15:20,819 --> 00:15:23,217
And besides,
when you're meeting someone new,

249
00:15:23,219 --> 00:15:26,622
would you ever question
who they say they are?

250
00:15:26,624 --> 00:15:28,290
It's gonna be perfect. Here.

251
00:15:28,292 --> 00:15:30,325
This is, uh,
an interview with JT

252
00:15:30,327 --> 00:15:31,727
so you can listen
to the voice.

253
00:15:31,729 --> 00:15:34,129
Oh, I've gotta show you.

254
00:15:34,131 --> 00:15:36,431
There's this unbelievably, like,

255
00:15:36,433 --> 00:15:38,433
hot as fuck actress

256
00:15:38,435 --> 00:15:40,502
Eva Avelin from Europe.

257
00:15:40,504 --> 00:15:42,672
The book is doing
really well there.

258
00:15:42,674 --> 00:15:44,306
She's been calling JT
every night.

259
00:15:44,308 --> 00:15:46,208
Just like obsessing

260
00:15:46,210 --> 00:15:49,444
and we're finishing
each other's sentences.

261
00:15:49,446 --> 00:15:52,280
- Whoa.
- Yeah.

262
00:15:52,282 --> 00:15:54,115
You want a cookie?

263
00:15:54,117 --> 00:15:58,720
Oh, no, cookies produce curves.
I can't do it.

264
00:15:58,722 --> 00:16:02,891
Wh... what? You can't,
like, eat cookies and be goth?

265
00:16:02,893 --> 00:16:06,695
I'm... I'm not goth.

266
00:16:06,697 --> 00:16:09,364
- Just skinny?
- No, not necessarily.

267
00:16:09,366 --> 00:16:12,400
Just... just no... curves.

268
00:16:12,402 --> 00:16:15,336
Is that why
you're, like, binding it up

269
00:16:15,338 --> 00:16:17,673
and wearing sports bras
all the time?

270
00:16:17,675 --> 00:16:19,575
That's perfect for JT.

271
00:16:19,577 --> 00:16:21,310
Get rid of the boobs,
you're already there.

272
00:16:21,312 --> 00:16:23,345
Yeah.

273
00:16:23,347 --> 00:16:26,315
Today,
I'm speaking with JT LeRoy,

274
00:16:26,317 --> 00:16:28,216
the young writer of "Sarah,"

275
00:16:28,218 --> 00:16:30,719
a bestselling novel
based on his experience

276
00:16:30,721 --> 00:16:32,621
as the son of a prostitute

277
00:16:32,623 --> 00:16:35,156
who worked truck stops
in the south.

278
00:16:35,158 --> 00:16:39,861
JT, your mother used to pass you
off as her younger sister?

279
00:16:39,863 --> 00:16:43,364
Yeah.
I mean, um, Sarah,

280
00:16:43,366 --> 00:16:46,334
she knew that Johns didn't like
having a boy around,

281
00:16:46,336 --> 00:16:49,438
so she made it
two pretty girls

282
00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:52,474
'cause she knew that'd get
twice the attention.

283
00:16:52,476 --> 00:16:54,876
Sav, you're... you're cool
with this, right? I mean...

284
00:16:54,878 --> 00:16:57,212
Y... you don't have to do it
if you don't want to.

285
00:16:57,214 --> 00:17:00,448
Yeah, no, no, totally.
I'm into it.

286
00:17:00,450 --> 00:17:04,318
Did your mother expect
you to engage in prostitution?

287
00:17:04,320 --> 00:17:07,355
I mean, she didn't
force me or nothin', but...

288
00:17:07,357 --> 00:17:09,523
I mean, she didn't force me
or nothin'...

289
00:17:09,525 --> 00:17:11,927
I don't quite understand it
100%, but, like...

290
00:17:11,929 --> 00:17:14,930
Yeah, it's, uh,
it's... complicated.

291
00:17:14,932 --> 00:17:17,466
- I loved dressin'...
- I loved dressin' up.

292
00:17:17,468 --> 00:17:19,735
- Puttin' on clothes.
- Puttin' on clothes.

293
00:17:19,737 --> 00:17:22,871
- Turnin' into someone else.
- Turnin' into someone else.

294
00:17:22,873 --> 00:17:25,873
<i>Look, Laura is on the
phone all the time as JT,</i>

295
00:17:25,875 --> 00:17:28,509
<i>but she also pretends to be
his manager, Speedie.</i>

296
00:17:28,511 --> 00:17:32,446
- And she deemed me Astor.
- Astor?

297
00:17:32,448 --> 00:17:34,248
Yeah, Astor's like
Speedie's boyfriend

298
00:17:34,250 --> 00:17:36,651
and we saved JT
from the streets.

299
00:17:36,653 --> 00:17:39,387
You know, we're like this
happy family and shit.

300
00:17:39,389 --> 00:17:41,389
My books
are fiction.

301
00:17:41,391 --> 00:17:44,258
I mean, I tell stories,
but sometimes

302
00:17:44,260 --> 00:17:46,328
the lies are more true
than the truth.

303
00:17:46,330 --> 00:17:47,762
True than the truth.

304
00:17:47,764 --> 00:17:51,732
Sometimes the lie
is more true than the truth.

305
00:17:51,734 --> 00:17:55,302
<i>Trust me, this whole
thing is crazy for me too.</i>

306
00:17:55,304 --> 00:17:56,837
I mean, didn't expect
to be moving in

307
00:17:56,839 --> 00:17:59,007
with a teenage male prostitute

308
00:17:59,009 --> 00:18:02,811
and an obnoxious
loud British woman.

309
00:18:02,813 --> 00:18:05,246
Obnoxious loud British woman?

310
00:18:05,248 --> 00:18:08,717
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
That's... that's Speedie.

311
00:18:08,719 --> 00:18:11,852
Well, hello,
you right little bugger.

312
00:18:11,854 --> 00:18:13,654
I thought
you weren't gonna show.

313
00:18:13,656 --> 00:18:15,356
Ready for the shoot?

314
00:18:15,358 --> 00:18:17,825
Bruce, this is JT!

315
00:18:17,827 --> 00:18:20,563
- Hi, JT.
- Say, hello.

316
00:18:21,964 --> 00:18:23,433
Hi.

317
00:18:27,503 --> 00:18:30,638
He... he gets a bit nervous.

318
00:18:30,640 --> 00:18:34,408
And also, by the way, he don't
like to be touched, alright?

319
00:18:34,410 --> 00:18:37,310
Alright, so I give you
full permission.

320
00:18:37,312 --> 00:18:40,280
Poke around, find your shot,
but, like, in this room.

321
00:18:40,282 --> 00:18:45,319
Oh, hey, JT, I'm so glad
that we could make this work.

322
00:18:45,321 --> 00:18:48,389
Hey, uh, bought this
from you online.

323
00:18:48,391 --> 00:18:50,624
And I know how much
you like chocolate.

324
00:18:50,626 --> 00:18:55,897
What? Nothin' for the handler?
I like it too.

325
00:18:55,899 --> 00:18:57,598
- Great room.
- Great.

326
00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:59,532
My sister's
got great taste.

327
00:18:59,534 --> 00:19:03,740
So, JT, why you don't tell me
where, uh, you two guys live?

328
00:19:05,575 --> 00:19:08,809
- Uh, I live in, um...
- Tenderloin.

329
00:19:08,811 --> 00:19:10,377
Yeah.
Over there.

330
00:19:10,379 --> 00:19:12,747
Oh, cool. There we go.

331
00:19:12,749 --> 00:19:16,684
You know, um, if you can get
that Twist & Scream poster in.

332
00:19:16,686 --> 00:19:19,553
That's me sister's band
and JT loves it.

333
00:19:19,555 --> 00:19:21,355
You'd like that, right?

334
00:19:21,357 --> 00:19:23,556
I think we need
to loosen up a little bit.

335
00:19:23,558 --> 00:19:25,658
- Oh! Loosen up?
- Yeah, we do.

336
00:19:25,660 --> 00:19:28,929
Shake up them muscles,
let go, lovey.

337
00:19:28,931 --> 00:19:32,032
- You like that?
- Great, great.

338
00:19:32,034 --> 00:19:34,637
I got an idea.
Why don't you, um...

339
00:19:36,873 --> 00:19:39,274
Just try standing on this.

340
00:19:42,011 --> 00:19:45,780
I'm not really a skater,
so it's kind of weird.

341
00:19:45,782 --> 00:19:47,881
Okay, how about, um...

342
00:19:47,883 --> 00:19:50,850
You know what?
Wait, um...

343
00:19:50,852 --> 00:19:52,752
I've got, uh...

344
00:19:52,754 --> 00:19:54,989
JT loves makeup.

345
00:19:54,991 --> 00:19:57,524
What about a lipstick? Right?

346
00:19:57,526 --> 00:19:59,526
You wanna put
some lipstick on, love?

347
00:19:59,528 --> 00:20:01,829
In the mirror?
It could be good, right?

348
00:20:01,831 --> 00:20:04,064
Yeah, let's try
if we can get it right.

349
00:20:04,066 --> 00:20:06,399
Let's, uh... This is nice.

350
00:20:06,401 --> 00:20:07,701
Do you like it?

351
00:20:07,703 --> 00:20:09,136
Good. Really nice.

352
00:20:09,138 --> 00:20:11,004
- Slowly now, pretty.
- Nice!

353
00:20:11,006 --> 00:20:14,774
I'm just, I'm worried, sorry,
that... that skateboard is...

354
00:20:14,776 --> 00:20:17,844
- Speedie, you're in the shot.
- Oh, sorry.

355
00:20:17,846 --> 00:20:19,445
Alright, come on out.
Come on out.

356
00:20:19,447 --> 00:20:21,614
Good. Beautiful, JT.

357
00:20:21,616 --> 00:20:25,853
Beautiful. Beautiful.
Beautiful.

358
00:20:25,855 --> 00:20:28,488
- That's alright.
- I'm just gonna take a leak.

359
00:20:28,490 --> 00:20:29,759
Okay.

360
00:20:32,028 --> 00:20:34,128
Yeah, I think he's done.

361
00:20:34,130 --> 00:20:37,096
Oh, I just...
I only shot one roll.

362
00:20:37,098 --> 00:20:38,765
Oh, no, no, love,
you don't know

363
00:20:38,767 --> 00:20:41,601
how fortunate you are
to get the shot at all.

364
00:20:41,603 --> 00:20:44,504
You're the first person
who's ever taken his photo.

365
00:20:44,506 --> 00:20:48,474
Yeah, no. I mean, he's been in
the house for like three months.

366
00:20:48,476 --> 00:20:51,446
- I know, but he's delicate...
- Hey, JT.

367
00:20:53,149 --> 00:20:56,183
What do you say we do
a couple more, huh?

368
00:20:56,185 --> 00:20:58,751
Well...

369
00:20:58,753 --> 00:21:01,855
JT, you...

370
00:21:01,857 --> 00:21:05,491
Yeah.
No, I think we're done, Bruce.

371
00:21:05,493 --> 00:21:07,727
Thank you for understanding.

372
00:21:07,729 --> 00:21:11,531
But I bet
you've got a great shot, right?

373
00:21:11,533 --> 00:21:14,667
Thank you, JT, for your time.
It was a real pleasure.

374
00:21:14,669 --> 00:21:16,170
You did great.

375
00:21:16,172 --> 00:21:18,838
- Speedie.
- Alright.

376
00:21:18,840 --> 00:21:20,875
- Thank you, Bruce.
- Thank you.

377
00:21:20,877 --> 00:21:23,743
Yeah,
I'm sure it will be great.

378
00:21:23,745 --> 00:21:26,545
And, um,
we'll see the shots soon.

379
00:21:26,547 --> 00:21:29,050
- Great. Okay.
- Alright then.

380
00:21:38,193 --> 00:21:40,194
- You were looking great.
- Disaster vibes.

381
00:21:40,196 --> 00:21:42,162
- You were great.
- Oh, my God. I'm so sorry.

382
00:21:42,164 --> 00:21:44,664
Sorry?
What are you talking about?

383
00:21:44,666 --> 00:21:47,233
I can't do that accent. He could
so see that I was a girl.

384
00:21:47,235 --> 00:21:49,501
- I could see him looking at me.
- Not at all.

385
00:21:49,503 --> 00:21:52,739
He never suspected anything.
It was the opposite.

386
00:21:52,741 --> 00:21:56,209
He wanted you to go home
with him. Fuck, you were great.

387
00:21:56,211 --> 00:21:59,178
And playing Speedie
was so cool, right?

388
00:21:59,180 --> 00:22:01,681
Like not giving a fuck
what anybody thinks of you.

389
00:22:01,683 --> 00:22:04,851
You just say whatever the fuck's
on your mind. I love her.

390
00:22:04,853 --> 00:22:06,619
What about when you answered
every question for me?

391
00:22:06,621 --> 00:22:07,921
It was, like, so obvious.

392
00:22:07,923 --> 00:22:10,157
No, that's so JT.
He's nervous.

393
00:22:10,159 --> 00:22:12,593
He can't speak for himself.
That was perfect.

394
00:22:13,761 --> 00:22:15,827
Oh, Sav, trust me.

395
00:22:15,829 --> 00:22:17,964
I learned about this
from my phone sex days.

396
00:22:17,966 --> 00:22:20,967
You establish yourself
as someone else, right?

397
00:22:20,969 --> 00:22:23,202
You can do that.
Then drop the accent

398
00:22:23,204 --> 00:22:25,905
and nobody even notices.

399
00:22:25,907 --> 00:22:27,674
And he's illusive.

400
00:22:27,676 --> 00:22:30,610
That's part of the mystery
and people love mystery.

401
00:22:30,612 --> 00:22:32,745
I almost puked when I walked in.

402
00:22:32,747 --> 00:22:34,580
Ugh, that's so JT.

403
00:22:34,582 --> 00:22:36,548
That was what was so perfect.

404
00:22:36,550 --> 00:22:40,286
He looked nauseous
and nervous and awkward.

405
00:22:40,288 --> 00:22:43,755
Oh, my God, on Friday night,
we've got the reading

406
00:22:43,757 --> 00:22:45,757
and, you know, there are
all these fabulous people

407
00:22:45,759 --> 00:22:48,627
that will show up and read for
him 'cause he's never there.

408
00:22:48,629 --> 00:22:51,898
What if you just showed up
and just, like, hyperventilate,

409
00:22:51,900 --> 00:22:53,633
run out
like he's gonna throw up?

410
00:22:53,635 --> 00:22:56,035
- No way! Mm.
- Yes way!

411
00:22:56,037 --> 00:22:58,737
I can't. It was sickening.

412
00:22:58,739 --> 00:23:02,074
That's that feeling.
That's what's so beautiful.

413
00:23:02,076 --> 00:23:04,142
It's that feeling we all get
like right before

414
00:23:04,144 --> 00:23:06,181
we do something important.

415
00:23:15,090 --> 00:23:18,291
You know what?
Don't worry about it.

416
00:23:18,293 --> 00:23:20,326
I can get somebody else
next time.

417
00:23:20,328 --> 00:23:23,328
I gotta go 'cause Geoff and I
have band practice.

418
00:23:23,330 --> 00:23:26,598
Shit. I'm late.

419
00:23:26,600 --> 00:23:28,767
I'm just gonna go like this.
Okay, Sav, here.

