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Subtitles by explosiveskull
Sync by GoldenBeard

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[solemn instrumental
music playing]

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[water trickling]

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[birds chirping]

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[choral group singing]
♪ Earth stood hard as iron ♪

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♪ Water like a stone ♪

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♪ Snow had fallen ♪

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♪ Snow on snow ♪

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♪ Snow on snow ♪

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[whispering]
Stand up straight.

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Meant to be quiet.

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[choral group continues]
♪ In the bleak midwinter ♪

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- Liam! Liam!
- Ba-a-a!

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♪ Long, long ago ♪

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- Ba-a-a!
- Sh-sh-sh!

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- Hi!
- What are you doing?

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Ba-a-a!

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Ba-a-a!

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♪ Heaven cannot hold Him ♪

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♪ Nor earth sustain ♪

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[teacher] OK, everyone
into your position.

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I'm missing a sheep
and an angel.

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Has anyone...

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[teacher]
Oh, there you are.

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Liam, Lacey.

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Do you wanna
come join us?

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[Lacey]
Not really.

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[teacher]
But we need you.

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[whispering]
What?

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Do you know how we come
to church once a year?

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- Do you wanna come every Sunday?
- [both kids] No!

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Sh-sh-sh! OK.

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We have to make
tonight count.

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- Go make me proud.
- [Liam] OK.

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[dog barks]

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[dog barks]

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[keys rattling]

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[dog barking]

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[dog barks]

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[Ivy singing]
♪ The holly and the ivy ♪

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♪ When they are
both full grown ♪

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[Liam] Quiet!

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♪ Of all the trees that
are in the wood ♪

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- [Holly] Come on, where's your Christmas spirit, Liam?
- Quiet!

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[Ivy singing]
♪ The rising of the sun ♪

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[Liam]
Quiet!

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♪ And the running
of the deer ♪

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[birds cawing]

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- [kids shouting over each other]
- Hey, you guys. You guys.

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Good kids...

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get better gifts.

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[kids laugh]

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Wait a minute.
You did not just do that.

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I did. You noticed
that, didn't you?

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- I did it because it works.
- That's not fair.

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- It worked on you for years.
- You didn't do it to me.

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- Always, always.
- [kids chattering]

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Look, we're home!

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[Liam and Lacey cheering]

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[Lacey]
What?

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[Ivy] What the...

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[birds chirping]

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Oh, my God.

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[keys rattling
and dropping]

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Mom. Mom.
No. Don't!

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Oh, my God.
I can't believe it.

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[Ben] Hi, Mom.

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Oh, let me see you.
Is it you?

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- [Ben laughing]
- [Lacey] Is that Ben?

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Come on. Look.

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- [Liam] It's Ben.
- [Lacey] Yeah, it is Ben.

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[Lacey] Take hold of my hand.
Come on. Hurry!

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Oh, my God.
I was just...

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I was truly just wondering.

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Just wondering what if.

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[Liam] Ben!

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Don't let go.

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[kids cheering]

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[phone ringing]

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So, my roommate,
Timmy, has two years,

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and is, like,
a recovery rockstar.

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[Ben] And he offers me
a free ride.

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And I was like,
"Yeah, I'm down."

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But I'm thinkin', there's no way
my sponsor's gonna go for this.

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But he did?

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But he did because
that's how good I'm doing.

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Wow, honey.

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[Ben] So, Timmy's mom and dad and
his little brother pick us up.

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I'm squeezed in the middle.

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They're very Christian.

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They're all super healthy.

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They don't even
drink caffeine.

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[dog barking]

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[Holly]
Great.

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Mom, Ben is feeding Ponce.

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[Ben]
Oh, yeah. Guilty.

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[Ivy]
Bread is bad for his teeth.

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I think a little
bit is OK, honey.

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[Holly]
OK. Go on.

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OK, so we're, like,
10 minutes into the ride,

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and suddenly
there's this smell

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that just hangs there.

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And it's a...

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[Ben] And just when
it starts to clear,

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another cloud of... of
stink is unleashed.

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- Wait, it's human?
- [Ben] Mm-hmm.

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- Oh, my God.
- It was the silent but deadly kind.

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[Holly]
Oh, my God.

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That's the worst kind.

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This is great.
So great.

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You know, Ponce,

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all of us in
the kitchen.

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You happy.

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Zip me, please.

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[Holly]
Oh, you got one on.

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Good job. OK.

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Leave these on.

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- OK? All right.
- [Liam] Bye!

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- Be smart.
- [Liam] Bye!

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[Holly]
All right.

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- Then what happened?
- [Ben] OK, so,

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we're trapped in the back and
the farts just keep on coming.

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[security system]
Front door.

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And so, I'm thinking, surely
someone is gonna say sorry.

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- Or excuse me...
- Excuse me. Yes.

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Or, like, maybe
crack a window.

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But, no, they act like
nothing is wrong.

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Oh, my God.

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So, I just said,

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"You know, you can
let me out here."

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[Ivy]
Mom?

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It's not that funny.

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But it is.

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So, I just hiked the
rest of the way home.

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You didn't!

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[bang on window
and Holly screams]

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[kids cheering]

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Oh, they did it again. Ugh.

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- [Holly] Rascals.
- All right. You're gonna regret this.

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Oh, go get 'em.

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[Holly]
The big brother.

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[Ben, outside]
Aah!

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[Ben and the kids
shouting outside]

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[Ben grunting]

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[Ben grunting]

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[kids screaming]

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[Ivy]
Mom? Mom?

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Did you see? He's gained
some weight and...

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he's got the sparkle
back in his eyes.

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He's clearly doing better.

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Then why are you
hiding everything?

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[Holly]
You know why.

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[Ivy]
Sad. Having to hide.

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Well, I would do
the same for you.

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But you'll never have to.

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Sweetie, I've got a very
good feeling about this.

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Well, I don't.

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Listen. This time will
be different. You'll see.

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It will.

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[Ivy] Mom?

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Why is he here anyway?

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Weren't we supposed to
go visit him tomorrow?

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[security alarm ringing]

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OK, you need to
go watch him.

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No.

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No, he'll think
I'm spying.

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No, then just, uh, film
him on your phone then.

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Hmm?

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Are you serious?

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Yes, Ivy.

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Now.

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[kids playing with Ben]

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- [Ben] Yeah?
- [Liam] I want hot chocolate.

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[kids chattering]

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[kids shouting]

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[Ben roaring]

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[dog barking]

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[Lacey]
Go, go, go!

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[kids laughing]

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What are you doing?

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[Ivy] I'm making a video
of holiday highlights.

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[kids screaming and laughing]

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- [Liam] Run!
- [Lacey] No, hurry!

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[pills rattling]

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- [dog barking]
- [Liam] Hurry, hurry!

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[Lacey screaming inaudibly]

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[dog barking]

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[dog barking]

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[Lacey]
Come here, boy!

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[Lacey]
Come on, Ponce!

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[inaudible shouting]

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[Liam] Let's go!

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[kids screaming]

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[indistinct kid's chatter]

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[Lacey]
Don't do that.

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[Lacey]
No...

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[squeaking toy]

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[singing]
♪ When Ben was ten ♪

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♪ Lacy was a baby ♪

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♪ When Ben was ten ♪

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♪ Liam was a maybe ♪

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[Liam]
What about Ivy?

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[kids' laughter]

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♪ And now we're all here ♪

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♪ So let's go crazy ♪

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♪ Let's go crazy! ♪

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♪ Who's gonna help me today? ♪

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[Holly]
Neal?

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♪ We're going crazy ♪

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I got it under control.

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[Neal] Ivy called, texted.
Why didn't you?

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♪ Let's go crazy ♪

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♪ Let's go crazy! ♪

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Hey, Neal.

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Hey, Ben.

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How about 15 extra minutes of
screen time starting right now?

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[Lacey and Liam]
Yay!

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[Lacey]
We better hurry up!

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I'm... I'm confused.

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I thought we had
an understanding.

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The therapists.

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The doctors.

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Everyone, even... even
you, agreed that it's in

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your best interest

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not to be home yet.

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I know.

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There's too many
triggers for you here.

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That was months ago.

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And, and, and
your sponsor said...

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Please, let... let Ben
tell me, please.

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Please, honey.

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[Ben]
OK, I know...

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I know I really fucked up
last Christmas.

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[Ivy]
And the one before that.

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It's true.

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[Ben] Yeah, I know I've made
a lot of mistakes.

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But...

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Now, since I'm doing so good,

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and... and with all the support
I'm getting and...

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w-with my sponsor?

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I honestly didn't
think I'd ever...

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feel this good again.

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[birds chirping]

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What? You don't believe me?

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Sweetie, we do.

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Which is why she hid all
the meds and the jewelry.

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I was just removing
the temptation.

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Wow. Fuck. You're all
still scared of me.

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[Ben] Which is the last thing
I wanna make any of you feel.

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You should just... you
should take me back.

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Mom, take me back.

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[security system]
Front door.

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[door slams]

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- [Ivy] Mom?
- [Neal] You should have known better.

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Don't blame him.

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It's my fault.

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When he called and asked
what I wanted for Christmas,

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I shouldn't have
said him home.

259
00:12:00,287 --> 00:12:01,453
[Neal]
That's what you said?

260
00:12:01,455 --> 00:12:03,322
I wanted him to know
I missed him.

261
00:12:03,324 --> 00:12:05,624
I didn't... I never
dreamed he would just...

262
00:12:05,626 --> 00:12:07,559
show up.

263
00:12:07,561 --> 00:12:08,660
Is he in the car?

264
00:12:08,662 --> 00:12:10,663
Yup.

265
00:12:10,665 --> 00:12:12,564
It's not like he
came home to stay.

266
00:12:12,566 --> 00:12:15,134
Obviously, that can't
happen right now.

267
00:12:15,136 --> 00:12:16,534
It wouldn't be
good for him.

268
00:12:16,536 --> 00:12:17,669
He needs to go back.

269
00:12:17,671 --> 00:12:19,270
I agree.

270
00:12:19,272 --> 00:12:20,539
And if it weren't Christmas...

271
00:12:20,541 --> 00:12:22,540
It's the right
thing, honey.

272
00:12:22,542 --> 00:12:23,442
It is, Mom.

273
00:12:23,444 --> 00:12:25,211
We hope. We don't know.

274
00:12:25,213 --> 00:12:26,645
I mean, honestly...

275
00:12:26,647 --> 00:12:29,280
I'm so goddamn angry at
the two of you right now.

276
00:12:29,282 --> 00:12:30,281
[Holly] I am.

277
00:12:30,283 --> 00:12:31,384
What did I do?

278
00:12:31,386 --> 00:12:33,151
[Holly]
You gave up on him.

279
00:12:33,153 --> 00:12:34,252
You both have.

280
00:12:34,254 --> 00:12:36,322
[Neal]
This is not giving up.

281
00:12:36,324 --> 00:12:38,624
- [Holly] It is.
- It's... no, it... it's giving a shit,

282
00:12:38,626 --> 00:12:41,226
which we do, about
what's best for him.

283
00:12:41,228 --> 00:12:42,395
[Neal]
And for you.

284
00:12:42,397 --> 00:12:44,063
You have a problem
with him, Neal.

285
00:12:44,065 --> 00:12:46,365
No, I'm rooting for him,
but I'm frustrated.

286
00:12:46,367 --> 00:12:48,067
He's lucky,
and we're...

287
00:12:48,069 --> 00:12:49,568
- We're playing loose with it.
- [Holly] OK, Neal.

288
00:12:49,570 --> 00:12:51,770
If he were black,
he would be in jail by now.

289
00:12:51,772 --> 00:12:53,338
Maybe this isn't the time.

290
00:12:53,340 --> 00:12:55,408
We said we weren't
going to do this again.

291
00:12:55,410 --> 00:12:57,112
[Neal]
Remember?

292
00:12:58,613 --> 00:13:00,614
[clearing throat]
I remember.

293
00:13:03,350 --> 00:13:05,519
[Holly scribbling on paper]

294
00:13:06,621 --> 00:13:08,123
[Neal] Holly?

295
00:13:09,056 --> 00:13:10,188
Here's the list.

296
00:13:10,190 --> 00:13:11,524
I don't care
who gets what.

297
00:13:11,526 --> 00:13:12,424
Just get it done.

298
00:13:12,426 --> 00:13:14,195
[slaps paper]
Yeah.

299
00:13:26,406 --> 00:13:28,343
[drops keys]
God, damn it!

300
00:13:29,276 --> 00:13:31,345
[Holly]
God, damn it!

301
00:13:32,680 --> 00:13:34,215
We're all set.

302
00:13:45,425 --> 00:13:46,458
It's okay, Mom.

303
00:13:46,460 --> 00:13:48,162
It's for the best.

304
00:13:50,831 --> 00:13:52,500
Seat belt, please.

305
00:14:05,146 --> 00:14:06,578
Mom.

306
00:14:06,580 --> 00:14:08,246
Mom!

307
00:14:08,248 --> 00:14:09,450
[Holly sighs]

308
00:14:15,223 --> 00:14:16,491
What?

309
00:14:18,225 --> 00:14:20,425
I'm thinking.

310
00:14:20,427 --> 00:14:22,763
[Holly and Neal
chatting indistinctly]

311
00:14:32,205 --> 00:14:34,375
All right. Come on.

312
00:14:45,485 --> 00:14:46,818
OK.

313
00:14:46,820 --> 00:14:49,922
Here's the deal, and
it is not negotiable.

314
00:14:49,924 --> 00:14:51,493
You get a day.

315
00:14:52,325 --> 00:14:53,893
Are you sure?

316
00:14:53,895 --> 00:14:56,327
So long as you pass the drug
test I'm about to administer.

317
00:14:56,329 --> 00:14:57,829
Stay clean while you're here,

318
00:14:57,831 --> 00:15:00,298
and that this time tomorrow
you are back in Sober Living.

319
00:15:00,300 --> 00:15:01,467
Yeah, OK.

320
00:15:01,469 --> 00:15:02,735
[Holly]
Now, I'm not done.

321
00:15:02,737 --> 00:15:03,803
These are our terms,

322
00:15:03,805 --> 00:15:06,371
and I don't give a shit
if you hate these rules.

323
00:15:06,373 --> 00:15:08,774
You do not leave
my sight ever.

324
00:15:08,776 --> 00:15:11,242
[Holly] You do not close
the door to your room,

325
00:15:11,244 --> 00:15:13,412
where, by the way, I will
be sleeping on the floor,

326
00:15:13,414 --> 00:15:14,646
and if you try
to sneak off,

327
00:15:14,648 --> 00:15:16,381
if your bed so much
as make squeak,

328
00:15:16,383 --> 00:15:18,284
I will be all over you

329
00:15:18,286 --> 00:15:22,556
because, for the next 24 hours,
you are mine. All mine. Got it?

330
00:15:23,357 --> 00:15:24,659
I got it.

331
00:15:25,660 --> 00:15:26,592
Good.

332
00:15:26,594 --> 00:15:28,296
Let's get you tested.

333
00:15:35,670 --> 00:15:37,269
Mom.

334
00:15:37,271 --> 00:15:39,704
Relax, I'm not going to be
looking at your privates.

335
00:15:39,706 --> 00:15:40,539
OK, then.

336
00:15:40,541 --> 00:15:42,473
I will be keeping
my eyes on you.

337
00:15:42,475 --> 00:15:44,278
Just like I said.

338
00:15:48,449 --> 00:15:49,648
This is so not cool.

339
00:15:49,650 --> 00:15:52,286
Nothing about this
is cool, Ben.

340
00:15:56,357 --> 00:15:57,389
Come on, pee-pee time.

341
00:15:57,391 --> 00:15:58,957
Shut up.

342
00:15:58,959 --> 00:16:00,659
[sighs]

343
00:16:00,661 --> 00:16:02,694
Do you want me to
turn the faucet on?

344
00:16:02,696 --> 00:16:03,831
Stop.

345
00:16:06,700 --> 00:16:08,833
- Shh.
- [Ben] All right, all right, all right.

346
00:16:08,835 --> 00:16:11,403
- Sometimes it helps.
- [Ben] Mm-hmm.

347
00:16:11,405 --> 00:16:12,871
- [Liam] What are you doing?
- [Ben] OK.

348
00:16:12,873 --> 00:16:16,375
- There's a surprise coming.
- [Lacey] What surprise?

349
00:16:16,377 --> 00:16:17,543
Do you trust me?

