I hate to be another person to write a lengthy dramatic pastebin but feels like something I should do.

Writing this will seem really out of character for me but I assure you it's me who has wrote all this (Scept btw)

Since mid February this year I have been in a dark place, I don't know if the majority of people here have noticed that, I'm sure people like Conor, maybe Jem, who have known me for the last 7/8 years have noticed I haven't been myself, whether that's coming off more blunt and rude, or in general being an awful person. I would like to apologise for the snapping or being a cruel person.

I won't go into detail about what has made me feel like I have, but it's betrayal in my love life, (I'm sure most people are able to fix together what I mean) And for months I have kind of gone about my life as usual, knowing I'm in an unhealthy state and would hope time would fix it, it hasn't and things are slowly starting to feel like they're getting worse and I feel it's about time I act on it, I'm not leaving SL, which I know everyone is thinking while writing this, but, for almost half my life SL has been something that has affected my life and all my teenage years were spent here so it felt right that if I needed help or guidance with anything, SL is the best place for me to vent all this out and get it off my chest.

I'm not quite sure HOW I am going to better myself and get myself out of this slump, but I do know it's going to be something that can keep me busy, as I'm sure everyone knows, when you don't have anything to do, you think more, and that's whats happening, since febuary I haven't had anything to keep my mind busy as I have just felt out of touch to everything and I think it's about time I find some things to get my mind busy. Any suggestions would be great.

Currently I'm thinking about getting back into doing art, which I haven't done since I was around 16/17, (I'm 20 now). I am also thinking of getting into streaming daily, or starting my own channel and doing YouTube. Again, any suggestions would be great