420
00:23:28,769 --> 00:23:31,970
- Oh, thanks. I...
- As promised, love.

421
00:23:31,972 --> 00:23:35,007
Thank you,
ta very much!

422
00:23:35,009 --> 00:23:37,611
- Oh, my God, that was so fun.
- See you.

423
00:23:45,820 --> 00:23:47,285
Thank you.

424
00:23:47,287 --> 00:23:49,621
Uh, JT actually
isn't feeling well

425
00:23:49,623 --> 00:23:53,725
so I'm sorry to say he won't
be joining us after all.

426
00:23:57,698 --> 00:24:01,099
I told you. This is
some sort of hoax. Right?

427
00:25:17,344 --> 00:25:19,177
- Hello?
- Sav.

428
00:25:19,179 --> 00:25:22,147
Can you come over
tonight? I have big news.

429
00:25:22,149 --> 00:25:24,181
Oh, my God.
Get in here.

430
00:25:24,183 --> 00:25:25,816
You're not gonna believe
what I'm gonna tell you.

431
00:25:25,818 --> 00:25:27,017
Are you ready?

432
00:25:27,019 --> 00:25:28,420
A Hollywood producer

433
00:25:28,422 --> 00:25:30,955
wants to make "Sarah"
into a movie.

434
00:25:30,957 --> 00:25:33,125
What? No way.
Are you serious?

435
00:25:33,127 --> 00:25:37,929
Can you imagine?
"Sarah" on the big screen?

436
00:25:37,931 --> 00:25:40,098
I... Yeah, yeah.
That would be epic.

437
00:25:40,100 --> 00:25:43,168
JT can do his thing
and say, you know,

438
00:25:43,170 --> 00:25:46,470
"Hey, I'm an agoraphobe who just
wants his autonomy respected."

439
00:25:46,472 --> 00:25:49,406
But... I don't think so.

440
00:25:49,408 --> 00:25:52,145
I think this is too big
an opportunity.

441
00:25:55,214 --> 00:25:57,882
I mean, you... us tonight?

442
00:25:57,884 --> 00:26:01,253
No, no, silly. This weekend.

443
00:26:01,255 --> 00:26:02,720
In LA.

444
00:26:02,722 --> 00:26:04,456
We'd stay at her house.

445
00:26:04,458 --> 00:26:06,825
There's a party, a reading,
a photoshoot.

446
00:26:06,827 --> 00:26:08,960
Come on, it will be fun.

447
00:26:08,962 --> 00:26:11,862
No, just 'cause I... I'm working
this weekend.

448
00:26:11,864 --> 00:26:13,432
That's... that's the only thing.

449
00:26:15,168 --> 00:26:17,968
Sweet girl.

450
00:26:17,970 --> 00:26:20,070
I know
the photoshoot was intense.

451
00:26:20,072 --> 00:26:23,275
Right? It was a... it was a lot.

452
00:26:23,277 --> 00:26:26,979
But, Sav,
there was a light in you.

453
00:26:28,482 --> 00:26:31,983
And I... I felt him

454
00:26:31,985 --> 00:26:35,388
leave my body and enter yours.

455
00:26:40,526 --> 00:26:43,894
I mean, I was in high school

456
00:26:43,896 --> 00:26:48,799
when, I don't know,
he's turning tricks.

457
00:26:48,801 --> 00:26:52,136
Am I interesting enough
to, like, be him?

458
00:26:52,138 --> 00:26:55,173
What? You are interesting!

459
00:26:55,175 --> 00:26:59,809
Are you kidding me?
Sav, you're incredible.

460
00:26:59,811 --> 00:27:03,314
I don't, like, hate myself.
I just... that's so different.

461
00:27:03,316 --> 00:27:05,883
I think you gotta think
about this differently.

462
00:27:05,885 --> 00:27:08,219
I mean, we're talking Warhol,

463
00:27:08,221 --> 00:27:11,422
Ziggy Stardust, Grace Jones.

464
00:27:11,424 --> 00:27:12,856
What if you wake up one morning

465
00:27:12,858 --> 00:27:14,358
and say I wanna be
somebody else?

466
00:27:14,360 --> 00:27:17,228
That's what they did.
They didn't wait for permission.

467
00:27:17,230 --> 00:27:19,999
Well, yeah,
I... I know that feeling.

468
00:27:21,968 --> 00:27:24,303
I knew I wanted to be
an artist, right?

469
00:27:26,004 --> 00:27:28,372
'Cause I was like,
"I wanna have a life!

470
00:27:28,374 --> 00:27:33,277
I don't wanna live in a fuckin'
cubicle 9:00 to fucking 5:00.

471
00:27:33,279 --> 00:27:35,512
That's not who I am."

472
00:27:35,514 --> 00:27:38,849
Fine. Fine. Spend my life.
"Hello, hi. Wanna fuck?"

473
00:27:38,851 --> 00:27:41,252
Doing phone sex
for the rest of my life? No.

474
00:27:41,254 --> 00:27:43,187
I'm a writer.

475
00:27:43,189 --> 00:27:45,523
I spent my 20s and 30s
waiting for somebody

476
00:27:45,525 --> 00:27:50,427
to discover me,
somebody to give me permission?

477
00:27:50,429 --> 00:27:53,499
Nobody gives you anything.
You have to take it.

478
00:27:55,568 --> 00:27:57,370
Are you gonna take it?

479
00:27:59,438 --> 00:28:02,973
You've got all these selves
inside of you. Explore them.

480
00:28:02,975 --> 00:28:05,576
This is your time.
Find out who the fuck you are.

481
00:28:16,289 --> 00:28:18,054
- Oh, shit.
- Are we out of chips?

482
00:28:18,056 --> 00:28:20,391
Oh, God,
we ate three bags of chips?

483
00:28:20,393 --> 00:28:22,359
I'm gonna be sweating
potato chips.

484
00:28:22,361 --> 00:28:24,028
Don't worry.
no food tomorrow,

485
00:28:24,030 --> 00:28:26,297
but we need the sweet
with the salty.

486
00:28:26,299 --> 00:28:30,134
- I don't.
- Secret stash.

487
00:28:30,136 --> 00:28:32,336
- Chocolate.
- I'm okay.

488
00:28:32,338 --> 00:28:34,273
- You don't want?
- Unh-unh.

489
00:28:36,174 --> 00:28:37,974
Hey, tell me
about this boy.

490
00:28:37,976 --> 00:28:40,043
Sean? What about him?

491
00:28:40,045 --> 00:28:42,847
Well... you date men?

492
00:28:44,450 --> 00:28:46,483
Uh, sometimes.

493
00:28:46,485 --> 00:28:49,919
If they're as cute as he is,
I do. But I'm open.

494
00:28:49,921 --> 00:28:52,222
I like girls, obviously.

495
00:28:52,224 --> 00:28:53,357
I can't go
to any more Dyke nights.

496
00:28:53,359 --> 00:28:54,658
It makes me so uncomfortable.

497
00:28:54,660 --> 00:28:55,892
It's so embarrassing.

498
00:28:55,894 --> 00:28:57,461
The music's so awful and...

499
00:28:57,463 --> 00:28:59,395
Did Geoff ever tell you
I pretended to be a dyke

500
00:28:59,397 --> 00:29:00,963
when we first met?

501
00:29:00,965 --> 00:29:03,099
No. Why?

502
00:29:03,101 --> 00:29:07,337
'Cause he was
so good-looking.

503
00:29:07,339 --> 00:29:10,973
Well, I wanted to know
if he liked me for me.

504
00:29:10,975 --> 00:29:12,543
Aww.

505
00:29:12,545 --> 00:29:15,579
Test the waters and not be
the fat girl swooning.

506
00:29:15,581 --> 00:29:17,348
Hey.

507
00:29:17,350 --> 00:29:20,049
I was 100 pounds

508
00:29:20,051 --> 00:29:22,685
fatter than I am now.

509
00:29:22,687 --> 00:29:25,922
Oh, I didn't realize that.

510
00:29:25,924 --> 00:29:28,393
Good thing I'm not terrified
of the knife.

511
00:29:30,662 --> 00:29:33,229
But I've been with women before.

512
00:29:33,231 --> 00:29:36,032
Especially in the group home.

513
00:29:36,034 --> 00:29:37,503
How was that?

514
00:29:39,070 --> 00:29:41,070
Sex was amazing.

515
00:29:41,072 --> 00:29:43,374
No, I mean, the group home.

516
00:29:43,376 --> 00:29:45,644
Oh. Rough.

517
00:29:47,479 --> 00:29:50,382
But it gave me the tough skin
I live in.

518
00:29:53,051 --> 00:29:54,951
You know, I used to sneak out
at night

519
00:29:54,953 --> 00:29:57,286
and call suicide hotlines
for help,

520
00:29:57,288 --> 00:30:01,059
and I could never... be me.

521
00:30:02,994 --> 00:30:05,664
I'd create characters,
usually boys.

522
00:30:07,265 --> 00:30:10,402
Some of them didn't make it,
but JT...

523
00:30:12,537 --> 00:30:14,472
JT kept calling.

524
00:30:16,207 --> 00:30:19,010
And it felt so good
to not have to be in this body.

525
00:30:20,545 --> 00:30:23,348
You know, to be as far away
from it as possible.

526
00:30:26,151 --> 00:30:27,485
I get that.

527
00:30:58,716 --> 00:31:02,117
JT. Oh, my God.

528
00:31:02,119 --> 00:31:04,687
JT.

529
00:31:04,689 --> 00:31:08,291
Oh, my God. It's so good
to finally meet you.

530
00:31:08,293 --> 00:31:12,093
- This is amazing.
- Right?

531
00:31:12,095 --> 00:31:13,729
JT,
keep writing them books.

532
00:31:13,731 --> 00:31:15,465
Maybe you'll get a house
like this.

533
00:31:15,467 --> 00:31:17,767
Oh, no, JT, the real money's
in screenwriting.

534
00:31:17,769 --> 00:31:19,769
You should write me a part.
A cool part.

535
00:31:19,771 --> 00:31:21,737
- I could play a lot lizard.
- Oh.

536
00:31:21,739 --> 00:31:23,438
You already got an actor.

537
00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:25,507
The guest bedroom's
this way.

538
00:31:25,509 --> 00:31:30,045
Don't think
we've been in... a guest room.

539
00:31:30,047 --> 00:31:33,215
It's amazing.
Oh, my God. What a house.

540
00:31:33,217 --> 00:31:34,817
Thank you.

541
00:31:34,819 --> 00:31:39,154
Oh, and JT brought you
a little prezzie.

542
00:31:39,156 --> 00:31:40,523
Aww.

543
00:31:40,525 --> 00:31:42,825
Not really from Neiman Marcus.

544
00:31:42,827 --> 00:31:45,661
I stole that bag out of my
neighbor's recycling, but...

545
00:31:48,765 --> 00:31:51,266
Oh, little mini onions.

546
00:31:51,268 --> 00:31:53,535
How cute.

547
00:31:53,537 --> 00:31:57,040
And baked beans.

548
00:31:58,408 --> 00:32:00,710
Oh, God. I need one of these.

549
00:32:00,712 --> 00:32:02,580
Those are great, right?

550
00:32:05,383 --> 00:32:09,285
I love that, um,
and you're quite good at that.

551
00:32:09,287 --> 00:32:11,655
That's all I'm gonna say.

552
00:32:15,092 --> 00:32:18,326
Oh, and JT wrote all the lyrics

553
00:32:18,328 --> 00:32:21,630
to our band's songs,
Twist & Scream.

554
00:32:21,632 --> 00:32:23,632
Thought you'd love it.

555
00:32:23,634 --> 00:32:26,167
Oh, that's so cool.

556
00:32:26,169 --> 00:32:28,706
JT, did you get that book
I sent you?

557
00:32:30,475 --> 00:32:32,140
Yeah, we loved it.

558
00:32:32,142 --> 00:32:33,811
Yeah, yeah. It's real good.

559
00:32:35,679 --> 00:32:38,213
JT, what are you wearing?

560
00:32:40,284 --> 00:32:42,384
What... what is going on?

561
00:32:42,386 --> 00:32:44,588
What's happening
to all the money?

562
00:32:45,756 --> 00:32:48,525
It's not much money though yet.

563
00:32:49,894 --> 00:32:52,429
Why do you keep answering
for him?

564
00:32:55,365 --> 00:32:57,633
He's a deaf mute.

565
00:32:59,770 --> 00:33:03,538
That's the way it feels because
he hates talkin' about money,

566
00:33:03,540 --> 00:33:05,440
hates business talk.

567
00:33:05,442 --> 00:33:07,442
You know,
it's like art, art, art.

568
00:33:07,444 --> 00:33:09,244
Keep it pure.

569
00:33:09,246 --> 00:33:11,880
I mean, we're two orphans, fuck,
who found each other.

570
00:33:11,882 --> 00:33:14,215
I don't know these things
either, so you're right.

571
00:33:14,217 --> 00:33:18,186
That's great advice.
We need a guide, you know.

572
00:33:18,188 --> 00:33:20,823
I'll... I'll get someone.

573
00:33:20,825 --> 00:33:23,257
Okay, alright, Oliver Twist.

574
00:33:26,663 --> 00:33:28,197
Come on.

575
00:33:29,666 --> 00:33:32,166
- Hi, David.
- Oh, my God.

576
00:33:32,168 --> 00:33:35,337
JT, listen to this trying
to emulate the icons.

577
00:33:35,339 --> 00:33:38,406
If I have to talk
to all of JT's friends as JT...

578
00:33:38,408 --> 00:33:40,675
We work off each other.
You're perfect.

579
00:33:40,677 --> 00:33:42,577
<i>Totally trust yourself.</i>

580
00:33:44,916 --> 00:33:46,614
JT, you okay?

581
00:33:46,616 --> 00:33:48,850
JT's a genius
and Sav's a genius.

582
00:33:48,852 --> 00:33:51,485
Don't you ever forget that.

583
00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:53,220
The bacon-wrapped dates
are amazing.

584
00:33:53,222 --> 00:33:55,189
Oh, we don't eat pork.

585
00:33:55,191 --> 00:33:57,291
Oh, yeah, I was
just being polite, but, yeah.

586
00:33:57,293 --> 00:33:59,728
If you don't understand
a reference, just go with it.

587
00:33:59,730 --> 00:34:01,563
Do what I do.
Hang a lantern on it.

588
00:34:01,565 --> 00:34:02,964
What is... what is that?

589
00:34:02,966 --> 00:34:04,733
You're so funny
with the sunglasses, JT.

590
00:34:04,735 --> 00:34:06,234
Do you ever take them off?

591
00:34:06,236 --> 00:34:08,236
If it's obvious,
make it more obvious.

592
00:34:08,238 --> 00:34:10,704
Let 'em see these beauties.

593
00:34:10,706 --> 00:34:12,673
Your eyes
are so beautiful.

594
00:34:12,675 --> 00:34:14,675
<i>It's like those
Chinese finger puzzles.</i>

595
00:34:14,677 --> 00:34:16,845
You go in further to get out.

596
00:34:16,847 --> 00:34:20,316
Baby, we're at play
in the fields of the Lord.

597
00:34:24,421 --> 00:34:26,588
Look, there's Eva Avelin.