350
00:16:17,545 --> 00:16:18,544
- [Lacey] Yes!
- [Liam] Yes, I do.

351
00:16:18,546 --> 00:16:20,011
Awesome. That's awesome.

352
00:16:20,013 --> 00:16:21,746
[Ben]
Good. Good to hear.

353
00:16:21,748 --> 00:16:22,615
All right.

354
00:16:22,617 --> 00:16:24,482
- You close your eyes.
- [Liam] Yeah.

355
00:16:24,484 --> 00:16:26,351
- Can you see anything?
- [Lacey] No.

356
00:16:26,353 --> 00:16:27,689
OK, no peaking.

357
00:16:29,489 --> 00:16:30,555
[dog barking]

358
00:16:30,557 --> 00:16:32,457
[Liam]
I hear something.

359
00:16:32,459 --> 00:16:34,860
- When I was your age, this was my favorite.
- [Ivy] It's gross.

360
00:16:34,862 --> 00:16:36,895
Ivy, chill out.

361
00:16:36,897 --> 00:16:39,265
Liam doesn't like crust.

362
00:16:39,267 --> 00:16:41,469
There's a crust-less option

363
00:16:42,002 --> 00:16:43,401
in the works.

364
00:16:43,403 --> 00:16:44,738
Oh, really?

365
00:16:46,474 --> 00:16:47,840
[Ben]
Are you two ready?

366
00:16:47,842 --> 00:16:49,040
[Lacey]
Yes.

367
00:16:49,042 --> 00:16:50,708
[security system beeping]
Back door.

368
00:16:50,710 --> 00:16:53,681
- [dog barking]
- OK, open your eyes and feast.

369
00:16:56,383 --> 00:16:57,616
[dog barking]

370
00:16:57,618 --> 00:16:59,550
- [Lacey and Liam] Yum!
- [Ben] Right?

371
00:16:59,552 --> 00:17:01,352
[Lacey, giggling]
It's really good.

372
00:17:01,354 --> 00:17:02,621
What have you done?

373
00:17:02,623 --> 00:17:04,422
I know. I know.
There's no going back.

374
00:17:04,424 --> 00:17:08,593
[Liam]
Mm-hmm. More, please!

375
00:17:08,595 --> 00:17:10,862
[Lacey] But Ashley's
wings have glitter.

376
00:17:10,864 --> 00:17:14,432
Well, we are going to bedazzle
these things like crazy.

377
00:17:14,434 --> 00:17:16,034
Mom, seriously,
they're so good.

378
00:17:16,036 --> 00:17:17,436
I don't want to brag.

379
00:17:17,438 --> 00:17:19,470
Well, yeah, I do.
These are gonna be good.

380
00:17:19,472 --> 00:17:20,505
[Lacey and Ivy laughing]

381
00:17:20,507 --> 00:17:21,776
[ding from timer]

382
00:17:23,911 --> 00:17:25,412
Ben?

383
00:17:35,389 --> 00:17:36,658
[dog whimpering]

384
00:17:37,490 --> 00:17:40,059
[Ben]
Boy. Hey, buddy.

385
00:17:40,061 --> 00:17:42,930
[Ben laughing]

386
00:17:44,431 --> 00:17:45,430
Hi Mama.

387
00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:47,498
You knew it.

388
00:17:47,500 --> 00:17:49,501
[Holly]
You came back for Ponce.

389
00:17:49,503 --> 00:17:51,402
Busted.

390
00:17:51,404 --> 00:17:52,673
Actually, no.

391
00:17:59,613 --> 00:18:00,849
[dog whimpering]

392
00:18:03,049 --> 00:18:04,952
OK, let's party.

393
00:18:07,555 --> 00:18:09,588
[phone ringing]

394
00:18:09,590 --> 00:18:10,755
[Ben, outside] You know, I really
wouldn't appreciate it if you leave me.

395
00:18:10,757 --> 00:18:11,957
- [Neal] Holly.
- Hi.

396
00:18:11,959 --> 00:18:12,891
How'd the test go?

397
00:18:12,893 --> 00:18:14,826
- Negative.
- [Neal] That's great.

398
00:18:14,828 --> 00:18:15,794
Yeah.

399
00:18:15,796 --> 00:18:17,929
[Holly] And he's
helping out with chores.

400
00:18:17,931 --> 00:18:20,399
- [Neal] Really?
- [Holly] Mm-hmm.

401
00:18:20,401 --> 00:18:21,632
[Neal]
OK, well...

402
00:18:21,634 --> 00:18:23,936
I left word with
Sober Living.

403
00:18:23,938 --> 00:18:26,037
OK.

404
00:18:26,039 --> 00:18:29,710
It hurts to think about
the shit I've done.

405
00:18:31,112 --> 00:18:33,111
And what I'm learning in
recovery is I can't undo

406
00:18:33,113 --> 00:18:36,047
what I've done, but I can
do it differently now.

407
00:18:36,049 --> 00:18:37,382
I think we're good here.

408
00:18:37,384 --> 00:18:38,649
One... just one sec, Ivy.

409
00:18:38,651 --> 00:18:40,718
What I mean is, is
I have to be present.

410
00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:41,954
I have to be present.

411
00:18:41,956 --> 00:18:43,855
- It's about this log.
- [Ivy] OK.

412
00:18:43,857 --> 00:18:45,591
- It's about this log. It's...
- [Ivy] That's enough.

413
00:18:45,593 --> 00:18:47,860
It's about taking care of
this log and placing it here.

414
00:18:47,862 --> 00:18:49,928
[Ben] And I have to take
it one log at a time,

415
00:18:49,930 --> 00:18:52,130
- No, stop.
- [Ben] otherwise it's not gonna...

416
00:18:52,132 --> 00:18:53,735
Ben, stop!

417
00:18:55,902 --> 00:18:57,072
[sighs]

418
00:19:02,610 --> 00:19:04,008
- [logs fall]
- [Ivy] Aah!

419
00:19:04,010 --> 00:19:05,611
- [Ivy] God!
- [Ben] Come on. You got this.

420
00:19:05,613 --> 00:19:07,880
- [Ivy laughing]
- [Ben] Come on.

421
00:19:07,882 --> 00:19:10,448
Fine. Just leave it.
We don't need anymore, Ben.

422
00:19:10,450 --> 00:19:12,083
Cleaning up your mess.

423
00:19:12,085 --> 00:19:15,486
- [Ben] We'll do it. We're gonna do it.
- [Ivy] Aah!

424
00:19:15,488 --> 00:19:17,622
- [Ivy] It's so heavy!
- [Ben] I got it. I got it.

425
00:19:17,624 --> 00:19:20,892
- [Ben] You're good. You're good.
- [Ivy] Ponce!

426
00:19:20,894 --> 00:19:22,494
[Ivy] Nice. OK.

427
00:19:22,496 --> 00:19:24,498
["Frosty the Snowman" playing]

428
00:19:25,766 --> 00:19:27,765
We're in no danger
of it burning out.

429
00:19:27,767 --> 00:19:30,669
What the fuck is this?
Where did our ornaments go?

430
00:19:30,671 --> 00:19:32,638
They don't share
the current aesthetic.

431
00:19:32,640 --> 00:19:34,806
[Holly]
Is there a problem?

432
00:19:34,808 --> 00:19:38,209
Ben was just asking where
our old ornaments are.

433
00:19:38,211 --> 00:19:39,780
Did you throw them away?

434
00:19:47,455 --> 00:19:48,757
Come with me.

435
00:19:54,628 --> 00:19:57,196
Be quick and
be careful, yeah?

436
00:19:57,198 --> 00:19:59,801
- [Liam] Mommy!
- Yes, yes. OK.

437
00:20:10,944 --> 00:20:12,679
[Ivy]
Do you see 'em?

438
00:20:14,815 --> 00:20:16,851
[Ivy]
It should be right there.

439
00:20:25,793 --> 00:20:27,728
[stirring and movement]

440
00:20:28,496 --> 00:20:30,496
Ben?

441
00:20:30,498 --> 00:20:31,796
- [boxes fall]
- [Ben] Fuck!

442
00:20:31,798 --> 00:20:33,031
Ben?

443
00:20:33,033 --> 00:20:34,135
Can you come up?

444
00:20:35,134 --> 00:20:36,637
[Ben sighs heavily]

445
00:20:41,241 --> 00:20:44,743
- That's it.
- [Ben] I hate it up here.

446
00:20:44,745 --> 00:20:45,843
OK, then let's go already.

447
00:20:45,845 --> 00:20:47,579
[Ben]
Wait...

448
00:20:47,581 --> 00:20:49,083
I need you to check.

449
00:20:50,150 --> 00:20:51,753
[Ben]
I'm, uh...

450
00:20:53,120 --> 00:20:55,187
I used to stash
my... my, um...

451
00:20:55,189 --> 00:20:57,155
OK.

452
00:20:57,157 --> 00:21:01,129
[breathing heavily]

453
00:21:02,595 --> 00:21:03,931
[Ivy]
Back there?

454
00:21:06,866 --> 00:21:10,838
If there's something there, then
you have to make it go away.

455
00:21:19,113 --> 00:21:20,614
Nothing.

456
00:21:26,586 --> 00:21:27,888
We're good.

457
00:21:29,155 --> 00:21:30,624
I'll help you down.

458
00:21:33,227 --> 00:21:34,896
Come on. Let's go.

459
00:21:53,913 --> 00:21:56,214
- [Ivy] Oh, wow. Ben.
- [Liam cheering]

460
00:21:56,216 --> 00:21:59,016
- [Lacey, playing with Liam]
- [Ben] Nice.

461
00:21:59,018 --> 00:22:01,256
[Lacey] Liam, I have
a pine cone nose.

462
00:22:02,890 --> 00:22:05,226
- [squeaking toys]
- [Ivy] This is better.

463
00:22:06,927 --> 00:22:08,960
- [Ben] Yeah.
- [Lacey] Yeah, cotton balls.

464
00:22:08,962 --> 00:22:12,165
[Holly] Ben, Ivy, can you
two come with me, please?

465
00:22:13,801 --> 00:22:16,901
[Holly] I know, I went a
little overboard this year.

466
00:22:16,903 --> 00:22:18,803
- [Ben] Mom?
- [Holly] Keep wrapping.

467
00:22:18,805 --> 00:22:19,938
[phone ringing]

468
00:22:19,940 --> 00:22:21,172
Hello?

469
00:22:21,174 --> 00:22:22,274
- [Neal] Hey, honey.
- [Holly] Yeah?

470
00:22:22,276 --> 00:22:23,374
They only have regular.

471
00:22:23,376 --> 00:22:24,942
No.

472
00:22:24,944 --> 00:22:26,911
Organic cranberries.

473
00:22:26,913 --> 00:22:29,948
Mom, we don't
have to be 100%...

474
00:22:29,950 --> 00:22:31,816
[Holly]
It's important.

475
00:22:31,818 --> 00:22:33,185
- [Neal] Got it.
- [Holly] OK.

476
00:22:33,187 --> 00:22:34,218
Thank you.

477
00:22:34,220 --> 00:22:36,053
[phone beeps off]

478
00:22:36,055 --> 00:22:37,355
Ugh, gotta love that Neal.

479
00:22:37,357 --> 00:22:38,957
Mom?

480
00:22:38,959 --> 00:22:41,059
Running all my last-minute
errands so we can just...

481
00:22:41,061 --> 00:22:43,227
- [Holly] stay here till church.
- Mom. Mom, I wanna do some shopping of my own.

482
00:22:43,229 --> 00:22:44,062
Why?

483
00:22:44,064 --> 00:22:46,264
I wanna get them
something from me.

484
00:22:46,266 --> 00:22:49,735
Well, sweetie,
you are the present.

485
00:22:49,737 --> 00:22:51,303
Something that
they can unwrap.

486
00:22:51,305 --> 00:22:53,839
Well, OK. Let's just say these
are from you, then.

487
00:22:53,841 --> 00:22:55,841
But they're not really from me.
I didn't pick them out.

488
00:22:55,843 --> 00:22:56,941
They'll never know.

489
00:22:56,943 --> 00:22:58,643
But I'll know.

490
00:22:58,645 --> 00:23:01,947
All right. Well, honestly,
they have everything they need.

491
00:23:01,949 --> 00:23:04,015
They really don't
need anything more.

492
00:23:04,017 --> 00:23:04,850
So true.

493
00:23:04,852 --> 00:23:06,384
[Ben]
OK, but...

494
00:23:06,386 --> 00:23:08,853
if I didn't pick them out,
then they're not really from me,

495
00:23:08,855 --> 00:23:10,322
which makes me a liar.

496
00:23:10,324 --> 00:23:12,224
And the whole point of this

497
00:23:12,226 --> 00:23:13,324
is to be honest.

498
00:23:13,326 --> 00:23:15,427
It's no good if
I'm not honest.

499
00:23:15,429 --> 00:23:17,065
[birds tweeting]

500
00:23:21,434 --> 00:23:23,036
[upbeat Christmas tunes]

501
00:23:30,376 --> 00:23:31,878
[children screaming]

502
00:23:32,880 --> 00:23:34,246
This is nice.

503
00:23:34,248 --> 00:23:36,985
Getting to spend a little
quality alone time together.

504
00:23:42,288 --> 00:23:44,825
What do you think
you'll wear tonight?

505
00:23:45,726 --> 00:23:47,124
This is all I brought.

506
00:23:47,126 --> 00:23:50,829
Oh, well, no worries.
We can pick up a sweater

507
00:23:50,831 --> 00:23:53,901
or maybe even
a whole new ensemble.

508
00:23:54,434 --> 00:23:55,902
Ensemble?

509
00:23:57,371 --> 00:24:00,371
That way you'll... I want
you to be comfortable.

510
00:24:00,373 --> 00:24:01,806
Oh, I'm okay with just...

511
00:24:01,808 --> 00:24:03,441
No, come on.

512
00:24:03,443 --> 00:24:06,279
It's Christmas Eve. We're
gonna be in a front pew.

513
00:24:11,919 --> 00:24:13,451
[guy]
Hey, Burns!

514
00:24:13,453 --> 00:24:15,019
What's going on?

515
00:24:15,021 --> 00:24:18,225
- Hey, man.
- [guy] Wow, it's been a long time.

516
00:24:19,026 --> 00:24:20,827
I thought you were dead.

517
00:24:22,462 --> 00:24:23,928
What's new?

518
00:24:23,930 --> 00:24:27,332
- I'm... I'm good.
- [guy] Yeah?

519
00:24:27,334 --> 00:24:29,834
Dude, it's... it's
really good to see you.

520
00:24:29,836 --> 00:24:31,736
- Yeah.
- [guy] And you look good.

521
00:24:31,738 --> 00:24:32,737
Oh, thank you.

522
00:24:32,739 --> 00:24:34,075
OK.

523
00:24:38,511 --> 00:24:41,079
[Holly] He was a little full of
himself, don't you think?

524
00:24:41,081 --> 00:24:42,880
He's all right.

525
00:24:42,882 --> 00:24:45,217
And what's his drug of choice?
You know he has one.

526
00:24:45,219 --> 00:24:47,886
- Speed? Weekend cocaine?
- Mom.

527
00:24:47,888 --> 00:24:50,522
- High caffeinated energy drinks?
- Mom.

528
00:24:50,524 --> 00:24:55,427
All I'm saying is you
forget how special you are.

529
00:24:55,429 --> 00:24:56,995
You just don't... you don't...

530
00:24:56,997 --> 00:24:58,796
Well, people look up to
you, and they love you.

531
00:24:58,798 --> 00:25:02,066
You're a natural leader,
and you are so, so smart.

532
00:25:02,068 --> 00:25:03,968
No, Mom, Ivy is smart.

533
00:25:03,970 --> 00:25:05,970
Well, nobody wants
to be that smart.

534
00:25:05,972 --> 00:25:09,807
It's not like she's having a
tremendous amount of fun, hmm?

535
00:25:09,809 --> 00:25:10,508
What was my point?

536
00:25:10,510 --> 00:25:11,976
You don't have a point.

537
00:25:11,978 --> 00:25:13,144
I do have a point.

538
00:25:13,146 --> 00:25:15,013
My point is, look,
you lick this,

539
00:25:15,015 --> 00:25:17,015
and who knows
how far you can go

540
00:25:17,017 --> 00:25:18,249
and what you can do.

541
00:25:18,251 --> 00:25:20,387
There's so much to
look forward to.

