I removed all the hate in my tweets because in the end I just feel so heart broken and was angry. To lose someone that I cared about for the last 6 months. It really sucks and its a pain I just cant explain, knowing how I would have done anything for them and they couldn't do the same for me hurt so much.. to not talk to me about it and go behind my back also hurts. But at the end of it all regardless there is no point laying blame or pointing fingers both of our actions ended up leading to this moment in life. It just wasn't meant to be.

There is nothing that I can do at this point and I think that is what is most frustrating, the fact that I have been helpless these last 4 weeks. The last time we saw each other we talked about 7 weeks from now and now as those weeks approach it is just a lost dream and wonder of what might have happened if we waited.

It hurts to write this right now, and I am falling apart thinking, I am a terrible person and how I treated her in the end of this all wasn't me and im sorry. how I wish things were as they once were, just seems like a fairy tale, a silly joke that ended up turning into something so much more. something that I'll never forget. For the first time ever I was actually happy and in love. that I would do anything for her even die for her. I never had to think with her I just did I always supported her and tried to keep routing for her even when her spirits were low. "Go 10EE Go!" ... and it hurts so much to have those feeling taken away from me to know no matter what I did, they never needed me.

I was so angry today, for all the wrong reasons, I still care about her so much and .. I want everyone to care about her too. She is a very special and unique person. Someone that isn't afraid to say no. I know one day she will accomplish everything she sets out to do.

I will stop ranting and complaining, but before I leave I just want everyone and of course you Lovely 10ee, "sweetheart' that I will never forget the amazing experiences I got to share with you these last six months,  you made me so happy and felt like the most luckiest guy in the world to have had a very special girlfriend. I will never forget helping you with everything and hope everything starts to look up with school and twitch and everything. I'll miss you so much, probably till the end of my days, because no one can replace you. Take care of yourself and don't forget to show that beautiful smile on streams. I Love you so much and will never stop loving you.

Kyle (mrbubbleskp)