598
00:34:26,590 --> 00:34:28,222
She's dying to do "Sarah."

599
00:34:28,224 --> 00:34:29,826
To direct and star in it.

600
00:34:32,396 --> 00:34:35,829
JT? Hi, uh, John Bradwell.

601
00:34:35,831 --> 00:34:38,532
We loved the piece
you did on JT!

602
00:34:38,534 --> 00:34:41,502
- Thoughtful, investigative.
- Wow.

603
00:34:41,504 --> 00:34:45,874
Really a great piece. It's so
great that you did that.

604
00:34:45,876 --> 00:34:48,843
Um, I'm still living
in San Francisco,

605
00:34:48,845 --> 00:34:52,413
so if you wanted to meet up and
continue that conversation...

606
00:34:52,415 --> 00:34:55,350
Yeah, definitely.
I'm just gonna go. Just grab...

607
00:34:55,352 --> 00:34:57,454
Right. Okay.

608
00:35:03,492 --> 00:35:04,760
JT.

609
00:35:05,828 --> 00:35:07,797
Oh, Eva. Hey.

610
00:35:09,465 --> 00:35:11,534
<i>Enfin.</i>

611
00:35:14,370 --> 00:35:16,705
You are here at last.

612
00:35:16,707 --> 00:35:19,375
Um, I'm here. Pretty sure.

613
00:35:20,711 --> 00:35:23,610
How's the snail story
coming along?

614
00:35:23,612 --> 00:35:25,879
- Good.
- Excuse me one second.

615
00:35:25,881 --> 00:35:28,682
Does the snail still have
a visage brute?

616
00:35:28,684 --> 00:35:31,652
- Um...
- Visage brute.

617
00:35:31,654 --> 00:35:33,420
Sorry, I'm Speedie.

618
00:35:33,422 --> 00:35:35,289
JT was just tellin' me
about that,

619
00:35:35,291 --> 00:35:38,592
uh, ugly face or somethin'.
I love it!

620
00:35:38,594 --> 00:35:40,327
- Just give us a minute?
- Like a title.

621
00:35:40,329 --> 00:35:42,563
Oh. Sure.

622
00:35:42,565 --> 00:35:44,531
You staying here?

623
00:35:44,533 --> 00:35:47,634
Um, mm-hmm.
I'm just in that room there.

624
00:35:47,636 --> 00:35:49,368
Okay, cool.

625
00:35:49,370 --> 00:35:51,505
Just kind of worried about you
staying at some hotel,

626
00:35:51,507 --> 00:35:53,941
running off
and getting into trouble.

627
00:35:53,943 --> 00:35:57,444
I don't really get
in that kind of trouble anymore.

628
00:35:57,446 --> 00:36:00,449
Mm-hmm. You have trouble
written all over you.

629
00:36:01,751 --> 00:36:04,618
Oh, my God.
You're so fucking cute.

630
00:36:04,620 --> 00:36:07,488
Why are you so shy?
Soak up the attention.

631
00:36:07,490 --> 00:36:09,523
Everybody's here for you.

632
00:36:09,525 --> 00:36:11,390
Yeah, it's crazy.

633
00:36:16,331 --> 00:36:18,766
Alright. Find me at the bar?

634
00:36:18,768 --> 00:36:20,703
- Okay.
- Okay.

635
00:36:22,872 --> 00:36:27,040
Oh, hey, Eva, is... are you gonna
be at the reading tomorrow?

636
00:36:27,042 --> 00:36:30,677
Baby, what are you talking
about? I'm one of the readers.

637
00:36:30,679 --> 00:36:32,713
Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

638
00:36:32,715 --> 00:36:34,849
Well, I was... I was thinkin'...

639
00:36:36,751 --> 00:36:38,752
Fuck.

640
00:36:38,754 --> 00:36:40,053
♪ Who took the bomp?

641
00:36:50,733 --> 00:36:52,301
Shake it out.

642
00:36:53,736 --> 00:36:55,437
Look at that!

643
00:36:58,040 --> 00:37:01,574
♪ Every day and night

644
00:37:01,576 --> 00:37:04,077
♪ Every day and night

645
00:37:04,079 --> 00:37:07,380
♪ I can see
your disco disco dick ♪

646
00:37:07,382 --> 00:37:09,917
♪ Is sucking my heart
out of my mind ♪

647
00:37:09,919 --> 00:37:12,586
♪ I'm out of time
I'm out of fucking time ♪

648
00:37:12,588 --> 00:37:15,589
♪ I'm a gasoline gut
with a Vaseline mind ♪

649
00:37:15,591 --> 00:37:18,992
♪ But wanna disco?
Wanna see me disco? ♪

650
00:37:18,994 --> 00:37:22,094
♪ Let me hear you
depoliticize my rhyme ♪

651
00:37:22,096 --> 00:37:24,864
♪ One two three four

652
00:37:24,866 --> 00:37:27,500
♪ You got what you been
asking for ♪

653
00:37:27,502 --> 00:37:31,604
♪ Is alright alright alright
alright alright alright ♪

654
00:37:31,606 --> 00:37:34,409
JT? So sorry to bother you.

655
00:37:35,677 --> 00:37:37,077
I, um...

656
00:37:37,079 --> 00:37:38,145
I just wanted to tell you

657
00:37:38,147 --> 00:37:40,681
how much your work means to me.

658
00:37:40,683 --> 00:37:43,617
I was on the streets
for a while too.

659
00:37:43,619 --> 00:37:47,622
When I read your book,
I was like, "Someone gets me."

660
00:37:48,990 --> 00:37:51,626
Your voice means a lot.

661
00:37:52,861 --> 00:37:54,495
Thank you.

662
00:37:56,698 --> 00:37:59,799
Do you see that? Huh?

663
00:37:59,801 --> 00:38:03,436
Your work, you're helping
people. It's beautiful.

664
00:38:03,438 --> 00:38:09,578
♪ On your knees who does your
who does your hair? ♪

665
00:38:13,214 --> 00:38:14,716
Thank you.

666
00:38:17,452 --> 00:38:19,819
It looks nice.

667
00:38:19,821 --> 00:38:21,823
Come to Paris. Okay?

668
00:38:23,758 --> 00:38:25,625
JT?

669
00:38:25,627 --> 00:38:26,996
JT!

670
00:38:30,765 --> 00:38:32,034
<i>Au revoir.</i>

671
00:38:34,002 --> 00:38:36,736
♪ One two three four

672
00:38:36,738 --> 00:38:39,772
♪ Who took the Bomp
from the Bompalompalomp? ♪

673
00:38:39,774 --> 00:38:43,478
♪ Who took the Ram
from the Ramalamading-dong? ♪♪

674
00:38:45,480 --> 00:38:48,483
<i>I feel alive
for the first time in my life.</i>

675
00:38:51,653 --> 00:38:53,819
Sav,
you're never gonna believe this.

676
00:38:53,821 --> 00:38:56,890
JT's French publishers
are flying us to Paris

677
00:38:56,892 --> 00:38:58,157
for a press conference.

678
00:38:58,159 --> 00:39:00,625
Holy fucking shit.

679
00:39:00,627 --> 00:39:01,961
Get the fuck out of here.

680
00:39:01,963 --> 00:39:04,163
I can't believe
this is happening.

681
00:39:04,165 --> 00:39:07,033
And Eva's throwing
the after party!

682
00:39:07,035 --> 00:39:09,001
Okay,
I kind of gotta go.

683
00:39:09,003 --> 00:39:10,836
I'll talk to you...
I'll call you tomorrow.

684
00:39:10,838 --> 00:39:12,540
Okay, bye.

685
00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:21,048
- You making us a headband?
- Yeah.

686
00:39:21,050 --> 00:39:23,450
- Cute.
- Thanks.

687
00:39:29,523 --> 00:39:31,891
So I have to go to Paris

688
00:39:31,893 --> 00:39:33,893
in, like, two weeks.

689
00:39:33,895 --> 00:39:35,895
- Shit!
- Yeah.

690
00:39:35,897 --> 00:39:38,965
Wow. That's...
What... what for?

691
00:39:38,967 --> 00:39:43,235
Um, Laura has some work there,
so, like, I'll assist her.

692
00:39:43,237 --> 00:39:45,571
She needs some help.

693
00:39:45,573 --> 00:39:47,105
- That's so cool.
- Yeah.

694
00:39:47,107 --> 00:39:48,606
- Have you ever been?
- Mnh-mnh.

695
00:39:48,608 --> 00:39:50,242
- No?
- Mnh-mnh. Have you?

696
00:39:50,244 --> 00:39:52,311
Pfft! I wish.

697
00:39:52,313 --> 00:39:54,679
Well, where's my invite?

698
00:39:56,717 --> 00:39:59,852
If you're gonna fit
in my backpack, you can come.

699
00:39:59,854 --> 00:40:03,255
Oh, I can fit
in very small places.

700
00:40:09,596 --> 00:40:11,231
I'll miss you.

701
00:40:13,567 --> 00:40:15,633
Yeah, I'll miss you too.

702
00:40:15,635 --> 00:40:17,336
Eva.

703
00:40:17,338 --> 00:40:20,106
You haven't taken it off?
Really?

704
00:40:20,108 --> 00:40:21,773
I love that.

705
00:40:21,775 --> 00:40:23,675
You know I can't stop.

706
00:40:23,677 --> 00:40:25,878
You got my bone
around your neck.

707
00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:28,848
But you started it.

708
00:40:28,850 --> 00:40:31,917
I can't wait
to see you again too.

709
00:40:31,919 --> 00:40:34,621
Oh, okay. Alright.
Call me right back.

710
00:40:38,592 --> 00:40:42,361
They sent enough money
for first-class tickets.

711
00:40:42,363 --> 00:40:44,296
I mean, we'll go coach
and pocket the rest,

712
00:40:44,298 --> 00:40:47,266
but I tried to get
another ticket for Astor

713
00:40:47,268 --> 00:40:48,767
and they just won't budge.

714
00:40:48,769 --> 00:40:52,171
So I figured
we'll just buy one if...

715
00:40:52,173 --> 00:40:54,774
Yeah, w... w... why would I
wanna go to Europe?

716
00:40:54,776 --> 00:40:57,109
We have a recording session
next week.

717
00:40:57,111 --> 00:41:00,278
Yeah, we have
a recording session next week.

718
00:41:00,280 --> 00:41:03,615
I know, babe.
I figured we'd move it

719
00:41:03,617 --> 00:41:05,617
and it'd give you
a little more time

720
00:41:05,619 --> 00:41:08,686
to work on the music,
refine things.

721
00:41:08,688 --> 00:41:11,122
I mean, we're gonna be
just jamming through that press.

722
00:41:11,124 --> 00:41:13,058
It will be a nightmare
and I know

723
00:41:13,060 --> 00:41:14,959
you hate that whole world,
anyways, so...

724
00:41:14,961 --> 00:41:16,928
Yeah, you know, I don't exactly
wanna be the caboose

725
00:41:16,930 --> 00:41:19,098
on the JT train, but...

726
00:41:19,100 --> 00:41:22,167
Laura, we... we're in a band,
you know.

727
00:41:22,169 --> 00:41:25,003
Like, that's our pack.
It... it's a band, it's a bond.

728
00:41:25,005 --> 00:41:28,073
Hey, what do we always say?

729
00:41:28,075 --> 00:41:30,241
By any means...

730
00:41:30,243 --> 00:41:33,111
Necessary. Yeah, for the band.

731
00:41:33,113 --> 00:41:34,779
For the music.

732
00:41:34,781 --> 00:41:36,047
It is for the music.

733
00:41:36,049 --> 00:41:37,715
How... how is this for the music?

734
00:41:37,717 --> 00:41:40,985
Babe, JT's gonna plug the shit
out of this band.

735
00:41:40,987 --> 00:41:44,989
Are you kidding?
It's massive worldwide press.

736
00:41:44,991 --> 00:41:49,329
And I'm, like, this close to us
getting a review in "Spin."

737
00:41:50,897 --> 00:41:54,933
I mean,
Madonna sent us Kabbalah books.

738
00:41:54,935 --> 00:41:58,403
Madonna is in our world!

739
00:41:58,405 --> 00:42:01,339
Yeah, that's great, Laura.
No, really great.

740
00:42:01,341 --> 00:42:04,042
Yeah, what world are you in?

741
00:42:04,044 --> 00:42:05,777
Hey, Eva.

742
00:42:05,779 --> 00:42:07,745
Yeah.

743
00:42:07,747 --> 00:42:10,183
Yeah, I gotta have
creative control.

744
00:42:11,351 --> 00:42:13,018
It's my life.

745
00:42:14,421 --> 00:42:16,955
I'm the only one who knows...

746
00:42:16,957 --> 00:42:18,990
Look, I get it. You wanna go
to Europe, you know.

747
00:42:18,992 --> 00:42:20,894
It's... it's cool.

748
00:42:23,997 --> 00:42:25,864
Of course.

749
00:42:25,866 --> 00:42:29,300
I mean, the only thing
is you don't think

750
00:42:29,302 --> 00:42:31,838
what we're doing
is totally fucked, right?

751
00:42:34,173 --> 00:42:37,710
No, no. I mean... No, right?

752
00:42:39,879 --> 00:42:41,912
I mean, I guess
technically it's lying.

753
00:42:41,914 --> 00:42:45,216
Like, on paper,
we're... lying to people,

754
00:42:45,218 --> 00:42:47,786
but I f... feel like...

755
00:42:49,256 --> 00:42:50,488
It feels like
I'm making something.

756
00:42:50,490 --> 00:42:52,190
Like, it feels
like a performance

757
00:42:52,192 --> 00:42:55,493
and, like, I'm so compelled
to do it.

758
00:42:55,495 --> 00:42:59,062
I... I love that feeling.

759
00:42:59,064 --> 00:43:00,964
I've wanted
that feeling forever,

760
00:43:00,966 --> 00:43:03,401
and I never knew really what was
gonna give me that, you know.

761
00:43:03,403 --> 00:43:06,003
You have it. You play guitar.
You've played since you were 12.

762
00:43:06,005 --> 00:43:10,243
I see your face when you do it.
Like... It's that feeling.

763
00:43:13,246 --> 00:43:15,947
Guess I'm really good
at pretending to be

764
00:43:15,949 --> 00:43:19,884
a feral 19-year-old street kid.

765
00:43:19,886 --> 00:43:20,919
That's not weird, right?

766
00:43:23,322 --> 00:43:24,823
No.

767
00:43:26,025 --> 00:43:27,157
Oh, man.

768
00:44:08,101 --> 00:44:11,168
How was your flight? Alright?

769
00:44:11,170 --> 00:44:13,537
JT's hungry.

770
00:44:13,539 --> 00:44:15,806
You did not indulge
in the first-class fair?

771
00:44:15,808 --> 00:44:19,209
Bugger slept the whole flight.
Maybe some eggs.

772
00:44:19,211 --> 00:44:21,546
Um, we don't have
much time.

773
00:44:21,548 --> 00:44:23,213
He loves eggs,
so if we can grab...

774
00:44:23,215 --> 00:44:26,484
It's okay, go.
First time in Paris?

775
00:44:28,187 --> 00:44:31,424
Fucking take my...
Fuckin' French.

776
00:44:42,067 --> 00:44:45,337
Quite mature trees,
aren't they?