542
00:25:22,789 --> 00:25:24,322
[woman laughing]

543
00:25:24,324 --> 00:25:25,927
[indistinct chattering]

544
00:25:31,931 --> 00:25:34,800
[woman] OK, honey, you've
barely touched your breakfast.

545
00:25:34,802 --> 00:25:37,271
You've got to eat this.
Come on now.

546
00:25:38,104 --> 00:25:39,103
Mrs. Crane.

547
00:25:39,105 --> 00:25:40,304
Dr. Crane.

548
00:25:40,306 --> 00:25:41,875
Oh, hello.

549
00:25:42,809 --> 00:25:44,010
Do I know you?

550
00:25:44,978 --> 00:25:46,911
Holly Burns.

551
00:25:46,913 --> 00:25:49,346
Yes. Oh, yes.

552
00:25:49,348 --> 00:25:52,449
He doesn't always remember.

553
00:25:52,451 --> 00:25:56,454
Holly is the mother of Ivy,
whose singing we love.

554
00:25:56,456 --> 00:25:58,523
She was your patient.

555
00:25:58,525 --> 00:26:00,191
[Dr. Crane]
I remember.

556
00:26:00,193 --> 00:26:02,960
[Mrs. Crane] You must
be so proud of her.

557
00:26:02,962 --> 00:26:05,499
I am proud of all
of my children, yes.

558
00:26:15,042 --> 00:26:17,545
Oh, fuck.

559
00:26:21,515 --> 00:26:23,515
Oh, look, I need
to get a napkin. I...

560
00:26:23,517 --> 00:26:25,050
I'll sit with him.

561
00:26:25,052 --> 00:26:26,918
You're a dear.

562
00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:28,022
Be right back.

563
00:26:29,989 --> 00:26:34,993
So, if you remember Ivy, then
you must remember my son, Ben.

564
00:26:34,995 --> 00:26:36,261
Right over there.

565
00:26:36,263 --> 00:26:37,532
Who?

566
00:26:40,566 --> 00:26:42,167
- I don't remember him.
- Hmm.

567
00:26:42,169 --> 00:26:45,236
[Holly] I understand.
You had so many patients.

568
00:26:45,238 --> 00:26:47,471
But when was 14,
he had a small

569
00:26:47,473 --> 00:26:49,407
snowboarding injury.

570
00:26:49,409 --> 00:26:51,575
And you prescribed
painkillers.

571
00:26:51,577 --> 00:26:55,313
And when I asked, you told
me they weren't addictive

572
00:26:55,315 --> 00:26:57,482
and kept upping his dose,
and he got hooked,

573
00:26:57,484 --> 00:26:59,016
and it fucked up his life.

574
00:26:59,018 --> 00:27:00,651
So, you can pretend
you don't remember,

575
00:27:00,653 --> 00:27:02,920
but I won't forget.

576
00:27:02,922 --> 00:27:05,559
I hope you die
a horrible death.

577
00:27:08,394 --> 00:27:10,428
Merry Christmas.

578
00:27:10,430 --> 00:27:12,299
[Ben]
I'm just here for a day.

579
00:27:14,267 --> 00:27:15,399
OK. Yeah.

580
00:27:15,401 --> 00:27:16,903
I will.

581
00:27:17,671 --> 00:27:20,575
OK. Yes. I gotta go.
I gotta go.

582
00:27:22,142 --> 00:27:23,341
Who was that?

583
00:27:23,343 --> 00:27:25,342
Um, my... my sponsor.

584
00:27:25,344 --> 00:27:27,646
I'm feeling...
I'm feeling shaky.

585
00:27:27,648 --> 00:27:30,114
So, I... that's
why I called him.

586
00:27:30,116 --> 00:27:31,448
He told me to
go to a meeting.

587
00:27:31,450 --> 00:27:32,650
They all say that.

588
00:27:32,652 --> 00:27:35,586
Whenever you feel shaky,
get to a meeting.

589
00:27:35,588 --> 00:27:38,089
OK, well, let's just
get your clothes...

590
00:27:38,091 --> 00:27:40,094
I gotta find a meeting. Now.

591
00:27:43,063 --> 00:27:44,332
Did you hear me?

592
00:27:44,965 --> 00:27:46,997
OK.

593
00:27:46,999 --> 00:27:49,133
[Holly]
I'm so proud of you.

594
00:27:49,135 --> 00:27:50,334
Knowing what you need.

595
00:27:50,336 --> 00:27:52,504
I just, I think
it's so great.

596
00:27:52,506 --> 00:27:56,140
Like they say, it's
working when you...

597
00:27:56,142 --> 00:27:57,309
What do they say?

598
00:27:57,311 --> 00:27:58,409
It works if you work it.

599
00:27:58,411 --> 00:27:59,444
[whispering]
It works if you work it.

600
00:27:59,446 --> 00:28:00,477
Well, you are working it.

601
00:28:00,479 --> 00:28:01,612
Oh, let's go in.

602
00:28:01,614 --> 00:28:03,081
You're not coming in.

603
00:28:03,083 --> 00:28:04,482
No, why? Of course I am.

604
00:28:04,484 --> 00:28:05,950
No, Mom, I-I'm... I'm good.

605
00:28:05,952 --> 00:28:07,451
It's... it's a... it's a meeting.

606
00:28:07,453 --> 00:28:09,086
I'm gonna come right
out afterwards. No.

607
00:28:09,088 --> 00:28:09,987
I may just tag along.

608
00:28:09,989 --> 00:28:11,488
- [Holly] Hi!
- [Ben] Mom.

609
00:28:11,490 --> 00:28:13,091
- [man] Hey, yo, what's up, baby?
- [Holly] Hello.

610
00:28:13,093 --> 00:28:14,225
- [Holly] How are you?
- [Ben] Hey, how you doing?

611
00:28:14,227 --> 00:28:15,326
Stop.

612
00:28:15,328 --> 00:28:16,328
Never hurts to
be friendly.

613
00:28:16,330 --> 00:28:17,329
Dial it down.

614
00:28:17,331 --> 00:28:18,330
OK.

615
00:28:18,332 --> 00:28:19,496
Maybe I'll just... Hi!

616
00:28:19,498 --> 00:28:21,102
- [woman] Hi, guys.
- [Holly] Hello.

617
00:28:22,235 --> 00:28:23,938
Everybody seems so nice.

618
00:28:25,037 --> 00:28:27,040
[indistinct chatter]

619
00:28:29,709 --> 00:28:31,242
The minute I think I have it,

620
00:28:31,244 --> 00:28:34,245
the minute I think
I've got this, uh...

621
00:28:34,247 --> 00:28:35,679
it's waiting, you know?

622
00:28:35,681 --> 00:28:37,716
It's out there, doing
push-ups right now

623
00:28:37,718 --> 00:28:39,516
while we're sitting in
these folding chairs.

624
00:28:39,518 --> 00:28:43,121
So, I'm really, really grateful
to be here with all of you.

625
00:28:43,123 --> 00:28:45,422
And I-I thank you
for keeping me clean.

626
00:28:45,424 --> 00:28:47,292
Thank you for
letting me share.

627
00:28:47,294 --> 00:28:48,360
So, uh...

628
00:28:48,362 --> 00:28:50,430
- Thank you.
- [applause]

629
00:28:52,699 --> 00:28:54,365
Go on to show of hands?

630
00:28:54,367 --> 00:28:57,134
I have a deep
fear of using.

631
00:28:57,136 --> 00:29:00,505
I have a deep fear of going
back into those dark places.

632
00:29:00,507 --> 00:29:03,207
This fellowship,
this group of people,

633
00:29:03,209 --> 00:29:05,009
is what keeps me alive.

634
00:29:05,011 --> 00:29:07,778
You know, I have two
new baby nieces,

635
00:29:07,780 --> 00:29:11,115
and they're going to meet
me for the first time.

636
00:29:11,117 --> 00:29:15,486
I'm just so grateful that
they'll never know me high.

637
00:29:15,488 --> 00:29:18,159
They'll just know
me as... as me.

638
00:29:19,558 --> 00:29:22,494
Hi, I'm Ben, and I,
um, I'm an addict.

639
00:29:22,496 --> 00:29:24,329
[everyone]
Hey, Ben.

640
00:29:24,331 --> 00:29:26,464
[Ben]
I got 77 days.

641
00:29:26,466 --> 00:29:28,002
[applause]

642
00:29:30,670 --> 00:29:33,804
And, uh, that's
my most ever.

643
00:29:33,806 --> 00:29:36,174
So, I just want
to get to 78...

644
00:29:36,176 --> 00:29:37,207
right now.

645
00:29:37,209 --> 00:29:39,476
Um, so, I, uh...

646
00:29:39,478 --> 00:29:42,246
I called my sponsor and...

647
00:29:42,248 --> 00:29:46,484
the thing about my sponsor is
that he's a... he's a loud talker.

648
00:29:46,486 --> 00:29:50,755
And, so, uh, I say,
"Hey," and he goes,

649
00:29:50,757 --> 00:29:52,223
[louder]
"What's up?"

650
00:29:52,225 --> 00:29:54,258
And I was like, "Well,
I-I got big news.

651
00:29:54,260 --> 00:29:56,628
I just bought presents that I
actually picked out for someone."

652
00:29:56,630 --> 00:30:00,331
And he was like, "Oh, well,
you're feeling pretty good, huh?"

653
00:30:00,333 --> 00:30:03,802
And I was like, "Yeah, you know,
I actually feel like I'm being honest."

654
00:30:03,804 --> 00:30:06,303
And, well, he said,
"If you were honest, Ben,

655
00:30:06,305 --> 00:30:10,207
you'd look in the mirror and
say, I'm a great big phony."

656
00:30:10,209 --> 00:30:11,642
So, I was like, "OK."

657
00:30:11,644 --> 00:30:13,343
"Because Ben you're
a fucking addict,

658
00:30:13,345 --> 00:30:15,846
and you're the last person who
should believe his own bullshit.

659
00:30:15,848 --> 00:30:17,649
So, now get to a meeting."

660
00:30:17,651 --> 00:30:19,583
[Ben]
So, here I am.

661
00:30:19,585 --> 00:30:22,387
77 days clean.

662
00:30:22,389 --> 00:30:25,489
Some things are better now.

663
00:30:25,491 --> 00:30:27,391
Like I can actually
take a shit.

664
00:30:27,393 --> 00:30:29,561
[group laughs]

665
00:30:29,563 --> 00:30:32,397
Yeah, uh, even
better than that,

666
00:30:32,399 --> 00:30:35,636
I'm waking up more often
than not with an erection.

667
00:30:38,138 --> 00:30:38,870
Sorry, Mom.

668
00:30:38,872 --> 00:30:40,708
And my... yeah, my mom's here.

669
00:30:42,374 --> 00:30:43,676
Um...

670
00:30:45,845 --> 00:30:49,249
I've put her
through a lot, um...

671
00:30:51,151 --> 00:30:53,650
This summer, she found me
upside down on the stairs

672
00:30:53,652 --> 00:30:56,589
with, um, a needle in my arm.

673
00:30:57,556 --> 00:30:58,825
And, uh...

674
00:31:00,293 --> 00:31:03,128
with my dog trying
to keep me awake.

675
00:31:03,130 --> 00:31:04,228
So...

676
00:31:04,230 --> 00:31:06,698
The doctor said that if
it weren't for my dog,

677
00:31:06,700 --> 00:31:08,466
I... I would be dead.

678
00:31:08,468 --> 00:31:11,468
Um, and my mom.

679
00:31:11,470 --> 00:31:15,873
Without her, I wouldn't be
here right now in this room.

680
00:31:15,875 --> 00:31:21,646
Uh, the things that
I've done to myself

681
00:31:21,648 --> 00:31:23,150
and others.

682
00:31:25,852 --> 00:31:29,521
Uh, so, I don't...
Why am I still...

683
00:31:29,523 --> 00:31:31,592
[Ben sniffles]
here?

684
00:31:33,426 --> 00:31:35,459
There's gotta be a reason.

685
00:31:35,461 --> 00:31:37,161
Maybe it's to...

686
00:31:37,163 --> 00:31:39,764
come back and... and make
this Christmas right

687
00:31:39,766 --> 00:31:41,865
or maybe this
is the biggest

688
00:31:41,867 --> 00:31:44,669
fucking mistake of my life.

689
00:31:44,671 --> 00:31:47,705
Um, anyways,
here I am.

690
00:31:47,707 --> 00:31:48,840
Still here.

691
00:31:48,842 --> 00:31:51,378
So, thank you.
Thank you for...

692
00:31:55,915 --> 00:31:57,748
[in unison]
...grant us the serenity

693
00:31:57,750 --> 00:32:00,384
to accept the things
we cannot change,

694
00:32:00,386 --> 00:32:03,287
the courage to change
the things we can,

695
00:32:03,289 --> 00:32:05,657
and the wisdom to
know the difference.

696
00:32:05,659 --> 00:32:09,597
Keep coming back.
It works if you work it.

697
00:32:12,865 --> 00:32:15,635
[indistinct chatter]

698
00:32:16,469 --> 00:32:18,602
[Holly]
Ben?

699
00:32:18,604 --> 00:32:20,871
- Ben. Good job, sweetie.
- Thanks.

700
00:32:20,873 --> 00:32:22,640
And you coming back
was not a mistake.

701
00:32:22,642 --> 00:32:26,878
Someone wiser than me, your
sponsor, said you can do this.

702
00:32:26,880 --> 00:32:29,746
OK.
Yeah. That's right.

703
00:32:29,748 --> 00:32:31,748
I think some people
want to talk to you.

704
00:32:31,750 --> 00:32:32,749
I'll just wait over here.

705
00:32:32,751 --> 00:32:34,287
[Ben]
OK.

706
00:32:35,622 --> 00:32:37,688
Hey, man.
Thanks for your share.

707
00:32:37,690 --> 00:32:38,989
It's been a long time, yo.

708
00:32:38,991 --> 00:32:42,226
- [Ben] Yeah.
- [man] That really hit home.

709
00:32:42,228 --> 00:32:44,632
- [man] Thanks, man.
- [Ben] Thank you.

710
00:32:49,869 --> 00:32:51,335
[woman]
Hey.

711
00:32:51,337 --> 00:32:52,637
I-I loved what you said.

712
00:32:52,639 --> 00:32:54,304
You were... you
were very funny.

713
00:32:54,306 --> 00:32:57,342
There's not enough
funny around here.

714
00:32:57,344 --> 00:32:59,509
Thanks.

715
00:32:59,511 --> 00:33:01,312
- You're the mom?
- Yes.

716
00:33:01,314 --> 00:33:02,346
I am.

717
00:33:02,348 --> 00:33:03,514
It's great you
came with him.

718
00:33:03,516 --> 00:33:04,448
Aw, I hope so.

719
00:33:04,450 --> 00:33:06,583
No, my mom died before
I ever got clean.

720
00:33:06,585 --> 00:33:09,754
I would have given anything for
her to see me get my shit together.

721
00:33:09,756 --> 00:33:11,257
I'm sure.

722
00:33:15,295 --> 00:33:16,594
It was honest.

723
00:33:16,596 --> 00:33:22,934
And it was you saying it.
Someone young and hot. Oh, shit.

724
00:33:22,936 --> 00:33:26,638
- Oh, uh, it's... that's okay.
- Oh, I'm blushing... I'm blushing now.

725
00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:29,340
That makes me nervous.

726
00:33:29,342 --> 00:33:31,042
- Is it your first meeting?
- Uh, yeah.

727
00:33:31,044 --> 00:33:33,611
- I'm, you know, new to it all, so...
- [Ben] Yeah?

728
00:33:33,613 --> 00:33:34,978
Well, you should
get a sponsor.

729
00:33:34,980 --> 00:33:36,880
Um, it should
be a woman.

730
00:33:36,882 --> 00:33:39,417
It should be someone
really tough, who will

731
00:33:39,419 --> 00:33:41,785
you know, call you
on your bullshit, and

732
00:33:41,787 --> 00:33:46,390
it's all about, you know,
rigorous honesty.

733
00:33:46,392 --> 00:33:47,958
Oh, they're just
talking program.

734
00:33:47,960 --> 00:33:50,294
It's how we help
each other.

735
00:33:50,296 --> 00:33:51,095
OK.

736
00:33:51,097 --> 00:33:52,929
So, nothing to
worry about then.

