(11:43:53 PM) jon990@comcast.net: i can copy paste it from a chat log where i explained it to spencer
(11:44:02 PM) jon990@comcast.net: as follows
(11:44:03 PM) jon990@comcast.net: dude im working through yesterday's acid trip in my head
im starting to sort it all out
(11:44:06 PM) jon990@comcast.net: good lord, dude
acid is the real deal

(11:44:09 PM) jon990@comcast.net: it makes the 60s make sense

(11:44:15 PM) jon990@comcast.net: you go into it expecting like
hallucinations and shit
but like 2 hours later youre barefoot in a meadow on your hands and knees crawling around exploring the earth

(11:44:32 PM) moogra69u: lol
(11:44:40 PM) jon990@comcast.net: theres the machines and physics
like we're made of chemicals and shit
(11:44:44 PM) jon990@comcast.net: but
it all means nothing without the way you abstract that into your own human experience
(11:44:54 PM) jon990@comcast.net: the brain is just this place that collects shit from the world
and you make all that shit into your life

(11:45:02 PM) jon990@comcast.net: in reality
humans are so different from each other
we have very little in common but we make it seem otherwise by just the way our brains jumble the information together

(11:45:20 PM) jon990@comcast.net: what nearly drove me mad was when i was sitting in the dining hall
watching the person across from me
and losing my grip on reality
and i watched my awareness of my surroundings just tear away from me
my ego sort of withdrew from the physical world and into a different brain state that could barely be considered sentient
(11:45:31 PM) jon990@comcast.net: i didnt know how i felt
couldnt understand anything that was coming through my sensory channels
(11:45:43 PM) jon990@comcast.net: the world out there is coming into your brain all the time through your eyes and ears and shit but
if you dont perceive it and make sense of it in your brain
it all goes to shit
and it's nothing like it's supposed to be
(11:46:01 PM) jon990@comcast.net: what im saying is that on a daily level
we forget that we arent really just
Jon Carter the engineer doing his laundry
we're individual human consciousnesses churning in our own brains
grinding at the uninvited senses pouring into us
desperately trying to turn the madness of the void of logical thought into some sort of organized row of sensical events
a life
(11:46:22 PM) jon990@comcast.net: the human experience is not something we're born into
it's something we scrap together out of desperation to insulate us from the terrifying prospect of illogical unrelated sensory input
a row of unrelated events that could just be some other natural process
something inhuman
just
inanimate
nonsentient

(11:46:37 PM) jon990@comcast.net: thats all i have written down right now, it was a chat log
(11:47:10 PM) moogra69u: that begs the question why we need sensory input to begin with
(11:47:19 PM) moogra69u: if we were all just blobs of meat
(11:47:23 PM) moogra69u: we wouldn't have this problem
(11:50:05 PM) jon990@comcast.net: its important though
(11:50:16 PM) jon990@comcast.net: thats not a complete theory
(11:50:27 PM) jon990@comcast.net: what youre asking is signal theory which is like
(11:50:31 PM) jon990@comcast.net: another idea i had
(11:51:02 PM) jon990@comcast.net: okay
(11:51:04 PM) jon990@comcast.net: PART II:
(11:51:06 PM) jon990@comcast.net: prestige theory
(11:51:11 PM) jon990@comcast.net: aka shroom theory
(11:51:20 PM) jon990@comcast.net: The scariest possibility in all of my psychonautic and epistomological adventures is... total understanding. Could it be that complete fulfillment is the worst possible thing you can do to a man?
 As we sat, on a beautiful day, on a park bench surrounded by hundreds of normal middle class people, we seemed as if we were the the object of some unfathomable cosmic joke. We saw before us the entire human race, the planet, the universe, all of creation... just sitting there, unfolding before us, just as we do every day of our normal lives.
That's all there is. Ever. All of existence. That's it.

(11:51:26 PM) jon990@comcast.net:  There's nothing else. In fact, the universe is completely mundane, and hides nothing from us. We can understand every facet of it if we so desire, and it will bring us nowhere. You don't have to look hard to find everything. It's already here. You were born sitting right in front of it. You have a front row seat to all of existence, and whether or not you are fooled by it, you see all that there is. You may mistakenly believe that there is something behind the scenes, a trick, a deception, or a puzzle. This could be your life. And all your joy and sadness could be your combattance of this nonexistent enemy. All your life work could be a striving for what you already have, because once you have achieved it, your life is over. Once you have everything that you could want, what is left? We don't ascend to a higher level of existence. We don't return to the main program. We don't start over again. In fact, we haven't even gotten everything we wanted, because we already had it. It's like losing money in the couch cushion, and then finding it again. It feels good briefly, but upon closer inspection, nothing has changed.

(11:51:44 PM) jon990@comcast.net: then theres three quotes from the movie The Prestige
(11:51:47 PM) jon990@comcast.net: "the world is simple. It's miserable, solid all the way through. But if you could fool them, even for a second, then you can make them wonder"

 "Now you're looking for the secret. But you won’t find it because of course, you're not really looking. You don't really want to work it out. You want to be fooled."

"The secret impresses no one. The trick you use it for is everything."