777
00:44:46,572 --> 00:44:50,340
You never see that in America.

778
00:44:50,342 --> 00:44:52,342
It's gorgeous.

779
00:44:52,344 --> 00:44:56,447
Europe, I love it.
You know, it's fantastic.

780
00:44:56,449 --> 00:44:58,147
I'm gonna barf.

781
00:44:58,149 --> 00:44:59,982
I can't believe
they wouldn't stop for eggs.

782
00:44:59,984 --> 00:45:01,884
I can't live off snacks.

783
00:45:01,886 --> 00:45:04,054
You need to be my advocate
and speak up.

784
00:45:04,056 --> 00:45:06,123
- We'll never eat.
- Sorry.

785
00:45:06,125 --> 00:45:07,524
You'll have to take
the jacket off too.

786
00:45:07,526 --> 00:45:09,126
We gotta see
the whole band name.

787
00:45:09,128 --> 00:45:10,927
I mean, you can see it.
You can see it.

788
00:45:10,929 --> 00:45:11,995
No, no, it's promotion.
It's good for Geoff.

789
00:45:11,997 --> 00:45:14,064
- JT!
- Take...

790
00:45:14,066 --> 00:45:15,834
Ah!

791
00:45:16,869 --> 00:45:18,404
Hello.

792
00:45:19,438 --> 00:45:21,004
- Hi.
- Hey.

793
00:45:21,006 --> 00:45:22,572
- Hey, Speedie.
- Eva.

794
00:45:22,574 --> 00:45:24,508
You look gorgeous as usual.

795
00:45:24,510 --> 00:45:27,544
How are you? What's up?
You nervous?

796
00:45:27,546 --> 00:45:29,446
- Yeah, of course.
- Don't be.

797
00:45:29,448 --> 00:45:31,281
You look great.
I love your jacket.

798
00:45:31,283 --> 00:45:33,916
Hey. You'll be fuckin' great.

799
00:45:33,918 --> 00:45:36,920
I'm so proud of you, baby.

800
00:45:36,922 --> 00:45:38,857
I have something for you.

801
00:45:45,230 --> 00:45:47,664
Alright.
Um, should we...

802
00:45:47,666 --> 00:45:50,500
You know what, I think
it's best I come with you.

803
00:45:50,502 --> 00:45:53,037
So that we can check the venue
and...

804
00:45:57,175 --> 00:45:59,511
So you gave me your talisman.

805
00:46:02,381 --> 00:46:04,416
I'm gonna give you mine.

806
00:46:06,685 --> 00:46:09,088
Belonged to my grandfather.

807
00:46:10,988 --> 00:46:12,988
Ah.

808
00:46:12,990 --> 00:46:16,158
Well... it's incredible.

809
00:46:16,160 --> 00:46:18,427
But I shouldn't accept that,
you know.

810
00:46:18,429 --> 00:46:20,331
Yes, you should.

811
00:46:34,412 --> 00:46:36,547
We have to go.

812
00:46:52,731 --> 00:46:54,600
JT!

813
00:47:09,580 --> 00:47:10,948
Hi.

814
00:47:25,363 --> 00:47:28,431
Your mother put you
through some awful situations.

815
00:47:28,433 --> 00:47:31,102
How does she feel about
your expose of her behavior?

816
00:47:32,737 --> 00:47:34,071
Um...

817
00:47:35,239 --> 00:47:38,240
Sh... she's not, um...

818
00:47:38,242 --> 00:47:40,309
with us anymore.

819
00:47:40,311 --> 00:47:43,345
S... so, um, I don't really know.

820
00:47:43,347 --> 00:47:46,181
We cannot hear you, JT!

821
00:47:46,183 --> 00:47:49,351
Ah, you can't hear me, um...

822
00:47:49,353 --> 00:47:50,555
I...

823
00:47:51,722 --> 00:47:55,491
I was just sayin' that, um...

824
00:47:55,493 --> 00:47:59,695
my... my mom isn't here anymore,

825
00:47:59,697 --> 00:48:06,435
and... also the books
are fiction, so, yeah.

826
00:48:11,308 --> 00:48:14,610
JT?

827
00:48:14,612 --> 00:48:16,110
You wrote
on your website

828
00:48:16,112 --> 00:48:17,580
that writing
is your... your lifesaver.

829
00:48:17,582 --> 00:48:21,082
I... it's painful,
um, but I need it.

830
00:48:21,084 --> 00:48:22,418
What did
your friends think?

831
00:48:22,420 --> 00:48:24,753
The truth
in fiction...

832
00:48:24,755 --> 00:48:27,790
JT, why do you tend
to avoid public events?

833
00:48:27,792 --> 00:48:30,693
Just, um, protection,
I think and...

834
00:48:32,263 --> 00:48:33,695
Speak to your choice
of wearing

835
00:48:33,697 --> 00:48:35,798
a quote-unquote disguise.

836
00:48:35,800 --> 00:48:39,400
Anonymity's kind of like
losing your virginity.

837
00:48:39,402 --> 00:48:42,471
But they are based on your real
experiences, right, JT?

838
00:48:42,473 --> 00:48:44,373
Fiction's sort of a lie

839
00:48:44,375 --> 00:48:47,345
but can be more true
than the truth.

840
00:48:48,746 --> 00:48:51,447
JT, you sound
like a woman to me,

841
00:48:51,449 --> 00:48:53,415
but you insist you are a man.

842
00:48:59,322 --> 00:49:01,556
Uh...

843
00:49:01,558 --> 00:49:04,592
You know, it's not really
my responsibility

844
00:49:04,594 --> 00:49:09,732
to help lead you
through your own discomfort

845
00:49:09,734 --> 00:49:12,403
on how I make you feel. Um...

846
00:49:14,271 --> 00:49:17,406
I can be whomever I wanna be.

847
00:49:17,408 --> 00:49:19,775
Fuck, yeah!

848
00:49:19,777 --> 00:49:22,610
Um, and as for sounding
like a woman,

849
00:49:22,612 --> 00:49:25,847
um, well, I'd say thank you.

850
00:49:27,784 --> 00:49:31,653
But, JT, are you really
who you say you are?

851
00:49:31,655 --> 00:49:34,291
Are you really
who you say you are?

852
00:49:37,495 --> 00:49:39,260
I...

853
00:49:39,262 --> 00:49:41,329
I can't really tell.
Are you a man?

854
00:49:41,331 --> 00:49:44,433
Prove your masculinity
right now!

855
00:49:44,435 --> 00:49:45,667
Pull your cock out!

856
00:49:56,746 --> 00:50:00,348
Alright. Uh, it's done.

857
00:50:00,350 --> 00:50:01,551
It's done.

858
00:50:02,552 --> 00:50:03,752
It's done.

859
00:50:12,596 --> 00:50:15,430
You know what I mean?
That's the key.

860
00:50:15,432 --> 00:50:17,567
In America, it's different.

861
00:50:19,169 --> 00:50:21,336
In America...

862
00:50:24,708 --> 00:50:26,676
Super cool.

863
00:50:33,449 --> 00:50:35,349
JT?

864
00:50:35,351 --> 00:50:37,854
This young man would love
for you to sign his book.

865
00:50:39,188 --> 00:50:40,588
Bonjour, JT.

866
00:50:40,590 --> 00:50:43,291
Eva? Eva...

867
00:50:45,962 --> 00:50:48,363
Eva.

868
00:50:48,365 --> 00:50:51,366
Uh, I need to take JT back
to the hotel now.

869
00:50:51,368 --> 00:50:53,534
- We need a proper meal.
- Nonsense.

870
00:50:53,536 --> 00:50:55,503
Nah, he's drinking too much.

871
00:50:55,505 --> 00:50:58,305
And I can't stand
all this smoke.

872
00:50:58,307 --> 00:51:00,842
Speedie, come on.

873
00:51:00,844 --> 00:51:03,379
Stop interfering with his life
all the time.

874
00:51:05,247 --> 00:51:07,751
She's interfering with my life,
actually.

875
00:51:08,985 --> 00:51:10,587
Excuse me.

876
00:51:12,489 --> 00:51:15,990
JT, let's go back to the hotel.

877
00:51:15,992 --> 00:51:18,259
I'm not ready to go yet.

878
00:51:18,261 --> 00:51:21,931
Well, this place is filled
with toxicity. Let's go.

879
00:51:23,565 --> 00:51:25,769
I play in the fields
of the Lord, remember?

880
00:51:27,804 --> 00:51:29,804
My words!

881
00:51:29,806 --> 00:51:31,574
See you later, Speedie!

882
00:51:49,725 --> 00:51:50,960
Ennio!

883
00:51:52,561 --> 00:51:54,563
This look is perfect.

884
00:52:07,677 --> 00:52:09,843
It's our favorite song.

885
00:52:09,845 --> 00:52:11,213
Oh, right.

886
00:52:12,681 --> 00:52:13,916
Sorry.

887
00:52:17,921 --> 00:52:21,356
What's up, JT?
Where are you?

888
00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:24,994
I'm...

889
00:52:27,564 --> 00:52:29,831
I'm totally right here.

890
00:52:29,833 --> 00:52:30,934
I'm just...

891
00:52:32,702 --> 00:52:34,536
just tired, you know.

892
00:52:49,919 --> 00:52:51,520
Hi.

893
00:52:53,757 --> 00:52:54,824
Hi.

894
00:52:58,326 --> 00:53:00,829
You have a very different vibe
than on the phone.

895
00:53:03,966 --> 00:53:05,601
Yeah, I'm...

896
00:53:06,735 --> 00:53:08,804
I'm so jetlagged.

897
00:53:14,676 --> 00:53:18,612
What's the deal with you
and Speedie? Huh?

898
00:53:18,614 --> 00:53:21,784
I mean, you barely give
each other room to breathe.

899
00:53:23,451 --> 00:53:25,486
She's so obnoxious.

900
00:53:27,623 --> 00:53:30,291
I know she's your friend.
I'm sorry, but...

901
00:53:31,860 --> 00:53:36,465
I know it seems weird
from the outside, but, um...

902
00:53:38,934 --> 00:53:41,537
I mean, I wouldn't even exist
without her.

903
00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:45,573
What?

904
00:53:52,047 --> 00:53:54,583
I don't really wanna
go there, but...

905
00:53:56,417 --> 00:53:58,921
where are we with the option
for the film?

906
00:54:01,890 --> 00:54:04,658
Um...

907
00:54:04,660 --> 00:54:08,062
I just, you know, I'd be
so fuckin' honored to direct it

908
00:54:08,064 --> 00:54:10,665
and play your mother.

909
00:54:13,001 --> 00:54:14,935
She's, you know,
she's such a character

910
00:54:14,937 --> 00:54:16,535
obsessed with her own downfall.

911
00:54:16,537 --> 00:54:18,504
I... you know,
I've always just related

912
00:54:18,506 --> 00:54:21,741
to that kind of woman, you know.

913
00:54:21,743 --> 00:54:23,944
And I really think
it's important to show

914
00:54:23,946 --> 00:54:27,414
how... how you absorbed her pain,
you know.

915
00:54:27,416 --> 00:54:29,117
I wanna do it justice.

916
00:54:36,557 --> 00:54:39,560
I probably need, like,
full control of the script.

917
00:54:41,196 --> 00:54:43,664
You know,
'cause it's my life, but...

918
00:54:50,739 --> 00:54:51,940
Deal.

919
00:55:02,583 --> 00:55:04,119
You're so beautiful.

920
00:55:48,863 --> 00:55:50,631
Oh, baby.

921
00:56:09,951 --> 00:56:12,452
- Hey.
- Oh.

922
00:56:13,220 --> 00:56:15,522
It's the famous JT.

923
00:56:17,525 --> 00:56:19,593
So, JT Leroy, tell me.

924
00:56:21,028 --> 00:56:22,761
How do you have time to write

925
00:56:22,763 --> 00:56:26,598
your amazing
bestselling books, huh?

926
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:30,002
Because it seems like you just
stay out all night partying!

927
00:56:30,004 --> 00:56:32,007
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know.

928
00:56:34,909 --> 00:56:36,243
What were you doing?

929
00:56:37,845 --> 00:56:39,610
I thought it was earlier.

930
00:56:39,612 --> 00:56:42,014
You can't go out so long
without me

931
00:56:42,016 --> 00:56:43,849
and you're drinking.

932
00:56:43,851 --> 00:56:45,050
Who knows what you said?

933
00:56:45,052 --> 00:56:47,088
The whole thing
could have fallen apart.

934
00:56:48,189 --> 00:56:50,055
I secured full creative control

935
00:56:50,057 --> 00:56:52,526
over the script,
so there's that.

936
00:56:53,861 --> 00:56:55,863
- What?
- Yeah.

937
00:57:00,800 --> 00:57:02,635
Well, I didn't ask you
to do that.

938
00:57:04,338 --> 00:57:06,839
But I...

939
00:57:06,841 --> 00:57:08,675
I mean, that's good news.

940
00:57:11,612 --> 00:57:13,045
W... what'd she say?

941
00:57:13,047 --> 00:57:14,780
I mean, how did that go?
I need to know everything.

942
00:57:14,782 --> 00:57:16,248
I gotta get on the phone
right away

943
00:57:16,250 --> 00:57:19,585
and make sure
she said what she meant and...

944
00:57:19,587 --> 00:57:22,186
I would love to know what
you talk about on the phone.

945
00:57:22,188 --> 00:57:24,022
If I knew what you talked
about on the phone,

946
00:57:24,024 --> 00:57:27,059
maybe I wouldn't sound like
a stammering idiot around her.

947
00:57:27,061 --> 00:57:30,295
I need more to talk about
than stuff I read in interviews.

948
00:57:30,297 --> 00:57:32,166
I want her to feel...

949
00:57:34,168 --> 00:57:35,635
me. Like...

950
00:57:37,371 --> 00:57:38,806
Oh, my God.

951
00:57:40,808 --> 00:57:42,243
Did you fuck her?

952
00:57:45,078 --> 00:57:47,178
It's Chinese finger puzzle,
right?

953
00:57:47,180 --> 00:57:49,348
You go further in to get out?

954
00:57:49,350 --> 00:57:51,316
The fuck.

955
00:57:51,318 --> 00:57:53,684
Savy! Goddammit!

956
00:57:53,686 --> 00:57:55,154
It's not as bad as you think,
honestly.

957
00:57:55,156 --> 00:57:56,221
- It's not even like that...
- Savy!

958
00:57:56,223 --> 00:57:58,123
Are you fucking kidding me?

959
00:57:58,125 --> 00:58:03,195
Baby girl,
she doesn't want you.

960
00:58:03,197 --> 00:58:08,167
Okay? She wants the person
she talked to on the phone.

961
00:58:08,169 --> 00:58:10,201
She wants JT.

962
00:58:10,203 --> 00:58:13,638
In fact,
she doesn't even want that!

963
00:58:13,640 --> 00:58:15,575
She wants the fucking rights
to the movie!

964
00:58:20,880 --> 00:58:22,949
Oh, I'm being mean.

965
00:58:25,186 --> 00:58:27,988
I just hate myself.
I binged all night.

966
00:58:29,256 --> 00:58:31,857
I was worried.

967
00:58:31,859 --> 00:58:34,125
I need you here
to keep me on track.

968
00:58:34,127 --> 00:58:36,894
I just... oh, God.