737
00:33:52,931 --> 00:33:55,301
Oh, I didn't say that.

738
00:33:57,703 --> 00:33:59,940
You don't remember, do you?

739
00:34:05,444 --> 00:34:06,980
You were my dealer.

740
00:34:08,448 --> 00:34:09,714
Oh, fuck.

741
00:34:09,716 --> 00:34:10,882
Oh, my. I'm sorry.

742
00:34:10,884 --> 00:34:13,317
No, it's fine.
I'm, uh...

743
00:34:13,319 --> 00:34:15,920
I'm going to rehab the
day after Christmas, so,

744
00:34:15,922 --> 00:34:18,022
that's why I, um, I,
you know, I related to

745
00:34:18,024 --> 00:34:19,957
so much to what
you were saying.

746
00:34:19,959 --> 00:34:22,830
It was very inspiring, so...

747
00:34:24,931 --> 00:34:27,799
I just want... I just want to
get high just one last time.

748
00:34:27,801 --> 00:34:28,833
That's normal.

749
00:34:28,835 --> 00:34:30,400
I'm not going to, though.

750
00:34:30,402 --> 00:34:33,337
Good. Don't.

751
00:34:33,339 --> 00:34:35,341
Unless I could
do it with you.

752
00:34:46,752 --> 00:34:48,051
- [woman] Hey.
- Hi.

753
00:34:48,053 --> 00:34:50,390
- [woman] Have a good one.
- Merry Christmas.

754
00:34:56,962 --> 00:35:00,130
I think this one will work.

755
00:35:00,132 --> 00:35:02,065
Or this.

756
00:35:02,067 --> 00:35:03,801
And they have it
in light blue.

757
00:35:03,803 --> 00:35:06,670
And everybody looks
good in light blue.

758
00:35:06,672 --> 00:35:07,839
- Ben?
- What?

759
00:35:07,841 --> 00:35:08,839
Which?

760
00:35:08,841 --> 00:35:10,107
Yes.

761
00:35:10,109 --> 00:35:10,975
Good.

762
00:35:10,977 --> 00:35:12,513
OK, light blue.

763
00:35:16,515 --> 00:35:19,750
Looks like she's gonna have
you try on the whole store.

764
00:35:19,752 --> 00:35:21,886
[hangers rattling]

765
00:35:21,888 --> 00:35:22,920
[Holly]
Thank you so much.

766
00:35:22,922 --> 00:35:24,522
[woman] You're welcome.

767
00:35:24,524 --> 00:35:27,125
These will both complement
your complexion as a gift

768
00:35:27,127 --> 00:35:28,859
from your mother.
You're welcome.

769
00:35:28,861 --> 00:35:29,926
- Coat, please.
- OK.

770
00:35:29,928 --> 00:35:32,096
Nice. I'm good.

771
00:35:32,098 --> 00:35:33,433
Come on.

772
00:35:40,739 --> 00:35:42,075
Pockets.

773
00:35:49,948 --> 00:35:51,582
This is humiliating.

774
00:35:51,584 --> 00:35:52,650
Shh.

775
00:35:52,652 --> 00:35:55,856
No, this is love.

776
00:35:57,122 --> 00:35:58,991
All right.
Free to go.

777
00:36:01,761 --> 00:36:03,596
You didn't check my shoes.

778
00:36:12,138 --> 00:36:13,670
That's not funny.

779
00:36:13,672 --> 00:36:14,806
It was a joke, Mom.

780
00:36:14,808 --> 00:36:16,073
[Holly knocking]
Ben.

781
00:36:16,075 --> 00:36:17,574
- Mom, it was a joke.
- It's not funny.

782
00:36:17,576 --> 00:36:18,643
Excuse me?

783
00:36:18,645 --> 00:36:20,944
[Holly] Can I get a key
to this door, please?

784
00:36:20,946 --> 00:36:22,779
Unlock the door, Ben.
Right now.

785
00:36:22,781 --> 00:36:23,815
Ben.

786
00:36:23,817 --> 00:36:24,848
[Holly knocking]

787
00:36:24,850 --> 00:36:26,817
[Holly]
Open the door.

788
00:36:26,819 --> 00:36:28,051
[Holly]
This is not funny.

789
00:36:28,053 --> 00:36:29,754
Open this fucking door

790
00:36:29,756 --> 00:36:30,754
right now.

791
00:36:30,756 --> 00:36:32,056
Ben. God, damn it.

792
00:36:32,058 --> 00:36:33,994
Open this fucking door.

793
00:36:36,596 --> 00:36:38,065
What is going on?

794
00:36:41,567 --> 00:36:42,870
What's going on?

795
00:36:58,817 --> 00:37:01,219
Fuck. You stupid fuck.

796
00:37:01,221 --> 00:37:02,053
Hey.

797
00:37:02,055 --> 00:37:03,355
Where did you get this?

798
00:37:03,357 --> 00:37:05,121
- I've been with you the whole time.
- [woman] Excuse me.

799
00:37:05,123 --> 00:37:06,491
The... the... the girl
at the meeting.

800
00:37:06,493 --> 00:37:07,991
The one that
you're helping.

801
00:37:07,993 --> 00:37:09,861
She was gonna use, now,
so I took it from her.

802
00:37:09,863 --> 00:37:10,862
Excuse me.
I'm gonna have to

803
00:37:10,864 --> 00:37:12,062
ask you two to leave.

804
00:37:12,064 --> 00:37:13,763
She was gonna use.
Now she can't.

805
00:37:13,765 --> 00:37:15,732
Mom, the last time I didn't
help someone they died.

806
00:37:15,734 --> 00:37:17,036
Ma'am?

807
00:37:20,707 --> 00:37:22,772
You think I'm an idiot.

808
00:37:22,774 --> 00:37:25,076
- Can you please just exit the store?
- [Holly] Yes!

809
00:37:25,078 --> 00:37:26,176
[Ben]
Fuck. Maybe she's a dealer.

810
00:37:26,178 --> 00:37:28,779
- What?
- Maybe she played me.

811
00:37:28,781 --> 00:37:31,516
- You can't trust addicts, Mom. All we do is fucking lie.
- What do I do with that?

812
00:37:31,518 --> 00:37:32,817
I don't... I don't know.
I don't know.

813
00:37:32,819 --> 00:37:34,221
Mind your own
fucking business.

814
00:37:37,189 --> 00:37:38,788
Mom. What...?

815
00:37:38,790 --> 00:37:40,123
Get out of the car.

816
00:37:40,125 --> 00:37:41,894
[Ben]
What is this?

817
00:37:44,596 --> 00:37:45,830
What're we doing here?

818
00:37:45,832 --> 00:37:47,201
Get out of the car.

819
00:37:47,799 --> 00:37:49,734
Now.

820
00:37:49,736 --> 00:37:52,770
- Why are you...
- Because I'll be too angry to do it at the time.

821
00:37:52,772 --> 00:37:54,571
Huh? So, where?

822
00:37:54,573 --> 00:37:55,605
Where do you wanna be?

823
00:37:55,607 --> 00:37:57,007
Oh.

824
00:37:57,009 --> 00:37:58,775
Don't say next to grandpa.
That's prime placement.

825
00:37:58,777 --> 00:38:00,076
And you don't get
that when you OD.

826
00:38:00,078 --> 00:38:01,812
- I'm not gonna OD.
- [Holly] So, where?

827
00:38:01,814 --> 00:38:03,013
The new section is nice,

828
00:38:03,015 --> 00:38:04,949
or do you want to
be near a tree?

829
00:38:04,951 --> 00:38:06,216
I don't know.

830
00:38:06,218 --> 00:38:08,018
Well, you better
figure it out.

831
00:38:08,020 --> 00:38:10,254
OK, why... why don't you
cremate me and sprinkle me over

832
00:38:10,256 --> 00:38:12,290
Mrs. Blink, my second grade
teacher? She was pretty hot.

833
00:38:12,292 --> 00:38:14,891
- No, you don't get to be a smart ass about this, young man.
- [Ben] Ow!

834
00:38:14,893 --> 00:38:16,092
I wasn't gonna use.

835
00:38:16,094 --> 00:38:17,828
I was... I-I'm
not gonna use.

836
00:38:17,830 --> 00:38:19,330
- You just...
- I'm just... Mom.

837
00:38:19,332 --> 00:38:20,698
You just told me.

838
00:38:20,700 --> 00:38:23,100
I should never believe you.

839
00:38:23,102 --> 00:38:25,105
Don't say another
fucking word.

840
00:38:26,705 --> 00:38:29,806
Just tell me, son,

841
00:38:29,808 --> 00:38:32,111
where you want
me to bury you.

842
00:38:35,348 --> 00:38:36,850
I'll wait all day.

843
00:38:38,116 --> 00:38:41,118
[Ben]
I'm not going to die.

844
00:38:41,120 --> 00:38:44,024
That's right.
You will, and soon.

845
00:38:46,993 --> 00:38:50,197
[soft piano
instrumental playing]

846
00:39:05,978 --> 00:39:08,078
Mommy's here!

847
00:39:08,080 --> 00:39:11,949
[Neal] They didn't like my
spaghetti special, for some reason.

848
00:39:11,951 --> 00:39:13,917
Go figure.

849
00:39:13,919 --> 00:39:15,886
Ben, they only wanted
your sandwich.

850
00:39:15,888 --> 00:39:17,288
What did you put in it?

851
00:39:17,290 --> 00:39:18,154
Drugs.

852
00:39:18,156 --> 00:39:20,024
It's not funny.

853
00:39:20,026 --> 00:39:23,159
- [Ivy] It was a joke.
- [Holly] Still not funny.

854
00:39:23,161 --> 00:39:24,295
The kids are watching TV?

855
00:39:24,297 --> 00:39:25,830
Yeah, they're
watching TV.

856
00:39:25,832 --> 00:39:26,830
You OK?

857
00:39:26,832 --> 00:39:28,065
[Holly]
You come with me.

858
00:39:28,067 --> 00:39:30,100
[children's TV show playing]

859
00:39:30,102 --> 00:39:31,101
[Holly]
Hi, sweethearts.

860
00:39:31,103 --> 00:39:32,837
[Liam and Lacey]
Hi, Mommy!

861
00:39:32,839 --> 00:39:34,904
- Ben is gonna watch some TV with you.
- [Lacey] Yay!

862
00:39:34,906 --> 00:39:38,275
- Mom, can I talk to you for a second?
- Sit down.

863
00:39:38,277 --> 00:39:40,978
[kid's show on TV] ...out of a canon
and now we can't find her anywhere.

864
00:39:40,980 --> 00:39:42,013
[Lacey]
Come on.

865
00:39:42,015 --> 00:39:43,317
Right in the middle.

866
00:39:44,951 --> 00:39:47,051
Stay.

867
00:39:47,053 --> 00:39:49,786
[TV show] Everyone grab on to me,
and I'll swing on this tree branch

868
00:39:49,788 --> 00:39:51,325
into the pond!

869
00:39:56,895 --> 00:39:58,664
You fucking monster.

870
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:03,734
[Neal]
Honey, you OK in there?

871
00:40:03,736 --> 00:40:07,138
Yes, just getting changed.

872
00:40:07,140 --> 00:40:09,643
How'd it go? How's
he... how's he doing?

873
00:40:11,877 --> 00:40:13,743
Great. He's doing great.

874
00:40:13,745 --> 00:40:15,147
How are you doing?

875
00:40:15,848 --> 00:40:19,116
I am doing great.

876
00:40:19,118 --> 00:40:21,317
[Neal]
OK.

877
00:40:21,319 --> 00:40:23,987
Honey, I... I better get ready.

878
00:40:23,989 --> 00:40:25,022
Of course.

879
00:40:25,024 --> 00:40:27,324
You get ready.
I will take care of the chores.

880
00:40:27,326 --> 00:40:28,025
Thank you.

881
00:40:28,027 --> 00:40:31,264
[Ivy practicing music scales]

882
00:40:33,098 --> 00:40:34,734
[Holly]
Would you just?

883
00:40:40,707 --> 00:40:42,138
No. No, not those slacks.

884
00:40:42,140 --> 00:40:44,074
[Holly] The ones from
when you were skinny.

885
00:40:44,076 --> 00:40:45,275
Skinnier.

886
00:40:45,277 --> 00:40:46,277
Ivy?

887
00:40:46,279 --> 00:40:47,612
What?

888
00:40:47,614 --> 00:40:50,384
[Holly] I need your big safety pins.
There's some in the kitchen.

889
00:40:51,917 --> 00:40:54,118
- It sounded great, by the way.
- [Ivy] Mm-hmm.

890
00:40:54,120 --> 00:40:56,120
Thank you.

891
00:40:56,122 --> 00:40:57,388
[Lacey]
I'm feeding Ponce.

892
00:40:57,390 --> 00:40:59,156
Oh, I'm so glad.
Thanks, honey.

893
00:40:59,158 --> 00:41:00,857
- [Liam] Mom!
- Yes, sweetie.

894
00:41:00,859 --> 00:41:02,058
It itches.

895
00:41:02,060 --> 00:41:04,127
- [Holly ] Where?
- [Liam] Everywhere!

896
00:41:04,129 --> 00:41:07,130
I wish I'd known that earlier. Mommy
can't do anything about it now.

897
00:41:07,132 --> 00:41:09,132
- [Ponce barking]
- But it's everywhere.

898
00:41:09,134 --> 00:41:10,868
Well, it's just part
of being a sheep.

899
00:41:10,870 --> 00:41:14,739
Hey, buddy. The thing about
an itch is just don't scratch.

900
00:41:14,741 --> 00:41:16,410
- Um...
- Shh. Ivy!

901
00:41:17,143 --> 00:41:18,141
Thank you.

902
00:41:18,143 --> 00:41:20,009
I beg your pardon.

903
00:41:20,011 --> 00:41:22,149
[Ponce barking]

904
00:41:24,049 --> 00:41:25,149
I'm gonna need a sweater.

905
00:41:25,151 --> 00:41:27,350
[Neal]
OK. Coming right up.

906
00:41:27,352 --> 00:41:29,353
All right, everybody.
Let's get going.

907
00:41:29,355 --> 00:41:32,125
We don't want to be late.

908
00:41:32,991 --> 00:41:34,958
I'm so sorry.

909
00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:36,263
Don't.

910
00:41:37,797 --> 00:41:40,931
[Holly's heel click away]

911
00:41:40,933 --> 00:41:43,236
[Ponce barking
and whimpering]

912
00:41:45,303 --> 00:41:47,473
[indistinct chatter]

913
00:42:07,859 --> 00:42:09,128
Stay put.

914
00:42:17,102 --> 00:42:18,805
I'm so sorry, Beth.

915
00:42:19,971 --> 00:42:21,408
This has gotta hurt.

916
00:42:27,946 --> 00:42:29,448
Maggie was an angel.

917
00:42:31,283 --> 00:42:32,818
We think about her.

918
00:42:38,223 --> 00:42:39,825
Hold on tight.

919
00:42:41,493 --> 00:42:42,828
I am.

920
00:42:55,975 --> 00:42:58,377
[church organ playing]

921
00:43:06,051 --> 00:43:07,353
What'd she say?

922
00:43:09,989 --> 00:43:11,424
No one blames you.

923
00:43:13,326 --> 00:43:15,558
[woman] There were
shepherds out in the field

924
00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:18,362
keeping watch over
their flock by night.

925
00:43:18,364 --> 00:43:20,998
And an angel of the Lord
appeared to them...

926
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:22,600
[Liam]
Ben. Hi, Ben!

927
00:43:22,602 --> 00:43:25,870
[woman] shone around them, and
they were filled with fear,

928
00:43:25,872 --> 00:43:28,471
and the angel said to
them, "Be not afraid.

929
00:43:28,473 --> 00:43:30,875
I bring you good
news of a great joy,

930
00:43:30,877 --> 00:43:33,076
which will come to
all the people.

931
00:43:33,078 --> 00:43:35,346
For to you is born
this day in the city

932
00:43:35,348 --> 00:43:38,549
of David, a savior,
who is Christ the Lord.

933
00:43:38,551 --> 00:43:42,419
You will find a babe
wrapped in swaddling clothes

934
00:43:42,421 --> 00:43:44,591
and lying in a manger.