969
00:58:36,896 --> 00:58:38,631
Goddammit!

970
00:58:40,266 --> 00:58:42,068
Don't you think
this is ridiculous?

971
00:58:43,736 --> 00:58:45,071
You should write as you.

972
00:58:46,407 --> 00:58:49,308
Savy... come on.

973
00:58:49,310 --> 00:58:51,742
You're out of it.

974
00:58:51,744 --> 00:58:54,346
Nobody listens to me as me.

975
00:58:54,348 --> 00:58:57,415
They listen to you
as JT.

976
00:58:57,417 --> 00:58:59,683
But the... JT doesn't exist,
you know.

977
00:58:59,685 --> 00:59:01,219
He's not real.

978
00:59:01,221 --> 00:59:03,988
I mean, he's super real
for some people, you know.

979
00:59:03,990 --> 00:59:06,292
Like... personal.

980
00:59:07,994 --> 00:59:10,263
- I see it.
- Is it real for them?

981
00:59:14,734 --> 00:59:16,236
And I got left.

982
00:59:18,405 --> 00:59:19,873
I got tricked...

983
00:59:21,307 --> 00:59:23,909
and put in a mental home
for grownups.

984
00:59:28,114 --> 00:59:29,648
Abused.

985
00:59:31,484 --> 00:59:36,354
Used up by... my mom.

986
00:59:36,356 --> 00:59:40,860
I was that kid...
and it is real.

987
00:59:42,363 --> 00:59:45,429
I didn't say it wasn't.

988
00:59:45,431 --> 00:59:49,065
- That's not what I'm saying.
- You're so mean.

989
00:59:49,067 --> 00:59:51,435
You are so manipulative.

990
00:59:51,437 --> 00:59:53,237
You don't have to do that
with me.

991
00:59:53,239 --> 00:59:55,772
I'm the last person
you have to do that with.

992
00:59:55,774 --> 00:59:57,676
We're in Paris...

993
00:59:59,045 --> 01:00:00,413
because of me...

994
01:00:02,182 --> 01:00:03,816
because of my writing...

995
01:00:04,984 --> 01:00:08,352
because of my genius.

996
01:00:08,354 --> 01:00:11,056
I'm glad you know how to put
an outfit together...

997
01:00:12,858 --> 01:00:16,026
but all you do is show up.

998
01:00:16,028 --> 01:00:19,263
Oh, I... I don't inhabit him,
he doesn't inhabit me,

999
01:00:19,265 --> 01:00:21,032
he doesn't leap out
of your body into mine?

1000
01:00:21,034 --> 01:00:22,300
We're not making
something together?

1001
01:00:22,302 --> 01:00:23,434
All this bullshit
that you say to me

1002
01:00:23,436 --> 01:00:26,404
to get me to do this crazy shit!

1003
01:00:26,406 --> 01:00:29,273
No, no, no,
if all I do is show up,

1004
01:00:29,275 --> 01:00:31,945
honestly, why don't I fucking
go ahead and stop showing up?

1005
01:00:41,086 --> 01:00:43,155
Stop being a drama queen!

1006
01:00:49,329 --> 01:00:51,429
<i>I feel lost
in a limitless hall</i>

1007
01:00:51,431 --> 01:00:53,765
<i>of desire and longing.</i>

1008
01:00:55,101 --> 01:00:57,167
<i>What was I thinkin'?</i>

1009
01:01:12,184 --> 01:01:15,386
Hey. I have to tell you
something.

1010
01:01:23,929 --> 01:01:25,530
- What?
- Yeah.

1011
01:01:28,033 --> 01:01:29,901
- Sav.
- Ah.

1012
01:01:31,203 --> 01:01:33,069
I've seen pictures of JT.

1013
01:01:33,071 --> 01:01:35,473
- I bet.
- Yeah, and I read "Sarah."

1014
01:01:35,475 --> 01:01:37,308
- I know.
- I never connected the dots.

1015
01:01:37,310 --> 01:01:39,510
I noticed that.

1016
01:01:39,512 --> 01:01:43,581
Wow, um, okay, so wait.

1017
01:01:43,583 --> 01:01:45,548
When you, when you talk
to people in person,

1018
01:01:45,550 --> 01:01:48,020
they... they don't notice
that it's not Laura's voice?

1019
01:01:50,355 --> 01:01:54,057
And they all think
that you're a boy.

1020
01:01:54,059 --> 01:01:57,193
It's like "The Emperor's New
Clothes" kind of deal, you know.

1021
01:01:57,195 --> 01:01:59,429
Every time someone questions it,
Laura just throws it

1022
01:01:59,431 --> 01:02:01,231
right back on them
and is like, what do you mean

1023
01:02:01,233 --> 01:02:04,102
the Emperor has no clothes?
That's his very best outfit.

1024
01:02:05,371 --> 01:02:07,904
I mean...

1025
01:02:07,906 --> 01:02:09,606
I... I wanted to tell you.

1026
01:02:09,608 --> 01:02:11,940
I just think I really valued
the secret of it

1027
01:02:11,942 --> 01:02:14,511
and... wanted to protect her.

1028
01:02:14,513 --> 01:02:17,414
I would just fucking die
if I, like...

1029
01:02:17,416 --> 01:02:19,251
ruined that for her and...

1030
01:02:21,887 --> 01:02:23,520
Yeah.

1031
01:02:23,522 --> 01:02:27,057
This is literally the craziest
thing I've ever heard.

1032
01:02:27,059 --> 01:02:29,660
I'm really not sure if I should,
like, ask more questions

1033
01:02:29,662 --> 01:02:32,028
or, I don't know, run away.

1034
01:02:32,030 --> 01:02:33,831
- Run out of here?
- Yeah.

1035
01:02:35,166 --> 01:02:37,034
Am I terrible?

1036
01:02:40,405 --> 01:02:41,904
- I mean...
- Also, it's over.

1037
01:02:41,906 --> 01:02:43,573
I'm not... I'm not
gonna do it anymore.

1038
01:02:43,575 --> 01:02:45,041
Which is why
it was, like, a lot easier

1039
01:02:45,043 --> 01:02:47,510
to tell you this, to be honest.

1040
01:02:47,512 --> 01:02:49,045
You're not gonna do it anymore?

1041
01:02:49,047 --> 01:02:50,148
No.

1042
01:02:52,150 --> 01:02:54,351
<i>♪ If I could be</i>

1043
01:02:54,353 --> 01:02:57,687
♪ What you wanted

1044
01:02:57,689 --> 01:03:00,389
♪ If you wanted

1045
01:03:00,391 --> 01:03:02,359
♪ Come and...
♪ Be my...

1046
01:03:02,361 --> 01:03:04,226
Come and be my one?

1047
01:03:04,228 --> 01:03:08,431
♪ ...be what you wanted ♪

1048
01:03:08,433 --> 01:03:10,300
<i>No,
it's not that I don't want to.</i>

1049
01:03:10,302 --> 01:03:12,569
I've just been... I feel like
if I leave the house,

1050
01:03:12,571 --> 01:03:15,107
I'm gonna fall into old habits.

1051
01:03:16,575 --> 01:03:18,310
No, I know.

1052
01:03:19,478 --> 01:03:21,043
Dennis, I know you know,

1053
01:03:21,045 --> 01:03:24,012
but... I... I feel stuck.

1054
01:03:24,014 --> 01:03:27,216
No, I really wanna go, Jason.

1055
01:03:27,218 --> 01:03:29,151
I do.

1056
01:03:29,153 --> 01:03:30,387
I just, um...

1057
01:03:30,389 --> 01:03:32,455
For my health,

1058
01:03:32,457 --> 01:03:35,692
I need to focus on me right now.

1059
01:03:35,694 --> 01:03:38,561
I know it's probably
not something I should relive,

1060
01:03:38,563 --> 01:03:41,264
but... I mean,

1061
01:03:41,266 --> 01:03:44,136
it's like, they're makin'
a movie on my life.

1062
01:03:46,003 --> 01:03:49,173
Well, they keep asking me
to come down to the set and...

1063
01:03:50,574 --> 01:03:53,208
Yeah.

1064
01:03:53,210 --> 01:03:55,246
<i>No, but how do I say
no to that?</i>

1065
01:03:56,715 --> 01:03:58,981
<i>Yeah, Eva and I have been,</i>

1066
01:03:58,983 --> 01:04:02,153
<i>um, having phone sex lately
and...</i>

1067
01:04:04,523 --> 01:04:08,657
<i>Dr. Owen,
I know it's not healthy, but...</i>

1068
01:04:08,659 --> 01:04:11,693
<i>the heart wants
what the heart wants, right?</i>

1069
01:04:29,714 --> 01:04:31,516
- Hey.
- Hey.

1070
01:04:34,418 --> 01:04:35,684
How you doin'?

1071
01:04:35,686 --> 01:04:37,186
- Is that Sav?
- I'm okay.

1072
01:04:37,188 --> 01:04:39,254
Yeah, it's Sav!

1073
01:04:39,256 --> 01:04:42,458
Oh, my God. Get her
in here. It's like Christmas.

1074
01:04:42,460 --> 01:04:45,627
Look at all this stuff
that JT gets for free.

1075
01:04:45,629 --> 01:04:48,130
Thank God you're here, you guys.
Start taking stuff.

1076
01:04:48,132 --> 01:04:50,767
Here, Astor, bowties.

1077
01:04:50,769 --> 01:04:53,703
- Look at those!
- What? No.

1078
01:04:53,705 --> 01:04:56,674
Did you tell her about Astor
doing the music for the movie?

1079
01:04:59,175 --> 01:05:01,643
Yeah, well, Laura's been
speaking to Eva about,

1080
01:05:01,645 --> 01:05:04,179
well, maybe, right,
you know, doing the...

1081
01:05:04,181 --> 01:05:06,181
the score for the whole movie,
so...

1082
01:05:06,183 --> 01:05:09,253
Definitely. I'm talking to her.
We're gonna push this through!

1083
01:05:10,721 --> 01:05:12,454
How is she doin'?

1084
01:05:12,456 --> 01:05:15,190
She's good.
She's really good.

1085
01:05:15,192 --> 01:05:18,728
I mean, she's, uh,
I think, overwhelmed.

1086
01:05:18,730 --> 01:05:21,630
You know,
it's a lot making a movie.

1087
01:05:21,632 --> 01:05:24,298
She said she wants JT to design

1088
01:05:24,300 --> 01:05:26,267
an outfit for her
to wear in the movie.

1089
01:05:26,269 --> 01:05:29,638
Oh, my God, this is beautiful.

1090
01:05:29,640 --> 01:05:31,007
You gotta try this.

1091
01:05:33,143 --> 01:05:35,544
Look at that on... Oh, please.

1092
01:05:35,546 --> 01:05:37,546
Anzevino's been sending
all this stuff.

1093
01:05:37,548 --> 01:05:40,215
- Like, he sent all this fabric.
- It's really nice.

1094
01:05:40,217 --> 01:05:42,584
He wants to support
JT the designer.

1095
01:05:42,586 --> 01:05:45,219
Hey, do you think
I could talk to her?

1096
01:05:45,221 --> 01:05:47,623
Uh...

1097
01:05:47,625 --> 01:05:50,324
I just got an e-mail.
You wanna see it?

1098
01:05:50,326 --> 01:05:52,128
I just got one from her.

1099
01:05:55,766 --> 01:05:58,700
I just... I think talking to her
would be hard

1100
01:05:58,702 --> 01:06:02,371
'cause we're talking so much
and it might get a little mucky,

1101
01:06:02,373 --> 01:06:04,806
but, um... So, Jacqueline.

1102
01:06:04,808 --> 01:06:07,144
"Please, please,
please come to Tennessee.

1103
01:06:09,579 --> 01:06:13,414
Baby boy, I miss your soft lips.

1104
01:06:13,416 --> 01:06:15,151
I dream of your skin."

1105
01:06:16,219 --> 01:06:17,719
I love this.

1106
01:06:17,721 --> 01:06:21,823
"I wanna pull on your hair
like a horse's mane."

1107
01:06:21,825 --> 01:06:24,893
She is so into your pheromones.
I love that.

1108
01:06:24,895 --> 01:06:27,665
I mean, you're talking to her
as me, you know. Like...

1109
01:06:30,434 --> 01:06:33,169
Yeah. I mean...

1110
01:06:35,171 --> 01:06:36,840
I'm talking to her as JT.

1111
01:06:42,813 --> 01:06:45,847
We had, like, a thing.
Like a real thing.

1112
01:06:45,849 --> 01:06:48,817
It wasn't bullshit, it wasn't...

1113
01:06:48,819 --> 01:06:51,720
I... I know that.

1114
01:06:51,722 --> 01:06:56,626
Sav, you're as much
a part of JT as me.

1115
01:06:58,728 --> 01:07:01,562
That's the truth.

1116
01:07:01,564 --> 01:07:05,333
Not some adolescent
talking to you in Paris,

1117
01:07:05,335 --> 01:07:06,636
saying dumb shit...

1118
01:07:08,204 --> 01:07:09,838
because she was jealous

1119
01:07:09,840 --> 01:07:12,506
and felt left out and lonely.

1120
01:07:12,508 --> 01:07:14,576
I'm s... I'm so sorry.

1121
01:07:14,578 --> 01:07:16,480
It's embarrassing.

1122
01:07:18,716 --> 01:07:21,849
And the Eva thing actually

1123
01:07:21,851 --> 01:07:24,785
turned out to be great.

1124
01:07:24,787 --> 01:07:26,654
Why shouldn't you wanna be
intimate with her?

1125
01:07:26,656 --> 01:07:29,492
Oh, my God. And you guys
have this connection, so...

1126
01:07:31,427 --> 01:07:32,762
This is crazy.

1127
01:07:34,731 --> 01:07:36,664
And this whole
Tennessee thing.

1128
01:07:36,666 --> 01:07:40,234
I don't know what to do.
I mean, it would be great

1129
01:07:40,236 --> 01:07:44,639
for Astor to go
'cause of the music, and I...

1130
01:07:44,641 --> 01:07:47,842
You know, she really wants us
to be on set

1131
01:07:47,844 --> 01:07:51,579
and see the experience,
but I... I don't know

1132
01:07:51,581 --> 01:07:54,982
if you wanna be JT again.

1133
01:07:54,984 --> 01:07:57,587
That's... that's for you
to decide.

1134
01:08:21,611 --> 01:08:23,246
It's the wardrobe.

1135
01:08:30,687 --> 01:08:32,354
Makeup.

1136
01:09:16,999 --> 01:09:18,966
Well, well, well!

1137
01:09:18,968 --> 01:09:21,269
Hi there, baby boy!

1138
01:09:23,672 --> 01:09:26,541
Ain't this a pretty little thing
that JT made for me?

1139
01:09:27,877 --> 01:09:29,509
Everything looks real good.

1140
01:09:29,511 --> 01:09:32,247
Aw. Thank you, honey pie.

1141
01:09:35,317 --> 01:09:36,886
Hey there, mama.

1142
01:09:40,590 --> 01:09:42,456
Hey, Speedie.

1143
01:09:42,458 --> 01:09:45,625
Oy. There's your music man.

1144
01:09:45,627 --> 01:09:48,628
- Hey.
- Oh, hey. Astor.

1145
01:09:48,630 --> 01:09:50,497
Oh, my God,
I'm so glad you're here.

1146
01:09:50,499 --> 01:09:52,699
It's been a fucking nightmare.

1147
01:09:52,701 --> 01:09:54,601
It's just been me
and these fucking idiots.

1148
01:09:54,603 --> 01:09:56,605
Honestly, I have to fight
for everything.

1149
01:09:59,976 --> 01:10:01,776
You know what, Speedie?

1150
01:10:01,778 --> 01:10:03,376
I kind of understand, you know,
what you're going through

1151
01:10:03,378 --> 01:10:05,411
with this little rascal
over here.

1152
01:10:05,413 --> 01:10:07,114
You know, keeping him close

1153
01:10:07,116 --> 01:10:09,883
and fed and out of mischief.

1154
01:10:09,885 --> 01:10:11,651
I mean, it's exactly
what I'm going through

1155
01:10:11,653 --> 01:10:13,486
on this fucking set.
You have no idea.

1156
01:10:13,488 --> 01:10:15,822
All these men,
it's like herding cats.

1157
01:10:15,824 --> 01:10:18,391
They all need attention,
they all need to express

1158
01:10:18,393 --> 01:10:19,993
their opinions to me.

1159
01:10:19,995 --> 01:10:22,595
Honestly, would they treat
a male director like this?

1160
01:10:22,597 --> 01:10:24,999
I don't think so.

1161
01:10:25,001 --> 01:10:27,534
You know, I'm JT's mother,
I'm the movie's mother,

1162
01:10:27,536 --> 01:10:29,739
I'm the fucking world's mother.
It's exhausting.

1163
01:10:32,040 --> 01:10:33,673
But you're doing okay though,
right?

1164
01:10:36,144 --> 01:10:38,711
Baby, I'm so happy you're here.

1165
01:10:38,713 --> 01:10:41,817
You know, you ground me.
Calm me down.

1166
01:10:45,420 --> 01:10:48,855
I gotta finish this scene.
Gotta be perfect, right?

1167
01:10:48,857 --> 01:10:51,391
Gotta be better than the guys.

1168
01:10:51,393 --> 01:10:53,027
- Eva, we need you on the set.
- John.

1169
01:10:53,029 --> 01:10:57,396
I told you this is not the right
place that we're gonna put this.

1170
01:10:57,398 --> 01:10:59,935
- What?
- She looks fucking wrecked.

1171
01:11:02,137 --> 01:11:03,903
Fuck.

1172
01:11:09,845 --> 01:11:12,445
I can't describe
what I'm feeling.

1173
01:11:12,447 --> 01:11:13,982
It's like this...

1174
01:11:15,584 --> 01:11:17,986
deja vu feeling.

1175
01:11:20,888 --> 01:11:23,024
But I feel like I'm home.

1176
01:11:32,901 --> 01:11:34,703
JT...

1177
01:11:39,975 --> 01:11:42,944
and Eva, that was so spooky.

1178
01:11:46,147 --> 01:11:49,115
Looking at Sarah.

1179
01:11:49,117 --> 01:11:52,020
You know, like all these things
she's picking up on.

1180
01:11:53,654 --> 01:11:56,956
I've never ever told
anybody about it.

1181
01:11:56,958 --> 01:11:58,992
All about S... Sarah,

1182
01:11:58,994 --> 01:12:01,830
my best friend
in the group home.

1183
01:12:02,964 --> 01:12:05,500
It's like looking right at her.

1184
01:12:09,003 --> 01:12:10,871
Art is...

1185
01:12:12,640 --> 01:12:14,875
eerie shit, man.

1186
01:12:25,220 --> 01:12:27,656
This is so crazy.

1187
01:12:31,992 --> 01:12:34,028
I have to tell Eva the truth.

1188
01:12:35,763 --> 01:12:37,531
Are you sure?

1189
01:12:39,500 --> 01:12:40,866
- Baby.
- Hey.

1190
01:12:40,868 --> 01:12:43,437
Oh, hey, I'm so glad you came.

1191
01:12:44,973 --> 01:12:46,772
Can you believe
it's all happening?

1192
01:12:46,774 --> 01:12:48,542
- It's crazy.
- Right?

1193
01:12:50,111 --> 01:12:52,779
You doing okay? A little bit
better from earlier?

1194
01:12:52,781 --> 01:12:54,881
Yeah, I'm sorry about that,
I just...

1195
01:12:54,883 --> 01:12:56,547
I had the worst fucking day.

1196
01:12:56,549 --> 01:12:59,551
- But it's all gonna be...
- JT!

1197
01:12:59,553 --> 01:13:00,886
Sit down,
I'm gonna get you a drink.

1198
01:13:00,888 --> 01:13:03,555
Hey, nice to fucking
meet you in person.

1199
01:13:03,557 --> 01:13:06,925
- Yeah. Hey.
- Hey.

1200
01:13:06,927 --> 01:13:11,130
I am so excited
to be in your fucking movie.

1201
01:13:11,132 --> 01:13:12,999
He knows that already,
silly.

1202
01:13:13,001 --> 01:13:15,168
Uh, I've never
a... acted in anything,

1203
01:13:15,170 --> 01:13:17,536
and it's so cool.

1204
01:13:17,538 --> 01:13:19,473
You're doing a really good job.

1205
01:13:20,741 --> 01:13:25,243
- So is it, like, weird for you?
- What?

1206
01:13:25,245 --> 01:13:28,582
Like seeing your whole life
recreated and shit?

1207
01:13:30,818 --> 01:13:34,021
Uh, yeah, it's weird.

1208
01:13:38,926 --> 01:13:42,661
I... I've been working on
that song we were talkin' about.

1209
01:13:42,663 --> 01:13:44,296
Hmm, play it.

1210
01:13:50,037 --> 01:13:52,771
♪ I told you to tell me

1211
01:13:52,773 --> 01:13:55,307
♪ To sign on the dotted line

1212
01:13:55,309 --> 01:14:01,548
♪ Anytime I gotta sell
my soul for the... ♪♪

1213
01:14:04,151 --> 01:14:07,021
Did we settle on first
or second? I... I can't remember.

1214
01:14:12,893 --> 01:14:15,027
- First.
- Yeah.

1215
01:14:15,029 --> 01:14:16,727
You gotta get that
recorded, baby, you know,

1216
01:14:16,729 --> 01:14:18,163
so it's ready
for the soundtrack.

1217
01:14:18,165 --> 01:14:20,799
I... I'm gonna.

1218
01:14:20,801 --> 01:14:23,702
It's really cool that, uh,

1219
01:14:23,704 --> 01:14:26,705
Astor's got some stuff
for the soundtrack too.

1220
01:14:26,707 --> 01:14:28,040
Oh, my God, JT.

1221
01:14:28,042 --> 01:14:30,811
I really can't talk
about this again.

1222
01:14:38,918 --> 01:14:40,853
I'm sorry, babe.

1223
01:14:43,090 --> 01:14:45,689
I am thinkin' about it.

1224
01:14:45,691 --> 01:14:47,959
Okay.

1225
01:14:47,961 --> 01:14:49,895
Remember, babe,
that scene tomorrow

1226
01:14:49,897 --> 01:14:51,630
that I was talkin' about
earlier?

1227
01:14:51,632 --> 01:14:54,766
When you see Jeremiah
in the... in the basement?

1228
01:14:54,768 --> 01:14:56,368
You know, I know I was gonna
shoot it with the dolly,

1229
01:14:56,370 --> 01:14:57,668
remember I was telling you about
earlier?

1230
01:14:57,670 --> 01:14:59,036
But I feel like,

1231
01:14:59,038 --> 01:15:01,273
I feel like
I need to shoot it handheld...

1232
01:15:01,275 --> 01:15:03,175
You mind if I take a shower?
I've just been like

1233
01:15:03,177 --> 01:15:04,975
runnin' around all day.
I feel really dirty.

1234
01:15:04,977 --> 01:15:06,144
It's over there.

1235
01:15:06,146 --> 01:15:07,711
I think it'd be much cooler...

1236
01:15:42,783 --> 01:15:45,316
Hey.

1237
01:15:45,318 --> 01:15:47,718
- You're not helping.
- I'm helping you.

1238
01:15:47,720 --> 01:15:49,787
Stop! Stop it.

1239
01:15:49,789 --> 01:15:52,358
I'm tired, let's go.
Oh, my God.

1240
01:15:54,026 --> 01:15:57,728
Hey. It's so late, babe.
Just crash here.

1241
01:15:57,730 --> 01:16:01,866
This is actually super comfy.
Manson stayed on it last week.

1242
01:16:01,868 --> 01:16:04,169
We're gonna go to bed,
I'm so fucking tired.

1243
01:16:04,171 --> 01:16:06,438
- Night, JT.
- Goodnight.

1244
01:16:06,440 --> 01:16:08,174
- Goodnight.
- Hey.

1245
01:16:56,422 --> 01:16:59,923
She's not
really quitting, right?

1246
01:16:59,925 --> 01:17:02,059
I mean...

1247
01:17:02,061 --> 01:17:05,029
she'll come around, huh?

1248
01:17:05,031 --> 01:17:08,232
- We're a team.
- No, baby, no.

1249
01:17:08,234 --> 01:17:10,234
Look, I'm sorry, I gotta set
a boundary here, okay?

1250
01:17:10,236 --> 01:17:12,770
Either you stop...

1251
01:17:12,772 --> 01:17:14,271
or I'm out.

1252
01:17:14,273 --> 01:17:16,240
Hey.

1253
01:17:16,242 --> 01:17:18,945
You know what that means for me?

1254
01:17:30,323 --> 01:17:32,258
Okay, it's done.

1255
01:17:34,227 --> 01:17:36,227
Okay.

1256
01:17:36,229 --> 01:17:37,763
Okay.

1257
01:18:51,970 --> 01:18:53,537
- Mm-hmm?
- Mm-hmm.

1258
01:18:53,539 --> 01:18:55,638
Alright, look, I gotta jet.

1259
01:18:55,640 --> 01:18:57,540
I'll be back soon, okay?

1260
01:19:03,982 --> 01:19:07,216
Don't worry,
I'll get back to writin'.

1261
01:19:07,218 --> 01:19:09,520
No, trust me, you.

1262
01:19:09,522 --> 01:19:12,322
I can't really answer that, Dot.

1263
01:19:12,324 --> 01:19:15,158
They said don't exist, so...

1264
01:19:15,160 --> 01:19:18,429
I'm not even talkin' to you
right now, right?

1265
01:19:18,431 --> 01:19:21,197
When shit that's this bleak...

1266
01:19:21,199 --> 01:19:23,366
You have no idea
where I could go,

1267
01:19:23,368 --> 01:19:25,337
what I could do to myself.

1268
01:19:26,938 --> 01:19:29,207
You have no idea.

1269
01:19:33,411 --> 01:19:34,579
JT.

1270
01:19:36,047 --> 01:19:38,247
I...

1271
01:19:38,249 --> 01:19:40,350
I think you've got
the wrong person,

1272
01:19:40,352 --> 01:19:43,318
but I'll send your server over.

1273
01:19:43,320 --> 01:19:46,021
Okay.

1274
01:19:46,023 --> 01:19:48,493
<i>Jason, no, I don't...</i>

1275
01:19:50,628 --> 01:19:52,695
What?

1276
01:19:52,697 --> 01:19:55,367
Really? That's crazy.

1277
01:20:03,208 --> 01:20:07,143
Just trying to cut me
down, say I don't exist.

1278
01:20:07,145 --> 01:20:12,047
And I'm out there,
say I'm workin' in a restaurant

1279
01:20:12,049 --> 01:20:14,419
when I'm here talkin' to you...

1280
01:20:18,423 --> 01:20:20,723
Eva, why would you
for one second

1281
01:20:20,725 --> 01:20:22,992
listen to some dumb rumor?

1282
01:20:22,994 --> 01:20:25,395
Rumors have been circling me
for years.

1283
01:20:25,397 --> 01:20:28,131
I mean, come on,
you know my spirit,

1284
01:20:28,133 --> 01:20:30,133
my soul, my art.

1285
01:20:30,135 --> 01:20:32,134
We're creative partners.

1286
01:20:32,136 --> 01:20:34,069
You gotta trust me on this.

1287
01:20:34,071 --> 01:20:35,971
How can I pro...

1288
01:20:35,973 --> 01:20:37,507
The premiere...

1289
01:20:37,509 --> 01:20:39,675
Of course,
I wanna come, but...

1290
01:20:39,677 --> 01:20:42,246
you know how hard
travel is on me.

1291
01:20:43,748 --> 01:20:46,982
Yeah, okay, I get it, I get...

1292
01:20:46,984 --> 01:20:48,919
I... I'll go.

1293
01:20:50,188 --> 01:20:51,956
I'll be there.

1294
01:21:10,475 --> 01:21:12,943
- Everything okay?
- Yeah.

1295
01:21:20,083 --> 01:21:21,985
Was that Laura?

1296
01:21:25,589 --> 01:21:27,224
I can tell.

1297
01:21:29,426 --> 01:21:32,260
Eva's movie,
or JT's movie or whatever

1298
01:21:32,262 --> 01:21:34,331
got into
the Cannes Film Festival.

1299
01:21:37,602 --> 01:21:40,305
And they want JT to go.

1300
01:21:41,673 --> 01:21:43,738
Well, they're pretty
desperate...

1301
01:21:43,740 --> 01:21:48,043
for him to be there, like,
to promote the movie, and...

1302
01:21:48,045 --> 01:21:51,480
and they'd pay me,
like, $1000 a day.

1303
01:21:51,482 --> 01:21:54,416
And people are skeptical, too,
you know, especially Eva.

1304
01:21:54,418 --> 01:21:56,218
If JT doesn't go,
the whole thing will be over

1305
01:21:56,220 --> 01:21:58,386
for Laura, you know.

1306
01:21:58,388 --> 01:22:01,024
I know, but... so what?

1307
01:22:02,494 --> 01:22:04,794
Every time you come back
from being JT,

1308
01:22:04,796 --> 01:22:06,462
you're a mess.

1309
01:22:06,464 --> 01:22:08,763
I could use the money.
It's a lot of money.

1310
01:22:08,765 --> 01:22:11,133
Use a few more people
while you're at it?

1311
01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:17,741
That's a... really reductive,
simplified version of it.

1312
01:22:19,243 --> 01:22:21,211
We've talked about that.

1313
01:22:22,246 --> 01:22:23,712
Okay.

1314
01:22:23,714 --> 01:22:25,717
Let's get real for a second.

1315
01:22:29,152 --> 01:22:33,354
People respond to JT
because of who they think he is.

1316
01:22:33,356 --> 01:22:35,289
But what you guys are doing
is just like...

1317
01:22:35,291 --> 01:22:39,261
People get just as much
as they put into it.

1318
01:22:39,263 --> 01:22:41,663
It's like they use us,
we use them.

1319
01:22:41,665 --> 01:22:44,099
Everyone uses each other.
That's, like, how it is.

1320
01:22:44,101 --> 01:22:45,269
Oh, my God.

1321
01:22:46,803 --> 01:22:49,039
You've already decided,
haven't you?

1322
01:22:49,841 --> 01:22:52,541
It's one more time.

1323
01:22:52,543 --> 01:22:53,843
I mean, do you hear yourself
right now?