935
00:43:45,323 --> 00:43:47,359
[music starts]

936
00:43:48,493 --> 00:43:51,661
[Ivy]
♪ O, Holy night ♪

937
00:43:51,663 --> 00:43:56,933
♪ The stars are
brightly shining ♪

938
00:43:56,935 --> 00:43:58,669
♪ It is the night ♪

939
00:43:58,671 --> 00:44:05,042
♪ Of our dear savoir's birth ♪

940
00:44:05,044 --> 00:44:08,178
♪ Long lay the world ♪

941
00:44:08,180 --> 00:44:12,415
♪ In sin and error pining ♪

942
00:44:12,417 --> 00:44:18,991
♪ Till He appear'd and
the soul felt its worth ♪

943
00:44:20,493 --> 00:44:24,127
[chorus join Ivy]
♪ A thrill of hope ♪

944
00:44:24,129 --> 00:44:28,165
♪ The weary world rejoices ♪

945
00:44:28,167 --> 00:44:31,335
♪ For yonder breaks ♪

946
00:44:31,337 --> 00:44:35,339
♪ A new and glorious morn ♪

947
00:44:35,341 --> 00:44:41,411
♪ Fall on your knees ♪

948
00:44:41,413 --> 00:44:48,419
♪ And hear the angel voices ♪

949
00:44:48,421 --> 00:44:55,125
♪ O, night divine ♪

950
00:44:55,127 --> 00:45:01,534
♪ O, night when
Christ was born ♪

951
00:45:02,500 --> 00:45:08,507
♪ O, night divine ♪

952
00:45:10,076 --> 00:45:13,344
♪ O, night ♪

953
00:45:13,346 --> 00:45:19,283
♪ O, night divine ♪

954
00:45:19,285 --> 00:45:21,118
[Ivy] Hey!

955
00:45:21,120 --> 00:45:24,154
[Holly] Ivy, by the way, that
was your best singing ever.

956
00:45:24,156 --> 00:45:26,723
[Neal] I think the
two of you were great.

957
00:45:26,725 --> 00:45:29,393
[Ben] Yeah, they're completely right.
You were amazing.

958
00:45:29,395 --> 00:45:31,228
- [Lacey] Yeah, you were awesome!
- [Ben] Really amazing.

959
00:45:31,230 --> 00:45:32,996
- [Liam] Yes!
- [Ben] And you, little buddy.

960
00:45:32,998 --> 00:45:34,431
- [Ivy] You think so?
- [Liam] Yes.

961
00:45:34,433 --> 00:45:36,000
[Ben] For a second there,
I literally thought

962
00:45:36,002 --> 00:45:37,000
that you were a sheep.

963
00:45:37,002 --> 00:45:38,169
[laughter]

964
00:45:38,171 --> 00:45:41,004
[Ben] And, and, and you didn't
even have to pretend

965
00:45:41,006 --> 00:45:42,138
because you're an angel.

966
00:45:42,140 --> 00:45:43,540
[Liam and Lacy giggle]

967
00:45:43,542 --> 00:45:45,341
[security system]
Front door.

968
00:45:45,343 --> 00:45:48,679
[indistinct chattering]

969
00:45:48,681 --> 00:45:50,480
[Holly]
All right, kiddos.

970
00:45:50,482 --> 00:45:52,783
[Holly] Jammies and teeth
brushed right now, please.

971
00:45:52,785 --> 00:45:56,319
- [Neal] Start jammin'.
- [Holly] All right. Come on.

972
00:45:56,321 --> 00:45:57,420
[Lacey]
What happened?

973
00:45:57,422 --> 00:45:58,688
[Holly]
Oh, my God.

974
00:45:58,690 --> 00:46:00,357
- [Holly] OK, kids.
- [Neal] Stay right here.

975
00:46:00,359 --> 00:46:01,692
- [Holly] Shh, sit down. Sit down.
- [Liam] Why?

976
00:46:01,694 --> 00:46:02,792
- [Neal] Don't move.
- [Holly] Sit down.

977
00:46:02,794 --> 00:46:04,294
[Holly] Sit down,
sit down right here.

978
00:46:04,296 --> 00:46:05,629
- [Liam] Mom.
- [Holly] Sit down.

979
00:46:05,631 --> 00:46:07,730
[Holly] It's okay.
It's okay, honey.

980
00:46:07,732 --> 00:46:09,699
[Neal]
There's broken glass.

981
00:46:09,701 --> 00:46:12,502
- [Holly] Don't be scared. Daddy's just checking...
- [Neal] Ben.

982
00:46:12,504 --> 00:46:14,471
- [glass shattering]
- [Ivy] Be careful.

983
00:46:14,473 --> 00:46:16,576
[Ben stomping
up the stairs]

984
00:46:23,314 --> 00:46:25,449
Come on. Fuck.
Come on.

985
00:46:25,451 --> 00:46:27,016
[Ivy] This can't be
happening. Not again.

986
00:46:27,018 --> 00:46:29,319
[Neal] Stay right here. Don't move.
It's okay. I know. Don't move.

987
00:46:29,321 --> 00:46:31,361
- [Liam] I'm scared.
- [Holly] It's okay. It's okay.

988
00:46:34,060 --> 00:46:35,594
Come on, motherfucker.

989
00:46:40,698 --> 00:46:42,034
What?

990
00:46:43,502 --> 00:46:45,038
I was at church.

991
00:46:47,239 --> 00:46:49,142
Coast is clear.

992
00:46:50,442 --> 00:46:52,241
[Ben]
We still got the TV,

993
00:46:52,243 --> 00:46:53,544
and we got the computers,

994
00:46:53,546 --> 00:46:59,149
and, most importantly,
we got the presents.

995
00:46:59,151 --> 00:47:02,185
Yeah, it was probably
just neighborhood kids.

996
00:47:02,187 --> 00:47:03,487
Just a practical joke.

997
00:47:03,489 --> 00:47:05,254
[Holly]
Neal?

998
00:47:05,256 --> 00:47:06,623
No, no real damage.

999
00:47:06,625 --> 00:47:08,324
[Holly]
That's a relief.

1000
00:47:08,326 --> 00:47:09,460
Where's Ponce?

1001
00:47:09,462 --> 00:47:10,694
[Ben]
I don't know.

1002
00:47:10,696 --> 00:47:12,696
I'm sure he's
here somewhere.

1003
00:47:12,698 --> 00:47:15,098
- [Liam] Mom? Where's Ponce?
- [Ivy] You just checked the whole house.

1004
00:47:15,100 --> 00:47:17,100
- [Lacey] Yeah.
- [Holly] He's probably just hiding.

1005
00:47:17,102 --> 00:47:18,002
You didn't see him?

1006
00:47:18,004 --> 00:47:20,237
- [Ben] No.
- [Liam] I wanna find Ponce.

1007
00:47:20,239 --> 00:47:21,705
- [Holly] You know what? It's way past our bed time.
- [Ivy] Ponce!

1008
00:47:21,707 --> 00:47:23,272
- [Holly] Shh, upstairs.
- [Liam] But mo-o-om.

1009
00:47:23,274 --> 00:47:24,775
[Ivy]
Ponce!

1010
00:47:24,777 --> 00:47:27,511
- [Liam] I wanna find Ponce.
- [Holly] No, shh, upstairs.

1011
00:47:27,513 --> 00:47:29,679
- [security system beeping]
- [Ben] Fuck.

1012
00:47:29,681 --> 00:47:31,815
Ponce!

1013
00:47:31,817 --> 00:47:33,549
Come on, Poncey!

1014
00:47:33,551 --> 00:47:35,252
Come on, Poncey!

1015
00:47:35,254 --> 00:47:36,386
I bet he just...

1016
00:47:36,388 --> 00:47:37,855
you know, went
out exploring.

1017
00:47:37,857 --> 00:47:39,556
No, he didn't.

1018
00:47:39,558 --> 00:47:43,659
Sweetie, he is just having
a Christmas adventure.

1019
00:47:43,661 --> 00:47:44,661
All right?

1020
00:47:44,663 --> 00:47:46,496
[Ivy, shouting]
Come on, boy!

1021
00:47:46,498 --> 00:47:47,730
[Ivy]
Ponce!

1022
00:47:47,732 --> 00:47:49,535
[Holly]
OK, snuggled in.

1023
00:47:50,669 --> 00:47:52,636
[security system]
Front door.

1024
00:47:52,638 --> 00:47:55,205
[Ivy] I can't find him anywhere.

1025
00:47:55,207 --> 00:47:56,806
And he'd never run off.

1026
00:47:56,808 --> 00:47:58,308
[Ivy]
Someone took him.

1027
00:47:58,310 --> 00:47:59,375
[ornaments falling]

1028
00:47:59,377 --> 00:48:01,712
[Neal] Who would steal our dog?

1029
00:48:01,714 --> 00:48:05,418
You come back, and
then this happens?

1030
00:48:06,819 --> 00:48:08,188
This is on you.

1031
00:48:25,638 --> 00:48:28,871
[security system]
Front door.

1032
00:48:28,873 --> 00:48:30,507
[Holly] Tomorrow,
when you wake up,

1033
00:48:30,509 --> 00:48:31,908
it's gonna be Christmas.

1034
00:48:31,910 --> 00:48:34,580
With presents and Ponce.

1035
00:48:35,446 --> 00:48:37,547
All right. I love you.

1036
00:48:37,549 --> 00:48:39,815
Try to sleep, and I'll
be right back, OK?

1037
00:48:39,817 --> 00:48:41,185
Love you.

1038
00:48:41,187 --> 00:48:42,185
Leave the light on.

1039
00:48:42,187 --> 00:48:43,622
[Holly]
Of course I will.

1040
00:48:56,868 --> 00:48:58,335
[Holly]
What are you doing?

1041
00:48:58,337 --> 00:49:00,203
You aren't calling
the cops, are you?

1042
00:49:00,205 --> 00:49:01,605
[Neal]
I am.

1043
00:49:01,607 --> 00:49:04,607
No, Neal.
No cops. Not yet.

1044
00:49:04,609 --> 00:49:05,741
Where is he?

1045
00:49:05,743 --> 00:49:07,210
Why wasn't
the alarm on?

1046
00:49:07,212 --> 00:49:08,612
Because Ben was with us.

1047
00:49:08,614 --> 00:49:11,415
He's the reason we got the
alarm in the first place.

1048
00:49:11,417 --> 00:49:12,815
[Holly]
Where is he?

1049
00:49:12,817 --> 00:49:14,187
He left.

1050
00:49:20,259 --> 00:49:21,628
[Ivy, whispering]
Go.

1051
00:49:24,897 --> 00:49:26,232
Holly.

1052
00:49:28,234 --> 00:49:29,299
Holly?

1053
00:49:29,301 --> 00:49:30,803
[security system]
Left door.

1054
00:49:38,377 --> 00:49:40,779
[Holly]
Jesus. Ben!

1055
00:49:42,247 --> 00:49:43,779
Ben!

1056
00:49:43,781 --> 00:49:46,850
Every fucking thing
I do turns to shit.

1057
00:49:46,852 --> 00:49:48,719
- [Holly] No, honey...
- [Ben] No, no matter how

1058
00:49:48,721 --> 00:49:50,821
hard I try, everything
just turns to shit.

1059
00:49:50,823 --> 00:49:52,388
Please, just get in the car.

1060
00:49:52,390 --> 00:49:53,390
I didn't do it.

1061
00:49:53,392 --> 00:49:54,790
[Holly]
Obviously.

1062
00:49:54,792 --> 00:49:56,525
But I'm... I'm the reason
that somebody did.

1063
00:49:56,527 --> 00:49:57,861
- [dog barking]
- [Ben] I put you in danger.

1064
00:49:57,863 --> 00:50:01,297
I put my... I put my
family in danger.

1065
00:50:01,299 --> 00:50:02,665
And...

1066
00:50:02,667 --> 00:50:04,868
And I should've
known. I'm so stupid.

1067
00:50:04,870 --> 00:50:07,707
No, you're not.
Please, get in the car.

1068
00:50:08,806 --> 00:50:11,578
[Holly] Jesus.
Where are you going?

1069
00:50:12,444 --> 00:50:13,909
Ben!

1070
00:50:13,911 --> 00:50:15,411
[Holly]
Will you stop?

1071
00:50:15,413 --> 00:50:17,047
I have to fix it.
I have to fix it.

1072
00:50:17,049 --> 00:50:18,415
I gotta find Ponce.

1073
00:50:18,417 --> 00:50:19,449
OK, well, just think.

1074
00:50:19,451 --> 00:50:20,884
[Ben] I am. God, damn it.

1075
00:50:20,886 --> 00:50:21,951
What?

1076
00:50:21,953 --> 00:50:23,654
H-How?

1077
00:50:23,656 --> 00:50:24,955
You don't understand.

1078
00:50:24,957 --> 00:50:27,292
There are so many people
that it could be.

1079
00:50:30,562 --> 00:50:34,998
All right, well, we'll just
take it one asshole at a time.

1080
00:50:35,000 --> 00:50:37,003
[Holly]
Well, get in the car.

1081
00:50:45,444 --> 00:50:46,746
Seat belt.

1082
00:50:57,855 --> 00:51:00,727
[Ben] No, don't turn here.
Don't turn on Elm.

1083
00:51:03,328 --> 00:51:04,594
Not Pleasant.

1084
00:51:04,596 --> 00:51:06,899
All right. Just tell
me where to turn.

1085
00:51:08,399 --> 00:51:09,466
Tell me where.

1086
00:51:09,468 --> 00:51:10,701
- [Ben] Fuck!
- [Holly] What?

1087
00:51:10,703 --> 00:51:12,872
I've... I've used there.

1088
00:51:21,913 --> 00:51:24,383
I robbed someone there. I...

1089
00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:39,995
[Holly]
This place?

1090
00:51:39,997 --> 00:51:41,630
- [Ben] Yeah.
- [Holly] What's here?

1091
00:51:41,632 --> 00:51:43,033
You cannot ask, Mom.

1092
00:51:43,035 --> 00:51:44,567
If we're...

1093
00:51:44,569 --> 00:51:46,837
If we're doing this together,

1094
00:51:46,839 --> 00:51:47,870
you cannot ask.

1095
00:51:47,872 --> 00:51:49,906
OK, I won't ask.

1096
00:51:49,908 --> 00:51:51,040
I'll just... OK.

1097
00:51:51,042 --> 00:51:52,711
No. No, Mom.

1098
00:51:56,748 --> 00:51:58,382
But I'm not letting
you out of my sight.

1099
00:51:58,384 --> 00:52:00,652
You won't have to.
Just stay here.

1100
00:52:10,094 --> 00:52:11,698
[door bell rings]

1101
00:52:18,603 --> 00:52:20,406
[opera music]

1102
00:52:22,741 --> 00:52:24,043
Well.

1103
00:52:25,477 --> 00:52:26,745
It's about time.

1104
00:52:27,446 --> 00:52:28,779
Come in.

1105
00:52:28,781 --> 00:52:30,683
[indistinct conversation]

1106
00:52:39,123 --> 00:52:41,794
[Ben] Did you take...
did you take my dog?

1107
00:52:54,672 --> 00:52:55,705
No luck.

1108
00:52:55,707 --> 00:52:57,607
Who was that?

1109
00:52:57,609 --> 00:52:59,576
Mom, we had a deal.

1110
00:52:59,578 --> 00:53:00,846
Let's go.

1111
00:53:09,687 --> 00:53:11,687
- I recognize him.
- Mom.

1112
00:53:11,689 --> 00:53:13,024
I know I know him.

1113
00:53:15,727 --> 00:53:17,830
God, he looks so familiar.

1114
00:53:18,464 --> 00:53:19,696
Mr. Richman.

1115
00:53:19,698 --> 00:53:20,730
Your history teacher?

1116
00:53:20,732 --> 00:53:22,067
Yeah.

1117
00:53:27,473 --> 00:53:29,071
His mother had cancer.

1118
00:53:29,073 --> 00:53:30,640
Hospice.

1119
00:53:30,642 --> 00:53:34,013
He had lots of oxy.
Jars full, and endless supply.

1120
00:53:36,582 --> 00:53:38,084
We had an arrangement.

1121
00:53:43,754 --> 00:53:45,221
Oh, God.

1122
00:53:45,223 --> 00:53:47,623
Oh, my God.

1123
00:53:47,625 --> 00:53:49,558
[car honking]

1124
00:53:49,560 --> 00:53:51,029
Oh, that piece of shit.

1125
00:53:55,167 --> 00:53:57,103
[vomits]

1126
00:54:14,652 --> 00:54:16,589
Mom, we gotta
keep going.

1127
00:54:24,263 --> 00:54:27,033
[somber instrumental
music playing]

1128
00:54:53,859 --> 00:54:55,561
I think it's...

1129
00:54:57,796 --> 00:54:59,062
What's here?

1130
00:54:59,064 --> 00:55:01,267
Maggie's dad lives
in one of these.

1131
00:55:03,868 --> 00:55:05,837
Why would he
take Ponce?

1132
00:55:06,772 --> 00:55:08,174
Who hates me more?

1133
00:55:16,348 --> 00:55:17,650
It's one of these.

1134
00:55:31,997 --> 00:55:33,565
[Ben]
That's him.

1135
00:55:40,872 --> 00:55:42,174
No Ponce.

1136
00:55:51,917 --> 00:55:53,685
Heartbreaking, that.

1137
00:55:55,620 --> 00:55:57,754
Sometimes it catches.

1138
00:55:57,756 --> 00:56:01,991
- [Holly] Why don't you let me try?
- [Ben] I got it.

1139
00:56:01,993 --> 00:56:03,192
Just... you're being too
herky-jerky with it.

1140
00:56:03,194 --> 00:56:04,627
I'm not being
herky-jerky.

1141
00:56:04,629 --> 00:56:05,895
Sweetie, I'm not
criticizing you.

1142
00:56:05,897 --> 00:56:07,763
I'm just saying.

1143
00:56:07,765 --> 00:56:10,000
- Mom, I know how to...
- I don't... apparently not this exact seatbelt

1144
00:56:10,002 --> 00:56:11,835
- you know how to put on.
- Holy...!

1145
00:56:11,837 --> 00:56:13,303
- [Ben] Shit!
- [Holly] Oh, my God!

1146
00:56:13,305 --> 00:56:16,339
What the fuck are
you doing here?

1147
00:56:16,341 --> 00:56:18,674
You fucking junkie
piece of shit!

1148
00:56:18,676 --> 00:56:19,708
Get the fuck out!

1149
00:56:19,710 --> 00:56:21,046
[Holly] Oh, the fuck?!

1150
00:56:27,285 --> 00:56:29,919
[Holly] We are going to
have to talk about this.

1151
00:56:29,921 --> 00:56:31,721
I mean, I get to
ask questions.

1152
00:56:31,723 --> 00:56:33,223
- I get...
- [phone ringing]

1153
00:56:33,225 --> 00:56:36,158
I'm gonna have to explain
the window to Neal.

1154
00:56:36,160 --> 00:56:39,929
He tried to bash in
my head, and he should.

1155
00:56:39,931 --> 00:56:41,163
Don't say that.

1156
00:56:41,165 --> 00:56:42,998
If you were him,
you'd want me dead

1157
00:56:43,000 --> 00:56:44,868
for what I did.

1158
00:56:44,870 --> 00:56:46,703
All right, well, then you're
going to have to help me here.

1159
00:56:46,705 --> 00:56:48,040
What did you do?

1160
00:56:53,879 --> 00:56:57,083
[police sirens]

1161
00:57:06,091 --> 00:57:07,991
Who are we
looking for?

1162
00:57:07,993 --> 00:57:09,395
You'll know when I know.

1163
00:57:12,698 --> 00:57:14,100
[Holly]
Thank you.

1164
00:57:24,710 --> 00:57:26,178
I got Maggie hooked.

1165
00:57:35,020 --> 00:57:37,723
I told her how
great it was.

1166
00:57:39,223 --> 00:57:41,757
Did you tie her down and
stick a needle in her arm?

1167
00:57:41,759 --> 00:57:43,859
- No, but...
- [Holly] And, at that time,

1168
00:57:43,861 --> 00:57:49,265
didn't you think it was
the best thing ever?

1169
00:57:49,267 --> 00:57:52,134
[Holly] Then, you
told her the truth.

1170
00:57:52,136 --> 00:57:55,471
At that time,
that was your truth.

1171
00:57:55,473 --> 00:57:56,339
But it was wrong.

1172
00:57:56,341 --> 00:57:59,842
Didn't you just want
her to be happy?

1173
00:57:59,844 --> 00:58:02,178
This... this is so twisted.

1174
00:58:02,180 --> 00:58:04,783
[Holly] Well, what did
you want her to feel?

1175
00:58:06,017 --> 00:58:08,250
Do you hear
yourself right now?

1176
00:58:08,252 --> 00:58:10,823
What did you want
her to feel?

1177
00:58:17,995 --> 00:58:19,264
Safe.

1178
00:58:22,033 --> 00:58:23,766
Loved.

1179
00:58:23,768 --> 00:58:25,738
Alive. Whole.

1180
00:58:28,306 --> 00:58:30,276
Something that nobody...

1181
00:58:31,143 --> 00:58:33,375
not even you could ever...

1182
00:58:33,377 --> 00:58:34,779
make me feel.

1183
00:58:40,051 --> 00:58:41,319
OK.

1184
00:58:44,989 --> 00:58:47,058
You know what
you did wrong.

1185
00:58:48,326 --> 00:58:51,197
You lived,
and she didn't.

1186
00:58:52,330 --> 00:58:54,132
And we'll never know why.

1187
00:58:55,901 --> 00:58:57,236
It should've been me.

1188
00:58:57,935 --> 00:58:59,204
No.

1189
00:59:00,971 --> 00:59:02,871
You ready to order?

1190
00:59:02,873 --> 00:59:06,942
Um, yes, I will have
you soup of the day

1191
00:59:06,944 --> 00:59:08,247
and a combo, please.

1192
00:59:10,515 --> 00:59:12,884
[phone ringing]

1193
00:59:14,185 --> 00:59:15,851
Hi, honey, I was
about to call you.

1194
00:59:15,853 --> 00:59:18,524
[Neal] I'm going out of my mind.
Where are you?

1195
00:59:19,491 --> 00:59:21,524
Um, I'm... I'm with Ben.

1196
00:59:21,526 --> 00:59:25,295
It took me a while to find
find him, but I did, and, uh,

1197
00:59:25,297 --> 00:59:27,196
[Holly] We're just
getting a bite.

1198
00:59:27,198 --> 00:59:29,431
- [Liam] Daddy.
- [Neal] We're supposed to be a united front.

1199
00:59:29,433 --> 00:59:32,201
[Holly] We are.
You just have to trust me.

1200
00:59:32,203 --> 00:59:33,368
Well, you're making
that very hard.

1201
00:59:33,370 --> 00:59:35,205
You need to come home.

1202
00:59:35,207 --> 00:59:37,172
Not without Ponce.

1203
00:59:37,174 --> 00:59:40,210
Those kids are waking
up with their dog.

1204
00:59:40,212 --> 00:59:42,511
And there's no need
for cops because

1205
00:59:42,513 --> 00:59:44,580
we've got this,
Ben and I.

1206
00:59:44,582 --> 00:59:45,281
Don't we, Ben?

1207
00:59:45,283 --> 00:59:46,549
[Neal] You've got this.

1208
00:59:46,551 --> 00:59:49,152
- You and the drug addict. You got this.
- [Lacey] Daddy?

1209
00:59:49,154 --> 00:59:50,456
Please...

1210
00:59:51,522 --> 00:59:53,056
Baby.

1211
00:59:53,058 --> 00:59:54,357
Here's an ideal, Neal.

1212
00:59:54,359 --> 00:59:56,993
Why don't you take
care of our kids?

1213
00:59:56,995 --> 00:59:58,094
And I'll deal with mine.

1214
00:59:58,096 --> 00:59:59,395
Hm?

1215
00:59:59,397 --> 01:00:01,267
[Neal] I'm going to bed.

1216
01:00:02,901 --> 01:00:04,169
Neal.

1217
01:00:10,609 --> 01:00:12,375
What?

1218
01:00:12,377 --> 01:00:14,145
He's a bit of a dick.

1219
01:00:14,478 --> 01:00:15,545
Wow.

1220
01:00:15,547 --> 01:00:17,179
Weren't you just
complaining?

1221
01:00:17,181 --> 01:00:20,382
[Holly] No, I can think
or say about him

1222
01:00:20,384 --> 01:00:23,152
whatever I want because
he is my husband,

1223
01:00:23,154 --> 01:00:25,355
and I love him,
but you...

1224
01:00:25,357 --> 01:00:27,326
God, you clearly
don't get it.

1225
01:00:28,058 --> 01:00:29,324
You're here,

1226
01:00:29,326 --> 01:00:32,495
and without Neal,
you wouldn't be.

1227
01:00:32,497 --> 01:00:34,029
Mm, don't be so sure.

1228
01:00:34,031 --> 01:00:35,330
How many rehabs
is it now?

1229
01:00:35,332 --> 01:00:36,565
I couldn't've paid for it.

1230
01:00:36,567 --> 01:00:38,167
Insurance won't anymore.

1231
01:00:38,169 --> 01:00:39,902
The government
doesn't give a fuck.

1232
01:00:39,904 --> 01:00:42,371
And, heaven help you
if you're poor,

1233
01:00:42,373 --> 01:00:45,942
which, because of Neal,
we aren't anymore.

1234
01:00:45,944 --> 01:00:51,013
He took out a second mortgage on
the house to pay for you this time.

1235
01:00:51,015 --> 01:00:54,185
The only thing you should
say about Neal is thank you.

1236
01:00:55,486 --> 01:00:57,085
[waitress]
No way, man.

1237
01:00:57,087 --> 01:00:58,353
[waitress]
Go!

1238
01:00:58,355 --> 01:01:00,255
- Relax.
- No, I'm not relaxing. Go.

1239
01:01:00,257 --> 01:01:01,457
[waitress]
I said get out.

1240
01:01:01,459 --> 01:01:02,692
[Holly]
What is it?

1241
01:01:02,694 --> 01:01:03,692
Oh, shit.

1242
01:01:03,694 --> 01:01:04,728
[utensils falling]

1243
01:01:04,730 --> 01:01:06,866
- [glass shattering]
- [man] What's going on?

1244
01:01:12,337 --> 01:01:14,573
[grunting, groaning]

1245
01:01:25,350 --> 01:01:26,683
Who'd you tell?

1246
01:01:26,685 --> 01:01:27,817
About what?

1247
01:01:27,819 --> 01:01:29,419
- That I'm back.
- Everyone knows you're back.

1248
01:01:29,421 --> 01:01:31,020
'Cause of you.

1249
01:01:31,022 --> 01:01:32,020
Where's my dog?

1250
01:01:32,022 --> 01:01:33,522
Who took my dog?

1251
01:01:33,524 --> 01:01:35,024
Oh, so you can steal other
people's shit all you want?

1252
01:01:35,026 --> 01:01:36,962
But someone steals
yours you get all holy?

1253
01:01:37,962 --> 01:01:40,228
OK, was it Tommy?

1254
01:01:40,230 --> 01:01:41,230
No.

1255
01:01:41,232 --> 01:01:42,230
Was it Bumgarner?

1256
01:01:42,232 --> 01:01:43,299
Jail.

1257
01:01:43,301 --> 01:01:44,569
Was it Clayton?

1258
01:01:52,676 --> 01:01:54,012
Who's that?

1259
01:01:55,547 --> 01:01:56,682
My mom.

1260
01:01:58,216 --> 01:01:59,652
Oh, oh, hey, Mrs. B.

1261
01:02:00,285 --> 01:02:01,553
Long time.

1262
01:02:02,386 --> 01:02:04,152
Spencer?

1263
01:02:04,154 --> 01:02:06,054
I... I go by Spider now, Mrs. B.

1264
01:02:06,056 --> 01:02:07,493
Feels more like me.

1265
01:02:08,493 --> 01:02:09,995
You look terrible.

1266
01:02:11,495 --> 01:02:13,965
You always say it
like it is, Mrs. B.

1267
01:02:17,035 --> 01:02:18,768
Oh, my God.

1268
01:02:18,770 --> 01:02:19,768
I'm sorry, Mrs. B.

1269
01:02:19,770 --> 01:02:23,007
[Ben panting in pain]

1270
01:02:33,785 --> 01:02:36,085
[Holly]
Oh, God, that little shit.

1271
01:02:36,087 --> 01:02:37,085
It's okay.

1272
01:02:37,087 --> 01:02:38,286
Let me just help.

1273
01:02:38,288 --> 01:02:39,691
- It's not helping.
- [Holly] OK.

1274
01:02:40,591 --> 01:02:42,525
I know who has Ponce.

1275
01:02:42,527 --> 01:02:45,560
- Well, that's great. That's something.
- [Ben] No, no.

1276
01:02:45,562 --> 01:02:48,299
It's the person I
hoped it wouldn't be.

1277
01:02:57,609 --> 01:02:59,311
It's gonna take more.

1278
01:03:00,245 --> 01:03:02,612
That's my daily limit.

1279
01:03:02,614 --> 01:03:05,147
I can write a check, but...

1280
01:03:05,149 --> 01:03:07,518
these aren't check
people, are they?

1281
01:03:08,319 --> 01:03:09,587
No.

1282
01:03:14,058 --> 01:03:15,326
Take this.

1283
01:03:17,462 --> 01:03:18,764
It's worth a lot.

1284
01:03:20,064 --> 01:03:21,332
It's just a thing.

1285
01:03:25,303 --> 01:03:26,605
I'm sorry.

1286
01:03:28,839 --> 01:03:30,341
I never liked it.

1287
01:03:38,382 --> 01:03:41,350
[Ben]
Turn your lights off.

1288
01:03:41,352 --> 01:03:43,185
[Holly] All right. Let's...
You know what?

1289
01:03:43,187 --> 01:03:45,221
Let's just... let's just
turn right around

1290
01:03:45,223 --> 01:03:47,757
because Ponce was a rescue,
and we had a good run.

1291
01:03:47,759 --> 01:03:49,324
You did not
just say that.

1292
01:03:49,326 --> 01:03:51,159
Yes, I did.
Ponce is just a dog.

1293
01:03:51,161 --> 01:03:53,862
I love five people,
and Ponce is two of them.

1294
01:03:53,864 --> 01:03:55,630
OK, well, he is
a pee in the house,

1295
01:03:55,632 --> 01:03:56,699
crap on the carpet dog,

1296
01:03:56,701 --> 01:03:58,167
and you are
so much more.

1297
01:03:58,169 --> 01:04:00,636
Fuck, what are we doing?
This is madness.

1298
01:04:00,638 --> 01:04:02,638
No. No, this is manageable.

1299
01:04:02,640 --> 01:04:04,473
It's Clayton.
We go way back.

1300
01:04:04,475 --> 01:04:05,708
I'll pay up,

1301
01:04:05,710 --> 01:04:06,775
and maybe we'll
have a good laugh.

1302
01:04:06,777 --> 01:04:08,210
You don't believe that.

1303
01:04:08,212 --> 01:04:09,745
[Ben]
If I don't deal with this,

1304
01:04:09,747 --> 01:04:13,419
then it could be worse next
time for you and the family.

1305
01:04:15,819 --> 01:04:18,754
OK, you go in,
pay the man,

1306
01:04:18,756 --> 01:04:20,623
get Ponce, and get
right back out.

1307
01:04:20,625 --> 01:04:23,426
[indistinct rap music
blasting from the house]

1308
01:04:23,428 --> 01:04:25,428
You're coming out.

1309
01:04:25,430 --> 01:04:27,065
Yeah, I'm coming out.

1310
01:04:31,236 --> 01:04:32,538
Be careful.

1311
01:04:37,174 --> 01:04:38,174
Lock the door.

1312
01:04:38,176 --> 01:04:39,511
Lock the door.

1313
01:05:25,723 --> 01:05:27,659
[sighs]
Just be calm.

1314
01:05:29,928 --> 01:05:30,926
I can't be calm.

1315
01:05:30,928 --> 01:05:32,263
I'll just go in.

1316
01:05:58,422 --> 01:05:59,688
[Ben] Mom.

1317
01:05:59,690 --> 01:06:01,257
Mom, what are you doing?

1318
01:06:01,259 --> 01:06:02,257
Oh, my God.

1319
01:06:02,259 --> 01:06:03,692
Get over here.

1320
01:06:03,694 --> 01:06:04,926
What happened?
Where's Ponce?

1321
01:06:04,928 --> 01:06:06,629
All right, I got in,
and I got out.

1322
01:06:06,631 --> 01:06:07,629
And that's the good news.

1323
01:06:07,631 --> 01:06:08,763
What's the bad?