1324
01:22:53,845 --> 01:22:57,144
Just one more time again?
Like...

1325
01:22:57,146 --> 01:22:59,113
You sound like an addict.

1326
01:22:59,115 --> 01:23:01,550
Honestly, I'm...

1327
01:23:01,552 --> 01:23:03,351
missing something.

1328
01:23:03,353 --> 01:23:06,220
Like, I... I miss it.

1329
01:23:06,222 --> 01:23:08,124
Please. We both know
this is about Eva.

1330
01:23:11,595 --> 01:23:13,230
You miss her?

1331
01:23:15,299 --> 01:23:17,766
Do you wanna see her?

1332
01:23:17,768 --> 01:23:20,434
But that's not happenin', Sav.

1333
01:23:20,436 --> 01:23:22,336
I mean, it's crazy.

1334
01:23:22,338 --> 01:23:24,841
She's into who she thinks JT is,
not you.

1335
01:23:29,580 --> 01:23:31,615
I fucked her in Paris.

1336
01:23:34,284 --> 01:23:36,484
- What?
- I should've told you.

1337
01:23:36,486 --> 01:23:38,422
I... I'm sorry.

1338
01:23:45,896 --> 01:23:47,831
I always knew you had a crush.

1339
01:23:49,465 --> 01:23:51,300
I mean, it was fuckin' obvious.

1340
01:23:53,235 --> 01:23:56,372
But, of course, I... I didn't
think it really meant anything.

1341
01:23:57,808 --> 01:23:59,874
I mean, you know me.

1342
01:23:59,876 --> 01:24:01,509
Had you told me earlier,
I wouldn't have freaked out

1343
01:24:01,511 --> 01:24:03,547
but to lie about it?

1344
01:24:06,550 --> 01:24:08,349
Just think about what you want
and what you're doin'

1345
01:24:08,351 --> 01:24:10,186
and then we can talk.

1346
01:24:29,940 --> 01:24:33,440
♪ Like a tunnel
that you follow ♪

1347
01:24:33,442 --> 01:24:38,379
♪ To a tunnel of its own

1348
01:24:38,381 --> 01:24:41,715
♪ Down a hollow to a cavern

1349
01:24:41,717 --> 01:24:46,654
♪ Where the sun
has never shone ♪

1350
01:24:46,656 --> 01:24:50,457
♪ Like a door
that keeps revolving ♪

1351
01:24:50,459 --> 01:24:55,261
♪ In a half-forgotten dream

1352
01:24:55,263 --> 01:24:58,264
♪ Or the ripples from a pebble

1353
01:24:58,266 --> 01:25:03,337
♪ Someone tosses in a stream

1354
01:25:03,339 --> 01:25:06,874
♪ Like a clock
whose hands are sweeping ♪

1355
01:25:06,876 --> 01:25:11,846
♪ Past the minutes of its face

1356
01:25:11,848 --> 01:25:14,849
♪ And the world
is like an apple ♪

1357
01:25:19,922 --> 01:25:23,423
♪ Like the circles
that you find ♪

1358
01:25:23,425 --> 01:25:27,596
♪ In the windmills
of your mind ♪

1359
01:25:31,867 --> 01:25:34,935
♪ Keys that jingle
in your pocket ♪

1360
01:25:34,937 --> 01:25:39,506
♪ Words that jangle
in your head ♪

1361
01:25:39,508 --> 01:25:43,276
♪ Why did summer
go so quickly? ♪

1362
01:25:43,278 --> 01:25:47,580
♪ Was it something
that you said? ♪

1363
01:25:47,582 --> 01:25:50,751
♪ Lovers walk along the shore

1364
01:25:50,753 --> 01:25:55,689
♪ And leave their footprints
in the sand ♪

1365
01:25:55,691 --> 01:25:59,326
♪ Is the sound
of distant drumming ♪

1366
01:25:59,328 --> 01:26:03,931
♪ Just the fingers
of your hands? ♪

1367
01:26:03,933 --> 01:26:07,533
♪ Pictures hanging
in a hallway ♪

1368
01:26:07,535 --> 01:26:11,939
♪ And the fragment of a song

1369
01:26:11,941 --> 01:26:15,642
♪ Half-remembered names
and faces ♪

1370
01:26:15,644 --> 01:26:20,346
♪ But to whom do they belong?

1371
01:26:20,348 --> 01:26:23,817
♪ When you knew
that it was over ♪

1372
01:26:23,819 --> 01:26:28,455
♪ You were suddenly aware

1373
01:26:28,457 --> 01:26:32,358
♪ That the autumn leaves
were turning ♪

1374
01:26:32,360 --> 01:26:36,863
♪ To the color of his hair

1375
01:26:36,865 --> 01:26:39,833
♪ Like a circle in a spiral

1376
01:26:39,835 --> 01:26:42,770
♪ Like a wheel within a wheel

1377
01:26:42,772 --> 01:26:46,073
♪ Never ending or beginning

1378
01:26:46,075 --> 01:26:49,076
♪ On an ever-spinning reel

1379
01:26:49,078 --> 01:26:53,747
♪ As the images unwind

1380
01:26:53,749 --> 01:26:58,384
♪ Like the circles
that you find ♪

1381
01:26:58,386 --> 01:27:04,793
♪ In the windmills
of your mind ♪

1382
01:27:07,629 --> 01:27:12,099
♪ Like the circles
that you find ♪

1383
01:27:12,101 --> 01:27:15,702
♪ In the windmills of

1384
01:27:15,704 --> 01:27:17,403
Oy.

1385
01:27:17,405 --> 01:27:20,373
♪ Your mind ♪

1386
01:27:20,375 --> 01:27:22,975
- Oy.
- Hey, Eva. Hey.

1387
01:27:22,977 --> 01:27:25,812
They want the two
of you to introduce the film.

1388
01:27:25,814 --> 01:27:28,714
- No, no. Shh.
- Eva! Eva!

1389
01:27:28,716 --> 01:27:30,783
- No, no.
- What?

1390
01:27:30,785 --> 01:27:32,718
- Babyhead.
- Oh, my God.

1391
01:27:32,720 --> 01:27:34,687
What's... come here.

1392
01:27:34,689 --> 01:27:36,025
What's wrong?

1393
01:27:37,927 --> 01:27:40,393
I don't know
what I was thinking.

1394
01:27:40,395 --> 01:27:41,728
I really thought that

1395
01:27:41,730 --> 01:27:43,029
something could have worked out
between us.

1396
01:27:43,031 --> 01:27:45,698
I feel like a complete idiot.

1397
01:27:45,700 --> 01:27:48,901
Oh, don't blame yourself.

1398
01:27:48,903 --> 01:27:51,904
Okay? Oh, my God.

1399
01:27:51,906 --> 01:27:53,773
What? For going there?

1400
01:27:53,775 --> 01:27:56,578
If we never let ourselves
go there, we'll never grow.

1401
01:27:57,745 --> 01:28:00,013
So, you're stuck, right?

1402
01:28:00,015 --> 01:28:03,183
Some emotional vortex with her.

1403
01:28:03,185 --> 01:28:05,685
There's no way around that,
so you need to talk to her

1404
01:28:05,687 --> 01:28:09,121
about what happened
in Tennessee.

1405
01:28:09,123 --> 01:28:11,860
You're at an impasse,
my beautiful friend.

1406
01:28:13,761 --> 01:28:15,029
Okay?

1407
01:28:16,965 --> 01:28:19,532
It's like one of those sores
that scabs over

1408
01:28:19,534 --> 01:28:22,969
and all kinds of dirt
are underneath.

1409
01:28:22,971 --> 01:28:26,539
You just gotta go back in
and take that dirt out.

1410
01:28:26,541 --> 01:28:29,809
Talk to her and clean up
this mess, right?

1411
01:28:29,811 --> 01:28:31,843
Yeah.

1412
01:28:31,845 --> 01:28:34,849
Hey, I love you.

1413
01:28:37,018 --> 01:28:38,753
- Love you.
- Come on.

1414
01:28:43,224 --> 01:28:45,691
<i>You took a film
about truck stop hookers</i>

1415
01:28:45,693 --> 01:28:47,593
to the Cannes Film Festival.

1416
01:28:47,595 --> 01:28:49,795
People know you're only involved
if it's edgy,

1417
01:28:49,797 --> 01:28:51,898
if it's relevant, if it's real.

1418
01:28:51,900 --> 01:28:54,799
But more importantly,
JT is interested

1419
01:28:54,801 --> 01:28:57,836
in taking the problems
of the soul, the spirit,

1420
01:28:57,838 --> 01:29:00,772
and transforming them
into craft, you know.

1421
01:29:00,774 --> 01:29:03,910
Oh, my God,
he does it with his own designs!

1422
01:29:03,912 --> 01:29:05,577
You, uh, design?

1423
01:29:05,579 --> 01:29:07,914
Oh, he's, he's amazing.

1424
01:29:07,916 --> 01:29:09,617
So many...

1425
01:29:18,659 --> 01:29:21,728
I... I just wanna, um,
say something.

1426
01:29:29,137 --> 01:29:32,004
Just that in Tennessee,

1427
01:29:32,006 --> 01:29:34,941
I was feeling, um,

1428
01:29:34,943 --> 01:29:38,177
like, really hurt
'cause, you know,

1429
01:29:38,179 --> 01:29:42,214
that you were with, uh, Ben.

1430
01:29:42,216 --> 01:29:44,149
Not that
you s... shouldn't have been,

1431
01:29:44,151 --> 01:29:47,185
it's just, um...

1432
01:29:47,187 --> 01:29:50,822
I shouldn't have been there
and...

1433
01:29:50,824 --> 01:29:54,260
it was awkward and shitty, uh...

1434
01:29:54,262 --> 01:29:56,195
Really?

1435
01:29:56,197 --> 01:29:58,532
That's what
you wanna talk about, JT?

1436
01:30:02,036 --> 01:30:05,571
What did you expect?
Like, one drunk fuck

1437
01:30:05,573 --> 01:30:07,639
and I was gonna run off
into the sunset with you

1438
01:30:07,641 --> 01:30:10,610
and be in some sweet little
lesbian relationship?

1439
01:30:13,080 --> 01:30:15,515
I mean,
you wr... wrote all those...

1440
01:30:18,051 --> 01:30:20,221
e-mails, you know.

1441
01:30:23,857 --> 01:30:26,060
I guess you just wanted
the film rights.

1442
01:30:30,298 --> 01:30:32,766
I put my whole life
in this movie.

1443
01:30:34,901 --> 01:30:38,737
I made a movie that is based
on a true story, right?

1444
01:30:38,739 --> 01:30:40,707
I made this film for you.

1445
01:30:42,709 --> 01:30:44,243
I mean, you kind of made it
for yourself too...

1446
01:30:44,245 --> 01:30:47,246
You know, don't tell me
who I made this movie for!

1447
01:30:47,248 --> 01:30:48,813
Alright, and don't pretend
like you don't know

1448
01:30:48,815 --> 01:30:50,584
what I'm trying to talk about.

1449
01:30:52,186 --> 01:30:55,353
Do you know how many times
I had to defend you?

1450
01:30:55,355 --> 01:30:58,992
Like tell people,
"No, JT is actually real?"

1451
01:31:01,328 --> 01:31:04,631
If this whole thing turns out
to be bullshit...

1452
01:31:11,038 --> 01:31:14,208
I'm gonna be devastated, JT,
okay?

1453
01:31:16,377 --> 01:31:19,110
You gotta tell me.

1454
01:31:19,112 --> 01:31:21,982
Please tell me
that your story is real.

1455
01:31:23,616 --> 01:31:25,919
Tell me that you wrote
these books...

1456
01:31:27,653 --> 01:31:29,923
and that you are
who you say you are.

1457
01:31:41,235 --> 01:31:42,802
Eva...

1458
01:31:50,643 --> 01:31:53,013
I mean, JT's whoever
you want him to be.

1459
01:31:59,786 --> 01:32:01,088
Oh, my God.

1460
01:32:35,321 --> 01:32:38,021
<i>I feel like
we're salmon</i>

1461
01:32:38,023 --> 01:32:40,791
<i>returning to our ocean home.</i>

1462
01:32:40,793 --> 01:32:43,261
<i>And w... we're finally leavin'
the chrysalis</i>

1463
01:32:43,263 --> 01:32:48,166
<i>to become the monarch
butterflies of our own selves.</i>

1464
01:32:48,168 --> 01:32:51,269
<i>I feel like I've arrived.</i>

1465
01:32:51,271 --> 01:32:55,472
<i>Like I finally found
my true self.</i>

1466
01:33:01,013 --> 01:33:03,847
<i>Laura, this is John
Bradwell from "The Guardian."</i>

1467
01:33:03,849 --> 01:33:05,849
<i>I'm running a piece about JT.</i>

1468
01:33:05,851 --> 01:33:08,886
<i>In particular, about the photo
I found online of Savannah.</i>

1469
01:33:08,888 --> 01:33:12,190
It looks strikingly
like Mr. LeRoy.

1470
01:33:12,192 --> 01:33:15,126
It'd really be in your best
interest to return my call.

1471
01:33:15,128 --> 01:33:17,495
Fuck.

1472
01:33:17,497 --> 01:33:19,496
<i>Geoff, Bradwell
with "The Guardian"</i>

1473
01:33:19,498 --> 01:33:21,231
<i>calling again
to confirm that Savannah...</i>

1474
01:33:21,233 --> 01:33:24,201
Yeah, yeah, uh, Savannah,
uh, my sister,

1475
01:33:24,203 --> 01:33:28,038
was... was the body
of... of JT LeRoy, yeah.

1476
01:33:28,040 --> 01:33:30,340
But... but Laura was...
Laura was the voice.

1477
01:33:30,342 --> 01:33:31,975
She... she did all the writing.

1478
01:33:31,977 --> 01:33:34,978
Savannah,
Bradwell calling again.

1479
01:33:34,980 --> 01:33:37,315
Listen, I know for a fact
that you're JT,

1480
01:33:37,317 --> 01:33:39,117
so at this point
you should really

1481
01:33:39,119 --> 01:33:41,919
just make a statement
before my story runs.

1482
01:33:45,457 --> 01:33:48,025
This may sound crazy,
but the whole thing was never

1483
01:33:48,027 --> 01:33:50,160
a... a big scheme.
Never at all.

1484
01:33:50,162 --> 01:33:52,329
I mean, it was just...

1485
01:33:52,331 --> 01:33:53,830
I don't know.
It just got out of hand.

1486
01:33:53,832 --> 01:33:55,167
It snowballed, I guess.

1487
01:34:04,244 --> 01:34:06,976
What the fuck?

1488
01:34:06,978 --> 01:34:10,480
I guess we betrayed some people,
sure.

1489
01:34:17,456 --> 01:34:19,856
Baby, did you get followed?

1490
01:34:19,858 --> 01:34:21,525
I don't know.
I don't think so.

1491
01:34:21,527 --> 01:34:24,061
Oh, fuck.

1492
01:34:24,063 --> 01:34:25,898
This is a fucking witch hunt.

1493
01:34:27,266 --> 01:34:28,966
Do you... you want a tea?

1494
01:34:28,968 --> 01:34:30,900
Or I can... I can make you eggs
or something.

1495
01:34:30,902 --> 01:34:33,004
No, I... I can't eat anything.
I'm okay.