1324
01:06:08,765 --> 01:06:10,433
I just need you
to drive, OK?

1325
01:06:10,435 --> 01:06:11,433
Let me do the thinking.

1326
01:06:11,435 --> 01:06:13,502
OK.

1327
01:06:13,504 --> 01:06:15,207
[Holly]
Oh, Jesus.

1328
01:06:21,546 --> 01:06:22,848
Oh, my God.

1329
01:06:23,948 --> 01:06:25,880
Easy. Easy, Mom.

1330
01:06:25,882 --> 01:06:27,250
You're trying too hard.

1331
01:06:27,252 --> 01:06:28,250
OK, of course I am.

1332
01:06:28,252 --> 01:06:30,286
It's what I do.

1333
01:06:30,288 --> 01:06:32,520
Stop. Stop, you're
flooding the engine.

1334
01:06:32,522 --> 01:06:33,522
You've gotta
give it a rest.

1335
01:06:33,524 --> 01:06:34,857
Oh, sorry.

1336
01:06:34,859 --> 01:06:36,859
Clayton doesn't deal
out of here anymore.

1337
01:06:36,861 --> 01:06:39,962
He's gone up the chain,
and he's not happy with me.

1338
01:06:39,964 --> 01:06:41,029
Oh, my God.

1339
01:06:41,031 --> 01:06:43,266
But I got a plan,
so I need you to listen to me.

1340
01:06:43,268 --> 01:06:45,400
I can't help but think if
I hadn't left your dad...

1341
01:06:45,402 --> 01:06:46,935
He left us, so just
please listen to me.

1342
01:06:46,937 --> 01:06:49,038
[Holly] You took it so
hard you blamed yourself.

1343
01:06:49,040 --> 01:06:49,938
OK, just stop.

1344
01:06:49,940 --> 01:06:51,473
It was something
that... it changed you.

1345
01:06:51,475 --> 01:06:52,944
[Ben] Just move... move over.

1346
01:06:56,614 --> 01:06:58,617
A boy needs a dad.

1347
01:07:00,285 --> 01:07:01,449
A boy needs a dad.

1348
01:07:01,451 --> 01:07:02,618
Mom.

1349
01:07:02,620 --> 01:07:04,587
No, it... that's
what you needed.

1350
01:07:04,589 --> 01:07:05,891
Not that dad.

1351
01:07:09,426 --> 01:07:10,995
Fuck, we need gas.

1352
01:07:12,897 --> 01:07:14,996
[Holly] You tried so hard
to keep me happy.

1353
01:07:14,998 --> 01:07:17,966
And what kid wouldn't crack
under the weight of that.

1354
01:07:17,968 --> 01:07:19,270
Mom.

1355
01:07:20,471 --> 01:07:21,536
What?

1356
01:07:21,538 --> 01:07:22,841
What is it?

1357
01:07:37,355 --> 01:07:39,087
You need to go home.

1358
01:07:39,089 --> 01:07:40,323
Not without you.

1359
01:07:40,325 --> 01:07:41,589
You cannot go
where I'm going.

1360
01:07:41,591 --> 01:07:42,792
It's not safe.

1361
01:07:42,794 --> 01:07:44,025
Then I'm definitely going.

1362
01:07:44,027 --> 01:07:45,328
No. No.

1363
01:07:45,330 --> 01:07:46,462
Go home.

1364
01:07:46,464 --> 01:07:47,529
I'll be there soon.

1365
01:07:47,531 --> 01:07:48,897
No, I don't believe you.

1366
01:07:48,899 --> 01:07:51,033
OK, so now you
don't believe me.

1367
01:07:51,035 --> 01:07:52,467
No, I don't.

1368
01:07:52,469 --> 01:07:54,904
Mom, you don't know
what you're doing.

1369
01:07:54,906 --> 01:07:57,406
- I do.
- You don't know what you're doing.

1370
01:07:57,408 --> 01:07:58,940
I'm not worth it.

1371
01:07:58,942 --> 01:08:00,942
If you really knew me,
you'd be done with me.

1372
01:08:00,944 --> 01:08:02,111
No, honey, I wouldn't.

1373
01:08:02,113 --> 01:08:03,779
- And I know you...
- No.

1374
01:08:03,781 --> 01:08:05,513
- I know you.
- You don't, Mom. You don't know me.

1375
01:08:05,515 --> 01:08:07,350
You don't.

1376
01:08:07,352 --> 01:08:10,886
My sponsor told me
not to come back.

1377
01:08:10,888 --> 01:08:12,821
He said it was
a shit idea.

1378
01:08:12,823 --> 01:08:14,623
That I was not ready.

1379
01:08:14,625 --> 01:08:15,691
That's not true.

1380
01:08:15,693 --> 01:08:17,026
Yes, it is.
It is true.

1381
01:08:17,028 --> 01:08:19,395
And I didn't get the
drugs from the girl.

1382
01:08:19,397 --> 01:08:20,628
They were in the attic

1383
01:08:20,630 --> 01:08:24,033
above Liam and
Lacey's room.

1384
01:08:24,035 --> 01:08:25,901
And within an hour
of coming home,

1385
01:08:25,903 --> 01:08:27,673
they were in my pocket.

1386
01:08:31,075 --> 01:08:33,042
I told you not
to believe me,

1387
01:08:33,044 --> 01:08:36,512
and you didn't
fucking listen.

1388
01:08:36,514 --> 01:08:38,948
Do you... I mean, I could...
I could... I could go on.

1389
01:08:38,950 --> 01:08:40,449
Do you want
me to go on?

1390
01:08:40,451 --> 01:08:41,517
There's so much more.

1391
01:08:41,519 --> 01:08:42,785
I killed Maggie.

1392
01:08:42,787 --> 01:08:44,453
- It's not working.
- I killed Maggie!

1393
01:08:44,455 --> 01:08:45,724
It's not working.

1394
01:08:47,392 --> 01:08:49,057
Please, go home!

1395
01:08:49,059 --> 01:08:52,061
You have to go
home, please.

1396
01:08:52,063 --> 01:08:54,530
Please. I'm not
worth it, please.

1397
01:08:54,532 --> 01:08:55,630
Please, go home.

1398
01:08:55,632 --> 01:08:57,669
I will not leave you.

1399
01:09:22,760 --> 01:09:25,130
[upbeat Christmas
song playing]

1400
01:09:29,434 --> 01:09:30,836
Get whatever you want.

1401
01:09:38,975 --> 01:09:40,743
Oh, and I know
you are not open,

1402
01:09:40,745 --> 01:09:42,610
so you have
a Merry Christmas!

1403
01:09:42,612 --> 01:09:43,978
[store clerk]
You, too.

1404
01:09:43,980 --> 01:09:45,815
Can you get me that
blue drink I really like?

1405
01:09:45,817 --> 01:09:47,118
Yeah.

1406
01:09:48,885 --> 01:09:51,856
Mom, you're the best.

1407
01:09:57,228 --> 01:10:00,165
[Ben] So, its just these
two and one more.

1408
01:10:03,701 --> 01:10:04,933
Honey, which one is it?

1409
01:10:04,935 --> 01:10:07,773
Because there is more
than one choice.

1410
01:10:13,010 --> 01:10:14,146
Ben?

1411
01:10:15,979 --> 01:10:19,483
[dramatic music playing]

1412
01:10:29,160 --> 01:10:31,526
[voicemail] Hey, it's Ben.
You know what to do.

1413
01:10:31,528 --> 01:10:32,895
[beeps]

1414
01:10:32,897 --> 01:10:36,065
No. No, I don't, Ben.
I don't know what to do.

1415
01:10:36,067 --> 01:10:39,104
Get fucking back
here right now.

1416
01:10:44,207 --> 01:10:45,911
No!

1417
01:11:04,261 --> 01:11:05,596
[door bell ringing]

1418
01:11:12,537 --> 01:11:13,939
[door unlocks]

1419
01:11:15,171 --> 01:11:16,474
I'm sorry.

1420
01:11:19,609 --> 01:11:22,210
I... I... I didn't know
where else to go.

1421
01:11:22,212 --> 01:11:23,547
He took my car.

1422
01:11:25,649 --> 01:11:28,853
And he's gone somewhere
and I don't know what to do.

1423
01:11:32,556 --> 01:11:33,959
Come... come in.

1424
01:11:41,299 --> 01:11:44,269
I can't tell my husband.
He'll call the cops.

1425
01:11:45,102 --> 01:11:46,634
Someone took our dog,

1426
01:11:46,636 --> 01:11:48,974
and Ben's just out
trying to find our dog.

1427
01:11:49,706 --> 01:11:51,108
Come on, Holly.

1428
01:11:51,943 --> 01:11:53,776
He's an addict.

1429
01:11:53,778 --> 01:11:55,677
And he's out there.

1430
01:11:55,679 --> 01:11:58,048
[clock ticking]

1431
01:12:01,586 --> 01:12:02,954
Stay put.

1432
01:12:22,372 --> 01:12:25,009
Holly, you'll need
to listen closely.

1433
01:12:26,143 --> 01:12:28,744
He has a shelf-life
of 18 to 24 months,

1434
01:12:28,746 --> 01:12:30,713
and it's been over
two years, but...

1435
01:12:30,715 --> 01:12:33,915
It should be strong enough
if it's the only kit available.

1436
01:12:33,917 --> 01:12:35,183
I'm such a smug bitch.

1437
01:12:35,185 --> 01:12:38,020
I'd never thought
I'd need this.

1438
01:12:38,022 --> 01:12:40,321
First you pull off
the yellow caps.

1439
01:12:40,323 --> 01:12:42,857
You screw in the
applicator tip.

1440
01:12:42,859 --> 01:12:44,392
You take off this cap,

1441
01:12:44,394 --> 01:12:45,893
and insert it here.

1442
01:12:45,895 --> 01:12:48,196
Half a dose in
each nostril.

1443
01:12:48,198 --> 01:12:50,966
I c... I can't. I don't
know what I'm doing.

1444
01:12:50,968 --> 01:12:52,834
I'd... If you couldn't
save Maggie...

1445
01:12:52,836 --> 01:12:54,205
We can't save them.

1446
01:12:56,806 --> 01:12:59,611
But you'll hate yourself
if you don't try.

1447
01:13:03,080 --> 01:13:04,983
[closing and zipping the bag]

1448
01:13:12,857 --> 01:13:14,158
Go find him.

1449
01:13:20,230 --> 01:13:22,600
[ominous music playing]

1450
01:14:15,385 --> 01:14:17,988
Now's starting to
feel like Christmas.

1451
01:14:20,256 --> 01:14:21,425
Here.

1452
01:14:25,763 --> 01:14:27,131
This is my mom's.

1453
01:14:28,866 --> 01:14:30,234
And it's worth a lot.

1454
01:14:35,005 --> 01:14:38,042
I'm good for the rest,
and I'll make it right.

1455
01:14:41,778 --> 01:14:43,080
Yeah, well...

1456
01:14:44,314 --> 01:14:46,785
It's not just about
the money, Burns.

1457
01:14:48,385 --> 01:14:51,389
I mean, I had big plans
for you. You were my guy.

1458
01:14:52,889 --> 01:14:53,888
I know.

1459
01:14:53,890 --> 01:14:55,192
[dog barking]

1460
01:15:01,297 --> 01:15:02,830
Look, just give
me my dog back,

1461
01:15:02,832 --> 01:15:05,234
and leave my family
out of this because

1462
01:15:05,236 --> 01:15:06,935
they didn't do anything.

1463
01:15:06,937 --> 01:15:08,936
I wish it were that easy.

1464
01:15:08,938 --> 01:15:10,038
It can be.

1465
01:15:10,040 --> 01:15:11,376
[dog barks]

1466
01:15:15,312 --> 01:15:17,348
Fuck it. It's Christmas, right?

1467
01:15:21,218 --> 01:15:22,551
All right. Come on.

1468
01:15:22,553 --> 01:15:24,055
Take this.

1469
01:15:26,189 --> 01:15:30,160
All I need is for you to do
me just one more little favor.

1470
01:15:33,330 --> 01:15:34,799
What's that?

1471
01:16:01,858 --> 01:16:03,892
Merry Christmas.
How can I help you?

1472
01:16:03,894 --> 01:16:07,364
So, I have this, and it's expired.
I need it replaced.

1473
01:16:09,899 --> 01:16:11,201
[phone pings]

1474
01:16:17,207 --> 01:16:19,176
[pharmacist]
Excuse me, ma'am.

1475
01:16:20,411 --> 01:16:21,944
Ma'am.

1476
01:16:21,946 --> 01:16:24,213
We don't carry this.

1477
01:16:24,215 --> 01:16:26,147
What do you mean
you don't carry it?

1478
01:16:26,149 --> 01:16:27,516
You need to try
another pharmacy.

1479
01:16:27,518 --> 01:16:29,183
No, you're the
only one open.

1480
01:16:29,185 --> 01:16:30,953
What do you mean
you don't carry it?

1481
01:16:30,955 --> 01:16:35,457
It's our policy not to encourage
irresponsible behavior.

1482
01:16:35,459 --> 01:16:38,526
All right, well, then why don't
you discontinue the oxys,

1483
01:16:38,528 --> 01:16:42,030
the perk 30s, and the...
the... the benzo cheerios

1484
01:16:42,032 --> 01:16:43,365
or whatever you call them.

1485
01:16:43,367 --> 01:16:44,999
If you'd like to file a
complaint, there is a...

1486
01:16:45,001 --> 01:16:46,870
I'm fucking filing one!

1487
01:16:49,273 --> 01:16:50,539
God, fucking damn it.

1488
01:16:50,541 --> 01:16:51,876
[text message pings]

1489
01:17:02,952 --> 01:17:05,889
[cell phone rings]

1490
01:17:08,192 --> 01:17:11,529
[ringing continues]

1491
01:17:14,331 --> 01:17:17,836
[ringing continues]

1492
01:17:22,238 --> 01:17:26,243
[guy]
Yo. Yo, yo, yo.

1493
01:17:42,059 --> 01:17:43,962
[train sounds horn]

1494
01:17:59,475 --> 01:18:01,645
[indistinct voices]

1495
01:18:06,082 --> 01:18:07,484
Spare some change?

1496
01:18:17,361 --> 01:18:20,462
Mrs. B. Mrs. B, I'm... I'm...
I'm... I'm not gonna hurt you.

1497
01:18:20,464 --> 01:18:23,468
I'm not gonna hurt you.
I-I-I'm t-too sick.

1498
01:18:24,367 --> 01:18:26,334
Spencer.

1499
01:18:26,336 --> 01:18:27,638
Get in the car.

1500
01:18:31,975 --> 01:18:33,008
[Spencer groans]

1501
01:18:33,010 --> 01:18:35,310
Where is he?

1502
01:18:35,312 --> 01:18:37,478
I'm sorry, Mrs. B.
I-I-I'm not...

1503
01:18:37,480 --> 01:18:40,382
I'm not doing
my best thinking.

1504
01:18:40,384 --> 01:18:42,351
I need... I need to get well.

1505
01:18:42,353 --> 01:18:43,618
You mean get high.

1506
01:18:43,620 --> 01:18:46,521
Fuck, there's
no high anymore.

1507
01:18:46,523 --> 01:18:50,025
I just don't want...
I just don't wanna be sick.

1508
01:18:50,027 --> 01:18:51,593
Help me. H-Help me.

1509
01:18:51,595 --> 01:18:54,628
I just... I just... I just need
a little... a little money.

1510
01:18:54,630 --> 01:18:58,335
OK, I will help you,
but you have to help me.

1511
01:18:59,269 --> 01:19:00,569
Where can I find him?

1512
01:19:00,571 --> 01:19:02,473
He used to run for Clayton.

1513
01:19:03,741 --> 01:19:06,607
You don't... you don't
leave Clayton.

1514
01:19:06,609 --> 01:19:08,043
That's where Ben went.

1515
01:19:08,045 --> 01:19:09,410
Shit.

1516
01:19:09,412 --> 01:19:11,545
- I j... I just snitched.
- [Holly] No, I-I-I...

1517
01:19:11,547 --> 01:19:14,182
I need more. Tell me
everything you know.

1518
01:19:14,184 --> 01:19:15,486
I can't.

1519
01:19:24,428 --> 01:19:25,729
[Holly]
You can.

1520
01:19:29,265 --> 01:19:31,435
- Where is he?
- [Spencer] OK.

1521
01:19:32,568 --> 01:19:35,973
Go to the pawn shop
across the bridge.

1522
01:19:37,041 --> 01:19:40,075
It's in Yonkers.
Ask around.

1523
01:19:40,077 --> 01:19:42,576
And that's all I could... I
could tell you Mrs. B.

1524
01:19:42,578 --> 01:19:44,478
Anything else,
and they'll kill me.

1525
01:19:44,480 --> 01:19:46,647
[Spencer sniffling]
OK?

1526
01:19:46,649 --> 01:19:49,120
You said you'd
help me get well.

1527
01:19:51,822 --> 01:19:54,188
Your mother and
I were friends

1528
01:19:54,190 --> 01:19:55,589
when you and
Ben were babies.

1529
01:19:55,591 --> 01:19:57,058
I changed your diaper.

1530
01:19:57,060 --> 01:19:58,325
This is so fucked.

1531
01:19:58,327 --> 01:20:00,161
Yeah, Mrs. B. It is.

1532
01:20:00,163 --> 01:20:03,634
Call you mother, and tell
her that you're not dead.

1533
01:20:05,435 --> 01:20:08,038
[tense eerie music plays]

1534
01:20:22,352 --> 01:20:24,453
[phone rings]

1535
01:20:24,455 --> 01:20:25,619
Honey, are you OK?

1536
01:20:25,621 --> 01:20:27,755
Just... Just tell
me you're OK.

1537
01:20:27,757 --> 01:20:29,691
[Holly]
You need to be calm.

1538
01:20:29,693 --> 01:20:33,094
[Neal]
I'm calm. Are you OK?

1539
01:20:33,096 --> 01:20:34,665
Yup, we are on it.

1540
01:20:35,498 --> 01:20:37,098
Just totally safe,

1541
01:20:37,100 --> 01:20:39,200
and closing in.

1542
01:20:39,202 --> 01:20:40,235
OK. OK.

1543
01:20:40,237 --> 01:20:41,636
Is that my mom?

1544
01:20:41,638 --> 01:20:43,637
Where are you? Because
I'm coming to get you.

1545
01:20:43,639 --> 01:20:45,240
No, Neal.

1546
01:20:45,242 --> 01:20:46,740
- Is that my mom?
- OK. Yes, it is.

1547
01:20:46,742 --> 01:20:48,743
[Holly] Can I please
talk to her?

1548
01:20:48,745 --> 01:20:50,814
Yes, you may.
Hold on one second.

1549
01:20:52,683 --> 01:20:54,051
Mommy?

1550
01:21:04,461 --> 01:21:05,793
[Holly]
You need to be in bed.

1551
01:21:05,795 --> 01:21:07,628
Ben and I have this
this under control,

1552
01:21:07,630 --> 01:21:10,265
and we will see you
in the morning.

1553
01:21:10,267 --> 01:21:12,366
Why are you lying?

1554
01:21:12,368 --> 01:21:14,369
[Holly]
I'm not.

1555
01:21:14,371 --> 01:21:19,274
Mom, I'm the one who set up
the phones for everybody.

1556
01:21:19,276 --> 01:21:20,775
You're not with Ben.

1557
01:21:20,777 --> 01:21:22,677
Ben is in a whole
other town.

1558
01:21:22,679 --> 01:21:25,280
[Ivy] And I've been calling
you and texting you

1559
01:21:25,282 --> 01:21:26,914
and you won't pick up.

1560
01:21:26,916 --> 01:21:29,618
And I didn't tell Neal
because he'll call the cops,

1561
01:21:29,620 --> 01:21:33,524
but now I'm freaking out
because you lied to me.

1562
01:21:34,558 --> 01:21:37,562
We split up to cover
more ground.

1563
01:21:39,295 --> 01:21:40,561
I don't believe you.

1564
01:21:40,563 --> 01:21:41,896
[Neal knocking]
Ivy?

1565
01:21:41,898 --> 01:21:44,598
What am I... what am
I supposed to do?

1566
01:21:44,600 --> 01:21:45,767
All right, sweetheart.

1567
01:21:45,769 --> 01:21:47,535
You need to be
calm and hang up.

1568
01:21:47,537 --> 01:21:48,802
Deal with Neal.

1569
01:21:48,804 --> 01:21:50,437
Call me back as
soon as you can

1570
01:21:50,439 --> 01:21:51,573
from your own phone.

1571
01:21:51,575 --> 01:21:53,508
All right?

1572
01:21:53,510 --> 01:21:54,508
Yeah?

1573
01:21:54,510 --> 01:21:56,410
[Neal knocking]
Ivy?

1574
01:21:56,412 --> 01:21:57,714
OK.

1575
01:22:06,189 --> 01:22:09,493
[ominous, tense
music intensifies]

1576
01:22:29,513 --> 01:22:31,913
[phone ringing]

1577
01:22:31,915 --> 01:22:32,914
[Holly] Hi, honey.

1578
01:22:32,916 --> 01:22:34,615
[Ivy] Hi, Mom.

1579
01:22:34,617 --> 01:22:36,884
OK, I want you to help me
find your brother, yeah?

1580
01:22:36,886 --> 01:22:40,524
Keep going, and, um, if
you turn left on Millwood.

1581
01:22:43,760 --> 01:22:45,596
Keep going straight...

1582
01:22:46,630 --> 01:22:48,495
and turn right
on 23rd street.

1583
01:22:48,497 --> 01:22:49,630
[Ivy] Do you see that?

1584
01:22:49,632 --> 01:22:52,170
This is 23rd street,
right? OK.

1585
01:22:54,504 --> 01:22:56,237
OK, and, um...

1586
01:22:56,239 --> 01:22:58,643
just keep going
straight for a bit.

1587
01:23:00,510 --> 01:23:03,344
[Holly]
You're doing great, Ivy.

1588
01:23:03,346 --> 01:23:04,881
You're getting really close.

1589
01:23:07,651 --> 01:23:09,484
OK, turn before
the intersection.

1590
01:23:09,486 --> 01:23:10,955
Mom, turn now.

1591
01:23:18,729 --> 01:23:21,265
You're really close.
Do you see him?

1592
01:23:23,966 --> 01:23:25,335
Mom?

1593
01:23:26,769 --> 01:23:28,805
He should be right there.

1594
01:23:30,907 --> 01:23:32,406
I'm gonna call his phone.

1595
01:23:32,408 --> 01:23:33,944
OK, good idea.

1596
01:23:35,479 --> 01:23:38,545
[phone rings]

1597
01:23:38,547 --> 01:23:39,849
[Ivy]
OK, it's ringing.

1598
01:23:40,751 --> 01:23:42,253
[phone ringing]

1599
01:23:44,388 --> 01:23:45,719
Do you hear it?

1600
01:23:45,721 --> 01:23:48,356
[phone ringing]

1601
01:23:48,358 --> 01:23:50,424
I'll call you right back.

1602
01:23:50,426 --> 01:23:51,426
Don't hang up.

1603
01:23:51,428 --> 01:23:53,230
No. Mom?

1604
01:23:55,431 --> 01:23:56,800
[phone ringing]

1605
01:24:00,304 --> 01:24:01,973
[phone ringing]

1606
01:24:14,550 --> 01:24:16,418
[Holly]
I got him.

1607
01:24:16,420 --> 01:24:18,052
OK, God.

1608
01:24:18,054 --> 01:24:20,054
So, so, so, we're
good, sweetie.

1609
01:24:20,056 --> 01:24:22,589
Can I just talk to
him really quick?

1610
01:24:22,591 --> 01:24:23,958
We gotta keep moving.

1611
01:24:23,960 --> 01:24:27,598
We're going to be home
so soon with Ponce.

1612
01:24:28,431 --> 01:24:29,597
Let me talk to Ben.

1613
01:24:29,599 --> 01:24:31,598
No, we gotta keep
moving, honey.

1614
01:24:31,600 --> 01:24:33,034
No, Mom.

1615
01:24:33,036 --> 01:24:36,806
Sweetie, listen, I just... I
need you to go to sleep.

1616
01:24:38,007 --> 01:24:39,908
I can tell there's
something wrong.

1617
01:24:39,910 --> 01:24:42,880
Everything's going to
be OK. Just trust me.

1618
01:24:43,679 --> 01:24:45,112
[Ivy, cyring] Mom.

1619
01:24:45,114 --> 01:24:46,349
OK, sweetie.

1620
01:24:47,684 --> 01:24:49,020
OK, I'll see you.

1621
01:25:03,834 --> 01:25:05,734
[ambulance sirens]

1622
01:25:05,736 --> 01:25:07,037
Excuse me.

1623
01:25:08,971 --> 01:25:10,308
Excuse me.

1624
01:25:11,474 --> 01:25:12,876
I'm looking for my son.

1625
01:25:14,478 --> 01:25:17,047
His name is Ben.
I know he was just here.

1626
01:25:21,484 --> 01:25:22,886
Over by the river.

1627
01:25:24,688 --> 01:25:26,657
That's where
they all end up.

1628
01:25:40,504 --> 01:25:42,439
[water lapping]

1629
01:25:46,977 --> 01:25:48,778
[man]
Hey! Get up!

1630
01:25:54,584 --> 01:25:56,787
[train passes by]

1631
01:26:05,528 --> 01:26:07,130
[coughing]

1632
01:26:19,509 --> 01:26:20,845
Ben?

1633
01:26:23,179 --> 01:26:24,514
Ben.

1634
01:26:50,940 --> 01:26:53,077
Mmm, you did good.

1635
01:26:53,943 --> 01:26:56,511
Hey, he did good, right?

1636
01:26:56,513 --> 01:26:58,882
You made a lot of
people happy today.

1637
01:27:03,487 --> 01:27:04,918
For all your hard work.

1638
01:27:04,920 --> 01:27:06,956
Just give me my dog, man.

1639
01:27:26,910 --> 01:27:30,080
[train chugs along]

1640
01:27:36,720 --> 01:27:38,923
[seagulls cawing]

1641
01:27:40,689 --> 01:27:42,992
[water lapping]

1642
01:27:50,000 --> 01:27:52,069
[phone rings]

1643
01:27:54,104 --> 01:27:55,102
Holly.

1644
01:27:55,104 --> 01:27:56,637
Holly?

1645
01:27:56,639 --> 01:27:58,007
[Holly]
I lost him.

1646
01:27:58,642 --> 01:28:00,941
What?

1647
01:28:00,943 --> 01:28:03,878
I didn't want to
tell you I've been...

1648
01:28:03,880 --> 01:28:05,082
lying to you.

1649
01:28:08,251 --> 01:28:11,522
I've looked everywhere,
and I-I-I can't find him.

1650
01:28:13,857 --> 01:28:15,493
But I tried.

1651
01:28:19,763 --> 01:28:21,596
I know you did.

1652
01:28:21,598 --> 01:28:24,134
I lost him a long
time ago. I just...

1653
01:28:25,702 --> 01:28:30,170
I don't know where to
look, and I'm so tired.

1654
01:28:30,172 --> 01:28:33,207
And I don't know
what to do.

1655
01:28:33,209 --> 01:28:36,244
Tell me where you are.
I'm coming to get you.

1656
01:28:36,246 --> 01:28:38,215
And we'll find
him together.

1657
01:28:41,850 --> 01:28:44,854
No, I'm co... I'm
coming home.

1658
01:28:47,590 --> 01:28:49,292
I'm just gonna
come home.

1659
01:29:01,136 --> 01:29:04,073
- Hey, boy. Hey, boy.
- [collar clinks]

1660
01:29:06,742 --> 01:29:08,879
[Ponce whimpers]

1661
01:29:44,214 --> 01:29:47,117
[hopeful violin
instrumental plays]

1662
01:30:06,670 --> 01:30:08,939
[slams car]

1663
01:30:30,359 --> 01:30:32,095
[pharmacist]
Anything else?

1664
01:31:04,993 --> 01:31:06,263
Here, bud.

1665
01:31:57,313 --> 01:32:00,882
[police radio chatter]

1666
01:32:00,884 --> 01:32:02,216
Excuse me.

1667
01:32:02,218 --> 01:32:03,450
Excuse me. I'm sorry.
I need help, please.

1668
01:32:03,452 --> 01:32:05,820
Ma'am, need to
wait your turn.

1669
01:32:05,822 --> 01:32:08,188
No, I can't... I can't wait my turn because
my son, who's... he's not a bad kid.

1670
01:32:08,190 --> 01:32:11,124
No, no, no, no, I can't. There's
not time for that right now.

1671
01:32:11,126 --> 01:32:12,125
He stole my car.

1672
01:32:12,127 --> 01:32:13,194
[Holly]
Please.

1673
01:32:13,196 --> 01:32:14,462
Excuse me, sir.

1674
01:32:14,464 --> 01:32:16,097
- [phone ringing]
- Ma'am, hold on a second.

1675
01:32:16,099 --> 01:32:18,098
- Can you find...?
- Hello. Hold on one second.

1676
01:32:18,100 --> 01:32:19,400
Ma'am, standing there

1677
01:32:19,402 --> 01:32:21,535
- won't help you...
- I just need you to

1678
01:32:21,537 --> 01:32:24,806
please find my son
and arrest him!

1679
01:32:24,808 --> 01:32:26,810
I'm begging you!

1680
01:32:28,077 --> 01:32:29,880
[Ponce barking

1681
01:32:37,886 --> 01:32:41,254
If you just wanna calm down and
have a seat, I'll start the form.

1682
01:32:41,256 --> 01:32:42,390
Thank you.
I'm sorry.

1683
01:32:42,392 --> 01:32:44,193
[phone ringing
and chattering]

1684
01:32:48,264 --> 01:32:51,468
[Holly's cell
phone ringing]

1685
01:32:57,105 --> 01:32:58,442
Hello?

1686
01:33:19,929 --> 01:33:22,132
[Ponce whimpering]

1687
01:33:30,239 --> 01:33:32,376
[Ponce barking]

1688
01:33:44,319 --> 01:33:46,556
Good boy.
Good boy.

1689
01:33:47,556 --> 01:33:49,225
Oh, my God.

1690
01:33:49,626 --> 01:33:50,961
Honey?

1691
01:33:52,161 --> 01:33:53,960
Wake up, Ben.

1692
01:33:53,962 --> 01:33:55,061
Wake up, honey.

1693
01:33:55,063 --> 01:33:56,365
Come on.

1694
01:33:59,135 --> 01:34:00,133
OK.

1695
01:34:00,135 --> 01:34:01,401
All right.

1696
01:34:01,403 --> 01:34:02,906
We've got this. OK.

1697
01:34:04,072 --> 01:34:05,408
All right.

1698
01:34:06,309 --> 01:34:07,945
[Ponce whimpers]

1699
01:34:09,645 --> 01:34:11,344
Come on.

1700
01:34:11,346 --> 01:34:13,013
Come on. Hang in there.

1701
01:34:13,015 --> 01:34:14,181
Come back to me.

1702
01:34:14,183 --> 01:34:15,452
Come on.

1703
01:34:16,051 --> 01:34:17,321
Fuck.

1704
01:34:19,255 --> 01:34:20,320
[Ponce barks]

1705
01:34:20,322 --> 01:34:21,858
Just stay with me.

1706
01:34:24,527 --> 01:34:26,927
OK. OK.

1707
01:34:26,929 --> 01:34:28,898
OK. Ready?

1708
01:34:33,937 --> 01:34:34,968
OK.

1709
01:34:34,970 --> 01:34:36,036
Wake up.

1710
01:34:36,038 --> 01:34:37,541
- Wake up.
- [Ponce barks]

1711
01:34:40,209 --> 01:34:41,510
Please.

1712
01:34:55,390 --> 01:34:57,624
Please. Please, come back.

1713
01:34:57,626 --> 01:35:00,160
Come back.
Please, come back.

1714
01:35:00,162 --> 01:35:01,464
Please.

1715
01:35:06,635 --> 01:35:08,502
Oh, my boy.
Please.

1716
01:35:08,504 --> 01:35:10,338
Please. I know
you can do this.

1717
01:35:10,340 --> 01:35:12,242
[Ponce barks]

1718
01:35:17,980 --> 01:35:19,282
Ben.

1719
01:35:20,983 --> 01:35:22,986
My boy. Please.

1720
01:35:25,721 --> 01:35:27,056
[Ben breathes]

1721
01:35:41,470 --> 01:35:44,674
[hopeful instrumental
music plays]

1722
01:35:56,044 --> 01:36:01,044
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