1496
01:34:34,473 --> 01:34:36,373
Oh, my God.

1497
01:34:36,375 --> 01:34:38,110
Babe.

1498
01:34:43,815 --> 01:34:46,218
They know who I am now.

1499
01:34:51,924 --> 01:34:53,993
I'm so ashamed.

1500
01:34:58,597 --> 01:35:01,032
I just wanna fucking disappear.

1501
01:35:05,571 --> 01:35:07,106
How are you holding up?

1502
01:35:09,041 --> 01:35:12,478
I mean, I figured I'd feel
some kind of relief...

1503
01:35:15,281 --> 01:35:17,281
but I'm kind of at a loss.

1504
01:35:17,283 --> 01:35:18,816
I just, like...

1505
01:35:20,852 --> 01:35:22,954
- At a loss.
- Yeah.

1506
01:35:26,057 --> 01:35:27,393
Babyhead...

1507
01:35:29,395 --> 01:35:32,928
it's the fucking
end of the book.

1508
01:35:32,930 --> 01:35:36,166
It's like the end of "Sarah."

1509
01:35:36,168 --> 01:35:39,903
JT's like running naked
through the woods.

1510
01:35:39,905 --> 01:35:41,307
They have pitchforks.

1511
01:35:42,907 --> 01:35:44,575
They're fucking after him.

1512
01:35:46,210 --> 01:35:48,179
Mad 'cause he's actually a boy.

1513
01:35:52,283 --> 01:35:54,252
You could have written
a different ending.

1514
01:35:57,323 --> 01:35:59,224
Had to be that ending.

1515
01:36:06,564 --> 01:36:08,832
It's a great fuckin' ending.

1516
01:36:20,411 --> 01:36:23,114
<i>They think
that the work is fraudulent.</i>

1517
01:36:26,084 --> 01:36:29,319
You know, this ain't a hoax,
this ain't fraud.

1518
01:36:29,321 --> 01:36:31,389
The books are real.

1519
01:36:35,193 --> 01:36:36,527
Hello?

1520
01:36:39,263 --> 01:36:40,965
Hello?

1521
01:37:19,637 --> 01:37:22,471
Without further ado,
let's give a warm welcome

1522
01:37:22,473 --> 01:37:24,707
to Laura Albert.

1523
01:37:44,094 --> 01:37:45,630
Tom Waits...

1524
01:37:47,197 --> 01:37:50,064
wanted to do an interview

1525
01:37:50,066 --> 01:37:52,470
with JT LeRoy for "Vanity Fair."

1526
01:37:53,704 --> 01:37:56,006
JT declined...

1527
01:37:58,109 --> 01:38:00,978
because he was notoriously shy.

1528
01:38:05,750 --> 01:38:09,184
One of the reasons JT...

1529
01:38:09,186 --> 01:38:12,120
was so shy...

1530
01:38:12,122 --> 01:38:14,958
is JT didn't have a body.

1531
01:38:17,127 --> 01:38:19,330
JT was an avatar.

1532
01:38:21,299 --> 01:38:24,433
We are given this persona,

1533
01:38:24,435 --> 01:38:27,470
and then we are given this body,

1534
01:38:27,472 --> 01:38:30,307
and there's no promise
from whomever made us...

1535
01:38:31,508 --> 01:38:33,477
that the two will be in sync.

1536
01:38:35,145 --> 01:38:38,982
A... and hey, I say
we can be in the misery...

1537
01:38:40,651 --> 01:38:43,253
of trying to get them
to match up...

1538
01:38:45,322 --> 01:38:47,558
or we can create our own world.

1539
01:38:50,495 --> 01:38:53,128
Let me take you back.

1540
01:38:53,130 --> 01:38:55,396
I was in a group home,

1541
01:38:55,398 --> 01:38:57,499
I'm in my pain,

1542
01:38:57,501 --> 01:39:00,168
and there's pain all around.

1543
01:39:00,170 --> 01:39:04,341
And I'm... I'm looking
for the tools...

1544
01:39:06,343 --> 01:39:09,745
for other people
to feel that pain,

1545
01:39:09,747 --> 01:39:11,348
to understand it.

1546
01:39:12,850 --> 01:39:17,118
And I can't be in this body,
you know.

1547
01:39:17,120 --> 01:39:19,554
Because my biggest fear is

1548
01:39:19,556 --> 01:39:22,057
if I tell you my pain...

1549
01:39:23,527 --> 01:39:25,827
you'll say, "You deserved it."

1550
01:39:25,829 --> 01:39:28,296
"You're disgusting."

1551
01:39:28,298 --> 01:39:31,599
"You're horrible."

1552
01:39:31,601 --> 01:39:36,504
And I'm seeing
these blond blue-eyed boys

1553
01:39:36,506 --> 01:39:39,242
on after-school specials,
and I'm like...

1554
01:39:41,311 --> 01:39:43,345
I gotta find another body.

1555
01:39:46,516 --> 01:39:49,286
So I start calling
suicide hotlines...

1556
01:39:50,887 --> 01:39:52,689
and I meet JT.

1557
01:39:54,791 --> 01:39:57,327
I was as surprised
as everyone else...

1558
01:39:59,864 --> 01:40:01,832
what JT wrote.

1559
01:40:04,267 --> 01:40:06,201
Then I was sad...

1560
01:40:07,871 --> 01:40:11,739
'cause I couldn't give JT

1561
01:40:11,741 --> 01:40:13,810
the body he wanted...

1562
01:40:16,913 --> 01:40:19,382
the body he deserved.

1563
01:40:23,653 --> 01:40:27,557
And he found that in Savannah.

1564
01:40:32,929 --> 01:40:36,363
- Um, but to be back is...
- Oh, I know.

1565
01:40:36,365 --> 01:40:38,398
- Meta.
- It's incredible.

1566
01:40:38,400 --> 01:40:39,767
- What's your name?
- Mikayla.

1567
01:40:39,769 --> 01:40:42,670
- Mikayla. Pleasure.
- Thank you.

1568
01:40:42,672 --> 01:40:45,107
- Really.
- Hey.

1569
01:40:46,643 --> 01:40:48,910
Babyhead, get in here.

1570
01:40:48,912 --> 01:40:51,913
It's been a long time.

1571
01:40:51,915 --> 01:40:53,648
I'm... I'm really glad
that I came.

1572
01:40:53,650 --> 01:40:55,315
I'm really glad you did too.

1573
01:40:55,317 --> 01:40:56,750
- What's your name?
- Uh, D.J.

1574
01:40:56,752 --> 01:40:59,421
- D.J., thanks for coming.
- Thank you so much.

1575
01:41:00,656 --> 01:41:02,690
- How's Geoff?
- He's good.

1576
01:41:02,692 --> 01:41:06,494
You know, he's being Geoff.
Making music.

1577
01:41:06,496 --> 01:41:07,862
I like what you said
earlier too.

1578
01:41:07,864 --> 01:41:10,898
Thank you for connecting
to "Sarah" like that.

1579
01:41:10,900 --> 01:41:12,400
- It's really beautiful.
- Oh!

1580
01:41:12,402 --> 01:41:14,469
C... can we just
get a picture of you guys?

1581
01:41:14,471 --> 01:41:16,873
- Sure. Um, yeah.
- Yeah, sure.

1582
01:41:17,907 --> 01:41:19,640
Wow.

1583
01:41:19,642 --> 01:41:21,143
Here we are.

1584
01:41:23,646 --> 01:41:26,647
Well, I also came
to say goodbye.

1585
01:41:26,649 --> 01:41:29,984
Um, I'm gonna move to New York.
I'm excited.

1586
01:41:29,986 --> 01:41:33,888
Wow, I guess.
That's a big one for you.

1587
01:41:33,890 --> 01:41:35,859
- What's your name?
- Uh, Thomas.

1588
01:41:42,264 --> 01:41:44,965
Congratulations.

1589
01:41:44,967 --> 01:41:46,933
And you know, maybe I'll see you
out in the world.

1590
01:41:46,935 --> 01:41:49,569
We're playin' in the fields
of the Lord.

1591
01:41:49,571 --> 01:41:51,373
- What's your name?
- Alex.

1592
01:41:56,512 --> 01:41:58,913
Hey S... Sav.

1593
01:41:58,915 --> 01:42:02,984
I heard you were, uh, writing.

1594
01:42:02,986 --> 01:42:05,520
Yeah.

1595
01:42:05,522 --> 01:42:07,454
Just remember,
just 'cause you played a writer

1596
01:42:07,456 --> 01:42:09,458
doesn't mean you are one.

1597
01:42:15,864 --> 01:42:17,366
Good luck.

1598
01:42:19,635 --> 01:42:21,270
Thank you.

1599
01:42:22,638 --> 01:42:24,371
- What's your name?
- Eva.

1600
01:42:24,373 --> 01:42:25,875
Eva...

1601
01:42:36,518 --> 01:42:39,786
♪ Oh make me over

1602
01:42:39,788 --> 01:42:43,557
♪ I'm all I wanna be

1603
01:42:43,559 --> 01:42:47,427
♪ A walking study

1604
01:42:47,429 --> 01:42:48,795
♪ In demonology

1605
01:42:48,797 --> 01:42:52,432
♪ Hey so glad
you could make it ♪

1606
01:42:52,434 --> 01:42:55,769
♪ Yeah now you really made it

1607
01:42:55,771 --> 01:43:02,711
♪ Hey so glad
you could make it now ♪

1608
01:43:05,047 --> 01:43:08,515
♪ Oh look at my face

1609
01:43:08,517 --> 01:43:11,985
♪ My name is might have been

1610
01:43:11,987 --> 01:43:15,789
♪ My name is never was

1611
01:43:15,791 --> 01:43:17,457
♪ My name's forgotten

1612
01:43:17,459 --> 01:43:20,994
♪ Hey so glad
you could make it ♪

1613
01:43:20,996 --> 01:43:24,631
♪ Yeah now you really made it

1614
01:43:24,633 --> 01:43:30,038
♪ Hey there's only us left now

1615
01:43:31,840 --> 01:43:35,509
♪ When I wake up in my makeup

1616
01:43:35,511 --> 01:43:39,045
♪ It's too early
for that dress ♪

1617
01:43:39,047 --> 01:43:42,815
♪ Wilted and faded
somewhere in Hollywood ♪

1618
01:43:42,817 --> 01:43:46,485
♪ I'm glad I came here
with your pound of flesh ♪

1619
01:43:46,487 --> 01:43:49,923
♪ No second billing
'cause you're a star now ♪

1620
01:43:49,925 --> 01:43:53,693
♪ Oh Cinderella
they aren't sluts like you ♪

1621
01:43:53,695 --> 01:43:57,396
♪ Beautiful garbage
beautiful dresses ♪

1622
01:43:57,398 --> 01:44:02,536
♪ Can you stand up
or will you just fall down? ♪

1623
01:44:02,538 --> 01:44:05,871
♪ You better watch out

1624
01:44:05,873 --> 01:44:09,542
♪ Of what you wish for

1625
01:44:09,544 --> 01:44:12,878
♪ It better be worth it

1626
01:44:12,880 --> 01:44:14,647
♪ So much to die for

1627
01:44:14,649 --> 01:44:18,118
♪ Hey so glad
you could make it ♪

1628
01:44:18,120 --> 01:44:21,788
♪ Yeah now you really made it

1629
01:44:21,790 --> 01:44:27,563
♪ Hey there's only us left now

1630
01:44:29,131 --> 01:44:32,798
♪ When I wake up in my makeup

1631
01:44:32,800 --> 01:44:36,435
♪ Have you ever felt
so used up as this? ♪

1632
01:44:36,437 --> 01:44:38,171
♪ It's all so sugarless

1633
01:44:38,173 --> 01:44:41,507
♪ Hooker waitress
model actress ♪

1634
01:44:41,509 --> 01:44:43,642
♪ Oh just go nameless

1635
01:44:43,644 --> 01:44:47,047
♪ Honeysuckle
she's full of poison ♪

1636
01:44:47,049 --> 01:44:50,784
♪ She obliterated
everything she kissed ♪

1637
01:44:50,786 --> 01:44:54,153
♪ Now she's fading
somewhere in Hollywood ♪

1638
01:44:54,155 --> 01:44:59,491
♪ I'm glad I came here
with your pound of flesh ♪

1639
01:44:59,493 --> 01:45:02,795
♪ You want a part of me

1640
01:45:02,797 --> 01:45:06,599
♪ Well I'm not selling cheap

1641
01:45:06,601 --> 01:45:09,037
♪ No I'm not selling cheap ♪

1642
01:45:41,936 --> 01:45:44,904
♪ If I could be

1643
01:45:44,906 --> 01:45:48,807
♪ What you wanted

1644
01:45:48,809 --> 01:45:54,046
♪ Then how can I be honest?

1645
01:45:54,048 --> 01:45:57,116
♪ If I could breathe

1646
01:45:57,118 --> 01:46:00,953
♪ Like you wanted

1647
01:46:00,955 --> 01:46:07,128
♪ I'd be here but in my skin

1648
01:46:08,728 --> 01:46:12,664
♪ An open promise
that was made ♪

1649
01:46:12,666 --> 01:46:16,802
♪ If life was given to a name

1650
01:46:16,804 --> 01:46:21,807
♪ And your body for this heart
forever changed ♪

1651
01:46:21,809 --> 01:46:24,944
♪ What's life but a game

1652
01:46:24,946 --> 01:46:28,981
♪ To see for the hearts
we take ♪

1653
01:46:28,983 --> 01:46:31,216
♪ And make

1654
01:46:31,218 --> 01:46:34,086
♪ If I could be

1655
01:46:34,088 --> 01:46:38,090
♪ What you wanted

1656
01:46:38,092 --> 01:46:43,528
♪ Then how can I be honest?

1657
01:46:43,530 --> 01:46:46,531
♪ If I could breathe

1658
01:46:46,533 --> 01:46:50,269
♪ Like you wanted

1659
01:46:50,271 --> 01:46:56,643
♪ I'll be here but in my skin

1660
01:47:28,641 --> 01:47:32,643
♪ Spoken word
can break the way ♪

1661
01:47:32,645 --> 01:47:36,714
♪ We hear the words
fall from a page ♪

1662
01:47:36,716 --> 01:47:41,886
♪ 'Cause there's mysteries
of fortune and fame ♪

1663
01:47:41,888 --> 01:47:44,889
♪ What's love but a name

1664
01:47:44,891 --> 01:47:48,793
♪ Tainted by the promises

1665
01:47:48,795 --> 01:47:51,129
♪ We break

1666
01:47:51,131 --> 01:47:54,266
♪ If I could be

1667
01:47:54,268 --> 01:47:58,036
♪ What you wanted

1668
01:47:58,038 --> 01:48:03,375
♪ Then how can I be honest?

1669
01:48:03,377 --> 01:48:06,710
♪ If I could breathe

1670
01:48:06,712 --> 01:48:10,214
♪ Like you wanted

1671
01:48:10,216 --> 01:48:16,256
♪ I'll be here but in my skin

1672
01:48:21,027 --> 01:48:26,733
♪ Who could ever take
this name ♪

1673
01:48:29,036 --> 01:48:34,174
♪ The lies we make ♪

1674
01:48:34,176 --> 01:48:39,176
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